| I would like to dedicate this page to my little saint in heaven, Hailey Melancon. She entered heaven above on December 15, 1999. She was 3 years 7months old when she entered that beautiful place. That day that she left our arms and entered God's kingdom...we lost a part of ourselves as well as her. When you lose a child, a part of you dies. You are never the same person as you were before. Anyone who hasn't lost a child will never be able to comprehend the pain and suffering you endure everyday. You wake up and put on that fake smile to make everyone else feel as if you are okay. Its not that simple. Yes, you might get distracted by simple things, but the truth of the matter is you are hurting deep inside and it is screaming to come out. One of the hardest things that any mother or father has to deal with everyday is waking up to the sound of pitter patter on the floor and know deep in your heart that she isn't there with your other children. It took us so long to get used to the fact that she isn't here in physical presense anymore, but she is definately here in spiritual presense. We can feel her all the time. If I could go back and ask god to take me instead of my precious child, I would do it in a millisecond. I have lived my life, and I have served my purpose and that was to give birth to three beautiful children. She was only 3 1/2 years old! She had a life long destiny to fulfill and I feel that she and I were cheated out of so much. She will never be able to have fun with her high school friends, never be able to talk on the phone as teenagers do. She will never find that special person to spend the rest of her life with, and never give me beautiful grand babies, and gosh that hurts almost as much as her not being here now. Its just not fair that my child had to leave this earth, while there are children out there without families. They have no food, shelter, and most of all a family who loves them like Hailey did. She had everything she ever wanted. Why my baby? Why not a child that was suffering? I just don't understand. I hope you can get some insight on what a bereaved family goes through everyday, because I would never want you to have to go through what it is we're going through... |
