| My Mom |
| My Mom to me is a very special lady. Growing up she was all I had. My dad had decided when I was very young that being married & raising a kid just wasn`t for him at that time. Boy was I lucky my mom didn`t feel that way. Now don`t get me wrong we didn`t have a perfect life but we did have a good life, & I always knew that my mom loved me. Whe I was just a little boy my mom blessed me with a brother & sister at the same time, yep she had twins, Buck & Dawn. I loved them the first time I saw them. Of course as we all grew older, like all siblings we had our fights, specially Buck & me, but I loved them no matter what, they were my family. Mom did her best by us & although Buck & Dawn`s dad was in & out of our lives we knew mom was the one to depend on. She was always there. She was there when we skinned our knees, she was there when we thought the world would end because a girl or guy had broken our hearts, she was there when one of us was playing ball or any other time we were doing something special, She was always there for us. As I grew into a young man, I wanted to give my mom a better life. You see even tho I grew into a man, my mom was still there for me. We had a lot of special times together. We would just kind of hang out together, sometimes we`d go shopping, usually to the "card" shops, I loved collecting cards, Baseball & Football mostly. Mom always made sure I got that "special" card I wanted. It didn`t seem to matter what they cost , she always came up with a way to get them for me. Because my mom was always very special to me I always wanted to give her a "better" life., not that we had a bad one, but because I thought my mom deserved better. I made some mistakes in my life, some I don`t know how Mom will ever forgive me for, but I know she will. The last thing I wanted to do was to leave my mom & family, but because of a "mistake" I choose to make, that happened on May 22 1999, I overdosed on Cocaine, if that wasn`t enough, my mom was the one that found me. I know the last thing I did hurt my mom deeply, this was not my plan, I wanted to make my mom`s life better not hurt her. Since that day in May of 99 my mom has managed to carry on with her life, even with the pain in her heart that I put there, she has continued to be there for Buck & Dawn. Mom has made some changes in her life since I left. The pain from losing me eventually pointed her to a chat room called TCF, there she met some great friends, one of these "friends" gave my mom the chance of a lifetime, you see because of the mistake I made mom began to feel the need to leave her home, she wanted to "get away" one of her friends from the chat room gave her that chance, she offered mom a job, & a place to live, after a lot of soul searching mom decided to move to NC, she now has a new life & a great friend, I think in a way my mom`s life is better, she actually has a life of her own, & although the pain caused from my leaving will always be a part of her, she has learned how to smile again. Mom`s friend Janet is very much like her, she has a son in heaven, so she knows first hand about all my mom`s feelings, she has a daycare which her & my mom run now together & she has a daughter who has become a very special part of my mom`s life. So you see even my plan to give my mom a better life did work out in the end, even tho I know mom never wanted it this way. for those who are still there with my mom, seem to think she has a better life, the friend who gave her this new life & who is writting this for me is very thankful to have my mom as part of her life & she loves her very much. Mom please know that I never meant to hurt you & I always will Love You, you are the best. This was written by me, Janet Elliott I`m not sure where the words came from they were just there. |
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| This is me(Jim) & My Mom A few years ago |
| Please check out the web site my mom`s best friend Janet made for me |
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