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21/06/02 time: 08:37 am
okay so i slate football alot... by our game against brazil... its actually quite cool to watch.

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21/06/02 time: 08:36 am
I haven't done the friday five in a while. So here it is!

1. Do you live in a house, an apartment or a condo?
House.

2. Do you rent or own?
Own

3. Does anyone else live with you?
Well, my mummy, dad, brother (when his not at uni), sister, 2 guinea pigs and 1 tortoise.

4. How many times have you moved in your life?
I've never moved. I've always lived in this house but i love this house A LOT and i never want to move.

5. What are your plans for this weekend?
Well, tonight going for a meal to celebrate my lovely friend Sophie Bowmans birthday. Then on saturday have my bouncy castle ( even though its aparently going to rain :( ) Then on sunday.... i got to have a band practise for prom.

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19/06/02 time: 9:50 am
oh yeh get this! i get to sleep on my bouncy castle on the friday cos i'm going to have it for the whole night for my birthday and then i get to have it on the saturday with all my girly friends! hehe how cool and its 18 by 18 and thats huge! So yay!

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19/06/02 time: 9:41 am
grrr.... why is the writing green at the bottom! how retarded! its not updating itself. Silly geocities. Well anyways do u like the newish layout? Its all depressing which is cool and theres a lot to read. I dunno.. i just felt like writing all those lyrics. If you don't know me then i'll tell you now i'm a pretty big music freak. Music is probably the only thing that gets me through problems and when i'm feeling abit rough. Takes me into my own little world, where no-one else can bug me and theres no-one to make me feel bad about myself. Thats why i love it. ahhh... anyways i have my first exam today english yipeee.

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18/06/02 time: 9:32 am
I have the day off to study today, so thats what i'm gonna do. I've got a new background coming along, its abit more depressing... but you know... i feel depressing. I got to wash, i smell then i study biology and chemistry. Also i gotta find out about african drums and regae (if thats how u spell it). So over these next few weeks i might not do my whole sight because of exams and other stuff.

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17/06/02 time: 8:29 pm
ohh i can't be assed to change the whole thing its really hard trying to come with an idea and then try and think of the html to try and fit your idea. i like the way my website is just right there you don't have to move up and down you its just all infront of you. So i'm gonna keep it and just change the colours. Maybe do a new background see what that all turns out like!

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17/06/02 time: 8:22 pm
I wanna change this website, i like this layout alot but come on its getting abit old isn't it? I still haven't finished off all the band thing, woops. But you know, who actually can be bothered to read it except for me. I need a new web cam pick i was trying to get kenny from the starting lines smile but paint made all the colour go gay. If i start doing a new layout... i'll be on here all night... oh well.... i'm not even going to school tomorrow! Study leave... study leave da da da da da da da daaaa (okay if you sing it to the theme of spider man it goes so well)

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17/06/02 time: 8:18 pm
All day all i've had is... "why do birds suddenly appear everytime you are near? just like me they long to be, close to you. Why do stars fall down from the sky, everytime you walk by? just like me they long to be close to you!" its not a bad thing but i seriously can't stop singing it.

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15/06/02 time: 7:37 pm
i got the most loviest dress today from h&m (thats soo my favourite shop) its really cool, pink and flowery. So i'm happy. Afro ken is the coolest dog around. hehe i love the t-shirts with him on. Exams soon, its good because of study leave, but kinda scarey because each of them is like 2 hours or some kind of insane time like that. I bet the maths is like 100000 pages long and i'll be trying to race through it as fast as i can. The only remote one i'm looking forward to is my graphics because i actually have a good imagination and i can use it pretty well but thats about it.

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12/06/02 time: 9:29 pm
Keep em, fuck em or dump em?? what a good game

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12/06/02 time: 9:18 pm
i wanna update the site abit more, but you know what i really can't be bothered. My ankle hurts and i really should be studing. But i'm sitting here, on the most uncomfitable chair, my back hurts, my eyes hurt, my ankle bloody hurts doing absolutly nothing. No activeness in me AT ALL.

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11/06/02 time: 1:27 pm (18 days till my birthday)
Ahhh.. yeh i needed a day off school. Sort out of head. Even though i had a whole holiday to do that... but i think i needed one more day before i face everything and everyone.

