William Shakespeare
Emotions
It's whoever's there....whoever... Whoever feels like being sweet to me...because he's hardly ever there for me.
Why can't someone take me in? Someone...dashing and daring, yet sweet and tranquil on the inside....with beautiful eyes...dark silky hair..My only dream to be forever wasted on someone else's selfish wants and desires.
Just for someone of that nature...to place their arms around me, and hold me...and to feel their presense inside myself.....I can imagine how the passion would flow to my head all too quickly...and just sweep me away.
It's all there! Everything I've ever felt....is locked inside...waiting for someone to come along....someone I can pour my everything into. That special someone.
It awaits...but when will it be set free? When will this someone finally come to rescue me from this painful and all too lonely dwelling that I endure daily?
But where is he? He's nowhere to be found within my sights. His beauty, so calm and mellow....yet overcomes me like nothing else possibly can. His kind spirit, his will to be alive....It all adds up...but where is he? Does he exist? Does he even know who I am....or is he even meant to know?
It feels that you want someone so bad....yet you've never met them, or maybe you have and don't realize....and you know that they're out there....waiting...to come to you, and bring you peace.
Oh joyous day, what fate awaits me on that bright morning? What shall seal my fate forever? Whom shall it be that rescues me?
Does a day await me when it all falls into place? It all comes together...and I indulge in this pleasure that has been poured upon me. Why? Why must I wait?
Have you ever known? It's there..right in front of your very eyes...yet it's too far out of reach. You wonder, do they feel the same way? Is what I'm feeling meanlessing? Will it fade, or will it last?
He's calling out to me, yet he recieves no answer from me. I am afraid. Afraid of the pain that awaits me farther down the road. Afraid of the hurt that will once again overcome me. Afraid....
of being...alone.
Does fear keep me from gaining this most unworthy treasure? But how will I ever know if his longing is the same? Does he long to hold me? Caress me......someday...somehow.
Somewhere down this path..he waits for me..with his arms open. His blood, so filled with
passion. His eyes, so filled with desire. His heart, so filled with love for something he has
yet to discover.
But he sees me, in his dreams. I know....I know! I see him! And he tells me what he feels...
Yet, his face isn't so happy. His eyes have a glow that I'd never imagined would be there..
Is he so full of passion that it overcomes him? Maybe he isn't capable of feeling anything
else in a moment like this.
This breath of life. This thrill of excitement. He brings it all to me. To ME, it's all too amazing. But, it's ME that he sees not inside of himself.
Am I worthy? Will the future hold the escape way........Will the future enable me to escape
from the reality that I now know as.........Lonliness?
What a terrible feeling to consume one's well-being. To feel so lost, to be so confused.
Though it consumes me with it's darkest spells, and erases all my happiness away, I live
on. I live for him, I wait for him. Rescue me! Oh, my precious knight! Take me away...
Take me to where you are. Let your eyes serve as a sword....A sharp blade piercing into
my soul. And let all the lonliness drain from me. Like blood drains from an unhealing wound.
And I'll be all right. I'll make it out safely. Sheltered, by the strength of your arms. Carry me
away. And bring me inside of you. Let my well-being be, just that, well! And if my light
awaits down the road, please, let that light be you. I need this sense of security.
And I need.....You. Is this love that I experience when I hear your voice? Or maybe just
infatuation too deep to explain? It's all too complicated.....or maybe it's just me.
One day I will uncover the truth. The truth about me, about you. About us. Will we ever
become one? What fate awaits us? Only time will tell. And that, is something, which can
never be questioned. Which can never be doubted by either one of us. So now, I wait.
And longer I hold onto.......you. Though, you aren't there. And I wonder when you will be.
And when you'll awake me from this terrible nightmare of lonliness that I experience.
I now wait.....wait for you....to save me.
~Cynthia Marie Graham~