So i think that it is the end of so impossible. I don't want to just leave it without a goodbye (i have loved this blog maybe a little too much)
As you can see i don't update alot anymore and i think a good blog is an updated regulary blog. My time is now spent with the love of family, friends, music and graphics and it is seriously so hard to get any free time.
However it is not the end, i'm sure i will be back pretty soon with a new website.
Right, back to my last ever blog on so impossible:
My holiday well it was, interesting. Hard to completely say everything? I got drunk... very drunk... then me and my sister started this conversation with my mum about the whole family issue of my mum and dad. Parents, they just don't stay inlove anymore and it really frustrates me because i think when you grow old once you retire, your kids have left you, you become more frail all you are left with is love. Love is a pretty cool thing to be left with you know!? So if you don't have it... then.. i suppose when you get older it would just be sorta lonesome. I don't want that for my parents.
They are not inlove. They admitted that on holiday. I know a lot of other parents who are the same. So my question is why don't you move out? why don't you get a new life meet new people?! My mum said that the grass is always greener sort of thing and it wouldn't necessarily be any better for them just to both move out.
But basically me and my sister told them that if they ever did, it wouldn't effect us, so just to think for themselves instead of us.
It was a good chat. My mum said i needed to go to a therapist... (if you look back i think i even said i wanted to go see one once?) i was pretty upset about everything in life. Aparently my mum new i was so god damn emotional ever since i was 5. But i really don't need to see a therapist.. i am perfectly happy now!
Theres a lot of other crap that is crap. But apart from that.. me and my sister had a good time. Found a pub called "the pirate"! Run by this british 30 year old who just played a bunch of punk music. Met some spanish punks and kinda wished i payed just a little more attention in those spanish classes so i could actually talk to this guy called Arogar? or something?! we managed to say sandwhich with cheese to him. "Bocadillo con queso" hehe. I got a cool belt buckle from this wicked buckle stand.
I read Catcher in the Rye which makes me wanna speak like Holden everytime i think about it. Such things as "god damn" and "sonuvabitch".
On the way back from the airport the dick of a driver nearly killed us by driving over a big rock and burst the exhaust pipe.. we had to wait for like 40 mins for another ride... the silence in the car was unbearable with that twat of a driver.
Getting back to my bed was soooo nice.
I love college, i was a bit unsure at first of the new building but i love it now and i have people to hang out with now and i love my class because all the horrible people have gone! I am already behind but i love it!
Me and Andrew (other kid in my class) are the only ones put through to do A-level Art and Design!? crazy.
Dan is cooler than ever and he has sorted out our class so much i'm just so happy! I'm a bit sad i don't have any lessons with Hannah but apart from that wow... amazing. I have even learnt how to use a camera properly and its only been the first few days.
Last night went to see Chan and Jaffs band, i couldn't get in because i needed my 16+ i.d and i just didn't bring my wallet. Me and Fi ran in the fire exit but missed there band so that sucked. I went home and met up with Rob, hugs made the night a much better outcome.
Today i moved my Mac into my attic and i now have my own art room and my bedroom is now an actual bedroom.. i'm eventually going to take all the memories down from the walls and stick it in a big beautiful book.
So there you go.
I will probably just display all the bloggings on one page. I've been doing this nearly for 3 years?! crazy crazy crazy. I have a lot of memories with this wonderful website.. from afro boy to all the quizzes and show reviews and everthing!! i love it. I guarentee you i will be back somehow somewhere
hopefully with some kick ass design that will blow your mind.
Until then...
BYE!
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06/09/04 time: 11:51 pm
Damn it, lauras present didn't go to plan :(
I am however taking her out for a meal in london. Then going to see a film.
Tonight i went to Jos house, we watched the o.c and did other random brandon stuff.
Nothing much else?! How boring am i? i have been working on college stuff, waitressing. Going to Spain next week... can't decide whether i'm looking forward to it or just wanting to get it over and done with.
I got a missed package through the post
wonder what it is?
Okay i might sleep
very tired. Managed to get loads of songs off jos computer onto my ipod so that was wicked might go listen to some.
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01/09/04 time: 11:37 am
Lauras 18th Birthday present is THE NUTS!
(who says THE NUTS?! anymore... maybe i should revive it)
Anyways it is pretty damn cool and it will be fun but she must not know till it happens so therefore it is a secret.
Last night sow the wonders of N.F.G for the third time. I had a weird bit in the show when Yellowcard were playing and i really didn't like them. I looked around at all the kids all wearing converse all wearing vans all having checkers and stars all looking so frickin' scene and it kinda makes me just want to change completely because we are all clones.
Then New Found Glory come on, possibly a band i have liked for the longest time out of most of the bands i have known and all of a sudden i'm one of those young girls jumping around in the pit being a DICK. But its so much fun...
So i'm having a dilema really of whether the music i listen to is just a waste of time. James said well its personal opinion isn't it? music is a personal prefrence. Someone can't actually say "that is crap music" and its a true fact because that is just personal prefrence? So i don't even know where i'm going with this. I guess i'm just sick of the scene. Sick of all the kids that just say a bunch of bands to make themselves sound so cool to other people.
whatever, music is music.
Back to N.F.G there was a huge problemo with the sound and all the instruments cut out for about 30 minutes, it was quite funny. They tried everything:
I got a pic! like a guitar pic? tommy picked it up and gave it to me. What a nice little one he is.
Other than that i gotta do some college work now now now.
Okay i need to post some work off to this guy who works for a company ect ect. he might get me some work experience! lovely jubbly.
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25/08/04 time:01:18 am
i buy too much crap, i just bought two cds off the net from play.com
Still waiting for a printer, one comic, a bunch of other cds and vinyl to arrive.
Got some shoes today.
Laura went to see Dashboard and i'm talking to another kid who managed to get his acoustic guitar signed by Chris himself! how beautiful. So happy for him.
Anyways i'm off to sleep.. tomorrow i will do college work.
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23/08/04 time: 9:02 pm
V festival was crazy?!
