Hmm.. so i'm going to be single all this six weeks then! fun fun fun. Ahh i don't mind that much, to be honest i don't wanna be sucked into the "i'm in love lets just be with my lover ALL THE GOD DAM TIME" faze. I think you just ruin yourself. Cos when you finally do break up, your completely alone and you just depended on that person for all your time and now there gone you can't do jack shit. So yehh i think thats silly. I have ben and jerrys ice cream and lots all kick ass food in my cupboards to keep me going for a while. Then once i get bored i'll start to keep my eyes open. But for now i can actually say, its nice to be single. No worring that your going to get dumped, no worring about how you look, no depressed lonely nights, no waiting for the phone to ring. Nada.
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29/07/02 time: 11:09 am
Urban games was really fun! First off we got free stuff just for un-raping some stuff which was cool and me and steph found this cool posters that we nicked and carried around with us all day! The bmxing was excellent, the boys said there wasn't any "pros" there but i was still really impressed. They did some nice tricks (and i am learning the names). The wheather couldn't of got any better, it was really hot which got a bit annoying but once we found this cool place to sit everything was good and i had a bikini top on so it wasn't that bad. I am sooo tired though so i might just lie around today.
I think i'm gonna watch sex and the city series one soon hopefully.
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27/07/02 time: 5:40pm
yipeee urban games tomorrow!! get in my pantssss
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27/07/02 time: 5:38pm
hehe my sister doesn't know but i took this picture of her when she was messing around on the cool cam.
hehe I'm gonna re-do the friends section cos it looks messy and is generally pantalone. Oh yay, atleast i'm not doing completely nothing tonight, i'm watching a film with my sissy, its got freddie prince junior in it so surely it can't be THAT bad.
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27/07/02 time: 5:36 pm
I love Avril Lavigne! Her song complicated is the bestest! I listened to her album in HMV for quite a long time, the hmv peeps were looking at me all weird like. Probably cos when i hear some music and i know that i like it the moment i hear it i have a big ass smile on my face hehe.
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27/07/02 time: 5:26 pm
Grrr... couples again. I have the feeling i'm going to be soooo jonered these next 2 weeks. yipeeee. Hmm... what to do... what to do... I mean my sister and my brother both have lovers so there both busy all the time grrr.... i need a job or something... i suppose i have graphics but thats hardly fun fun fun.
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27/07/02 time: 3:37 pm
oppsy the friday five is a bit late!
1. How long have you had a weblog?
Well only for alittle while, i started this in December 2001.
2. What was your first post about?
Well first post was a bout just going to see New found glory, with my best buds ahhh that was quite a good night. Shortly after i did my first friday five :)
3. How many changes (name, location, etc.) of your weblog have there been, if more than one?
Well i've stuck to this location because its free, and QUITE easy to get into. The main name is "my own paradise" because obviously this is MY site and i put anything that i want to on it and its just a little place i put my thoughts down too. I do have little names like for now its "get in my belly!".
4. What CMS (content management system) do you use? Do you like it or do you want to try something else?
Hmm well i'm a dumbass so i don't really know what that is. I suppose its what supports your system so i hate Geocities... even though its free and stuff i hate it. Its really limited and basic, i can't put any sounds on here because it won't upload it. I wish i could have a .com or .net or .org or whatever but they cost money, one day i hope to have my own little site thats a bit more adventurous.
5. Do you read people who have both a journal and a weblog? Or do you prefer to read people who have all of their writing in one central place?
The only main journal and blog i read is Noras, i can't get into any other persons. Shes such a fluent writer and she doesn't write really crap stuff. Which i love. I mostly like to read blogs first then if i really like that i read the journals, theres not many "young" writers though they all seem to have kids and are married... which i don't find wrong i do love to read a bout peoples little kiddys but i love teenage lives.
