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Harm nodded guiltily and Mac got up and padded into the kitchen, starting a pot of coffee and waiting for it to drip down into the pot before making two cups and bringing them into the living room.
�We haven�t slept together yet, if that�s what you�re asking.�
She curled up at one end of the couch and looked at Harm for a minute before she spoke. �You�re right. For the past few months I thought that maybe you and I were finally� I don�t know. Getting back to the way things were in the beginning. Before Paraguay and Australia, before you went back to flying, before I left JAG for the deceptively un-glamorous civilian life�� she trailed off, knowing that he knew what she was trying to say.
�Back when our friendship was the most important thing,� Harm said softly.
�We haven�t slept together yet, if that�s what you�re asking.�
�Exactly,� Mac nodded. �And I�m not going to lie and tell you that I�m not hurt by how you�ve been pulling away since Mattie got hurt, but I can�t help but think that if I had taken that call from you while I was in San Diego things would be better between us right now.� She took a sip of her coffee but found it hit her stomach like a cannonball and she set the cup down on the coffee table. �And I hate that the reason I didn�t take that call was the fact that I wanted to spend time with Vukovic.�
Even though he had been the one to force the conversation, Harm really hadn�t been prepared to hear Mac say that.
�We� Vukovic and I had a� uh� a moment, I guess you could say. We were talking and he made his intentions very clear. I was� flattered�� Mac admitted, finding the words harder to get out than they had been to realize, and that was definitely saying something, �but other than an inkling of physical attraction that I can�t seem to deny, there�s nothing there. Certainly not something worth risking my career over, and definitely not something worth risking my relationship with you over,� she said softly.
�We haven�t slept together yet, if that�s what you�re asking.�
He had to ask. He wished he didn�t feel that way, but he had to ask. �Then� if it�s not worth the risk� why �yet�?� Harm asked.