Got Vip wrist bands, so got to go to this back stage bit where all the "cooler" people were, had an incredible time seeing such bands as elbow, dashboard, all american rejects (who were so crap), pheonix, athlete, divine comedy, aqualung. Then the next day managed to get Rob in for free! i am one clever little forger (thanks to photoshop)then sow jamie cullum, n.e.r.d, massive attack, badly drawn boy...
I'm off to watch orange county
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20/08/04 time: 00:36 am
Quick outlook of my life since i last updated:
I got my exam results for Art and Design.
We are going to get some fake tans tomorrow (random but good i guess) i can get rid on the pasty skin. Then got V on the weekend days.. should be all good.
Tonight i also watched peter pan with roberto. "i do believe in fairies, i do, i do!"
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06/08/04 time: 11:19 am
Tropical Wings was a lot more comfortable yesterday so that was cool.
Ofcourse i miss my surfer chick Fia?! (guestbook) I'm sure you're having a blast with all the surfer dudes in Cornwall... very jealous.
It turns out Alex (the guy that went to warp tour) actually did get us the comics! So me and laura picked them up yesterday. They are wicked.
I'm thinking next year i really want to go to a warp tour.. So i might save up for that? who knows?
Today i'll go to work, come home... do some photoshop work.. watch Big Bro.
Oh yeah my vinyl player doesn't work :( stupid ebay.. gonna stop buying off of them... but my dad said it looks fixable. So.. we shall see. If not my dad said also that his mum (my gran) might have one that i can have for free..
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05/08/04 time: 9:46 am
i don't have enough time for this webby. Its making me dissapointed. I'm not doing enough work as i wish i was doing.
So the record player arrived yesterday, it smells of old people! but in a good way. Its beautiful, even my dad was impressed over how old it is. I'm gonna wait till he gets back from work and then play some stevie wonder.
Yesterday i went to see Stepford Wives with Mel, Rose and Joey.B, its pretty shit. Most of it doesn't make sense and it just didn't live up to the adverts. After, we hung out at Route with Shergold who was working, he is a funny guy.
Then went to support Stan with his show that he organised at Chinnerys. I wish i could stayed longer for the actual good bands but we needed to get a connection train at wickford. There were a lot of cool people there, nice to see faces. Tommy told me about the Coheed&Cambria comics being on sale and i thought f*ck it i might aswell order one on here just incase this kid that went to warp tour didn't get me one. If i have two copies i'll just sell the other on ebay.
I have work today at Tropical Wings.. i also applied for a job at Shaw Farm, i am a traitor. I will probably stop working at Tropical Wings after the holidays. Shaw Farm basically give a better pay and sometimes i think Tropical Wings is just alittle tense? it makes me feel un-easy. If i work at Shaw Farm i will hopefully work with Joey.B so, it will be a much nicer atmosphere to work in.
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29/07/04 time: 10:29 pm
My holidays so far have been rather busy. I've been at the gym! haha! its pretty fun actually, i'm not normally the active girl but i figured i might aswell give this 4 week trial thing a go and tone up.
I've been in Burnham meeting new people and going to see glowing plankton in the crouch! Also onto see a house boat which was amazing, it was beautiful inside the kitchen and living room were all open plan, I definitely wouldn't mind living on a house boat! So Burnham was wicked!
Went to the alex last night too.. really can't believe i got in?! Went with my sister, shergold, tom, james, mark and others but most left. It was cool, good to explore into the alex but i think i'll prefer it when i'm actually 18.
Other than that i've be working my butt off at the tea rooms getting some nice money.
So its my sister birthday soon and shes having a PINK PUNK PIRATE PARTY! joint with james and tom. We went to a dressing up shop and bought some accessories. I'm super looking forward to it! Lots of music and dancing and fun fun fun!
I really can't wait for my vinyl player! its so pretty! Slate grey and everything! I'm gonna play my coheed and all music over vinyl! I can hug my music!! HUG IT!
Robby bear is on a camping trip, i hope he is having fun! Running with 60 other young boys! Aparently he is the leader with three others, he got picked how cool is that! I actually miss him... which is silly because its only a few more days, i will cope ofcourse but i like my hugs!
okay gonna go to let my dad online, family day tomorrow... i don't know what to exspect since our family are just a bit of a mess at the moment? Acting like all i care about is the wheather and food and thats all i talk about is boring... but i'm sure i will cope and it will be nice.
Until then...
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19/07/04 time 7:09 pm
I like Acceptance, they are a nice little band.
I have nearly got a new layout that i might experiment on flash with but its nothing that i really wanted... i don't know whether that dream will ever come true.
Dan (the lecturer) rung me a couple of days ago, saying how he has been working for Universal and got premier tickets to spiderman 2 in london. I was jealous. He said he had a bunch of other freelance work aswell which made me wish i was doing stuff like that.
Apart from that today i went to the morleys watched their band practise which amazes me everytime! Me love their music. I just wish a singer good enough could come along to them but i know if they brought some loser into the band it would ruin it.
What else has happened?! oh Fahrenheit 9/11! GO SEE IT!!! NOWWWWW!
It is just shockingly brilliant. I came out feeling so useless and like shit, it just gives you a shock of reality that everyone should know. I just hate george bush, i can't believe when the war started i was for it. I was completely tricked? Bin Laden doesn't even live in Iraq, its fricking Saldi Arabia.
Okay i'm going chumps.
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15/07/04 time: 0:53 am
It's late, but i felt like something was missing and i figured this was it.
I don't even have much to type about? The past couple of days i have been doing waitressing, i'm a bit sad because i'm not going to be working at the farm shop anymore and even though that job was a bit boring at times, i like the people. I like Mike and perfection even it is for fruit! I like John and his stories of his son and music. I like all the regular old people getting there food. It's gay of me to say so but i will miss it.
So instead i'm going to be working at the tea rooms. Sarah has not said anything horrible to me yet, put any pressure on me or anything? And she is meant to be the biggest bitch but i just don't see it yet? I'm waiting for her evil monster to activate any time soon, but until then we are on stable grounds.
For the next couple of weeks i'll be saving for my printer, then i've decided to maybe spend a weeks wages on clothes since i never seem to buy clothes... but until the printer i'll just live on the money i have. I'm looking forward to a Spa day with laura too and maybe saving for art stuff?