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22/07/02 time: 08:03 am
OH MY GOLLY! I just got the package through from drive-thru that i was wating for for sooo long. THE STARTING LINE CD! YIPEEEE! I even have the speacial eddition front cover and its signed by all the band! I'm a bit dissapointed its not made out to me but i love it like sooooo much! I can't believe its the speacial eddition front cover how brilliant! Ahh that has made my monday morning perfect! anyways gotta go to school!
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22/07/02 time: 07:50 am
Hey there lovers...
I have found this band, that well i'm inlove with and i only have two songs :). There called the used. The next cd i plan to get is theres, but because i live in crap ass England i'm gonna have to wait to save us some of my money and either get it from slip disc or amazon. But as i now judge from Amazon they blatantly have to ship over from America and then get it to here so it takes a billion weeks to actually get to your house. How sucky.
Anyways theres the pic of the used cd and if you want any song get the taste of ink.
"And won't you think I'm pretty, when i'm standing on top the bright lit city, and i'll take your hand and pick you up, and keep you there so you can see." i love that line real cool.
I'm seriously thinking of starting off a proper music site like for punk/emo/hardcore kind of like emotionalpunk.com except i would kind of give it something different i dunno what, but i love that website it rocks. The only problem is, i would need help and most the kids i know just can't be assed with stuff. I mean i would do all the html blah blah blah, but also it means like buying cds looking into stuff making sure i get all the news. I am sooo up for it but you know.. i need help. Sucky that would be soo kick ass though. Also you need to promote it. I could make stickers and stuff and slap them all over london. Hmm.. i need to think about that.
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20/07/02 time: 3:43 pm
Ahhh don't you just love it when you go shopping and just realease yourself into your own little world of clothes and forget a bout everything thats bothering you. Ahh thats what i had today. It was cool, i got some kick ass tops and face pack and tea tree oil and this really LOVELY belt that i am proud i now have. Friday was not a pretty sight... it was fun but incredible.... not right. Anyways i love H&M and i love the new "new look". H&M kids section its just sooo bargain!
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19/07/02 time: 5:32 pm
friday five
1. Where were you born?
Maldon, Essex, England
2. If you still live there, where would you rather move to?
I live near it, in a little town not to far away. I would like to move to a city but only for a little while i do like living here its a nice area.
3. Where in the world do you feel the safest?
Where i live right nows.
4. Do you feel you are well-traveled?
Pretty much, i'm young, when i'm older i can go on loads of road trips right? I do want to travel to italy and america.
5. Where is the most interesting place you've been?
Devon, i love it there. The wildlife and nature is beautiful. Its so.. not disturbed there and i could just sit in spots for ages just looking around so places just look like fairys have been there or something.
Just gonna say i can't get any pictures cos my CRAP ASS scanner isn't working poo poo poo!
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17/07/02 time: 4:18 pm
yip yip yipee more pictures coming very soon. And new background :)
17/07/02 time: 08:01 am
okay my connection is a load of poooo recently. I can't go on in the evenings cos well i dunno my internet just sucks ass. I didn't try yesterday though cos i went round kyles house to help with his little baby bro. He is the most cutest thing EVER. His name is Micheal and his only 3. Everytime i ask him "who do you love" he says "you" and he was shouting I LOVE YOU, CHLOE hehe it was excellent. Though he is hyper like alll the god dam time. But still lovely.
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14/07/02 time: 11:03 am
Well i'm back!!
And bloody glad i'm back too. I did like my holiday in spanio, it was sooo nice to get away from people, but then when i go i just end up missing them well most of them, i can say a couple of people i was really happy just to not see!
The wheather was gorgeous! I'm talking hot all the time, and living in england its speacial to just get alittle bit of sun! So i have the BRIGHTEST tan lines on the earth. I know this is kinda retarded but i went in to the sea for like the first time in my life, i'm talking all the way in though and like proper swimming around. It was real fun i have a new love for the sea now. Except i still get freaked out that jelly fish and shit are in there.
