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23/09/02 time: 9:12 pm
lyric: "i've never been to far a way, these regrets are worthless to me"
band: Name Taken

Night Night... i'm off to sleep in my little beddy.

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23/09/02 time: 9:08 pm
lyric: "its clear in my head im screming for something"
band: The Used

Taking Back Sunday

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23/09/02 time: 6:18 pm
lyric: "I blame myself, SHOULD OF SOW IT COMING!"
band: Get Well Soon

Just re-did "you wanna know" bit.

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23/09/02 time: 5:40 pm
lyric: "stuck in the rain, but don't worry, no-bodys watching us"
band: Get Well Soon

I miss my sissy... mwaa :'( i want her hugs NOW!

Today was okay, so sick of mrs howard and her voice and i am SICK of some of the boys in my year. Why the fuck can't they grow up and get over themselves?! seriously boys you are not all hardcore you are fucking LOSERS!

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23/09/02 time: 8:00 am
lyric: "are you drowning your fears?"
band: Dashboard Confessional

Monday mornings aren't so bad when you have a free house, and dance to start off your day. I really hope we have music man for spanish... his such a kick ass guy. I actually learnt something and i never do with Howard... anyways i better be off gotta feed my sisters fish and brush my toothies. see ya in the evening.

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22/09/02 time: 6:35 pm
lyric: "and the things that are keeping you here, are keeping me away."
band: Dashboard baby!

line up girls! This boys a winner! hehe hey dave.

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22/09/02 time: 11:09 am
lyric: "i guess the jokes on me, well it was nice knowing you"
band: Get Well Soon

Whee! I got a pink hat and pink mittens! To go with my pink scarf and then my black coat. So i'm all set for winter nows.

I got this lovely dress aswell from H&M I tell you i absolutely love that store. Today i gotta do courseword yipeee.

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21/09/02 time: 12:56 pm
lyric: "take two nuggets and SHOVE THEM UP YOUR ASS" (me and laura were laughing over this in mcdonalds)
band: Tenacious D

hmmm chicago town pizza yum yum yummy! i just lurrrveee pizza.

So last night me and Laura sow "swimfan", i'm not a big one for physco films but this was really really good. The last bit really got you hanging from your seat. The only bad thing was these stupid ass girls behind us wouldn't shut the hell up. hehe it was funny though because someone just shouted "SSSHHUUTT UP!" at them. Today i'm off to chelmsford with laura morra.

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20/09/02 time: 5:11 pm
lyric: "well i think the time has come, to tell you how i feel a bout everything, thats been inside my mind"
band: Allister

Man... i just sow the best "dawsons creek" again, last time i sow it i bawled my eyes out, so as soon as i sow it was on tears were streaming down my face. It had nothing to do with the current story-line so if you had never seen it before it would of made sence, i can even garentee boys probably getting A BIT upset with it. Anyways i THINK i may be going to the army and navy tonight, i need to dance around.

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20/09/02 time: 08:02 am
lyric: "my finger nails are dirty, can't keep them clean"
band: Get Well Soon

Friday friday "friday five! (sing it in the conga style and it makes sence)

1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people?
I don't think so.. i haven't HAD to really keep in touch with anyone recently. The only people are Andrea and Gemma... and i haven't seen them in YONKS so, i guess i'm not that good, but you know i haven't really made any effort to so yeh.

2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why?
Emails if your bored, telephone if its quick or if something REALLY exciting has just happened and you need to say something quick and meeting in person if you need to just talk and stuff.

3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it?
Yehhhhh... msn... its evil. Well thats what i think, i've decided to try and give it up, because i used to be on there ALL the bloody time and there was a reason for that, but i can't tell you because its so stupid and i just realised it yesterday and i feel such a dick-head but yeh. I was just going to go on it occastionaly but i when i went on it yesterday i got that horrible depressed feeling in my tummy and decided its just not good for me. Sounds silly for an Msn messenger but it really is bad.

4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away?
Most of them live nearby, Lauras like 7 min walk and Steph, Emily and Stacey aren't that far. We all live in the same town.

5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"?
I don't know... "out of sight, out of mind" that just doesn't work for me because even if people are out of sight i still think of them. The distance one well thats just a load of bullcrap.

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18/09/02 time: 6:41 pm
lyric: "everybodys workin for the weak"
band: Hey Meracedes

"Oh Romeo, Romeo where fore art thou Romeo?" wohoo! English first draft is done done done!

Now its just Maths... and Graphics... okay.. thank god theres nothing to watch on tv tonight!