Portfolio work really isn't going anywhere, since i'm just working on work for college which i could put in my portfolio i guess... we shall see.
Universitys fill my mind a lot of the time.. Bournemouth, Brighton, Camberwell, Nottingham? It's hard to think about, i hope they like me.
I want to have a band practise, i think Lucies on holiday. Owain said he will come round and help me out with some web stuff which shall be fantastic. I need to ask lots of questions.
okay i'm in my sisters room and she looks like she is a bout to tuck up into bed so i guess i better go off to sleep, i'm feeling a little more ready for bed now.
night chickens.
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12/07/04 time: 01:17 am
This week has been much about the music, as most of my time is anyway.
Firstly went to see Ben Kweller, a sweet little geeky boy from America backed with his rock band chums. I was actually surprised of how entertaining it was! Ben has a lovely taste in colour clothes and dances so brilliantly its hard not to fall inlove with the charm. The support guy Willy Mason was so sweet aswell, me and my sister quickly purchased his cd and love the songs on there even though they are not that interesting, they are just so geekerly sweet!
Friday Tom took me to see Trachtenburg Family Slide Show Players (i hope i got the name right). Okay the most originial and weirdest and kinda crapest band i have seen?! Theres the dad who plays guitar and piano, a little 10 year old girl playing drums and then theres the mum who puts on photo slides for the band to sing too. They find the slides in garage sales and when people die and just other random places?! i mean its just such a crazy idea, that it's brilliant.
And now today, Ember Avenue played at Strange Ducks album launch! It was a great party much laughs with all my favourite people. I was very priviledged to play and our acoustic set went well! So its allll cool. After watching Strange Duck we crashed at the Actons and watched the dvd, it's hilarious.. i couldn't stop laughing at some bits. I love Strange Duck.
So that is that.
I have a new website project, looks like mine will be delayed... i suck? but i need help with setting it out i guess... Also loads of college work.. i'm getting all my materials for it tomorrow.
Okay my bed looks soooo comfy with clean sheets i have to sleep...
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05/07/04 time: 5:00 pm
So yeah i have been ill..
Thats all i'll say.
My ipod is amazing. AMAZING! I love it. I reached the 1000 point song last night by hooking it up to my sisters mac. I still have way more songs to put on aswell..
Super happy.
Next i'm saving up for a printer. This week i'm sorting out:
Tonight is steves get together.
Tomorrow... is tomorrow. I want taking back sundays new album but couldn't find it today in hmv? Is it out yet? I dunno?
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30/06/04 time: 3:28 pm
Thankyou to everyone who made my birthday such a lovely day!
I recieved many a texts and it made me super duper happy! If i didn't reply its because i ran out of credit so i apologise!
I got some pretty kick ass stuff like:
So i went to Frankie and Bennys they put the happy birthday song on for me (how embarrasing but funny!) then we went bowling... a good day!
Band was good and after than i went to Sam Wilsons with Fia and Jo, Sam and the other girls there made me a card! its beautiful and i just am super happy! everyone was so cool!
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29/06/04 time: 10:12 am
this time 17 years ago i was a shrivelled little baby in my mummys arms.
So i haven't opened anything yet, i think my sister is still in bed and shes the only one who has a present for me! I'm not bothered, i have driving lessons and they cost a lot so that will save me a bunch.
I made the wings for me being a fairy yesterday for my flash project. I really want it to look perrrrfect, but i have a feeling it just won't.
Okay i'm gonna do some more designing... see you later kids..
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27/06/04 time: 11:49 am
wicked, i got paid a bunch of money yesterday and i also got paid for the cd cover i made for the physio so now i offically have enough money for an ipod.
I am also thinking of buying a pink case? or this turquoise one which is looking rather dashing.
No more poopy cd player for me!
I can now keep my cds in mint conditsssh.
So this weekend has been a bit of a blur. Ryans party on friday was pretty weird? i made the stupid decision of staying over night there when i had to go to work at 9. I only got 4 hours sleep and work was then not that fun, but i actually coped so thats cool.
Last night i had chinese with my sister and helen. We watched big bro, then watched some of glasto whilst texting some people that we knew were there.
Okay... so yeah... update of the flash project. I'm still learning some of the basics, just going over some animation stuff then i should be getting onto more interactive stuff.
Okay its a sunday and i fully intend on doing nothing but being lazy.
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23/06/04 time: 8:01 pm
So i've gone back to the basics with flash, because if i'm going to learn this programme then i decided i'm gonna learn it good and well.
This fat ass book is guiding my way and i've already learnt some stuff i had NO IDEA about on the interface, so yeah! wicked.
I'm thinking that i won't have a clue with the action script because i think that it is a new code completely from html. But i'm gonna try, nothing to lose right?! and if i come back to college with all this brilliant knowledge then i can be the coolest computer geek! I can also teach a few people in my class because i know how much they want to learn too.
Anyways... back to the world of flash. I have the greatest idea for this website... that will not only be really hard to work out in flash and dreamweaver but also incredibly hard to just make the design and pictures and stuff.... sooo... yeah... but i'm gonna give it all i got.
Love punchline. My sister comes back in a few days! woohooo
Also new work at Tropical Wings, in the tea room! Love it. Love the people. Love the work. Love earning money! I am eventually going to work round that whole place soon. I mean i got the farm shop, gift shop and now tea rooms experience?! i hope the next one is animals!
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22/06/04 time: 8:14 pm
Knackered.
People like Owain and Chris deserve awards for their coolness.
Me and Fia recorded some poopy music today.
For all those who wished me a happy birthday its actually on the 29th, but hey i accept your niceness anyways and theres no need to say it again. so yeah... Thankyou!
I have every intention of learning flash with action script this holiday. Every intention.
Okay i'm leaving to do some reading, eat some food, maybe draw something too?
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18/06/04 time: 11:56 am
Been sooo busy:
College work
Band practise
Farm shop work
Sleeping
Been seeing Yellowcard and Taking Back Sunday (which were both awesome)
Yup, i had some spare time in college, kinda fished my magazine project.
