"Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one"
[John Mayer, "Love Song for No One"]

Bought this CD. Little disappointed, but not by this song.

I've been feeling well. I've not made any real progress on the job front these past few days. I've been dragging my feet a little. In four years, I have never had a single week off - Monday to Friday - uninterrupted by being asked to drop in to work and do something, or being phoned and consulted about something. And last week, even after been laid off, I was messaged on MSN and asked about something, so it's still true. So this week is (assuming I'm not contacted tomorrow or Friday) my first week of uninterrupted vacation in four years. While I should be rushing about frantically looking for a contract, I'm taking the opportunity to just chill-the-fuck-out and try to relax a little. I'm not quite unwound yet; I've more unwinding to do. But I am feeling much better.

On the romantic front, I've been exchanging Emails and chatting a little with someone special. She seems quite interesting and nice (and I've seen a photo and she's knuckle-biting-oh-my-goodness pretty too!). I hope we meet soon and hit it off, and that it works out. But even if we don't, just knowing, or feeling, really, that she's still out there somewhere is something really important to me. I actually wrote a very troubled entry on just that subject a little while ago but didn't put it up. It was too confused and negative, and I didn't want it to blemish what I intend to be an honest but positive experience for me here. This journal is, in a way, as much about making my moods as it is about expressing them, or, as a friend of mine once put it, 'Are you discovering the truth about yourself, or manufacturing it?' ("A bit of both, I suppose." was my answer.) Perhaps I'll re-write it and post it some time. In any case, she seems really sweet and wonderful, and if it amounts to nothing, I've still enjoyed getting to know her a little. I'm really hoping it will work out though.

Haven't checked out Susan's and rejected it yet. Really should get around to that.

Forward march!