But sometimes the hardest part is conceiving
The good intentions that you had now only came to this
And although she saw the mark, the arrow missed
It isn't exciting reciting the stories
Of kind words turned hurting when routine gets boring
Both getting tired of punk rock clubs, and both playing in punk rock bands
The start was something good, but some good things must end.
And she said "we could never survive with such differing lives
"one home one out on tour again
"we may never come back, the strike of a match
"the candle's burning at both ends"
And now she knows too much and I'm too fucked up
It's awkward trying to make my move
I'll pretend that I'm fine, show up right on time
But I know I'll never be that cool
I never wanted to hold you back, I just wanted to hold on
But my chance is gone
I know
Just where
I stand
A boy
Trapped in the body of a man and
I'll take what you're willing to give
And I'll teach myself to live
With a walk on part in a backgroud shot of a movie I'm not in.
She's so important
And I'm so retarded
Where are you coming from?
What are you running from?
Is it so hard to see?
And if you're feeling scared
Remember the times we shared
You know it meant everything
You know that it meant everything to me.
I went major shopping yesterday with Julia. I got pants for 10.44, shoes for like 20 something, and a skirt and tank top for way too much, but the pants and shoes made up for it. I like wearing skirts but I can never really decide what shoes to wear because flip flops are too casual and dressy shoes are too, well, dressy. So I got these shoes that make me really tall. They are as if I am walking on a platform.
Laura, if I dont' speak to you before you read this, read Keith's website right now. I'm serious. He even deleted yesterdays. We all knew he was moody.
Keith, I didn't know you read this until recently. Well hi!
So anyway Julia had a bad day. Look how pathetic I am. I have resorted to talking about how bad OTHER PEOPLE'S DAYS are. Jesus. Well anyway Brad is being a dummy and she won't finish her room and she is sad because Billy didn't talk to her and why do people try to keep from crying? I think Laura Efford and I cry a whole lot, but we're also very happy people. I mean I can understand why someone would want to not cry in front of people, but really I think I have overactive tear ducts. Quack.
Zak Duff is so annoying. Don't you agree?
I have to go take a shower and go to work. I am working from 2-830 which is a really good shift, I just dont want to do it. And Cathy and I have to talk to Matt and Ryan about switching. I hope we can do that. I like Matt Dempsy-well I don't dislike him. I was probably the first person who works at the theatre to like him. So ha. I know he doesn't read this but HA anyway.
Sometimes, people are really confusing.
Something must be bothering me beause I have bitten all my nails off. That is what I do when something is bothering me. Could it possibly have anything at all to do with the song above and spring break starting today? I wonder. But I can't talk about it with anyone but Lauren because everyone else just yells at me for being in love with someone. But lauren is not here. Oh I should go visit Flip Flop today. I must go.
Thing of the Day, Thing of the Day...Ah ha. I wrote my Sr. Thesis on how the courts always rule on the side of religion. Like, if there's an organized religion against something else, they would rule in favor of whoever was more holy. So this article supports that, even though it wouldn't have helped with my paper, becuase it's not a supreme court thing.