Might use some of it for a new layout or something?
Panther has successfully been put onto my Mac. Its lovely jubbly. Thanks to Owain my computer is a happy little bunny. Just need illustrator again and i will be complete!
So its the last day of college, me dan and the two shauns celebrated at Ginos Sandwhich shop. Soon after the magazine crit i will go to Adventure Island with Laura, Fia and Jo! ohhhh yeah.
What else has happened? not much!?
Tomorrow is birthday time. But not really, i'm just celebrating it round James house, which i don't think many people are going to but, who cares! Theres a bouncy castle.... it will rain, so it will be a wet bouncy castle.
Right see you cats later.....
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08/06/04 time: 11:06 am
The trains were buggered yesterday so we ended up in burnham crabbing with Fias little bro and his friend, then me and fia went on this mass walk where i got a little tooo much sun and my foot which has been hurting for ages, mainly because i stubbed my little toe into the corner of a wall whilst running to the phone and it was bleeding everywhere and its all bruised and stuff, now also my whole foot has just decided to hurt? Anyway yeah so we were walking and my foot was all silly! But! it was a lovely walk around the river and we found a bunch of chalk and wrote everyones names that we wished were with us and we drew pictures.
Then went home to find Sam (Fias little bro) had finished this wicked bike, which is like a chopper! but from a mountain bike? Its the craziest thing!
I love it
It was just a great day!
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07/06/04 time:11:52 am
With the Fi, we are going to go into college today to do some extra work and stuffff.
Band was wicked yesterday, our new song is amazing... no kidding... well i hope it is amazing. I would buy it. Then we started another song called "Friendship In Postage", which is also beautiful and i'm quite proud of the lyrics on that one.
Other than that, i have been chizelling wood like a mad man to get a print for my magazine, i have one cover done of me and fia looking upwards in this field on illustrator, which is okay i guess... i need to improve the field but Dan said it was wicked so yay!
Right we gotta leave soon so better be off.
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03/06/04 time: 8:31 pm
Update of the weeks events:
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28/05/04 time: 9:23 am
Coheed was wicked.
Played all the best songs, really really well. Everyone was there? it was crazy! There were too many people to talk to.
My favourites were "Die White Girls" and "Everything Evil". They sound like such a metal devil band... but they are not at all.
I wanted to buy a t-shirt but it was so big... i want to make my own... but i suck.
So today i took a day off college... the good news is I AM COMPLETELY UP-TO-DATE on work.
Okay off to tidy before my sister awakes.
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24/05/04 time: 9:51 pm
I've only just realised that graphic design is the new art.
Its the new paintings...
When i was a little kid i remember the first job i wanted to do was to be a painter..... strange how it comes back to me at 16
I keep getting mixed feelings about where i'm taking my life, whether i'm really good enough at graphic design to be with the giants... which is where i want to be.
I will keep at it, i will try. Maybe i need to lock myself in my room with my curtains closed for a week and see what i come up with.
Jo-jo-mojo, has taken the nicest photographs of Fia in Jos prom dress, they seriously look like they could be in perfume ads or something. So i'm gonna try and use them and put some illustrations over the top.
Owain came round and tried to install "Panther" for my Mac but i need to do this firmware update and we couldn't find it online... he brought round his I-Book, it is beautiful. We talked about the difference between Mac people and PC people and how much better Mac people are. I have offically been converted into the Mac religion.
I got the Echelon song i absolutely love from O's i-book. "Windows Shut Curtains Closed", aparently they hate it and the record company they should have signed to by now "Pop Tones" said they want to release it.. I love it, probably the most catchy which is why.
The keyboard sound = so relaxing
lyrics "lovein' is easy, it's easyyyyy" when pauls voice goes all high. Love it.
Co&Ca is v. soon which is good because:
Okay its nearly time of the O.C that i missed yesterday, then i'll probably sleep and tomorrow i'm gonna get some photos of me in my prom dress with Jo taking them!! Yay i love photography, i love Jo and Fia! yay!
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20/05/04 time: 10:16 pm
A whole weekend of my dad... is not going to be good
My parents wonder why i stay in my room with music on.. its so i avoid getting annoyed.
I don't know whether all teenagers have this problem where sometimes they just don't feel their parents are alright actual people.
Its harsh i know. I love my parents, i do love my dad and mum but sometimes i just.... get angry. My mum constantly talks about a subject in such deep detail and no-one else talks for like 10 minutes, its just her saying some lecture, i love her advice but she has got to learn when to stop.
But Robs parents, they just seem different people, more relaxed, not so up-tight. Okay so i'm sure Rob could pin-point some problems.. but my parents are just so "right" and "proper", i can't handle it.
I guess its just the up-bringing they have had from their parents.
I do love them. Just... i'd prefer to stay in my room and if they want to talk to me they are perfectly okay to come and talk to me.
As for art.... it is just.... OKAY.
I can't get into Brighton if i'm okay. I need to be atleast good.
Whatever. whatever....wwwwwwwwwhatever WHATEVER!!!!
Tomorrow i'll finish the okay painting, when i finish i'll do my okay war and aggression sketch book, i'll go home and listen to my okay music, in my okay room, all just a part of chloes okay life.
Being with Rob today was fun... alotta fun. He can make me laugh for ages. I tried to see how many grapes i could fit into my mouth and he filmed it..... man do i just look SOOOO ugly!
Night my okay blogging readers.... are you just okay? oh alright....you guys are amazing toooo.. love you allll.
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19/05/04 time: 8:38 pm
It is surprisingly hard to do a good scream...
I have just been trying.... to taking back sundays new song... which i may add i do indeed love..
N.F.Gs album.... what a beauty. I don't care if Jordans voice is girly and wimpy i just don't care what anyone says... they are good. They are good on guitar as much as i know they are. Cyprus is a good drummer, Jordans voice is good for a boy so what the hell. They are NOT the same as any other band.
What i just wrote was lame.... but i'm not gonna delete it.
I may when i read it over again later.
Off to dance to N.F.G and play Taking back sunday again.