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19/09/02 time: 07:57 am
lyric: "cos i've poured my heart into the last three years of wondering what i should do"
band: Allister

wheeeee de do daaa "Allister", the perfect music to get you going in the mornings. I recomend you get "overreated" from mp3.com its so soooooo good.

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18/09/02 time: 7:35 pm
lyric: "sleep in your own bed tonight! I know some day that you will wake up as broken as i am" (i have had this in my head ALL bloody day)
band: The Starting Line

I think i'm beggining to miss my sister. She's getting on really well so far, the girls in her flat are really nice (they went bowling yesteday) and she moved her tv/dvd into the kitchen so that everyone could watch it together. So it sounds like everything is okay. I just miss hugging her and just having the company of her i suppose, i liked being able to just sit in her room and not have to speak that much. hmm.. i'll be okay... just as long as shes alright i won't be worried so yeh.

I got a new bandos on the way "Plain White T's" there pretty good, well so far and i really love "Get Well Soon", a very lovely band. Anyways gotta do 45 mins of my English.

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18/09/02 time: 07:54 am
lyric: "what can i say? Wheres that girl from last night?"
band: The Starting Line

Poor Adam from Taking Back Sunday... he hurt his head baddd at a show a couple of nights ago and its his birthday soon. Me thinks i'm gonna send a card to him. Anyways better be off to clean my toothies.

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18/09/02 time: 07:52 am
lyric: "next time i'm in town we will kiss girlll"
band: The Starting Line

goooooood morning! eww i just sneezed 3 times!

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17/09/02 time: 6:44 pm
lyric: "take the time to talk a bout it, think a lot, and live without it"
band: Taking Back Sunday

ahhhhhhhh.... :( stomach pains. hehe i am pregnant! nah not really... but if i was, me and Laura said it would be the son of Jesus and i would call is Blake because as soon as i said "what would i call it?" Blake rode right past saying hi. Sooo yeh me and Laura had a big random conversation a bout that.

GRRR gotta do drama... come on Chloe... you can do it... concentrate.. breath come on stop being silly on your website... okay.. see ya

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17/09/02 time: 6:24 pm
lyric: "I wanna hate you sooo bad but i can't!!"
band: Taking Back Sunday

My drama coursework is just sitting on "word"... looking at me with that little flashing space bar just flashing and flashing away like its going to be there forever, which it is. So i need to get it done... then i'm gonna watch Monsters Inc again because i love it so. But seriously they said to me (i don't excactly know who "they" are but anyways) that year 11 was a dos year because you do all your coursework in year 10, which "I" DID NOT! So now i'm running around like a prat doing my, music, drama and english and maths and ITS HARD! My brain doesn't like to think to much... it gets annoyed then starts like sulking because its doing nothing fun. gawddd i have dinner got eat and do coursework

see ya fatty boysss

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17/09/02 time: 7:47 am
lyric: "push me in the face again, push me in the face again, push me in the FACE"
band: Dynamite boy

My astrology for this week:

This is a week to focus on relaxation and maybe a bit of travel or other pleasant ways to unwind from the daily grind. Focus on finding as much space and time to immerse yourself in a diversion that takes you away from your work.

hmmm i have drama, english, maths, graphics, music to deal with... no not relaxing. liessss

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17/09/02 time: 07:44 am
lyric: "welcome to the Jungle Jim, welcome to the Jungle Jim, welcome to it Jim!"
band: Dynamite boy

Lelelele... its a school day, i have graphics today so what i'm gonna do is scan my Dashboard Confessional pic in the computer then load it up on here! aren't i clever?! well no... but whatever. The computers are slow and crappy there so i might not be able to do it but i'll give it a try. I want to be super hyper today, but i don't want to have to deal with stupid headachs.. and i also want to be able to concentrate at the same time (well thats not gonna work). ahhhhhhhh.... i have a stabbing pain in my stomach... no the apendix bit.. grr go a way. phew! thats better.

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15/09/02 time: 9:36 pm
lyric: "looking into your eyes i see all i want to be"
band: Slick Shoes

GRRRR! FATTEST SPOT EVER ON MY FACE! GET OFF GET OFFFFFF!!! anyways night night need beauty sleep :p

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15/09/02 time: 9:32 pm
lyric: "When i fall asleep your all that i see, your in my thoughts and all of my prays, i wish i could i be all that you mean to me.... my Angel without wings... my Angel"
band: Slick Shoes

So lets talk a bout the weekend i had... it was really fun!

Friday night... gawd... what did happen?! Oh yehhh Emilys house, we had the nicest food EVER! (well the idian was bloody good too but yeh) We had pizza, alfabet potatoe letters, garlic bread, mini soleros and carte dor (or however you spell it) strawberry ice cream... hmm it was so nice and we watched and cheesy girl film, the typical story line "not popular guy, fancys the popular girl, big plan goes wrong blah blah blah", but it was funny.

