Naomi81: Oh ok. I just briefly read the first couple paragraphs. Interesting and useful.

sh: it is nice to talk to someone who reads my site and is not a suicidal teen. i have had problems with them falling in love with me. or vice versa haha or both.. lol

Naomi81: Thanks

Naomi81: lol

sh: thanks to u to..

sh: now i am really thinking.. if u like to write and like my ideas i think we should be able to make some money together , spread my ideas and help pple

sh: how does that sound to u?

Naomi81: I can understand that...not that I am falling in love with you...but you seem very understanding and empathetic. That is very hard to come by.

sh: aw thanks : )

sh: and yeah i understand and feel so much empathy that it is painful.. i think u know that feeling too probably

Naomi81: That would be awesome! I have been thinking a lot about how I could stand on my own two feet and take care of my daughter.

Naomi81: I feel like that too

sh: and my heart *really goes out to the teens...

sh: well this could be very interesting...

sh: especially with your experiences in the church - i am an athesit .did u know?

Naomi81: Yes, I am sorry I need to get going. My husband just got here and my daughter is wanting me. I hope to chat more soon though.

sh: but i have a lot of christian readers. for a while at least til i offend them haha

sh: talk later then!

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Naomi81: And yes, I think I read that you are an atheist. I admire that. I'm not sure what I am right now. Agnostic with Christian influences? lol

Naomi81: bye and blessings to you...

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Naomi81: Hi

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Naomi81: Please tell me more about how you have offended your christian readers? What happened? What was said? What did they get offended about or couldn't quite see?

Naomi81: I am curious.

Naomi81: I feel intrigued, interested, wondering...

Naomi81: looking forward to talking to you soon

Naomi81: bye for now

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Naomi81: hi s

sh: i havent read ur mails yet. just came on..

sh: thanks for the pics...

Naomi81: ok do you want to read them first?

sh: im reading now.. u can talk if u want.

Naomi81: ok, I'm just getting some food for my dd

sh: thanks for not being scared off. and btw im not sared off by u or ur pics either

sh: just ur height haha

sh: 4 11... wow. i bet u got a lot of half pint jokes when u were young

Naomi81: Oh gosh yes

Naomi81: People liked to use me as an arm rest in high school

Naomi81: LOL

Naomi81: my family's pretty short

sh: i feel closet to u now than before ur mails... btw

sh: more attracted... *blushes

sh: and feels guilty

Naomi81: Yeah, that's ok

sh: so... whats on ur miind....i feel kind of anxious.. would like to hear more from u

Naomi81: I bet you pictured me in a very different way

sh: i need a lot of reassurance someone wont abandon me.. reject me

Naomi81: me too

sh: kind of. i figured u were like really overweight haha

Naomi81: Is that good or bad?

sh: and then i was gonna be in a tough position... if u know what i mean

Naomi81: lol

Naomi81: some men like bigger women

sh: p was overweight.

Naomi81: mmmmm

sh: nah. i like ones i can feel their ribs when we hug

Naomi81: Oh ok. I do feel a little overweight right now. I have gained probably about 10 lbs in the last few months because of stress and the separation.

sh: but i sound shallow probably lol

Naomi81: I am trying to be kind to myself, but I would like to lose a little.

Naomi81: I don't think that's shallow. You like what you like

sh: well i feel bad we are even talking about it this much. there are so many more important things. u know?

Naomi81: Yeah, but it's important. Maybe less important the more you get to know someone

sh: yeah. but thanks for sending me a pic. cuz that put to rest whether i was talkig to someone who there would be no way id be attracted to.. just in case things were to develop...

sh: so thanks. i didnt expecct it really. it was a nice surprise. i feel trusted

Naomi81: Yeah, I understand that.

sh: and it was nice to read the part about a crush. lol

Naomi81: I wasn't sure about it, but I

Naomi81: just went for it

Naomi81: lol

sh: i havent heard that word in a long time haha

sh: well thank u

Naomi81: One of them my profile pic on fb, so I'm sure if you googled me, you would come across it

Naomi81: you're welcome, I don't know quite what to say right now...

sh: i understand i kind of feel the same

sh: so lets sit here and say nothing

Naomi81: ok

Naomi81: lol

Naomi81: brb, gotta get my dd's noodles

Naomi81: I guess what I want to say is, I feel that I've been so open and vulnerable with you, becasue I feel safe with you. I think I sensed that or knew that reading your stuff on your site.

sh: thanks

sh: hug

Naomi81: hug

sh: what else...

Naomi81: I find that usually when I am open and vulnerable with someone, even when I say, I'm being vulnerable, it usually gets thrown back in my face.

sh: yeah.... hug again

Naomi81: Or I feel rejected, igrnored, misunderstood, unheard, uncared for...

sh: im glad that didnt stop u

sh: and probably invalidated

Naomi81: Yeah, so much invalidation, wow, that has been such a revelation in my life

Naomi81: After I had gone to the crises center after having a plan to take my own life back on Feb 7th, I was so glad I found your site. I really think that you helped save my life. Thank you for that.

sh: lets move here...http://us23.chatzy.com/357660804031A7

Naomi81: k