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17/05/04 time: 00:38 am
Just watched some late night OC
Love Seth Cohen. I want to dye my hair bleach blonde and be anna... it is definitely better than Dawsons Creek and Sex And The City.
For the rest of the day me and fi went for a walk down the river whilst listening to coheed. I did some work.
But seeing Robby Bobby is always entertaining and lovely.
Tomorrow is Brand New day! I need to go put my video camera on charge.
Goodnight my love. (gun) (co&ca)
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16/05/04 time: 2:53 pm
There are more issues to a fight over bacon and they are left un-said.
This weekend has been very tirering and i just want a day of nothing, but i have too much work to think about.
I have still enjoyed it.
Friday was lovely to see my brother, he actually seems to be doing better than i have thought.
Incubus last night was amazing. Brand New were amazing... everything was amazing. The drum solo was superb and i just want to be the drummer.
I'm super tired still and i will probably be going up to london again tomorrow to see Brand New acoustic. Its a once in a lifetime thing so i really want to go.
Apart from all that college is mainly on my mind.
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13/05/04 time: 4:51 pm
new hair cut = i am offically a boy froms the 80s
hahaha... i love it though truely love it. The hairdresser tried to do what i wanted from a picture but it was either her doing it wrong or my hair is just way to thick to do what i wanted, i think its my hair thats too thick.
I'm kinda glad she cut it so short, because she did what i wanted to do deep down but didn't have the guts and plus everyone was telling me not to do it.
When i got home immediately put it into a mohawk.
i don't want to put a picture up... i'm gonna wait to surprise robby.
Apart from that i've been doing loads of work ready for the icon exam... nearly done... did some cool stuff with hannah today which made me excited about doing the final piece.
I also want to spray on a guitar... or paint on it...
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11/05/04 time: 1:21 am
Thursday..... YAY!
Loved them, third time of seeing them, felt like the first.
Theres just something about them that is very very different. I don't sing to Thursday like i do other bands, maybe its because the lyrics are just a hell of alot more harder to catch to.. but.. i don't know. I really just appreciate the music with this band more than other bands.... talking a bunch of poop i know. But yeah... Geoff is amazing, i secretly have a crush on him but at the show i think he admitted to being gay... so my fantasys will never be fullfilled. Good on him for it though.
They went through a lovely selection of songs... not playing standing on the edge of summer made me sad because thats where i discovered them.. but what the hey. I LOVE WAR ALL THE TIME. i'm glad they chose to release that as a single because i love it, musically its not the best but i still love it.
All the way through i was just smiling at that show.. so happy... so happy. All the normal crew were there. Love all my friends including the Fi who is sitting right next to me now and its 1:13 am so we better sleepy! We both have college today but bugger it... Chloe is way to not bothered about that crap (i actually love my education at the moment, but music... music is the dream). Chloe will be in a kick ass band when shes older selling a few records and earning enough money so it doesn't matter?!!!! right!? RIGHT?
yeah right... its gonna happen.
Any last words Fia?
Ember Avenue Rules....
Chloe Says
Damn Right Bitch!
Fia Says
Not as Much as Thursday
Chloe Says
Its time to sleep and dream.
Night possums.
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9/05/04 time: 12:20 pm
I never thought it would happen.... i like Maroon 5.
Lucie was right, they rock.
My sister put "This Love" on a cd for me... i love it. Perfect to sing too.
So last night was the fun fun fun Fias birthday party... so incredibly funny. Southern Comfort mixed with Chloe goes well. Boys doing really rough things is funny. Last night to me proved how comfortable boys can be around eachother.... proved some views i had wrong and at the same time made me laugh so much i spilt drink everywhere every minute.
I love Fias mum and her friends too. I love Fia!!!
YAY FOR FIA!!!
I have so much work to do.... so much.... i am going to cry.... chloe is crying :( but really inside i am happy because i just couldn't care right now :)
Right i'm going to reply to some emails.... sit on the toliet and read Big Cheese then maybe just maybe do some work.
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04/05/04 time: 7:06 pm
I am actually doing some stuff with the ember avenue website.... wow.
Today was an average day, got loads of work to do but i just need to surf around and do stuff that can wind me down.
I am really looking forward to tomorrow because its Fias birthday. I love birthdays.... i love other peoples birthdays more than my own i think!
Just bought a bikini and some van slipper shoes! they didn't have my size in the pink skull ones :( so i got red dotty ones instead! :)
It just sucks that me and my sister can't go off on our own, because we really don't want to leave my poor mum with my dad. Fair enough his a nice guy but seriously.... its just.. my dad. Hard to explain.... kinda.....hmm.. thing?
Me and laura plan to get a spray tan thing too which is brillianto with me and we also plan a couple of days in Brighton... i have been looking at hotels and they aren't THAT expensive.. soo can't wait till the summer.
Next week i shall buy.. black converse... then the week after... green dunlops.... chloe is going shoe crazy but i have never had more than 2 pairs of shoes before.. so i'm thinking if other girls can have all those shoes from faith and whatnot. Why can't i have loads from converse dunlop and vans?
Soon is Thursday! i cannot wait!
Wanna go Ben Kweller... its already sold out...
Was going to go on a walk with Kyle today... but it rained lots so that washed the idea away... but we will walkie talkie another day. I miss that loser of a kid. Will be nice to catch up on an old best friend.
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2/05/04 time: 11:51 am
There are some pretty fucked up things in the world...
I could never do a thing like that, even if i thought no-one cared about me, they do.... i mean i got upset and i don't even know the kid! i just couldn't do that to anyone, make them go through the pain and upset of knowing your gone and the thought that maybe they could of done something about it...
Okay away from the upset i'm gonna climb back on my happy cloud now.
gotta be quick because i gotta go and take some photos of me being a clinche of a hopeless romantic.
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27/04/04 time: 8:03 pm
Last week i was real tough on my brain and i started to get all depressed and stuff so the weekend i just took some time out, hung out with my sister before she went back and worked some more hours at the farm shop.
Back to work though,
icons.... icons... its an alright project, its interesting but something to draw?!... i just can't be bothered to come with up something so amazing and thoughtful. I just want to draw all the kids at a Dashboard show looking up at chris.
