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My Love and MyTorment

My Love and My Torment - Was my first Poem wich turned in to a drawn out story of my Relationship w/ my now X-Boyfriend, that I was going out with when I wrote it.

You've Left Me Alone - A Short and Simple Poem Wich is about my X as well. This is going to be published in S.A.M.

Denial - Longer Poem more focused on conflicts

Dont Hate Me Cuz Im Right - If Your gonna read just one of these poems Read this one because its my absoulute favorite but has some "BRUTAL" intentions.

Live Through - Not up yet I don't feel like gettin up off my ass and typin it out and wat not. This one was also published by S.A.M.

Poems or Writings ;

My Love and My Torment (see above)

Denial

Live Through

Dont Hate Me Cuz I'm Right

Contact Info:

My Hot Friend Chester Felt The Need to be Included

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Email:

You've Left Me Alone

Songs :

Mocking Me

Living Entrapt

Shellydoll90

XxTheMGaGXx

LpLover0910

MyLoVeAndToRmEnT

Screen Names:

What Started it all...

About Me.





			My Love And My Torment Lonely Always Wondering, is it even worth this? This pain is constant now, only ceising when I am with you. Your Past. Our Future? My logic has become twisted now, contorted because of you. I could do better than you. But your points of view have cut my own in two. Wandering in my own thoughts, Footsteps echoing in the dark abyss of my own confusion. You are my first, But to you am I just a second within a minute? Your's is a surreptitous past How am I to know whats happened then? I dont know what to do, can I even believe in you? I cant convince my heart to listen to my own reasoning Awkward silences filled with my drifting thoughts and your emptiness towards me A month alone with out you in my life. Torment. Memories and dreams aren't enough. Conflicts have risen inside me Rending, and Vicious, constanly debating you. Thoughts of you delve into my mind like a knife. When you tell me you love me you dont know me You dont know my soft self. When I'm kicked and Bleeding. Knocked down only by piercing tearing words, That set off an internal spiralling of question and self-doubt On the surface I remain cool, Calm, . . . Laughing. But to be bleeding on the inside is most fatal Those words will bite at my ankles sinkning in as a dog would, Never Leaving my Thoughts But to allow you to see this? No, It remains repressed and Builds up. Unpredictible outlashes of my anger, Fleeting fits of Distraught emotions unleashed on unwary souls. Only You can antagonize my soul and be so Oblivious about it, Only i can peel through your flesh, Unravel your concealed complications Only I can See beneath the pointless charades you put in front of me. I know what lies in the very marrow of your bones, What you are really like. But not a wind of whisper can be heard of it. Because then I own an entierty of you no one knows of, as long as its encased within my minds confines. Jealousy and vain possesion , You called me perfect once. Yet you seem to be unaware of these flaws lying at my own core, It Splinters through me like the veins in a fractured mirror escape over its smooth face, when you mention her "Just a friend", you declare casually "yeah, I kno", I pretend, Shading my true feeling Jealousy floods my innermost thoughts, bursting through my barrier; my trust in you. Consuming me. But above all else it paves my doubt's foundation But I wont permit you to know this, to view me as paranoid, impotent, . . . childish? No. That shall NEVER Aspire.

		Updates And WatNots: Hey You Guys It's been about a month since I bothered writing in here. Since then I've got about 8 different writings done. I started to write a song the other day and sum how It turned in to a rap since I waz listening to High Voltage while writing it. But now I've got sum shit goin on and as soon as I get control of my computer and have enuff time to type it all out I'll get sum more random reading material 4 all you Motha Fuckas!!! Yeah I got a pic 2 cuz nessa's Mom has a BAD ASS CAMERA!!