that's me, that is. fear.
my astrological chart [surprisingly accurate!]
my two indulgences are music and fashion. music is what i want to surround myself with in life. i want to discover new bands for a living. nearly all my friends are people i've met through music - i don't mean that in an arsey "yah such n such from so-n-so label" way - my friends are people i've met at gigs, people i've gotten talking to on messageboards, people who are as mad on music as i am. i paint and draw a lot, even that revolves around music - i draw people with guitars, people in front of mic stands, people lit by strobes. i love the imagery and iconography of rock n roll - the neon colours of the spotlights at gigs, the way brixton academy looks when it's full and the lights are flailing around, the energy onstage during a gig, the mix of people you get at gigs. it all amazes me. i guess i love the romance of it all. check the stuff page for a general idea of my taste in music. i'm kinda into everything.
i've always been mad on fashion. my own style is..well i don't have one. i've been everyone, worn everything - and i never throw clothes away. i love the theatricality of dressing up, becoming another character, yet always myself. i love colour, dramatic shapes, unusual fabrics. i guess my style is a mixup mishmash thing; i like to take sophisticated things and wear them in a punky way, or wear grungy things with the utmost class. yeah i know, it's been done before by everyone, it's not original anymore, but i don't really care - my style reflects me and that's more important than striving for a false, contrived sense of "individuality" that frankly hasn't existed since MTV started announcing profits.
at one point i wanted to be a designer. i gave up on that idea because i can draw and design but i can't sew too well, and because much as i love beautiful clothes and the glamour of the fashion industry, i hate the snippy, empty, cliched, recycled nature of it; everything about it is so pretentious and self-absorbed. i love fashion but so many people in The Industry seem to utterly lack a sense of humour - particularly in the field of fashion writing. they talk about "witty" and "ironic" clothes, but they completely lack anything in the way of wit or irony. which kind of defeats their argument, doesn't it? music is more exciting than fashion anyway.