| Nags's Life Right Now |
| April 5, 2002 Hey. What's Happening? Well I'm really bored and pissed off so I'm deciding to vent about my life and how crappy its been. This isn't going to be a normal update but you'll get the point. Basically I'm just getting some feelings off my chest and acknowledging people who have helped me and never get the recognition. I'm an asshole and a bad friend. Why you ask? Because I hate all of my friends. Again you may ask why? Its because they all have girlfriends and dates to prom and guess who doesn't. If you said me you'd be correct. And the person who I like says she doesn't know why she doesn't like me (although I could probably think of a lot of reasons). People keep asking me if I have any friends that would go to prom with me. Well they probably would if they all weren't in long term relationships. My 3 best girlfriends all have mentioned the word marriage when it comes to their boyfriends so I think they'll be going to prom with their boyfriends. So I'll be the only one of my friends sitting at home on Prom Night. Actually (hopefully) I'll be working so I won't be able to be home and depressed the whole night. I have to wonder why somebody would be an asshole and ask me this question: "Why do you have a site about your life because you don't have one?" That's easy. Since I don't have a life I have plenty of time on my hands to do other things. At least I didn't wreck my car (I'll probably regret saying that but I'm pissed thinking about it so fuck it). I have to give props to Petey. He was the only one who emailed me about the site and even though I sometimes questioned his play on the field (the times where'd he get 5 fouls in 3 min) I never questioned his heart. He proved to me that he's a man and a real good person and for that I have to say thanks Petey. I also have to give a shout out to my white brother (inside joke) Big Z. I've known him since 1st grade and we've never been the best of friends but we were always cool at school. He's just always been there for me and for some reason I've never realized it till recently and I just have to say thanks to him because I know I can count on him to come through if I need something. A third shout out to Eric. On my only day off on Wednesday nobody was home and I couldn't find a damn thing to all day. All of my friends weren't home or couldn't do anything. I wanted to go to the As game and I remembered that Eric gave me his phone number because we're talking about going to hell of games this year. So I called him and left a message. He called back around 5 and said that he'd be over in like 30 min and we'd go. I'm thankful that he wanted to go because I got out of the house for the first time during break (not counting work) and I had fun. Most of the fun was watching the 3 fights that broke out in the stands but still it was fun. Another thanks goes to Grant. Him and I had some problems last year (a lot of them). Part of the reason was that we had 3 periods together and I'd get on his nerves with my annoying personality and he'd respond to it. Since soccer though he's been there for me probably more than anyone else. Whenever I have a problem I can talk to him and most advice he's given me hasn't failed and if it did it was because I messed it up. I have him to thank for 2 new friends so for that I can't thank him enough. The last thanks goes to Sean Steen. He was the last person I'd ever think that I would ever relate to but him and I have a lot more in common that I thought. He actually tried to raise my self-esteem but he couldn't do it. Wasn't his fault, I'm just stubborn as hell when I'm depressed and I don't want to think positive about myself. For some reason I think I'll be talking to him a lot more over the coming weeks than I ever had before. I hate my work. I get a week off from school & two other people at my work decide they want the week off so they decide to give me 32 hours or work. But I also love my work because I don't know if I would have lived through this week if I had to stay home everyday. Life is taking a bigger toll on me than it has anytime recently and at least it gets my mind off hell of all my shit. Well that's all I got to say right now. Next time will probably be bad because report cards come out in 2 weeks and its not going to be a pretty day in the Nagy household. Till next time, have a good day. Adam |