| Nags's Rant |
| November 16, 2007 Hey! What�s happening? It�s been way too long, almost 8 months since my last rant (and over 2 years since my last bug update). The update is close to being done but I don�t work on it consistently so that�s why it takes forever. Fucking work and video games get in the way. But that�s not what I want to talk about. What I want to talk about is why my clock says its 2am while yours says 11pm. That�s because I�m in Ohio and you�re not. Well you may be, but most likely you�re not. If you are you should call me up. Why am I in Ohio you may ask? The same reason I was here last over 5 � years ago (well not the same exact reason as my grandpa didn�t die again) but I am again here for a funeral. My great Aunt Helen died on Sunday at the age of 89. I was probably closer to her and one of her kids� family than any of my dad�s others aunts and cousins. She was the last of my dad�s aunts & uncles to go and she was also my dad�s godmother. But why am I here? I mean I�ve never come back here for any of the other great aunts or uncles funerals. There are a few reasons. The first off is that Aunt Helen was always really good to me. Any time that I came to Ohio she always had me over and usually I spent the night with my cousin Stevie (2nd cousin but really he�s closer to me than most of my 1st cousins). She was a good lady and I loved spending time at her house. Second off was the fact that my parents weren�t going to be able to make it. They already had flights booked for New Mexico to take possession of their house which is now almost done being built. Someone had to be here from the family. Third was that I hadn�t been back here since my grandpa died in April of �02 and that�s too long to go without seeing all the family I have back here. Last but certainly not least was the fact that two of Aunt Helen�s grand children Stevie & Kristen were there for me when my grandpa died and I wanted to be here for them. Like I said, for some reason I feel closer to them than I do to most of my first cousins. Maybe because we have common interests or because we�re so close in age (ages 21 & 22 respectively) but either way I do. And it�s been really good to see them and their parents which are more like an aunt and uncle to me than cousins. There are pluses to this trip as I�ve been able to miss 2 days of work and get paid for it (although I�m coming home on Saturday instead of Sunday because I need to get back for a meeting) and I�ll be able to watch Ohio State & Michigan in Ohio with legit Ohio State fans which will be amazing. But really the most beneficial thing to me has been being able to see a whole lot of family, not just the ones I�m closest with but also those who I wouldn�t even recognize if they were walking down the street as the family is so big out here. It has got me thinking though, why is it that the thing that makes us more thankful for what we have and life itself is death? Think about it, people near death always look back at their life and are more thankful for the things they had than they were in the past. People say life�s too short and things of that nature. Well why do we only say that when we�re in the presence of death. I know its cliche to say and even possibly ironic for me to say it but things in life are never as bad as they seem and we should be more thankful for things such as family, friends and good times. Also just realizing that it�s been 5 � years since I�ve been back here (I actually wrote one of my early site updates from Ohio then) how much things have changed. Back then I was a senior in high school and I mean the main things on my mind were girls and prom. Now it�s all so much more complicated. But things are also better than they were just 5 years ago. With only 2 or 3 exceptions I�m closer with all my friends now than I was back then and I even have a few more friends now than I did back then. It�s just weird to thing back on this kind of stuff (not counting one of those stupid MySpace 5 years ago bulletins which god knows I fill out). So I mean I don�t know, I just felt like putting thoughts down on virtual paper. But I�ll be back Saturday night for all of those that can�t wait. And don�t forget, there�s the last and probably biggest house lighting party ever just 8 days away now. So I guess in the end what I�m saying is that life�s too important to take everything too seriously and just think back on things and realize that things are better than they seem. Oh yea and GO BUCKS! Live The Dream Until Further Notice, Adam My Reply |