Tyrel is loved and missed by,
Mom, Dad, Taro and Tavis
Remembering
Go ahead and mention my loved one
The one who died, you know
Don't warry about hurting me further
The depth of my pain doesn't show
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside
Help me to heal by releasing
the tears that I try to hide
I'm Hurt when you just keep silent
Pretending he didn't exist
I'd rather you mention by loved one
Knowing that he has been missed
You ask me how I'm doing
I say "pretty good" or "fine"
But healing is something ongoing
I feel it will take a lifetime
Tyrel was born on Sept. 18, 1998. He was a few days early. My husband was on a job and he had come home for the weekend. He wanted to be there when he was born but he had to leave. So my doctor talked to us and asked if we wanted to be induced so he could be there for the birth, we agreed. Tyrel was born at 9:47 PM.
By the time he was a month old we were in Wyoming. Then from the age of 6 months to 14 months we were in Colorado. He learned how to walk when he was 10 months old. From 14 months to the age of 4 we lived in Arizona in my hometown. But every summer we would travel with my husband. In Jan. 2000 we went to Florida. We visited Disney World. He was 2 yrs old then. The summer of 2000 we went to Indiana stayed there for the summer. The summer of 2001 we stayed in Phoenix, AZ. Then in the summer of 2002 we stayed in Nebraska. But my oldest and Tyrel wanted to leave from there because they thought the tornados were coming for them. Why? Because they had just watched the movie Twister. So they called grandpa and grandma and begged to be picked up. So grandpa got on the phone and asked if we could meet them half way and they would pick up the kids. So we did. We met back up with them about a month later. But that whole month I called everyday. That was our last summer with Tyrel.
He went back to school. Then on Christmas break we went to Texas. We came home on the 5th of Jan. He went to school on Tues. He told everyone at school about his trip to Texas and also talked about the tornados in Nebraska. Then came home played, helped his great grandpa with his chores. Then walked into the house that evening about 6 PM with his older brother. We had dinner. And they were in bed by 8 PM. I checked on them at 10 PM before I went to sleep. I sat there and watched them sleep for awhile.
Then the next morning I went to get them up for school and I didn't see him in bed with his brother. So I thought he might have gotten up and went to his room. So I checked his room and he wasn't there and I immeditly thought about the space between the wall and the bed. My oldest was still sleeping. I just pulled him off the bed. Jumped back there. And there he was. A pillow had fallen down there with him and he was in an upside down position and I pulled him out. He was cold and his body had already stiffen. I remember yelling. Telling my oldest son to go and get grandma. He must of been in shock because he didn't move. So I started running with him yelling for my mom. I sat on the couch with him crying until my mom had gotten there. I told her that Tyrel was gone. She left to get help from my aunt. When she came back I told her again my baby was gone. She held him. He just looked so peaceful. Just like he was sleeping and would get up and say Ha! Ha! I tricked you.
I remember he would walk in to my room and ask if he could sleep with me. We had this thing Where I would ask him "Why doesn't mommy like you?" He would say because "You love me" I miss that. There is so much I miss about him.
That morning some parts are a blur and some I can remember clearly. My husband and father were in Texas at the time. I had called my husband at work and gave him the bad news. But my father had gotten to the phone first and my mom told him what had happened. And the people in the office had told my mom he had colapsed. The company my husband worked for flew him home that evening.
I miss him so much. But I see alot of him in his younger brother. Things that only he would say and do.
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Dear Lord,
Dear Lord, you have my child with you,
To go on without him is the hardest thing I've ever had to do,
I know you have your reasons, but still I wonder why?
To accept your will is so hard, but lord I do try,
I get up each morning with this pain in my heart so deep,
I go through my days trying to be strong all the while I silently weep,
I want him back so bad, I want to scream, cause lord this hurts so much,
I miss his smile, his laughter, his voice, his touch,
I miss him saying "I love you mom" I miss everything, Oh lord how do I go on?,
Time stands still for me because my son is gone,
I wasn't suppose to be this way,
It should be the other way around, He was supposed to bury me someday,
but lord I will try to do what you want, I will try to deal with this pain,
Because I believe your promise that someday we will be together again,
So until that day I will hold him in my heart, I will be brave and do what you want me to do,
Oh and Lord, for the time I had him here with me, I Thank you!
Judi Walker
Copyright 98
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