Women are insane...

They are to worried about their appearance.

They are affraid they do not have enough.

They are worried they are not doing "it" right.

They are selfish and/or greedy.

They are to worried about what others think of them.

Then the next moment...

They are sweet, generous, selfless, gracious, happy, spunky, and sometimes even sexy (when they want to be).

Of course all of this can happen in less than five (5) minutes flat with no outside provocation of any kind.

I now know that all I have been looking for in a woman is a appreciative, content individual to share my life with. The forbidden fruit of happiness. The unobtainable. A dream of a dream.

I bet for example that ALL the men that read this (gay guys included) will see the first line and think "no shit" and read on; however, all the women who read this will get stuck on that first line and it will jade them to the very end of this writing no matter how much love for the female condition I put into it. That is the crux of the matter.

I suppose you could say that I don't know what I'm talking about due to a lack of experience, since I have only loved 4 women in my 32 years and had one crush in junior high school. I have dated very little and have never enjoyed the bar scene so I do not hang out there at all. Bars are facade factories where alcohol allows people who cannot be "themselves" to pretend that they actually are even though they are only pretending to be what they think everyone else wants them to be. I was steady with my high school sweetheart for 3 years (who cheated on me (because she was drunk)). Then a while later I hooked up with my ex-best friend's ex (never a good idea (she had found out he was cheating on her)) who I thought was "the one". I married Brandie with the intention of being with her for the rest of my days. But alas she too was uncontent. So after being married for 7 years we went our separate ways. But not before she decided that "it was easier to lie". She also made sure I knew how malicious she was at heart by trying to steal money from our friends. Now I am "just friends" with the one woman I have met so far that seemed like an actual soul mate. We have everything in common. I mean everything! We fall madly in love, then in the middle of the greatest romance I have ever had, she says she just wants to be friends. Ouch. Why? She doesn't know either. I think she is just affraid. Takes two though, so who am I to force the issue. I am going to stay single for a bit and get my new job under control then continue my search for Mrs. Right. I decided long ago that Ms. Rightnow is NOT who I'm looking for. As for the love of my life #3? She is just a gal I knew once, but we never had sex or anything like that. Strictly platonic.

The adventure continues!

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Amendment...

Well I got back together with Tiffany after hooking up with another woman. Its seems to me that Tiff suffered fear of loss, and wanted me to ditch the other woman. Who had a very cool personality (a rarity in women these days). Then 2 months later Tiff did the same damn thing again. My buddy is fond of saying, "If you do the same thing exactly the same way expecting different results, that is insanity." Well he's right. Now she wants to be friends, and her whole personality kinda bugs me. She is way to selfish to be my friend. I tried to tell her, but as usual she doesn't hear a single thing I say. Funny because she was the one complaining about that. I find it very interesting that women always end up wanting to have a mediator, but when you say "HELL YA! Thats a great idea!", they drop the subject all together and run away. HA. Points an ugly finger I know, but facts are facts. I am 2 for 2 so far and my buddies are in the same boat. Funny how you aren't affraid of mediation when you have nothing to hide.

Anyway, life is back on track with the woman out of the picture and I am feeling good again. Oh yeah, I got money in my pocket again too! LMAO!

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