My sister managed to get me into Tenacious D! Dam her! Now i can't stop saying little things from the songs like "with karate i'll kick your ass" and "you broke the rules now i'll pull out all your pubic hair". We ofcourse found some new things to say and made up some cool names like the life guard he was called "testi" i don't know if you'll understand but its a secreat anyways wink wink. Everytime i think something is stupid i'm gonna say "oh that is so pantalon" so i think thats gonna replace the "gay" word. Yeh and also this other cool little song "goodmornin miss m, goodmornin miss m".
The worst thing on my holiday was the plane flight back i hated it! I wanted to break down, i felt sick these people infront of us were so bloody annoying. The put there seats right back and this woman serious she must of had a twicth in her back she wouldn't stop moving. The whole fact that you have like 5 cm to put your feet into aswell. Our flight was delayed and we got back and 1 oclock so the time we got home it was 2:30 in the morning grrreat. I'm okay now though and ofcourse doing my early morning surf and update.
I got a gift certificate for amazon from my cousins for my b-day which is sooo cool because now i've got taking back sunday. Another album i wanted yipeeee. Also coming up i should get my "starting line" cd yip yip yip.
Hmm you know what? i think i'm ready to make this site alittle for cheerful again. I'm getting sick of the darkness! Anyways i'm off to have a long fat ass bath then i'm gonna play music really loud and spend some time talking to my guinea pigs. Oh yehhh i wanna see scooby doo... i gotta sort that out with my lover friends see yas.
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05/07/02 time: 07:45 am
Its the friday five guy and girls!
1. Where are you right now?
Sitting at my desk, scowling at my computer because the connection is really really slow as you like. I'm in my school stuff, thinking about my holiday tomorrow yipeeee!
2. What have you lost recently?
hmmm... if you talking about friends then i lost one good one. Suppose its been three weeks now or four, but it is really sucky.
3. What was the first CD you ever purchased? Does that embarrass you now?
You know what when i was a little kid i don't ever remember getting cds. I think i'm gonna guess a compilation like "Boom!" with all the really cool old hits like "bomb shake shake shake the room" and "two can play that game", i'm not embarrased at all i love that album classic to the max! My first ever "band" album was sugar ray and i'm always going to remember that.
4. What is your favorite kind of writing pen?
Pens... hmm... i like fountain pens i suppose the best but i never can be assed to get the ink!
5. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Ben and Jerrys at the moment it would be Chocolate Fudge Brownie, but i do love New York Super Chocolate Fudge one!
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04/07/02 time: 7:27 pm
hmm.. i just got happy birthday sung to me (5 days late) but you know, i suppose we have been busy this week. I've just got the most strangest dayjuvo. ehh.. its gone nows. So again i seem to be talkin to this person again.... sooooo gonna end up in ruins. But my life is boring... so might as well spice it up a bit. Also you type in strawberry laces in yahoo search and guess what pops up? yeh thats right my webby. hehe thats so cool i love it.
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04/07/02 time: 7:21 pm
Holiday on saturday... yipeee away from the crappy town called south woodham ferrers.
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01/07/02 time: 7:49 am
Back to normal school life... hmm.. atleast its a monday and i have vanessa carlton to keep me through the week. So maybe i'll just about get through. Plus i have my holiday soon. Its weird normally i hate going on holiday but i am sooo looking forward to gettin away from this god dam town. Away from all the little people i can't stand... perrrfect.
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30/06/02 time: 6:56 pm
I've just relaxed all day... and its been nice just to do that. All this week i've been having to study or play with my band or just get something out the way. Today all i did was watch harry potter, eat potatoe smileys and chicago pizza and just generally lie around. ahh... so nice.
