Cold Reality
I look into my heart,
And there you are,
Right by my side,
Yet something's still missing,
The glow isn't there like it used to be,
And you're touch doesn't quite feel the same,
Somewhere in the middle of all this,
You fell in love with me,
But how?
That; I'll never understand.
You say you can't live without me,
Hey baby, it's not all my fault,
I'm falling down to my knees,
To open up to you,
To feel something;
Something that I haven't felt in almost years,
It seems so different,
From the way it felt before,
Maybe this is wrong,
Or maybe it's just me,
Deep down inside,
I do hope you understand all this nonsense,
Alone here within someone else's presence,
It feels to strange for me to handle,
Falling for somebody else,
But maybe this is wrong,
Or maybe it's just me,
But deep down inside,
Please, understand,
Help me know what I feel,
I'm too confused to think,
Don't think me a fool,
For feeling the way I do,
And not knowing where to turn,
Not knowing what to feel,
Not knowing what to say to you,
In a moment like this,
I feel so decieved,
I feel so deprived,
Pushed to the side and lied to,
And opening myself up for it to happen again,
It seems so dumb of me,
To try and see you in that way after all this time has passed,
And after I was the last one to laugh,
At you,
For being untrue,
The situation,
Now not so different,
But more to put on the line than before,
You opened my eyes to the real world,
And showed me how emotions can take over one's body,
Can take over all self control that was even ever there,
But reality turned colder,
And our time together got older,
And somewhere between that something went too wrong,
Too wrong to fix,
Too wrong to explain to me,
And it seemed too wrong to try and look into your eyes,
It was all gone,
Nothing left to be found,
I lied to myself,
And told myself I could go on,
That I'd be fine,
And you'd be the same person tomorrow,
But no, the reality got colder,
And our time together got older,
Until it all turned to stone,
Only to be found frozen in our memories,
Times we'll surely never forget,
Both good and bad,
And I look at you and see them,
And it all runs through my head,
How I miss it,
How I hate that it ever happened in the first place,
But one day, we'll see,
What becomes of you and me.