In life, our steps take us down many a path, some of our own choosing, some dictated by
fate. I believe that along these paths, you will meet people whose paths cross your own.
When that happens, a relationship will be formed. Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, Daughter, Son, Husband, Wife, Friend, Lover, Teacher. You could probably add others to
this list, but my beliefs state these are the important ones.
At the end of April 2003, i made a heartrending decision and ask for release from Master Ramos. I did this not on the spur of the moment, but after many months of agonizing thought, where i turned a blind, disbelieving eye to the truth.
I will always believe this Man was meant to cross my path. What i had hoped for was that He was meant to stay. What happen was that i learned a great deal from Him. And grew
in my submission, in the knowledge of my self, and the ways of the lifestyle i have choosen to live.
Master Ramos was a teacher in my life, a friend. For this, i thank Him. And wish Him the bestest of what life has to offer. May His path always rise before Him.
But Life is funny/sad like that. Now i have a new life, and for awhile i learned what it meant to be a submissive who walks alone. During that time, I had the opportunity to grow, to learn about "ME". I learned i'm as complex as the next person, a mixed bag of emotions,
traits, skills. Good and not so good.
I am an alpha sub. A mix bag of sub and slave, not all one or the other. I learned i can be submissive to All but slave to only one Man. I accepted the truth about myself. I need control and that is a good thing for me. I explored what i needed in a Dom/Master and found i had high standards, high expectations and learned that i will not settle for anything less. In that exploring, i also learned that my expectations and standards i lived and set for myself were also high.
Now the journey begins anew, new pathways are open before me. With luck and a bit of finger crossing, i just might take the correct one, recognize it, accept it, and with hope,
the right Dom/Master will intersect my path. Wish me luck!
fyre
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