I love the new michelle branch song -- all you wanted. Its good. I love the lyrics and her voice is cool. Hmm.. everytime my brother comes back from uni i get more and more jealous. He is soo lucky, i mean he has talent and he gets to use it all the time. I swear if the some of the world doesn't see his talent, theres no hope for me.

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08/06/02 time: 12:17 pm

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08/06/02 time: 12:15 pm
//my name is: Chloe
//i may seem: Happy
//but i am: mostly depressed
//people who know me think i am: silly
//if you knew me you'd probably think i'm: strange
//sometimes i feel: like not talking to anyone
//my days are pretty: crappy
//in the morning i feel: smelly
//in school i: sleep
//i like to sleep: in school
//if i could be doing anything right now i would: Not in south woodham ferrers with someone i loved.
//money is: annoying
//one thing i wish i had is: Talent
//one thing i have that i wish i didn't is: my ears
//all you need is: love
//all i need is: love and music
//if i had one wish it would be: to make sure i would be happy in the future
//when i look in the mirror i see: someone that needs to have some happy pills
//love is: friends, lovers, family.
//my body is: hungry
//my mind is: what mind? i think god forgot to give me one of them...
//if an angel flew into my window at night I would: smile at it.
//if a demon flew into my window at night I would: kick its ass right out.
//if i could see one person right now it would be: Laura
//something i want but i don't really need is: something i can't say.
//something i need but i don't really want is: something i can't say.
//i live for: love and music
//i am afraid of: being alone, being rejected, having no future.
//it makes me angry that: I am so weak (Physically and mentally)
//i dream about: being famous and being loved.

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08/06/02 time: 11:58 pm
I haven't smiled in days.... ahhh so fricking sad. I do feel better though, the last few days i've been pretty suicidal and just been laying in my bed... smelling. Well atleast laura comes back today! AND i FINALLY get my bike fixed, so i don't have to walk to my exams when i get study leave. I can ride from my house and it will only take like 5 mins. So i can get even more sleep and even more time to revise. clever me.

The new redone version of the starting lines "cheek to cheek" is lovely! His voice is very different. I love it when they shout "TRYYY" thats blatantly the best and the whole song is lovely. I got some of the song on my answer phone when i sow them live.
I recomend you download cheek to cheek by starting line.. go to http://www.mp3.com and type starting line in the search bit you can find the rest by yourselves.

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06/06/02 time: 8:16 pm
Internets being shite as normal. So i won't be on here so much. Ahhh i miss laura... i need to talk to her and her to just sit there and listen... i like that. I miss her god dam house its so quite and tiny and cosy and cool. God dam... why does she have to go away.

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03/06/02 time: 5:49 pm
Just sow star wars it was pretty god dam excellent! Yoda should blatantly fight more! I mean when he started fighting it was brilliant, then he stoped picked up his walking stick and started hoping like a grandad again... silly little thing.

So now i bet i have a long night of nothingness, no-one to see, nothing to do yay i lead such a fun life... me and my computer... yeh i'm not a joner.

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02/06/02 time: 3:14 pm
i might not be able to update that much because my computer is being a gay boy and not connecting me. I only just got on here to do this so yeh. Maybe it will stop now but i dunno. erghh theres to much to think about this half term holiday:
exams -- studying, making sheets of when they are what to study, when to study and so on
When i can buy my god dam Reading festival ticket!
When to go out, i really want to now because its lovely outside but theres no-one to go with... grrrreaat.
When to get my bike fixed.
When to practise drumming.
When to sort out my birthday!

Its pretty annoying, half of my classes have even told me what to study for these shitty exams. Graphics, what type of drawing shall we study, what will the exam even ask us to do! Music, i missed half of the classes because i was doing Art and to be honest we hardly write anything down. Chemistry, where has my teacher been for 3 weeks? ehhh... no energy is left. I am gonna be crapping myself in my maths exams... i HATE maths. I can hardly do SIMPLE math let alone all this Quadractic equations shit. I need a hug... ehhh or atleast someone to talk to. I have been alone at home all day (even though i did have a long and interesting talk with my tortoise.. yeh that was fun watching her eat some apple)?! jeebus i am SUCH a joner... oh well life goes on.