Chris at one point in my life was a big iconic figure to me... i mean he still is... just dampened down a bit....
maybe i should show how a person like Chris can seem so wonderful to another person then behind all the scenery there a complete ass, because i reckon Chris is like that.
Might just do some really cool illustrations like Rob Dobi does. Even though they won't be cool.... they will be quite shite, because its me doing the drawing.
okay sooo... apart from all the work worry life is pretty cool. I can't wait for the holidays to be with Laura, Fia and all my other lovers. I miss them so much but i know that they are just as busy as me.
Atleast i have a new mix cd to listen to from Joe (or 'Seph) + + good cd.
bye kids. check out rob dobi.... genius illustrator
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21/04/04 time: 11:25 pm
My fingers urge to type.
Been doing college work all night... had two cups of coffee the effect is starting to ware off and i'm beginning to shut my eyes every few seconds.
But i just like to type....
Icons....icons...icons.... i have 3 weeks to do my art project.... and this one has to be in on time because its for examiners. I thought i has like 6 weeks.... turns out....
Me, Dan, Shaw and this cool graphics kid called Neil? (i think its that name) met up for Scrambledegg.com. meeting. Top secret... nah not really.. its stupid but genius at the same time. The Neil kid has aparently got distinction for every project his done in his first year!.... when Dan told me i was like wow... then wished i was like that... and little miss green eye kicked in. But i kinda need to know more people like that... so i can inspire off of them.. then maybe get my motivation up.
Seriously... my life is based around my education right now... i love it so much though? and it feels so wrong?
Might get extra hours in farm shop, except its the gift shop... hopefully helping out with childrens birthday parties!! I love children! So that will mean more money... and fun!
Okay my back and arms and legs are beginning to ach time to sleep...
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20/04/03 time: 7:28 pm
thanks dave for the insite on the V festival..
Had completely no idea it was THAT good. Well not just dashboard, went on the site and Elbow are playing?! i love elbow, athlete are playing again, divine comedy (love to see) badly drawn boy (love to see)! i hate the main line up people... suppose strokes are okay. But i love all the little bands. I wanna see! I will probably go both days and just get a ticket off a toute for �30. so still saving money.
Bought Coheed And Cambria tickets today for 5 special people! "good eye sniperrrrrrrr"
Very happy. Right i gotta go and plan more of my art piece that is just going to be the best.... not.
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Was going to take her to paris and EVERYTHING! but just didn't have enough money...
Jo has taken some beautiful photographs i was so impressed.
Going to miss Robby bear.
night ducklings.
Yellowcard the 20 something year olds jumping around on stage and all these little 14 year old girls screaming and its just erghhhhhhhhhhhhh. Why do i like this shit?
acoustic guitar but the crowd were too loud.
a mega phone but that wouldn't work
shouting
then the piano and mic started working and they played my friends over you with just the piano which was ofcourse a treat and a half! All the crowd were singing, it was just "so god damn scene", just joking. It was pretty cool.
All in all a nice little show with tom and james.
talked to dan on the phone yesterday, its always good to have reasurance from Dan about the future he is just so positive! the perfect lecturer. So yeah can't wait till the term starts.
I'm off to shower.
twas a lovely weekend.
Ill, so ill, threw up my stomach, couldn't move for a couple of days. Gave the bug to my sister, she couldn't have her party... but me and my sister have still been having a blast with eachother even if it's only infront of the television.
Had a fight with parents, some unsaid stuff was said, but it has been ignored and everything has gone back to normal with the unsaid stuff to left to be resolved but i have a feeling its going to be left for a long while.
I went away to burnham for a lovely night of pictionary and couldn't stop laughing with Fia, i love that girl and i love Burnham and house boats and random people that are all so lovely.
I've nearly managed to find some work experience thanks to Daniel, just need to get all my work together and its going to happen now that my sister has gone back to nottingham.
D
so i know its not brilliant but for a year where i have hardly tried, thats pretty fricking cool. I can get a C by next year. As for laura, i am upset she didn't get an A for english, very so upset for her. She deserves all the knowledge in the world that girl because she is just so fantastic. I know if she does it again she will pull through.
I'm pretty knackered, been working on my portfolio site. I will actually make this one.
I did know most of the story.. except the bits about the whole planets and some other bits.
If you are Tom or someone that hasn't recieved their comic yet.. don't read on.
Basically theres this solar system of planets.. they are held together by the keywork.. the keywork is being destroyed. These three different species are fighting and Coheed and Cambria were made to help the Man species, but ended up as a plan from an evil scienctist. They have had children and them and there children are infected with a virus that could destroy the keywork.. so coheed and cambria have to kill their kids and then themselves..
its pretty weird? but very cool to read and then think about the lyrics.
I finally got the email from Daniel... he is such a big help its wicked. I'm gonna start writing some emails for work experience tomorrow..
Sooo yeahhh... I better go clean my teeth before work.
I kinda blame my sister because when she is around all i ever want to do is just be with her, but at the end of the day its always my decision.
I'll buy my vinyl as soon as i know everything is in working order. It looks pretty sweet.
So yeah i ordered my comic this morning. It looks quite interesting the front cover? Don't know what to expect, i don't want to go on the message boards just incase they have all discussed whats in there. I want it to be a surprise!
After work probably go to the Gym.. then if i can tare myself away from my sister i'll try and do some work.
Dan (lecturer) has sent me this email 3 times with loads of contacts for work experience, sky, mtv, channel 4 ect ect. and i just have not got it? Whats up with that? I really want it too... poop.
Okay i'm off to have a shower.
I also managed to win myself a vinyl player on ebay! its all vintage and 60s! i love it, i was meant to spend the money on a printer, but maybe i'll have some money on sunday for it? but not sure... need to buy presents for people...
Dude i'm such a loser but seriously, love music.
I guess i can hug my vinyl now!
Me and rob also bought an mp3 player for him off ebay! Dude, i'm beginning to fall for the ebay loving. I'm gonna start buying clothes soon, which is what tom and james do!!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Fia gave me my birthday present today. Jeff Buckley Cd special with dvd and everything! so cool. Will watch maybe tonight with Roberto.
