Your Favorite Actor
Self explanitory......written on December 3, 2004.
I'll go on and just say it
And do what's expected of me
By holding nothing back
And this might come as a shock
But I love myself
Even though I hate my life

It's like your favorite actor
Starring in a horrible movie
You wish it would end
And that he'd move on to bigger things

No blame can be passed onto any one person
All the blame is passed to you
You being everyone I've said hi to
To those who forget to say bye to me
From those I've wanted to kill
To those I would kill for
And everyone in between
To those who love me
And those who don't love me back

My glass is half full
But still empty
As the sum of the parts
Is supposed to equal the whole
But my sum doesn't even make a semi-circle

All that's left is a wondering
This time it's not in my head
But in the head of the ones that read this
Wondering if you're part of the problem
Or a band aid that hides the wounds
Could you be the one that completes my life
Or do you just delay that from happening

These answers aren't for me to tell
For I lost my ability to see a while ago
I went blind, I guess that old tale is true
You can have too much of a good thing
Go re-read the last three lines, it's a sick joke
Like being the greatest guy girls have known
And being here on a Friday night all alone
That's not a jab at anyone
For we all live our lives for ourselves
Even the martyrs

Maybe that's what I am
A martyr for every good guy out there
For the ones that look for something special
And grab onto it with a death grip
Till it crumbles like when you wake up from a good dream
Just to realize that you're no better off than before

The question remains though
Is that better then holding on loosely
Only to watch it be stolen from you
By one that is undeserving

But being your favorite actor
I have to shrug it off and put on a face
One that while not untrue
Doesn't show the real story

So hope that the director flips the script
Sometimes in the near future
And that your favorite actor
Stars in a blockbuster movie
Or at least a successful independent
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