Saturday, i bought "Monster Inc" cos i really wanted to see it and now i'm inlove with it! I love "Boo" she is the cutest thing! Then went to Staceys and all of us got drunk and had our indian and got served even more with drinkys, then wondered around town and got bored because we got looked at evilerly in like the first 5 mins (gay gay gay), but the night was really funny we were pretty loud.

Sunday... my sisters gone :( but Nottingham looks lovely and the place my sisters staying is JUST PERFECT. The people look all kick ass. So now i'm an only child.... on the way back i felt really weird... i felt kinda like i'd lost some of my outer kiddieness and just like a layer of me has been chucked away so now theres room for other layers to grow... i dunno it felt weird but at the same time very cool (i had a little bubbly feeling in my tummy). So yeh.. i miss my sissy already! I'll be okay, i have loads of work to do this week anyways. Gawd i have school tomorrow JEEBUS! better be off and sort myself (and my room) out.

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15/09/02 time: 9:18 pm
lyric: "lets face it, re-trace it"
band: Donots

Hey! better late than never right?! you know its the "friday five"

1. What was/is your favorite subject in school? Why?
Drama at the mo, i love getting into ideas and really putting stuff together. When i think up a good character i love getting lost in them... you can just be whoever you want to be its excellent. Music is actually pretty fun at the mo, ofcourse i've always loved Music and Graphics is fun inspite of all the hard work.

2. Who was/is your favorite teacher? Why?
You know what... i've never really had a favourite teacher. I've never really been any teachers pet and i don't like the kids that are, i think its just i dunno stupid, i like being funny sarcastic to teachers thats cool. I guess if i had to choose it would be my Drama teacher Mr Darley because he doesn't have favourites he treats everyone equally. Ohhh i suppose Mr Blackburn earns some credit, in year nine we had so much time off crap ass lessons just to play (band) music.

3. What is your favorite memory of school?
I have many:

I suppose the whole Daniel and Jake fascination was really funny, we made up really good laughs out of them two.. ahh good times with Steph.

Bunking... under K block stairwell... then getting caught.. yeh that was pretty funny

The whole girl trouser protest. I got a day off school for that.

I remeber this time and it was really snowing outside, like proper chucking it down... i loved that, i can really remember that well.

Ahhh... me, Steph, Emily and Laura all played in assembly then after we stayed in the hall and missed our english lesson, i just remember it being so cool we were dancing around to the drums... i just remeber being really happy at that moment.

Making up stupid dances to the keyboard music, then breaking the red light hehe me and steph were laughing a bout that yesterday.

I have many more... i can't really pick a favourite.

4. What was/is your favorite recess game?
Well we don't play games now, if you don't count running and rolling around as games. I suppose in primary school it was bulldog.

5. What do you hate most about school?
I hate bright people and the way they don't even have to try and they mangage to get good marks and then complain because they got an A instead of an A*. Or they just generally moan.

I don't like tests. 2 hours to prove how good you are at a subject and thats it? you learned for how many years? and 2 hours and its all over.

Its not so much the teachers, its the people sometimes. Not being able to get away from them, i just can't hack it. Too many people and i just get really annoyed.

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15/09/02 time: 8:56 pm
lyric: "driving in the car, miss the stop sign, fall in love"
band: thursday

Gawddd... i seriously HATE crappy ass sex emails, i just got one saying WET LESBIENS! erghhhhh block block block

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13/09/02 time: 07:51 am
lyric: "stranger by the day, things are getting stranger by the dayyy"
band: Shades Apart

Look at the muscles of the starting lines guitarist! i think his name is Mike... or Tom... or Matt... well anyway... someone blatantly goes to the gym! Muscle mannnn.

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13/09/02 time: 07:47 am
lyric: "if you c jordan, you c jordan, he makes me sick, he makes mee sickk"
band: "Something Corporate"

Ahhh... school... atleast its friday, but i can't go and see "something corporate" :( My mum said "she knows that its hard being a 15 year old, but shes doing whats best for me". Oh well.. i'll get over it. Tonight all of us are going round Emilys! Which is cool because i think its ALL of us... Me Steppy, Laura, Emily and Stacey. Which like never happens and we have the most the funny and random coversations take one we were talking a bout on wednesday:

"Imagine Bin Larden was sitting on a train and like something was ticking in his bag, everyone on the train would crap themselves... but then it was like "ding" and he pulled out chicken." (laughing and lots of pakistan voices)

"wait a minute? you don't microwave chicken?!"