She also gave me this play of music with the COOLEST pictures in the front of these old actresses and actors in plays, black and white style. Its so wicked, i'm gonna use them in some art.
he said he is going to re-send the email of contacts and websites for me, i really hope i get it this time.
He also said next year he might not see us so much?! that sucks?! But he said he is still going to make me "the best of the best", which i'm sure will be just fun.
Then we chatted with the Fia and Jo. Then i went to see my miss laura! I miss her and need to see her more, now that she has nearly broken up from sixth form we will be able to see eachother soon.
"I wanna kill this man, but he turned around and ran, i'll kill him with karate that i learnt in japan" <-- benny kweller.
Theres alot of stuff that just needs to be seen.
i cried alot in that film, like to the point where you make that horrible weeping noise. I was trying to suck it in. I already suck in films that aren't real life, so when something is real... man.. i can't handle it.
Also i'm going on holiday with the Brandons... to Centre Parks so i'm going to save for that.
Lots of saving....
Dan my lecturer was meant to have to sent me this big email? with loads of contacts and websites for work experience? but i did not get it. He left a message on my answer phone saying how big the email was? I don't think he saved it so looks like he will have to write it again or... no contacts for me!
I asked Shynola for work experience but they don't do any.. that would of been cool to see how they do all their music videos.
Pat passed his driving test and took me and laura to chelmsford yesterday. We got ice blasts and other food... then drove back. It's weird to have one of my friends driving?
I still haven't got my provisitional sorted... it will be done.
Carling Academy venue is also pucca, the balcony is a great place and we managed to grab a spot there.
I reccomend some research into this band they are definitely worth even just seeing what they look like!
Tomorrow i see Ben Kweller! wahey! wassssted and ready.
I've never bought something like that with my own money before.. so I'm making sure nothing hurts my new baby.
Provistional for driving
Broadband internet
Hopefully getting illustrator again.
Sort out some materials... i'm confused about the design for my website.. i will get there.
Dickies, checked backpack
top from h&m
rx bandits dvd, which i just watched and i really really want to be in a band like rx bandits... they are just... the best band ever. -- all that stuff was from my sister!! and she also gave me a bunch of haribo!
I got all this wash stuff
money
more food
from laura i got a spa voucher and i will probably get my o.c tan very soon
joey b gave me the sweetest little mix cd and this book which is... ALL ABOUT ME! and our friendship and stuff... i lovve it. I love hand made stuff and this was the best!
Robby bear, got me taheti 80 cd, a chocolate clo-bear from thorntons (because my nick name is clo-bear) and he also made me a mix cd which is just coolest aswell, he painted a bear on the front and its the best little painting... i love it! I love him!!!
I also bought myself an ipod... which is now on its way! woooo
Okay gotta go my mummy needs to use the computer!
the funny thing is just then i had to look up the date on my computer to write it down, i think i must just do it out of mind now!
If anything my present will be my ipod. But i saved that myself?! I SHOULD get it today if my sisters boyfriend can sort out who he got it off of from ebay because theres all these cost issues and i guess i want it to be the cheapest it can get.
I have recieved a total of 3 texts so far! joseph hales, my sister (even though she was in her bedroom and i had just left) and jo! oh yeahhh
I need a picture of some woods? and grass and flowers.... then lights glowing really really bright in a ball? I need pictures of coat hangers... a nice tree, vines...
I found this old book which is all tattered in a skip... yes i am a dirty tramp... that i can use for something...
today i'm going to eat at Frankie and Bennys with the family and then have bandos and then go for a walk with my favourite girls.
Apart from the work, the party was cool we watched some lame ass movies at night, for instance "the brave little toaster". Ryan swore it was the most amazing movie ever.
Sooo jealous of the Fia! I bet she is having a wicked time. I suppose V festival is good enough for me! I have me dashboard, elbow, easyworld, killers, massive attack, athlete... and i'm just gonna have a fun time. I hope people are actually coming with me though? i have this strange feeling no-one will. Laura promised me the saturday...
i love lazy sundays.
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Look what i just did!
Yay Anna!
Dan said its the best work i've made which is wicked.
Fun times with lovely friends.
We had a go on that, went to this pub talked to fias friend, Fia then took me to this boat launching place and we walked down to where the water was and OH MY GOD! wow Plankton! these little micro animals in the water that glow when they are disturbed! its SOOO beautiful, its like Electric Blue! I couldn't believe how i had never seen this before?! its like magical sparks in a the beautiful dark water.... i had so much fun and i am definitely going to go back and take my camera next time! We went home after that and slept like little babies!
So i am at college now, i gotta do some work...
I have fallen inlove with a song called "You Can Call Me Al" done first by a guy called Paul Simon, i think in the 80s? And Inspection 12 have covered it in their new album, its so good. Fia also loves it so i think we are going to cover it ourselves.
"If you'll be my bodyguard, i will be your long lost pal"
sow harry potter twice, love it
been very busy with magazine layouts, i have to design two front covers by tomorrow... i just don't think its going to happen... but i love it!
Been trying to design a logo for my brothers record label "alienation"
Today this kid that does graphics gave me a picture of me on a computer. I love random pictures and this kid is a genius at drawing, even though its really roughly done its just so... spot on! that made me smile.
I have a headach from doing so much work and thinking so much.
I love the fruit bar at sainsburys.
I want bobby just so i can hug him.
I feel bad on missing out Fias performance too... sorry fia i do love you but its just awkward to get everything done.
Tomorrow, hopefully if i can get away on time i should manage to run away from college early and help joe with photography.
Gotta sleep other wise tomorrow i will be deadddd.
I asked about the comic books, the guy said in June. Wanna buy me something for my birthday? buy me the coheed comics.
I have no projects apart from key skills.
So today i'm gonna tidy me room, eat some food with my sister, maybe see laura? maybe see robby bear?
I would of only missed Dans lesson anyways... which consist of paper ball fights.