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30/05/02 time: 7:41 pm
my eyes, with my eyes wide open... lelelee the beautiful mistake

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29/05/02 time: 6:01 pm
oh yeh its my birthday in a month!!

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29/05/02 time: 5:51 pm
Well so far 2 very boring nights and this will make it a third. But i have the girls coming round for band and i'm going to buy some food for some recipes i've found in the cook book "roald dahls revolting recipes" because they are the BEST! I'm gonna make Butterscotch (from charlie and the chocolate factory), Bruce bogtrotters cake (from matilda) and wonkas nutty crunch surprize (also from charlie and the chocolate factory)... ahhh they all look so yummy...

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27/05/02 time: 7:31 pm
I have really horrible and painful growing pains in my knee and i have the feeling this is gonna be a crap monday night, infront of the t.v. grrr.. so lonely.
random song lyric: OPEN YOUR EYES! WAKE UP WAKE UP WOAHH WAKE UP WAKE UP WOAHHHHHH!!!

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27/05/02 time: 07:44 am
Noras just wrote another cool entrie. I also just got this from her
Name an album that changed your life for any reason:
Sugar Ray -- 14:59 and Dashboard confessional -- the places you have come to fear the most.

CD you listen to the most:
Dashboard confessional -- the places you have come to fear the most

Favourite makeout song:
Dashboard -- Screaming infidelities, Incubus -- Stellar, Incubus -- are you in?

Your favourite CD from your parents' collection:
hmm... i really kinda wish my parents brought me up on some of there music but i was never forced to listen to it and since i was a little brat i never thought it would be good to listen to anything... hmm maybe i should see what they got.

Song you always sing in the shower:
Well my newest one was incubus -- are you in... thats a gooden.

Song or album you would want played at your funeral:
Dashboard confessional -- screaming infidelities hehe just for the cheese value Good Charlotte -- Waldorf Worldwide

Favourite album when you're depressed:
Dashboard -- the places you have come to fear the most.

Favourite album when you're mad at the world:
Finch -- What it is to burn (you've got the screaming but then the singing its quality)

Favourite album to listen to on a sunny day:
311 -- Chaos, Good Charlotte -- Good Charlotte, Saves the day.

Favourite soundtrack:
Empire Records, its a classic!!

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26/05/02 time: 3:07 pm
Is it me or has is been raining all god dam day?

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25/05/02 time: 7:09 pm
Somehow i think i'm going to become really addicted to big brother this year... oh dear for me...

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24/05/02 time: 11:32 pm
My star sign is sooo me its just strange.
It's easy to spot a Cancer by their round faces. That physical characteristic reflects the soft, affectionate nature of this sign. Cancers are very much about home and security and nurture. The crab can be a bit of a packrat, because he or she may attach emotional value to things others may consider junk. They can be overly emotional, and they tend to fantasize about the past and what it meant for them. Cancers are incredibly loyal as mates, but don't ever tell them what to do. Sometimes Cancer is very sociable, but sometimes they need their alone time. This sign is very giving, but has a tough time receiving the generosity of others. Because of their nurturing qualities, they are great at jobs in which they take care of others, such as nursing.
Anyways i'm off to listen to incubus -- are you innn nows cos its in my head and i need to hear it.

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24/05/02 time: 6:23 pm
So jealous

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24/05/02 time: 4:23 pm
okay because now the friday five has made me wanna talk about my dreams i'm just gonna tell you my most favourite dream because i do love it so.
Well, I'm in the most prettiest place, it has trees and mountains in the distance with a waterfall too. The waterfalls quite near me and there are rocks all around too. Its pretty gorgeous. Steph, Laura and Emily are all there with me. When suddenly they all start flying and they all have wings. They look like angels. So because i want to fly too i just somehow can fly and wings come out of my back and i have golden wings... ahh.. it was just sooo beautiful. I woke up soo happy that morning.
Anyways i'm gonna read this thing about lucid dreams now.

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24/05/02 time: 4:18 pm
I love the dream questions for the friday five! this week.
1. What's the last vivid dream that you remember having?
Jeebus last night was really really strange. My sister had to help her friend with her lebien girlfriend (who looked like a cat?!) So i watched out my window. There was like a big person lying on the floor made out of stones and that was my sisters friend (kinda looked like a ginger bread man). Then this lesbien girlfriend came but all i could see was the back of her head and she was sooo tall. I sow the ginger bread girl look really angry and i thought that she wqas gonna punch the lesbien girlfriend but i woke up. It was weird. I also had a dream that i had a shop it was a really small shop but with loads of sections and i couldn't wait to but loads of cds and clothes for it to sell. There was a tiny kitchen in it too and my mum made cookies!