"ohh yeh.."

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11/09/02 time: 6:04 pm
lyric: "i'll be gone before you knew that i was... there"
band: Yellowcard

I was thinking of writing something heroic because of the day it is today... September the 11th. You know what though.... i might aswell say it, i have an online journal and this time last year i can remember excactly sitting where i am thinking a bout it all.... i felt really shitty aswell... really upset because of certain people... its just weird, well... i do remember that day very well... i think everyone will for the rest of there lives even if they were in another country, it is shocking to see somewhere that you would reconize as "safe" be completely shocked and feel destroyed. Even though i personally think that there are matters around other parts of the world not JUST America that should be dealed with... there are people everyday that are having there lives destroyed, i suppose this just showed the world up front what it is like. Being brought up in a safe place just makes you sometimes forget a bout everything else and how lucky you actually are.

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10/09/02 time: 8:09 pm
lyric: "with karate i'll kick your ass, here to right over there!"
band: Tenacious D

Another day at school.... i didn't fall a sleep in English, yes i am proud of myself! But i had a kaining headach in graphics and i had to stare at a computer screen as well so that didn't help. I've only just finished the fronts and middle of all my copies... still need to do the backs, how annoying.

Ahhh we have the video of the prom that we (band) played at... its just you know... funny i suppose... my brother and his crapness on the camara hehehe. ahhh just one of those things i'm gonna look back on and think hmm... yes...

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09/09/02 time: 9:10 pm
lyric: "beautiful girl, ugly shirt, you are a fashion red alert"
band: Reel Big Fish

Ahhh i have my shelves up for my cds... now i'm sorting out all my copies, which is quite a lot. I have to do the backs the fronts and the middle... its hard work, but i love my music so yehhh... and i am so so soooo hoping that i can go and see "Something Corporate" this friday... any bet it will be another no which will be pooey!!!

Hehe, i'm actually looking forward to p.e lessons, me and Laura are gonna make up gay ass dances to "Tenacious D" and "Reel Big Fish" its going to be quite a laugh!

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08/09/02 time: 8:51 pm
lyric: "share with me, cos i need it right now, let me see your insides"
band: The used

So today i just sorted myself out a bit. I put together these shelves by MYSELF! For my cds but my Dad needs to put them on my wall and since my Dad is my Dad thats probably not going to happen for another week or so... So i have to live with cds ALL over my room which i hate because i loose stuff so easily.

I also tried to sort out Lauras present which is almost done but my printer is crap so i'm gonna wait till tuesday to give her, her presents otherwise they will look ugly. Still i did Staceys present and card and ect ect. This day has gone really fast 24 hours is not enough time.

Anyways... i am going to put my little head to my pillow because i have school tomorrow and i am NOT going to be tired in my English room (i swear there is sleeping dust in that room) See ya...

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07/09/02 time: 5:50 pm
lyric: "without a passing glance, without the slightest sigh, without moving your hands, without the softest cry"
band: Further Seems Forever

Today i bought the "Furthur Seems Forever" album. Its the band Chris Carrabba (Dashboard) was in before he went solo. Its virtually Dashboard but with electric guitars, drums and bass. Except Dashboard now has a drummer and a bassist so yeh... but still i love Chris's voice its lovely.

Grrr today on the way back on the bus this kid would not SHUT UP! i just wanted to hit him. Aparently in his universe he knows EVERYTHING, yeh sure you do.... He was just talking to this kid, but the WHOLE bus could hear him. Aparently you could ask him a bout any band and he would know everything a bout them, i just wanted to say "Do you know Dashboard? Do you know Finch, what a bout Taking Back Sunday?" just to see his reaction. All he talked a bout was "Oasis", "Tenacious D" and "Incubus", come on everyone knows them! Grrr... he needed a kick up the ass.

Hehe we also tried on this bright red-lipstick like "marilyn monroe". It was pretty cool. I want some bright red lipstick now!

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06/09/02 time: 7:21 pm
lyric: "i wanna rock and role all night, and party ev-er-y day"
band: Kiss

Nice questions at the Friday Five!

1. What is your biggest pet peeve? Why?
I hate people that just can't relax.... why?! just rest, stop looking around like somethings wrong... just let go, i think to many people stress a bout themselves. Also i hate bright people, when they stress a bout work, your going to get an A no matter what you do so... shut the hell up! Bad odor, spots and horrible teeth i can't stand.

