Hello again. This page was made for uncertain reasons. Be it I am bored and wish to speak or just want everyone to know the true me and who I am and what I strive for, I don't know. But you may find this page a little relieving, insightful, or even just a bit of help. Be it what you will, It's who I am. Please be advised now, that this page may end up being quite long, as all it is, is rambling's of my thought's and feeling's.

Well for starter's, If you noticed the title of this page "One wish, One hope, One feeling..." It is true, this page will tell all. I wont hold back nor do I wish to. I have met many people online who will say they are telling you thing's that they have told no one before, or that it is truely who they are or how they feel. And yet I have seen them contradict themselve's, blantenly lie, Or just absolutely lead you the wrong way.
I on the other hand believe in trust, honesty, and true being. I don't want to mislead anyone, I do not wish to lie to anyone, I hold trust as high as can be. Maybe that's why I have been hurt so much in the past, I trust people too much at time's I let them cloud my vision with misbelief. With time I have grown to see these thing's in people and have become better at seeing the outcome before it happen's.

As some of you know, I am a very unusual person. My thoughts, my view, my style, everything about me seems different. But deep down, that's who I am and who I wish to be. I have many great friends online as well as offline. And they all know I am different.

As with most of you all out there. I do have one wish in life. And as it is as most for true love. My wish is a little more indepth. Not only do I wish for true love. But I wish for true happiness. Not only in myself but the one I am with and they one's I am around. I feel that not only should I be happy, but my friend's as well. You can't truely be happy unless those around you are as well.
We all look for that special someone that is to be the one. Many of you may have found that one, many may still be looking. Some have given up hope. I for one believe I have found that one. And as you may have noticed. I even made a page for her. Even though we are no longer together at this time. I still hold the same feeling, that one day we might be together again. Maybe it will happen, Maybe it won't. But my feeling's will alway's be there, and will never change. For those of you have given up, please don't look the other way. You never know when that "one" will be there. You may have already seen them, they may be sitting beside you now as you read this. You never know untill you try. Sure it's a long and hard trip, believe me I know. But don't close your eyes to destiny. We are all destined to find them one day. So why make things harder than need be.
Now for my view's on these and other thing's. You may find yourself wondering how in the hell I get by, And still live to tell them. Well let's just say I am strong at heart and I believe in myself. I see life as many may not. Not only do I see if for what it is, I see it for what it hide's. Many point's are often overlooked, mearly because some can't be bothered to use thier mind's and think about what they are seeing. Many would rather stick to one thought about something, and will argue with you up and down that they are right. Me on the other hand. I see things in all ways possible to me. I keep an open mind about everything. I mean how can you go on in life and think on one track. The answer is simple. You can't, you have to accept that everyone has different views, belief's, and thought's.

I also see our live's as without meaning other that to fulfill what is meant to be for each and everyone of us. We all have a set path in live. No matter what we do to get off this path, no matter how hard we try. We will always be back to the path were meant to take. Be it that our destiny is meant to be full of dead end road's, and hurtfull experience's, we cannot get out of it. My life has been full of them, from close family death's , close friend's deaths to badly ended relationship's, and from drug's to alcohol. I've been through it all. And yet I am still here to tell about it. I treat every experience i am faced with as a learning one. I learn from it and take it with onto the next. And with that experience I am able to get through each and every test of life I am faced with.

Now ask yourself this. What is it you wish for in life? What are your dream's, your ambition's, what motivate's you to do what you do? If you can't answer these, then there is a problem. Not with you. Not with your life. But with what you live for. You need to look within' yourself and find your true being. Not only because it everyone destiny to know themself, but as well to aid you in understanding who you are and why you do what you do. Once you have accomplished this, you will not only feel better about yourself. But of those around you, thing's you do, every thought. Everything in your life will be viewed on a much higher plain.

I would like to take this time now to thank three very important people that have made me who I am today. Two of which are my very best friend's in the world.
Sara and Fiona. You two have told me these thing's time and time again, it is now forged in my mind, my thought's, and my dream's. You two hold a place in my heart and will do so for the rest of my time.

And last and diffently not least. Mel, Not only have you been the most influiential person in my life, but also the one to have shown me how to be myself. Show my true being, and not to be afraid of what other's may think or say. You will forever be held close to me. I have the utmost respect for you. You may not know this but it is true. I will forever remember you for who you are, I will take you in my thought's and prayer's, for the rest of my life. I thank you for everything you have ever done for me. I will be forever in your debt.

Well for now I will leave it at that. Be it that what you have just read, has helped your or not I hope it at least has given you some insight as to who I am, and what I stand for. Thanks for your time.



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