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Last night before I
go to sleep� I was thinking of something suddenly I stopped. I look
beside me but found no one. I feel so lonely, got nobody here beside
me. I feel so alone, got nobody to be with me. I feel so sad� I feel
so sad� it turns my world into a place so dark... a place full of
fears, tears and pain. I keep asking myself why� why my life�s like
this, why it couldn�t be the other way. I can�t take it anymore� I�m
slowly giving up. I need someone to comfort me but again I found no
one! Where are they, I can�t see anyone� it was dark, so dark� I
cried. I don�t know what to do, I sit on the floor at the corner of my
room, feeling the world is on my back. I can�t carry it no more� it�s
getting heavier as time goes on and on. I cried again and again,
turning my head down. No more strength to stand tall, no more strength
to ease the pain, no more strength to be brave� no more friends to
tell this pain. No one�s left for me, they�re all gone� all gone� no
one cares about me, I feel so empty� so empty. No one�s there to love.
Isn�t me that bad, for them to go away? I�m so lonely� so lonely� I
need someone but they couldn�t be there� I kept on crying, still no
one�s there to comfort me� then I decided to look up� I saw a light, a
little light coming from the top of my TV stand; it was light beside
my photo frame. I stood up and check that thing� I was surprised to
see what it is, and then I realize I wasn�t alone that time� I was
never alone, I stop crying. I put that thing on my hand� and suddenly
my mind enlightens. Now I can see the light, the light all my life I
long to see� and now I got my strength back, the thing I was holding
was just telling me that I�m not alone� I wasn�t alone� I will never
be alone� it was my rosary that reminds me that He�s there� always
there, He will never leave me empty because� He loves me� God loves me
more than anyone else in this world in which I am living in� A world
before I feel I don�t exist. Today I realize my life isn�t that bad
�coz as long as I believe He�s there, everything will be fair. Now I�m
not alone� not alone. He�s with me� I have good friends� a loving
family� a best friend that never leaves� my lola I loved most� my lolo
I really miss. There�s nothing to worry� they love me, and I love them
more� for them I�ll continue to fight, fight to remain that light�
light on my sight� I�ll do everything for them to stay� not to leave
and go away� I won�t let that darkness comes back anymore� I don�t
want to think about it again.. It�s only myself, I blame... now my
life�s worth living� �coz now I know all that.. is really just a
feeling�
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by:
unknown
Letting Go...
"Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone
better is coming tomorrow" Anyone who has gone through the agony of
losing someone she/he loves so much will still
wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, sometimes a
love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring back to
life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free.
Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40
days and 40 nights, but still will not rain
forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of
branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build
your nest and start over again. It's never too late. Remember, you may
find love and lose it but "WHEN
LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT".
Remember, you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to
weigh a relationship is out it in the test of fire. You cannot be a
sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fall and make wrong
decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but
to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning
process. With love, we learn
HOW TO CARE
and
SACRIFICE.
We learn to
SHARE
and
REACH OUT.
We learn to be
UNSELFISH
and
GIVE MORE THAN WE
CAN.
And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to
FALL and GET HURT. But learning doesn't have to end there. After our
fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we
learn that "LIFE
DOESN'T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN."
"THERE
IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS".
It's true, there is life in love. But, there can still be life even
after losing love if you LEAVE the past behind and let your heart HEAL
and give you the chance to FIND yourself again. The success of a
relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its
consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a
healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that...."HAPPINESS
IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE".
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon
someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so
intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part
of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and
actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to REALIZE that this
person feels NOTHING MORE for us than FRIENDSHIP. We start our
desperate attempt to GET NOTICED and BE CLOSER but in the end our
efforts are still UNREWARDED and we end up being SORRY FOR OURSELVES.
"YOU
DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE. WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW
TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR
YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE
TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING".
Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind
speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as
well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that
someone better is coming tomorrow. "IF
YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF
YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE
BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE
WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU".
And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last
a lifetime. A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping
emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon
the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for
the love she lost. A man who makes a promise with words and not with
actions may never live up to fulfill them. "ITS
TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR
SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL."
Love makes us see things through rose-colored glasses. Most of the
time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our
way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn't healthy anymore.
You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you
and your sanity. There is always a time to think and stop. A time to
be sensible and not allow our hearts to rule over our heads. "YOU
DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN/WOMAN WHO KEEPS YOU
WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE YOU NOW AND LOVE YOU
FOREVER."
