| Nags's Life Right Now |
| July 11, 2002 Hey. What�s Happening? Well I haven�t updated my site in almost 2 months (the longest period since I�ve started the page) so I decided to finally update it. Also now Nicole won�t tell me to update it anymore. Well since I last updated lots of things have gone on so this will probably be a long update. Well on with my life. Last update I wrote about the incident with Julie at her church and how depressed it made me. Well not much happened to change my depression about her. On her birthday I felt that it was time for me to tell her how I felt about her, if only for my friends� sanity. I think they were all getting sick of me debating wither or not I should tell her. Well I gave her a pair of Giants tickets (she said that she wanted to go to Pac Bell Park before she moved to BYU), a note, and the poem I wrote before Prom (Read the poem). I told her to call me and we�d talk if she wanted to and if she didn�t, well have a good summer and good luck in the future. Needless to say when the phone didn�t ring by 10PM I was getting kinda depressed. Then I got a popup on AOL IM saying I had an email and I was half joking with Happy on the phone that maybe its from her. Well it was. She said she had lost my number and had been trying to find it and even tried looking for my name in the phonebook, which was good for me because that meant she cared. She also said that she didn�t like the other Adam in that way but they were best friends and that he knows that she�s not into high school relationships. Then she said the words that I�ve heard way too much yet I know I�m not done hearing. This is a direct quote: "anyways.... um.... well to be totally honest, i'm not really interested in you like that. i think you're a really nice person, prom was way fun, and being just friends is dandy for me. i�m not really looking for a relationship right now." Well besides the prom part it�s just her saying what other girls have said before her and probably what many more will in the future. So I was kinda depressed for the rest of the week and some of the week after. I wrote a poem about it (wrote it in 4th period) and you can read it here. I didn�t have too much time to be depressed though because my last two weeks of high school were upon me and I was busy with the senior activities. The first thing was the senior breakfast/picnic, which was fun, but the best part was that we got our yearbooks at the breakfast. Of course that led to Mark, Eric, Grant and the rest of them finding out who �The Beast� was (inside joke) but oh well. At the picnic all we did was basically play sports. I played football, softball (4-5, 3HR for me), volleyball and then there was swimming & a BBQ. Two days later was the baccalaureate, which was way too long, but it was ok. All of Finals week was basically just a time for me to get my yearbook signed. I actually had a bunch of messages that I liked and I put some of the best ones up here. Four days later came the day that some people (like my parents) thought they would never see, my high school graduation. It seemed to go by fast and was all right. I got a lot of money from my family (some of them I�ve never heard about) and a digital camera from my parents. The night of graduation I went to Grad Night, which was held at Club Sport this year. I was looking forward to playing basketball for hours but was disappointed when we weren�t allowed to play basketball because they had a DJ on the court for dancing (which no one did). But instead I played racquetball for hours. It was fun but my arm hurt for the next couple days. The best part of the night was just hanging with people I knew I wouldn�t see too much after that night. The people I enjoyed staying around for the night were Kristy Laird & Terri Huynh. For some reason it seems like you never realize how many friends you actually have until your last few days of high school when you realize more people like you than you think and that even the people that you weren�t best friends with you are still cool with. These two fall under this category. Kristy and I had a joking relationship since freshman year but Terri I had only known for this year but it was so good spending one last night with them and all the other people like Chrissy, Big Z and Angelita. So for the first time in my life, I wished that I could just have one more year of school. Two days later was a party thrown at the Monarch Hotel by the parents of the group I hung out with for a good part of high school, Adam Rutherford, Joey Glushenko, Josh Phillips, Eric Lopez, Robert Hurtado, Grant Weathers and the little girl lover himself, Mark Barnett. It was cool because I got to see some of the people from grad night that I didn�t think I would see again like Kristy & Alison Harney. I also hung out with two people I hadn�t seen in some time, Rebecca Silsby & Rachel Smith. They are two of the coolest girls I have met and it was good spending the night with them. Finally Becca & Grant decided to start going out as they have only been flirting for a good part of high school. My first week out of high school was kinda boring because I was supposed to clean my room. And I mean a DEEP clean. All drawers, all shelves and everything else you can think of had to be cleaned. Well that�s too boring so I spent most of my time on the computer instead. That wasn�t necessarily a good thing either. I realized a couple things when I was on my computer. One was I still had feelings for Nicole even though I really don�t want to because my chances with her are as a good as finding leftovers at a Weight Watchers convention. The second thing I realized is that I am cursed. I�ve always suspected that I had a curse but I finally realized that I do. I am cursed with the �friend zone� curse. That is the curse were no matter how hard you try and what you do, you will always end up being the girls� friend instead of their boyfriend. I realized this when Nicole told me I was like an older brother to her. Now guys, be honest, doesn�t that suck. Don�t get me wrong, I�m glad that I met Nicole and that we are as close as we are but still. No guy wants to be called an older brother by the girl she likes. But I did realize that I am lucky to have friends that I am extremely close to and can talk about anything to them. But still� I actually think that the best part of that week was that I got my one friend (a girl not a guy, I swear I�m not gay) to promise me that if the world was ending and we only had 5 min left to live, that I would get at least 30 seconds of her time (at least I�m honest). I have sat by the window a lot since that day just hoping to see a big ball of fire head toward earth. No luck yet. The next week I had 4 wisdom teeth taken out so that week was a waste. All I did was eat little, play Playstation 2 and watch DVDs. Not much else you can do with fatass cheeks. Last week I went camping at the most boring place in the world, if you don�t have a boat that is. All I did was swim in the lake and get sunburned; there was nothing else to do. Hell I was so bored one say that I read 400 pages in that one day. Happy & I wanted to go back with his boat but his parents put a veto on that request. This week has also been boring. I have soccer practice now so that takes up my time from 1-5PM (if you include the after-practice shower). Well actually I did have a very interesting night on Tuesday that concluded with us getting pulled over by �Dublin�s finest.� Due to the fact that its hard to explain in written format and not everybody needs to know, I�m not going to type out what happened. If you want to know you can IM me or email me. My stuff is on the front page. Well that�s it for now. Get a hold of me over the summer because I�ve been hella bored and I need to be around good people to get things off my mind because there is something else that�s bothering me but for the sake of one of my friendships, I�m declining to state what it is. Take care of yourselves and have a nice day. Oh and remember to sign my guestbook at the bottom of the main page. My Pics - www.picturetrail.com/nags Prom Pics - www.picturetrail.com/nagsprom Adam More updates & revamps to other parts of the site coming within the next few weeks |