2. What irritating habits do you have?
I think to much, my emotions are really terrible i can't control crying at all. Once i can feel it coming theres no hope. Thats irritating to me... maybe not other people, some people like to make an enjoyment out of it, but there we go, those people SUCK. I also make sarcastic comments sometimes, the evil kind and i know some of my friends probably get pissed off with that.

3. Have you tried to change the irritating habits or just let them be?
When i was a kid in primary school everything seemed to make me cry. I had no confidence in myself, i found that everyone was better than me i suppose so i just got all emotional because in peoples head i thought they were thinking i was a dumbass or something... i dunno. I managed to change that a lot though, though i am still really not that strong mentally. The sarcastic thing, thats like a stress realise, anything pisses me off i just start being sarcastic to everyone or i just go insane.

4. What grosses you out more than anything else? Why?
Jellyfish, i hate them. Goes with my pet peeves, bad teeth, bad odor and spots! Also burberry.... yucky.

5. What one thing can you never see yourself doing that other people do?
Smoking.... i think its really sick. Also going to garage/dance clubs and wearing burberry.

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06/09/02 time: 6:51 pm
lyric: "i wish you would step back from the ledge my friend"
band: Third Eye Blind

I hate the fact that i can't go to gigs yet on my own. I know its dangerous but come on, everywhere is dangerous in this day and age!? and i know most mums wouldn't let their kids to London, but their kids are quite happy to go and get drunk, down town. Where i am not. I don't like my town, i don't like the people, i don't like the whole fact that if you don't have a fag in your hand or you haven't got the shortest skirt on your not cool and if you do come different they just stare at you and say something sarcastic and petty.

This year will SUCK if i can't go and see bands. It's the only thing i love to do, the only thing that really makes me really really happy. It's the only time where i couldn't give a crap a bout anyone looking at me (i feel like i fit in anyways), because i'm there to have a fun time and hear bands that i love and dance my ass off. It gets my heart jumping i guess you could say its like smoking! Except going to gigs won't KILL you.

So i'm pissed off. I wanted to see Good Charlotte tonight but because my sister is on holiday i can't, just because my sister isn't here. Sucky suck suck. What if Dashboard played?!!! Ahhh i wouldn't care then... i'd just go... just like that.

So what a boring friday night tonights going to beeee yip yip yipeee...

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05/09/02 time: 7:54 pm
lyrics: "I don't ever need you to yell at me, the temperature will rise 98 degrees"
band: Hot Rod Circuit

EYE CANDY ;)
Well my first day of school is over, it wasn't a full day but still i had a lesson of R.E and Science, i can now say the new me is going good so far. My Biology teacher is actually okay, i thought he was going to be evil and not fun at all, but he is cool. R.E, well thats just easy peasy because you just discuss stuff and i love that. The only thing scaring me is that i have 3, yes THREE lessons of SPANISH a week....??!! I am going to try so hard... i mean i got a C! so surely i can try and get a B, thats the highest i can get anyways... because we are the dumbass FONDATION! and no-one is higher because everyone is just considered dumb in spanish... silly silly silly. Anyways go to my boy section and check out the hotties!

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04/09/02 time: 2:24 pm
lyric: "you walk around with your shoulders down"
band: Glassjaw

Ahhh.. the last day of the holidays...

I'm making myself have A LOT of commitments this year and i really don't want to let any of them down. Most of them are to do with work, consentration, not sleeping in class ect ect. Others to do with people, some particular people and then just people in general. My number one priority this year is to have confidence and be happy with myself, so sick of being unhappy with myself because "i didn't get an A in that thing", "i should of done that, when that person was around", "i'm not good at anything" blah blah blah... the same sentences i hear in my head a lot. So when i go to school tomorrow, that kids gonna be glowing!

sees yaaa fat arse!

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03/09/02 time: 8:11pm
lyric: "yeahhh... whatever makes you happy"
band: Splender

Okay so i just can't play the guitar... i just can't do it! I guess i better stick to the drums... i'll keep playing the guitar to my dreams... it sucks though i would love to be like Dashboard.

Ahh today i went crystal healing at the physio (where my mummy works) it was cool i can't be assed to explain what it all is, but it was nice. Sharon (the women who does crystal healing) said when i was older she could see me doing something with Music... that was so nice. The funny thing is she said she could see me playing the saxaphone. Sharon is just someone i believe in a lot, the whole fact i go there is so she can balance my aura and just you know calm me down a bit, its nice though cos, just by looking at me she knows whats wrong with me... i mean how cool is that? Hehe saxaphone... thats like a ska band coolio!

