Ever sence I was five I knew I was very different from everyone, I could fight if I had to or if I was angry, but I didnt like it. I had a talk with a friend once and he asked me, "you know, even if you werent supposed to, whats the one thing you would do?" I simply replied, "love." he said "not only that but you'd protect people... its just you, people on the astral plain dont see you with wings and a halo for no reason... and they dont call you a guardian spirit for no reason... you like to protect people... I dont really think you should take place in fighting unless you have to." After a long while of thinking this over, I knew he was right. Sence then I have decided I want to become a heal/protect mage. I dont exactly look like one because I wear dark colors and talk like a drunk (alot) but I want to be one. I'm currently working on limiting my swearing (to when I'm angry or upset) and learning to work on my temper and how to handle bad situations. My first ever spirit guide was a wolf (she showed up when the very first hint of depression showed itself to me). She has always been there to talk to until recently. I think that as I realize more and more truth about myself and the spirit realm it becomes harder to talk to her like a child would an adult. I'm now beginning to try to make better connections with her. I think everyone deserves a chance at friendship and trust, and though some people are not good friends, they are good to keep as allies... I love to sing, dance, draw, write and more importantly, make people feel good... I love my mate dearly, and though I'm not positive, I think she is my soulmate.
Love to all my friends,
Otaka Walks-on-Fire |
