"Unbreakable Ties"
The car door closed with a thud behind me,
As I stood mesmerized by the swell and fall
Of people swarming around me like bees in a hive,
The buzz of voices filled my ears and beat inside
My head, but yet I could not hear a thing.

I stood in a crowd, yet I could have stood alone,
Faltering at my step between the multitude of new
Possibilities that lay ahead, and the happy memories
Of moments lived before that had attached themselves
To me like leeches, not wanting to be replaced by the new.

As I walked down the worn path, I knew I would not feel
The happiness I felt before with my friends beside me.
The silent walls stared blankly at me, taunting my frustration
And sorrow, walls that would have echoed the laughter
And security, had they been the spectral walls of the past.

My blissful little world of confidence and assurance
Was slowly crumbling down to the ground, along with
My conviction that all would remain the same, with
Each step I took, as my spirit felt weary of the worries
And woes of starting all over again in a place so distant.

My mind reached back into its depths, grasping blindly,
For anything it could get a hold of to brace it, any old
Haunting memories, so ghostly and seemingly deathly,
I would have gladly given up life to join them, to be
Part of the dear camaraderie, the sure place I had among them.

My heart skipped a beat, as I faced all I feared,
The final determining factor of my courage to face reality,
Though stale and tasteless it seemed. I held my breath,
As I swung the door open and took a hesitant step into my future,
The first class of the day, the first frightening day of school.
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