I love it, i love the quick inspirations that come into my head and i like the idea of thinking that it is going to come out well... but it never really does come out the way i want it.
So i don't know... i have other thoughts of doing other things but again its not really jumping out at me.
I have drawn some rough stuff that i would like, kinda inspired by this real cool designer. I red an interview with her and she aparently just locks herself away with her curtains closed.
My lord how i am indeed a geek.
.I get to see my sister
.I get to see Laura
.I get to see EVERYONE
.I get to see if they have released the comic books yet.
I get to SEE Coheed and Cambria... which is basically the main reason ofcourse!
I will sing lots and lots at this show.
Its not because their your parents you actually just feel like if you knew them on there own you wouldn't want to know them.
My dad doesn't listen... ever... i'm not kidding... he asks you a question then switches off. Theres no point in talking to him, his like a fish... 5 seconds later his mind is wiped.
He hasn't even noticed that i have been completely blanking him.
Maybe thats just all men?
I suppose all parents have some kind of problem... you just have to appreciate them as much as you can, kinda thing.
not good...not bad..... just OKAY. Which to the standards of me... its the normal outcome everything in life is probably going to be.
chloes life is OKAY.
Atleast his one thing in my life that isn't okay.... its AMAZING!!! better than amazing, superb, lovely, great, super doopa loopaly wonderful, pucca.
i appreciate him ALOT.
(especially to kara for saying she likes my hair cut, love you kara i should be getting msn very soon so i shall talk to you)
("well its love... its love... its love.... make it hurtttttttt AHHHHH")
Art exam is tomorrow, i am prepared and i'm just taking a break really because my brain was on over-drive today, trying to sort everything out.
I have even mixed all my paints into little containers all ready :) aren't i just the good little art girl.
I just feel like i have defend myself lately for the music i like? i have no idea why.
It doesn't help that my boyfriend hates the stuff i like... i just feel like his more musically talented than me so he knows more.... so really i should listen to him if i want to listen to more "intellectual music".
I don't mind that he doesn't like it, infact its better because i get to see his taste in music and get a chance to taste that... but i never have a disgust for his music while he does for mine.
it sucks when someone diss's the music you like... it just sucks. I'm gonna try and stop dissing other peoples.
If you like it, you like it. Because it may inspire you, not musically but just mentally. It may make you happy, sad, wanna dance!! so its all good as long as YOU like it. It doesn't matter if its underground, at number 1, from a different country... whatever... you like it... thats good enough for me.
may just add a little pic for those who have not seen the new 80s rock boy hair.
check it!!.
I then went to see Bob and watched Haggared (Haggered?), which is possibly the worst film i've seen for a long time. There were SOME funny bits, but just because your out of Jackass, CKY ect.ect. does not mean you should make a film and try to be arty. It just doesn't work.
And HIM suck so bad.
Can you believe it a year and 5 months... i have had a piece of strawberry lace for that time on my wall (because of the first night we went out), i can see the mold and i have tried to block it out with celotape :)
Entity got to number 7 in the World Wide Breaks Chart. Thats pretty amazing but then again there is not much of that music anyways and my brother is only getting like �200 for it. But whatever he is happy. He is also going to be a teacher and aparently start up his own record label.
After i went shopping with my sister and hales. I bought some van shoes. they are checked ones which is average but i still love them. Then in the evening i sow Story Of The Year and they were good but nothing that kinda jumped out at me.
Keep thinking about universitys.... keep thinking about a lotta things...
I love it.
I think i look like a character from Peter Pan or Lord of the Rings or a Pixie!
Frontier-I don't have my van slipper shoes... so i got boring converse instead and i'm gonna surf around for some slipper ones because i really weally want some.
I love all my friends, i love meeting new friends.
She is coming to Thursday too! lots of dancing lots of fun!!!
Check out ember avenue bitcha
see you cats later
listen to the sounds that remain in question
I bought a bunch of silly stuff today and she is getting an Incubus ticket too so me Laura and her can all go together!
Bikini is super cool, my family are infact going on holiday i'm not dreading the idea too much because:
1. i have bonded with my sister more than usual recently and shes almost like my best friend.
2. i want to get a tan and wear the new bikini i have
then incubus
then acoustic brand new
then coheed
then taking back sunday.
Wanna go Ben Folds Five.... need to find the release date of the ticks.
But when someone hangs themself it kinda knocks you off your happy rose tinted glass world.
I didn't really know the kid, but i had heard the name, lived next to Ken Kies (choirwood guy) his sisters boyfriend found him... that is just the worst picture... walking into a room and finding someone hung...
its the worst feeling...
I dressed up as a clown yesterday, it was fun... laura put as many stupid costumes as she could and we took a many of photos it was grand!
Last week was a lonely week, but its my own fault... some kid in my class called me a "fucking rat" and i wasn't happy. But his the biggest c u next tuesday there is. He wants to be david beckham for fuck sake. The lecturers were on my side.
Thank god for people like Hannah, Dan and Tammy in life.
Okay must dash
But thats hardly thoughtful.
But its truthful how iconic he is to the so called "i'm a hopeless romantic / heartbroken teen trying to find my way through life" aka the emo kid.
Well most people... i talked to Laura about it she seemed just as bummed about work as me.
Nice tracks from Jeff Buckley, Midtown, Armour For Sleep, Duran Duran!
going to see the coheed and the cambria.... hope i won't turn into the monstarrrr! hehe! yay coheed.
I WAS WRONG
i am little miss boffin' or atleast i wish i could be little miss boffin'. But i can barely make a pass... i suck so much. I just have a feeling life isn't going to be a kind of distinction life... but i can't give up.
So yeah i have extra homework on top of the projects... need to make some storyboards... i will start tomorrow on them.
What recipes should i do? I'm thinking of some stop animation stuff with this cute little girl egg holder... she has a hat and everything! and i will just make a simple boiled egg or something gay like that.
Tomorrow i am visiting Lauras Restaurant with the family of 4.
Tommys interview tomorrow at Brighton.... i give all my wishes to him tomorrow on him getting in.... Go Tommy GO! we drew people eatting in the caferteria today... much fun... anyways... Night!