Poetry Two

All we want is a headrush.
All we want is to get
out of our skin for a while.
We have nothing to lose
because we dont have anything.
Anything we want anyway.
We used to hate people.
Now we just make fun of them.
Its more effective that way.
And all we are waiting for,
is something worth waiting for.
Lets stop saying "Dont Quote Me"
because if no one quotes you,
you probably haven't said a thing
worth saying.
We fear that Pop Culture is the only
culture we're ever going to have.
We dont run Washington,
and no one really does.
Ask not what you can do for your country,
but what your country did to you.
So what do you want?
You want to be famous and rich and happy,
but your terrified you have nothing
to offer this world.
Nothing to say, and no way to say it,
but you can say it in three languages.
Desire is not an occupation.
You are alternately thrilled and desperate,
sky-high and FUCKED.
Lets stop praying for someone to save us
and lets start saving ourselves.
Quit whining you haven't done
anything wrong,
because frankly, you haven't done much of
anything.

Remember Me

I awake.
My eyes dewed in the sandman's tears.
The wind, from an open window bustles through
my hair.
I inhale the sweet essence of your perfume over
the flowered fragrant air.
Instantly I taste the saltiness of your sweat
upon my lips!
Your RADIANT image BURNS into my mind!
My heart beats hard against my chest!
I reach out to touch you, but your presence is
just, an
Illusion......
The dark, cold, emptiness of my room reminds me
that I am
alone...
My face becomes wet as the sandman's tears turn
into my own.
Yet, my heart remains warm with the knowledge
of your remembrance