If loving a person who is attached to someone else is a crime, then
maybe, many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what
its consequences could have been. Loving someone is never a sin. It is
what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The
selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. "DON'T
THINK ONLY OF YOUR FEELINGS FOR REAL LOVE DOESN'T HAVE A PLACE FOR
SELFISH PEOPLE.
"When
there is love, there is always sacrifice. When we love someone, we
never easily give up on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we
always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and
forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. It is when we expect this love
to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of
the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and
rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily
offered. "DON'T
WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW
YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOUR SELF THE
CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN/WOMAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND
THE SACRIFICE".
Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies if not taken
cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain extent. Beyond
that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies. "GOD
WAKES US UP IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES
AWAY PEOPLE WE LOVE SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE ITSELF. HE MAKES US
CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US
BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE
THINK ONLY OF OUR NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS?"
Relationships built on JEALOUSY and SELFISHNESS are doomed from the
very beginning. The HARDEST PART of losing love is LETTING GO and
MOVING ON. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been
but never will be. "God
allows us to EXPERIENCE PAIN to make us STRONGER and BETTER PERSONS.
He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our
lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to FIND JOY in
our TEARS and HAPPINESS in our SORROWS." In many failed relationships,
separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves
to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a
relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold on is always
beyond the control of circumstance. Letting go is a DECISION that can
never be dictated on us. It is a resolution we make to ourselves.
Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and TIME is the healer of all
wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always
be light after our darkest and loneliest moments. There is always a
hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who
try. "LOSING
SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE
SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME."
There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love,
but "WE
MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL US WHEN TO
RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE.
"There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who
wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused
on someone else. There are MANY TIMES WHEN
WE LOVE BUT DON'T GET LOVED IN RETURN. "THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THE SIGN
AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON. "We would say our
love is unconditional. But if it really is, then we should never feel
bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we
still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we
care about. "BEING
IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE
FEELING BEGINS TO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND
LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE
LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES
CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE WITHOUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER
THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE....
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Good day!
Nakakatawa
how
one falls in
love and
falls out of it.
Nakakatawa
how one would
die looking
for it, while one would just let it die
Nakakatawa
how each and
everyone of us is very much affected by love
Nakakatawa
how everyone
live by because of
LOVE
Well, here is a story
In a dream,
GOD
told me, that I could pick up a man I like from his fields.
But I have to choose
only
one.
Once na nakapili na ako, I have to raise my hand and say I finally
found him, then go back to
GOD
for
praise. But, he has this condition, na I could never turn back. Once
nalampasan ko, I should move forward. Sabi ko,
GOD
won't give me rotten crops of
men. i have been a
good daughter
and I deserve to be with a good man.
So my journey begin, as I went through the field, nakita ko
ang ibat ibang klase ng lalake. Some were
tempting
me to pick them up.
Pero sabi ko, baka may mas gwapo, mas mabait, mas matalino, mas
masipag, mas mahal ako sa dulo ng field na ito. I let go. Once. Twice.
Believing that in the end of the field is my
prince,
waiting for me.
Then I saw a man. He sees me while I was there picking up
crops in
GODS
field. He
looked at me straight eye. And I don't know why, pero there is
something in him that
I longed
for.
Pero di pwede. I have to make it to the end of the field. I have to
see the right prince. If habang lumalayo ako, nakakakita ako ng
ganitong klase ng lalake,
baka in the other end may mas hihigit pa sa kanya.
Until, I reached the
end of the field.
GOD
asked me "Di ba
napakakulit mo,
araw
araw nagdadasal ka na magkaroon ng partner in life, but ngayon bakit
wala kang dala. My crops are all fresh and good. There is none there
na di maganda. All for the picking."
I answered. "I thought
I would
see
someone at the end of your crops, my LORD, wala na pala.
Each steps to perfection
na hinahanap ko is a
step to nothingness.
I have met someone in my path but
I did let him go.
Believeing
na there is someone better, at the end of your field.
God
said, Im sorry my child, but you have to face reality. I have
given you enough time to choose.
Face these consequences.
Then I said, "I'm sorry that I
wasn't brave
enough to raise my hand in the middle of the field and commit myself
to someone. I was not ready to face the challanges of life with
someone
I thought was of lesser value than me..
I'm sorry.
Nagising akong umiiyak, saying sorry to GOD and to my life.
Then I realize that GOD is
giving me
another chance to choose, but not in his field but in the
fields of uncertainty. Now Im looking at the one looking at me
straight eyed wondering if he is the one.
What is the meaning of all my efforts and
wealth, I may become the best doctor but to whom will I share my care
and love for, all the days of my life.
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