I'd smoke a cigarette

If I hadn't quit

I could sure use one right now

I'll sit here with shaking hands

Ruined plans

Ruminating on just how

I've lost everything

For one little thing

Some spur of the moment mistake

Now I'm living with regret

And God I want just one cigarette

What's the use of living long

If you're living on your own

He's already good and gone

My fault I'm all alone

All alone in the ashes

I'm craving nicotine

And strong caffeine

But that would mean leaving my bed

And I'd rather be asleep

If it gives me

Five minutes outside of my head

Where I wouldn't see your face

Every single place

Hear your voice in the back of my mind

There's nothing much left to do

But start learning to live here without you

Maybe there's no point in going on

Maybe I'll give up the fight

He's already good and gone

I should burn this whole house down tonight

And sit here, in the ashes