A Dream

It�s like a dream.
No end and no beginning, Just now.
Is there a then?
Was there a now?
Where is here?
You are here with me, in that dream.
But I do not know where.
It�s like a dream, but where can we be?
I here your voice, its like an angel crying.
For you are the angel, with wings of glory.
My angel.
There is no choice; reality is not among us.
Was there a choice?
Did you choose your wings, your mission?
I hear your voice again, but what are you saying?
There's no choice, but to follow and see if its you that's baying.
I see a bridge.
A bridge that does not exist.
Where does it lead?
Where do I go?
I hold a candle.
A candle of evil, but white to confuse.
A candle, that lights my way.
But which way do I go?
Your voice is all around me.
I feel your warm presents, but you are nowhere.
Evil's flame flickers.
The burning flame, a flame of Danger.
Danger before, and Danger yet to come.
Could this be a warning?
But for now, the flame brightens the way.
But what does lie ahead of me?
Should I go on?
Should I turn?
I look back for a second.
But nothingness surrounds me.
No choice, but to move forward.
I cross the bridge to find you, but there is no end.
There's no Before or After, no, not even a Now.
No above.
No below.
Forward takes me on forever.
Back leads me away, to the past.
The past is good, but I feel that there will be no return if I look back again.
"Airomass!" I call your name but nothing comes back.
"Is it real?" I shout.
I realize, Evil and Danger become one, within my grasp.
I hold evil.
I hold danger.
My soul begins to twist into Evils grasp.
Lightning strikes the candles flame!
Lightning striking from some unknown sky.
The flame dies.
As I look up, there you fly.
You, my Savior.
You, my Lover.
You, my Hero.
You are the protector of what is right.
Riding on Wings of Justice.
You are the flame that lights my soul.
Then you disappear into emptiness.
I drop the ball of wax.
It rolls off the bridge, into nothingness.
The dark encloses around me.
I am afraid!
Afraid of emptiness.
Afraid of nothingness. How could you do this?!
My savior, or my killer?!
I reach for my sword, but it is not there.
I realize that I'm defenseless now, but, I here you call.
Should I go?
Then whispers.
Your whispers.
"Close your eyes and envision Me." you say.
Is this a test?
A test of faith?
A test of our love.
I close my eyes and feel light, like I'm a feather.
I feel for the ground, but it is not there.
Oh god... I think I'm falling!
But I do not open my eyes for the horror I may find.
"Heaven help me!" I call out, but no answer.
Is there a God?
Trapped between empty and nothing.
But my faith is true.
Your touch holds me tight.
My eyes open and it's really you!
The space and stars ravels around us.
You guide me, and I hold your warm grasp, for I'm no fool.
All I want is you.
Then blackness takes you away.
I cry for you to come back, but nothing.
I feel afraid now more then ever.
My eyes clench.
Afraid as afraid can be.
Death surrounds me.
There is no help.
There is no way.
I am alone. There is no God where I am.
You call to me again.
I open my eyes to your voice.
No longer do I stand between nothingness, followed by emptiness, followed by
Death.
I see a room like the old.
Where Kings and Queens sat upon a throne.
A throne of safety.
I walk to a stand covered in a black cloak, or veil.
A stand, in the center of the room.
A stand of Greed.
And on this stand sits a crown lying on a pillow of blue comfort.
A crown of Divinity.
It sits for a wearer. Who would rule Divine?
Who is so vain?
Not I.
I care not for this.
I care for you.
My Lover, My Savior.
There is no dust, but Divine has not moved, Greed waits for a sucker.
Time is not real here.
Then your voice.
p I can hear you call me from behind, but I cannot see you.
I turn away from Greed and Divine, to look for you.
My Lover, My Savior.
Then you walk in.
Out of the cold, into our warmth.
You look at me with open arms. I try to run but cannot move.
Something binds my legs to the floor.
Trapped between Desire and Love.
You walk to me.
I yell your name over and over and over, but you do not hear, or do not answer.
Are you love or desire?
I reach for you again and again but we do not touch.
What does this mean? To hold, but not touch?
Then I feel lucky to stand.
For the love we feel for the other, is true, and never will be compared.
I reach far out at the approach of your hand, but again we do not touch.
Never before was there such Love.
For love is are law, nothing but love, sweet love.
You come to embrace.
But then something manifests!
A deity.
A deity of pain!
The power he possesses is overwhelming!
Darkness invades safety.
Pain comes to our warmth.
Without feeling Pain attacks me.
Darkness--Death--rides a bolt of black lightning!
I still cannot move.
I know this is the end!
But you jump in deaths way.
Taking the dark light to spare my life.
I know now that your Love is... was true.
I fall to my knees.
You embrace the floor.
You die for me.
My soul is torn.
My Savior.
You hold out for me.
I grab for your hand.
But still, we do not touch.
You disappear.
My Savior, my Lover... gone.
I hold my hands out to the heavens.
Crying for mercy!
Then it appears.
A sword!
A sword of Liberty.
Appearing on a light.
A Light of Life.
Bright as our love... was.
My anger takes Liberty!
I Slave myself to Liberty!
I cut the invisible bounds that shackle me to the floor!
And I strike Pain!
In a fury of Light, Life and Liberty!
Striking in anger!
Giving Pain, pain!
But I stop.
Knowing revenge won't return love.
Pain laughs.
I turn and see the throne.
The throne of Safety?
Lifting the sword in confusion.
The sword is not Liberty, but illusion.
I throw illusion into safety.
The throne blows!
Pain screams!
Pain dies.
The room turns.
This was not real.
Safety was Pain; Divine was Ugliness; Greed was Giving; Life was Death; Liberty was the illusion of Slavery.
This was all to deceive me.
But even if I deceived deception, Love is dead.
Then, a sound!
From under the crown!
I run to the stand!
Pushing Ugliness off Giving.
I see the black vial.
Stripping the vial of mystery from my life.
There!
In a cage, a cage deception tried to hide.
You...
My Lover...
Alive!
I tare off the bars that confined my desires.
I find you.
I take you from your bond and bring you back into our warmth.
I am your hero this time.
I know now that Love belongs.
You are my Love.
And I desire you, my Love.
We walk out the room into real light.
The real Light, Life, Love, and Liberty are true.
Shining on a sunray of brilliance.
As this story ends one question is asked.
What does this mean?
Alas... I cannot tell, for it was just a dream.

A Rose Tear

I am a teardrop falling from my lover's eye.
Why darling, why do you cry?
Was it something I said?
Was it something I've done?

......

Do you not know, you're my dove, in glorious flight?
My single rose?
My moon lit night?
My heaven's Sun?

......

No... Don't speak...
Let me remember you now,
As you are...
As you were...
As you and I will never be...
The memory of love must not fade,
Not now or ever again.

......

Just remember...
Like the gentle rain of a summer's eve.
Dry ground, flowers' seed, Angel's tears, leaf drop dew.
The rose has faded, the wind whispers no more.
Through the Sun's darken Night, the Moon's brightest Light,
I will be silent, but I will never stop from Loving you...