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03/09/02 time: 09:49 am (don't ask me why i am up so bloody early)
lyric: "i wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this, to say these things to you"
band: finch

I completely forgot! I got my pictures back of Dashboard!! The ones of the stage a pretty shitty... i only got one good one of finch... and thats still pretty poo and two kinda good ones of Dashboard singing.

The other ones with him are cute, his got that twinkle in his eye and his smile is soo cute! I got this little Dashboard shrine next to my bed of pictures and stuff. It's coool. Hmmm... what to do today.. i don't know..

We go back to school soon, i suppose i'm actually kinda looking forward to it. Theres stuff to do and when i'm at school, i actually don't mind working to much, its just the people i can't stand sometimes and all the AVERAGE grades i get, while everyone else seems to be doing brilliantly (and they don't even have to work that hard).

Heres my little Resolutions this year:
Music: Don't sit around doing nothing, learn how to use crappy ass Q-base and work hard hard hard.
Drama: Actually spend a lot of time on the coursework.
Science/Spanish: Listen... try to listen... try not to get distracted.
English: Don't sleep in lesson.
Graphics: Spend ALOT of time on coursework.
Maths: I really don't know how to improve myself on this subject, i try sooo hard you have no idea. I guess when it comes to studing don't just flick through... work through the excersises.

There... and if i do all of that i must atleast get ONE B right? lets hope so.... grrr... GCSEs are kinda freaking me out.

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02/09/02 time: 7:43 pm
lyrics: "we ain't ever gonna leave, we ain't ever gonna leave, we ain't ever gonna leave this town, i said'a we ain't ever gonna leave!"
band: Rx bandits

Sow Steppy today, it was coolio! America sounds sooo cool, now i want to go to New York even bloody more!! One day... one day... Anyways Steppy bought me an Afro Ken doll with removable hair i mean how cute is that?! looky at the picture

I got a new haircut too... its cool when its styled so yeh good good thats all done! For once i actually liked talking to my hairdresser she was well alright really nice. I suppose it was because we talked a bout music and once i start with that you know... can't stop talking!

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01/09/02 time: 6:18 pm
lyric: "tomorrow... tomorrow... is different day"
band: Avril Lavigne

Wow, for once my music page is done! Its got links to lots and lots of bands that i love.

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01/09/02 time: 4:31 pm
lyric: "sweet marie, theres a whole where your heart should be and on the hill shes begging for a harmoney"
band: the anniversary

YAY! Stephys back! steppy steppy stteeeppppyyyy!!!

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1/09/02 time: 10:13 am
lyric: "with my eyes!! with my eyes wide open!!"
band: The beautiful mistake

yay i'm feeling a hell of a lot better, which is good because i didn't feel like eatting anything yesterday and that means that i definitely had something wrong with me.

I wasn't as bad as Nora though, she had to go to the ER because she wouldn't stop chucking up bless her. So if you are reading this now go HERE and wish her your best wishes cos she sounds like shes having a ruff time at the mo.

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31/08/02 time: 2:58pm
lyric: "can i sell this sunrise, in re-turn for a sun-set.. yeh"
band: Starting Line agh... last night was horrible, i felt so sick, i threw up 3 times, it was not a pretty sight. Eww i hate the sound you make when you chuck up its just so... yucky. This morning i just felt so ruff, i suppose i'm getting better now. I eat to much crap, i need to start eatting more fruit and stuff.

I'm trying to sort out the background and stuff, it just takes ages to change all the colours and get the html right. Anyways better start sorting that all out.

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30/08/02 time: 8:12 pm
lyric: "I've met so many men and... its like there all the same!"
band: The Starting line -- I'm real (punky version, soo much better)

Got a new layout on the way... its devoted to Dashboard Confessional.. ofcourse. I am sooo pissed off though, on my stupid ass british mtv they do "and the winner is..." of the vmas they show all the awards EXCEPT the MTV2 award, so they don't show the Dashboard Confessional video. WHAT LOSERS!

I really wish some person would knock on my door so i could just go out, i'm getting so bored and tired.

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30/08/02 time: 1:07 pm
lyric: "if you could be my punk rock princess i would be your garage band king!"
band: Something Corporate

It's Friday! So its the Friday Five!

1. What's your favorite piece of clothing that you currently own?
Okay well, i love my "poka dot" top A LOT, i think it suits me pretty well and its different to most of my other clothes but i also still love my H&M dress i think its gorgeous!

2. What piece of clothing do you most want to acquire?
Clothing... hmmm... i want some shoes... you can count them as clothes right? Theres these like bowling shoes in "shellys" that i am in love with, theres also this like these other little ones with bows on the end I LOVE THEM! so i want them ohhh i tell you what clothing i want... theres this poka dot dress i sow in a magazine.. i probably wouldn't wear it because i have no-where to wear it to but i love that.