2. Do you have any recurring dreams?
No, i never really have any recurring dreams, sometimes in my dreams i think i've been there before though.

3. What's the scariest nightmare you've ever had?
When i was a kid i got alot scared by this one dream, it was where i had a big volt (like the one donald duck had with all the money inside he would swim in it) and there were dinasour heads on the walls, so i was in this volt and the dinasours came out and started chasing me. Dunno why i found that so scarey. Now it doesn't bother me. I've had dreams where my dad got stabbed before too that was horrible and you know when you can't run or scream i hate them.

4. Have you ever written your dreams down or considered it? Why or why not?
Sometimes i write dreams down in the middle of the night because in the morning i know i won't remember them and it will bother me for the rest of the day or sometimes i just like to remember the dream like certain bits of it that made me smile.

5. Have you ever had a lucid dream? What did you do in it?
Ahhh yes... well i've had 2 main ones that i remember. I was just walking along a road like with fields around me. These two people were walking next to me, i'd never seen them in my life and just didn't know them. But we were talking... can't really remember what about. All of a sudden i knew i was in a dream, so i said "hey, i'm in a dream this is soo weird" and these two people said "really thats soo cool!" but then i could feel myself waking up so i said that i had to go thanks for talking to me it was nice to speak and then they like waved and said bye and i woke up.. i remember waking up smiling so much though, those two people were so nice.... strange. Also i had a dream where i knew i was in school, i ran around trying to find this boy that i once fancied to kiss him hehe, but i didn't wanna wake myself up. I also drew on a brick so the next day (when i was awake) i could see if it was there. In the end i couldn't find this boy and woke up.

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23/05/02 time: 6:42 pm
Dashboard confessionals at god dam READING!!!!??? i want to gooo so bad! ahhhh i am crapping my pantssss. I want to marry Chriss mwaaaaa!!

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23/05/02 time: 4:15 pm
Heres my newest question things
5 THINGS YOU HATE
1. Evil people
2. Dance/Trance music
3. Spots
4. Money
5. School

5 THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
1. Science
2. The spanish girl
3. Evil people
4. Bright people
5. My head

5 THINGS ON YOUR DESK
1. Bowl of cereal
2. Web cam
3. Tissues
4. Cds
5. Posters for Josh harnett and Freddie J

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. Steph
2. Laura
3. Emily
4. Daniel
5. Stacey

5 THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW
1. Thinking about going any second because i'm late for school
2. Typing very fast
3. Munching on some cereal
4. Picking the cereal out of my teeth
5. Thinking if i've had to hand in any homework today.

5 NEGATIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. Ears
2. Think to much
3. Get paranoid way to much
4. Bit of a dumbass at times
5. Over-protective

5 POSITIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. Have nice teeth
2. I can give good advice
3. Like to care for people
4. I play in band
5. I can write html

5 THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Have a bath in smoothie
2. Get a Vw camper van
3. Go to new york (america in general)
4. Go to see lots of cool bands
5. Move out of south woodham ferrers

5 THINGS YOU CAN DO
1. Drum (keep in time)
2. Ride a bike
3. Make a sound just a like a guinea pig
4. Run like a monkey
5. Make a sound that no-one else can

5 THINGS YOU CAN'T DO
1. speak spanish
2. science
3. Guitar
4. simple math
5. concentrate

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS
1. Dashboard confessional -- screaming infidelities
2. Sugar Ray -- Someday
3. Good Charlotte -- Change
4. Rx bandits -- What if
5. Finch -- Project Mayhem

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22/05/02 time: 4:13 pm
I'm beginning to feel school is really dragging me down. I'm getting to the fact where i find it REALLY hard to concentrate and i already have problems in that department. grrr i can't wait till this small half term break and then i get study leave for exams! Then its my birthday yipee

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20/05/02 time: 5:54 pm
I believe this is my new favourite picture! All the photos are up so go take a look in the photos then friends bit! Click on the picture to enlarge loveys.

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