The Immaculate Dragonfly

I am The Immaculate Dragonfly.
I was created out of love.
I was created out of sadness.
I was created to fly and sore within the mighty skies.
I was created to chase and maybe catch the Untouchable Butterfly.

But she does not want me.
She does not want what a simple Dragonfly like me can give.
My immaculate wings can not dazzle her with their sparkle.
My strength and speed will not swoon her.
My knowledge, skill and gentle touch can not tempt her.
My breathless kisses will not fill her.
So I perch here upon this flower.
Offering all I have left.
My heart.

p Yet I am left holding it.
For the Untouchable Butterfly is what her namesake says.
Untouchable to one such as me.
Butterflies only mate with butterflies.

Oh Dragonfly, dragonfly.
Do not weep, for I shall pull out your wings.
Oh Dragonfly, dragonfly.
Do not scream, the pain is all hidden inside.
Oh Dragonfly, dragonfly
I will give you a dream, a dream of confusion.
Oh Dragonfly, dragonfly
It is all illusion, you will die.

No.

Spread those immaculate, tear soaked wings.
Uplift me into the darken sky.
And if one should look.
They shall see that the tears make glitter in the bitter moonlight.

I am The Immaculate Dragonfly.
Onward I fly.
Scared, lost, alive.
But with no love from the Untouchable Butterfly.

What to do? What to do?! Where to go? Where to go?!
Trust in thyself and thou shall find a way.
Take sword in hand and slash away.
For a thousand men he will slay.
And all for a women's way.

The bed seems so cold, so empty.
I turn Once more, I may never sleep again.
It's not the bed that does this to me, but the dreams.
The dreams are filled with her and the happiness we'll never know.
For the ring she wears belongs to another.
There's still a chance, always a chance, until she says I do.
But who am I to interfere in her happiness?
What could I give her, but the love deep within my heart.
Ohhh, the bed is so cold, so cold and so lonely...

I have found my Angel, but she belongs to some other's heart.

Tomorrow Ends?

I stand on the threshold of past darkness.
A single tear rolls from my eye.
Why?
Why do I cry?

It is because I feel?
Even in this pathetic world of pain and suffering.
When I thought I had eliminated all those emotions.
Still I cry, still I feel.

Then could it be,
Because of a girl.
Does my heart reawaken?
Reawaken to the danger?
Reawaken to the Evil?

Please, if this is to be,
Then give unto me, your darken kiss.
Give unto me your warm embrace.
Let me feel your arms wrapped around me.
Let my soul run the folds of your living essence.
And in this dance, from the devil's sorrow, comes heaven's delight.
Can a monster truly be free of his darken misery?

Wishes, prayers, soft kisses, gentle touches, hiding behind a blade of grass.
Blue skies, Clouds, The Muse sings, And I dream...
Dreams of Faeries & Untouchable Butterflies.
Rapture in a kiss.
Salty tears dripping on my lips.
Living to be wrapped in your arms.
Dying when I'm left alone, without you.

Is this what it means to let a heart beat?
Is this why the blood is warm?
Is this the reason for my mortal soul?
I am Alive.
I am Afraid...
Will Tomorrow ever come true?

Loss

Darkness is my arena.
Before me lays a string.
It is my only footing.
It is the path I have choosen.

In front of me lies a goal.
But perhaps the goal was already behind me.
Look back and see where I have been?
I see darkness.
Below me is the abyss.
Look, look into the abyss, what do you see?
I see myself.

Two paths, one string.
Path forward into light.
A path backward into darkness.
Below me is myself.
Then what is above?
Look...
Warmth, want, love, you!
I am breathless!
I love you.
My beauty, my hearts desire, my light.
I want you, my love.
Reach into the sky.
Trying to touch shooting stars and Untouchable Butterflies.
Almost can touch you...

SNAP!

The sting breaks!
I am swallowed into myself.
Swirl, spiral, down, down, too many tears, I will drown.
Breathe my breath of life and you will survive.
Inhale, I'm alive.
But left to live without you.
Why did I choose this?
A pain worse then a cut to the arm.
A hurt searing hotter then fire.
An emotion that shudders my entire body.
You can die of a broken heart.

But I am left here, in the dark, inside me, upon the arena known as reality...

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