(AN- this is just a short little fic about how Usagi could have felt about the
situation with Mamoru after the end of season five. My CALM class inspired it...
I’m taking it by correspondence and the section on negative and positive
labels made me think about how Usagi and Mamoru’s relationship has always
been based on a label they never really had a chance to say ‘no’ and
I think that they might not even realize they are living that kind of relationship...
But anyway this is my fic enjoy.)
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{The labels that live our lives.}
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That kiss...
It seemed so indifferent. Like didn’t care to be there with me at that
moment.... Or ever....
It was so forced. Like I had to be there that it was what I had to do... What
I was being forced to do... Forced to continue.... Always for the future never
for myself....
That’s what I though and all of a sudden I realized I wanted to be anywhere
else....
No, wait that was a lie... I wanted to be with Seiya. Wherever he was....
With Seiya I didn’t feel indifference, I felt belonging.... Like I had
come home....
But would I ever belong again.... I’ll never see Seiya again....
“Destined lovers”
In class a few days after the kiss in the park, I was listening to my CALM teacher
drawl on when something she said caught me attention....
“Sometimes labels like ‘She’ll never amount to anything or even
She’s so pretty can have a negative effect. The person being labeled can
feel them to be true and feel trapped by the words. Even good labels can do
this....”
She continued on but all I could think was how many times I’ve been told
that me and Mamoru are “destined lovers”....
Was a label running my life all this time....
Did I love him at all.....
Did I even like him.....
I started out hating him until I found out about the past.... And ever since
I’ve only known his love.... But was the love real or was it some residual
trace of the past that was reborn within us....
Was that all this was....
I don’t know....
But I know what I need right now....
Him.....
Seiya....
My Seiya....
My love....