3. What piece of clothing can you not bring yourself to get rid of? Why?
I just cleaned out ALOT of my clothes recently, i tell you what i can't get rid of. My primary school dress... it has A LOT of memories to it. At the end of primary school we got everyone to sign it and stuff, theres this one name (that i can't say) i circled like amillion times because i liked that person so much... hehe its really strange, and i don't think i'm EVER going to get rid of that dress.

4. What piece of clothing do you look your best in?
Poka dot top and h&m skirt i am still working on the shoes... i don't have very pretty shoes, all i have is trainers hehe.

5. What has been your biggest fashion accident?
Pink jacket... yuck yuck yuck and like combat trousers ewww. I am so glad i have a style now that i love.

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30/08/02 time: 11:34am
lyric: "does it comfort you to know you fought the good fight?"
band: D.C (yipee won the award!)

YIPEE-A-DE-DO-DAR! Dashboard Confessional won the MTV 2 VMA AWARD LAST NIGHT!!! I was really not exspecting him to win because of him being up against "the hives" and "the strokes" (i still carried on voting for him like 50 times) but he won!! He stood up on that stage looking all sweet and small just like i'd seen him face to face on monday, smiling with twinkling eyes. It was just crazy, thinking he was on the VMA stage and i'd just made him like hug me on monday... i was really happy for him, he was better than any of those other nominees, so YAY! GO DASHBOARD! I bet any time soon his going to be on my t.v screen and all the rest of england will love him... hmm then his going to seem TOO good for me dam youuu mainstream POO! Anyways i'm off i have a face pack on and need to sort myself out, i'm sitting in my bra and some trousers with a towel over my head hehe.

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29/08/02 time: 7:14 pm
lyric: "your such a sucker, your such a sucker"
band: taking back sunday

Me and Laura went crabbing today, it was sooo cool, i haven't been crabbing since i was like 7! It was Lauras first ever crabbing exsperiment. We got a bout 11 of them which was good and named them all after our ex-boyfriends/ex-lovers. Then we poked them and made fun of them. They were all fighting to get pieces of bacon it was quite amusing.

Tonight i believe me and Laura are watching the VMA awards! Which start a bout 1 oclock in the morning and finish at 4 am, should be fun. I'm gonna start drinking a lot of coffee soon.

I want a face pack and other stuff... grrr but that means i need to go to asda.. dam you asda, being so far away. I better ring Laura see if she wants to come with me. Anyways i'll be off nows.

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29/08/02 time: 10:01 am
lyric: "this ones for all the suckers who still believe in love"
band: Reel Big Fish

VOTE for Dashboard Confessional to win the MTV2 VMA award this year, the voting closes tonight, you can vote over and over so just keep voting over and over NOW NOW NOW!

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28/08/02 time: 5:49 pm
lyric: "left out, the one they pick last for the big ball game, beat up after class"
band: Yellowcard

I went to London today with my three girls (Emily, Laura and Stacey), we had quite a laugh, i all i went up there to do was to get my Dr.M shoes for school and take some pictures for graphics. We got sooo hungry though so we decided to blow all our money on a Pizza Hut Buffet... that was the most nicest buffet E.V.E.R. I have to say that Pizza is now my most favourite food. We also had two big ice creams and shared them... hmmm it was sooo nice. hehehe the racing tune hehe that was the best.

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27/08/02 time: 11:54 am
lyric: "my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me, so i die happy"
band: D.C yipeee finally sow him

I finally sow him, i even met him! Last night just kinda seems like a big haze now, i can't even descibe how i was feeling most of the night. Lets start from the beggining (this is long):

Me, my sister, Rose and Laura all came to the Electric Ballroom where there was a MASSIVE queue and we were half an hour early so it was pretty strange. My sister was talking to her boyfriend, Bill when he said that he just sow New Found Glory, he just asked Jordan to talk to my sister and so my sister talked to Jordan for a bit which was well... cool! The queue went down so quick, most of the people there had been queueing there for tickets, but we had some already so we moved right in.

The electric ballroom was a nice size, i thought it was gonna be bigger than the Forum so i was kinda pissed off cos i knew i wouldn't be at the front, but it was longer and smaller in width so i thought it was pretty nice. We walked in and looked at the merch, i looked to see that there was a finch top i was like, what the hell? My sister then said that they were playing tonight ASWELL! So thats finch and dashboard and saves the day?! Crazy! I really wanted to see finch again after seeing them at New found glory so this was like, hardcore! My sis, Bill and Rose went up the top to watch while me and Laura went up this stair bit where you could see the stage so clearly and you could also see backstage! It was brilliant, i got some really nice pictures!