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30/06/02 time: 12:53 pm
My birthday was nice. Well i liked it anyways, i got abit emotional in the morning for like no reason. But it got better. Prom was very scarey, all of the people were quite evil to start off with (they told spankin harry to get off the stage, the band before us) and this girl shouted you better not be as S*** as that last band when we came in. We got up and realised we had nothing to lose so just tried our best and it was alright we got some people dancing even singing along to some of the songs. :) made me happy. Ofcourse there were the typical aparently "popular" kids there. Just sat staring, they probably couldn't believe that people actually PLAY INSTRUMENTS and theres different music than garage and dance. What a shock that must of been to them.
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28/06/02 time: 5:25 pm
oh look its friday .... five already!
When was the last time you...
1. ...sent a handwritten letter?
Hmmm... this is hard. I wish i did right more letters but the thing is who would reply? I always used to write little letters to my friends ages ago. In my english exams i did have to write about the pressures teenagers go through that was fun.
2. ...baked something from scratch or made something by hand?
I made some muffins with laura a while ago they were gorgeousss yum yum.
3. ...camped in a tent?
Does my back garden count? that was soo long ago.
4. ...volunteered your time to church, school, or community?
I'm a kid, so that would be kinda of hard since i already go to school. hmm.. I play with my bands and we raised money for a skate park in our town :)
5. ...helped a stranger?
This guy was lost in his car and i gave him directions to a road... does that count?
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27/06/02 time: 8:30 pm
Lets all take a minute to think of all the lucky bitches and bastards that get to go to the warp tour...... I SHOULD BE THERE YOU LUCKY UNGRATEFUL PEASANT FOOLS!
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26/06/02 time: 6:02 pm
I just had a gorgeous day in compass, its very sunny outside. I either got burnt or just very tanned... i'm hoping for the tanned one. We played basket ball, and ran around on our bikes, me and steph sun bathed for a while and we ate loads of ice poles. Very soon i'm going to see less than jake too what a lovley day this has been and the night is very very young so more good stuff could happen you never know!
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26/06/02 time: 11:08 am
So jealous of this
girl and her voice.
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25/06/02 time: 10:34 pm
And i am more than you will see, and i am more than you will need, and i am more than you will see, more than wanted...
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24/06/02 time: 4:12 pm
my head hurts... i think i was thinking to much today! If that makes sense.. anyways i'm seeing less than jake soon. For the first time. I miss them every god dam time they come over here so finally i get to see my ska babies and do some crazy dance moves. But the next day is my maths and physics exams... oh dear looks like i'm gonna do poopy on them! grrreeat. I really should study but as normal my brain just decides to sit here and do nothing. I wish i had some little person inside my head whipping my brain telling it to actually do something, then maybe i would study ohhh come on i have to now. okay gotta go updates laters.
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23/06/02 time: 10:45 pm
ahhh yes... though most of you don't care i'm gonna brag! I'M GONNA HAVE A SIGNED COPY OF THE STARTING LINE ALBUM NAH NAH NAH NAH NAHHH! :p yay yay yay!! i can't wait to have it... so looking forward to having it... so am... anyways i'm crappy myself over exams this week..
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22/06/02 time: 11:12 pm
I can't find Nora's journal anymore... ofcourse if you know me i'm obsessed with her journal. She's a girl that i wish i could be. She's smart, honest, funny, cool, pretty and brave, everything i would love to be. She lives in one of the biggest citys in the world (new york) and seems to live a pretty average life. You wouldn't really think reading about someones average life is that fun, but there is something different about Nora. She could just write and sometimes it would actually make you laugh, or think about what shes talking about. Whenever she talked about her mum i'd find myself in tears at the end. Her thoughts were interesting and fun. It was just nice to read a 21 year old girls journal who had an average life, the life i would sure not mind living... she was making it on her own and i want to do that... hmm... makes me sad that i might never find about what shes up to in the future. Well... if she ever does stumble across this page i managed to find this picture of her because all thats left of her journal page now are the index of pictures i picked out my favourite one.. so here it is.
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21/06/02 time: 08:46 am
If you haven't seen my web cam pick of kenny then this is him singing aswell... we took the pic of him smiling when we met him at new found glory... ahh that day was good..
