I am feeling depressed again.
Yesterday ar work this guy came to Mcd's and gave me these papers saying that because i work at Mcd's i can have a free cell phone, $20 a month unlimited, free evenings and weekends. But my parents won't let me have it. They think it's a cancer causing device created to make money. And yeah i agree but i won't be using it so much as to let me have a brain tumor. And i told them that if i get out of controle with this thing they have full athority to take it away. but that's not why i'm feeling so sad. I don't even know what it is. There is just something there and it's preventing me from enjoying my life. I have to go to work soon, and i don't even feel like doing that any more. I need a change. A drastic change again. Last time i tried shaving my head. Sibling stopped me and i couldn't come near a knife, or ne thing sharp for months. Then I cut myself some bangs. No one can stop me from doing that. BUt that was like 3 months ago, and i need soemthing new. dyeing my hair is out of the q, since it's only going to damage it.... i also went through a tongue peircing stage. I wanted to get a tongue ring ever since i was 10 years old. Still want one. But have read too many stories aobut grls and guys getting brain tumors and dieing from infactions. i don't know what i'm going to do yet. but when i figure it out, ur going to be the first one to know. If u arn't feeling blue, enjoy that whlle it lasts. and if u are, think b4 u do soemthing drastic.