Finch were up first, because no-one planned to see them most of the people just stood there just looking up. Though there were some people singing a long and bobbing up and down, there was the occastional fight pit. I gotta say we were like... probably a bout 4ft away from the stage, if my measuring right, on these stairs so we could see them so well, the finch lead singer, he was giving it his all. The drummer aswell jeebus! Excellent! We could see right backstage and all the guys from New Found Glory were back supporting Finch, hehe it was so weird Chad and Jordan were like trying to drum along with there hands in the air and they were like laughing at eachother, you just don't exspect them to be like that you know... i dunno they were like little kids. Finch played quite a good set, with "Grey matter" and "Post Script" as my favourites. When finch were done we waited and i could just tell that Dashboard was up next, the drum set was set up for like soft music (if that makes sence) and the tuneing guy came out with Chris's guitar and started strumming its such a lovely guitar... anyways.

Dashboard Confessional came out and i'm not kidding most of the croud went wild... i screamed like a little girl, but i really was so excited. He started off with "saints and saliours" and you could hear the croud singing out the words.. his little face was sooo sweet he looked so happy that everyone knew him here and i gotta say the amount of boys singing, all the guys at my school think he sings like a "girl" well, what losers THEY are, because he can stand out on stage on his own with just a guitar and get the croud completley hypered up and his singing voice sounds soooo perfect and brilliant. Yeh so yeh.. most songs he played with his band but "remember to breath" he started off on his own. I hope my pictures come out good... i got a few of him on, when i was on the stairs. Then when "screaming infidelities" came on i rushed into the croud and got as much to the front as possible and one photo of him there. I can not describe the feeling of the croud when "screaming infidelities" came on, it was just pure.. yeh pure. He let the croud sing with him i was just like singing my throat out,these girls, who weren't singing and just looked all evil kept looking at me like you weren't meant to sing at a gig or even have fun. Stupid girls. After that song he said he was going to be at the bar later... i nearly dropped dead. I ran back, cos Laura didn't come in with me and we both kinda screamed at eachother, these guys like looked at us and smiled because they were as excited as me and Laura.

He played "my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me so won't you kill me so i die happy" last. Everyone was jumping around hehe these guys infront who knew all the words hehe they were like hugging eachother cos they were so happy. Man it was so fun. After the song we quickly went to the back of the bar and waited. We went up and talked to my sister for a while then went back down and i was just standing next to Laura talking and Laura just said "oh god, his standing there", i was like "who, what, where?!", then Laura said "His right next to you!!" and there Chris was, right next to us. God my eyes... and my stomach they like dropped.

We got him to sign some stuff and my sister came down and we got some pictures. He is soooo small like only a little bit taller than me and so sweet and smiley! I've noticed that in most of his website pictures he isn't smiling, he bloody should he has a gorgeous smile! His eyes were twinkerling aswell. Loads and i'm talking LOADS of people then just crouded him, told him he was brilliant ect ect. This one girl was in hysterics of crying, myself i wouldn't of gone that far... but i did feel like i could relate to that. We left him alone because he was pretty busy, everyone wanted a piece of him. So, face to face the other support band played, i might have to download some stuff of theres laters because they sounded okays.

For saves the day we went up and just watched for the first bit, one of my favourite songs at the mo is "Coar of coal, Coar of coal and starches" which they played and what was brilliant was that Jordan from new found glory the lead singer from Alkaline trio came out and one other person... couldn't quite make out who it was were just all singing around this mic, it was excellent. After that me and Laura went for a little boggie. This guy, who looked like the lead singer from Finch was in the pit and he seriously is sooo fine. So i took a picture of him hehe i hope that comes out, he was F.I.T.

We went to the back and Chris was still there. To be honest, unless he has a guitar infront of him, he isn't THAT exciting, but he is still a cutey.

As much as i say this everytime i see a gig, THAT is my most favourite gig, its taken over meeting Kenny from the starting line. Dashboard said he'd be back soon because everyone blatantly loved him and i reckon a bout a quarter of them just came to see him. I wrote a lot! hehe... I'm sure no-one will read this, but i like to have it just to read over in the future.

Dashboard has really made me wanna learn the guitar... sooo bad. He started when he was 15! Sooo yeh.. i wanna. I can't see how anyone would not want to be on a stage like that and sing and play and you know, have kids look up and at you and sing with you, its an amazing thing to see. Hmm i gotta wash i smell. Back to normal life i suppose. Oh well, i finally sow him thats what i've wanted to do for soooo sooo long!.