Sooo anyways i was saying i can't stand the job at KBBC.. its getting to the point where i feel depressed about myself.. which isn't really a nice confidence booster.
And i want the poka dot dress from H&M.
I want to sell fruit in the day time... like Pats job but in the light.
Dawsons creek is toooo good and so is sex and the city. What is up with the frogs?
i don't have much to say.... thats a change!?
I think i want to show you pictures... not writing. but god damn my p.c is poopy so i have to be on my sisters mac.
anyways soo... i think i'll be crusing now and speaking to some peeps.
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17/08/03 time: 10:21 am
Sooooo sleepy.
But Dashboard was soooo goood.
And i went to V yesterday got in for �30 thats �15 cheaper.
I also sow, Reel Big Fish.. very funny guys for the third time. The Cardigans, Athlete, Super Furry Animals abit of Damien Rice and abit of the Foos.
Dashboard Confessional are playing again today but i have to go to work.. and its just too much for me. I'm sleepy and need my rest.
My throat actually is pretty bad, well i have the huskyness in it i think.. that sucks, now i have to say in a stupid husky voice. "i'm calling from KBBC, its just a very quick call to let you know we're thinking of opening a showroom.... blah blah blahhhh"
Its money.
Sooo yeh and also 5 days till my results... yes i'm crapping it. And i keep getting bad dreams where i get like Es in science.
I will eventually write up some stuff about dashboard and V soon. right now i need to eat and prepare myself for work.. bye bye peeps!
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15/08/03 time: 9:00 am
Dashboard today!! woooo
I would have some pictures for you but i'm on my sisters computer because theres some weirdo virus going around on the comps and my sisters friend has it. It isn't nice and we don't want my crappy p.c to get even more crappier.
Not last night but the night before was perfect. And in the morning rob made me gypsie toast, it was yummy.
So i've also applied for a job at tropical wings gift shop or farm shop because kbbc is hard. Its an alright job if you've got the nack for convincing people.. like REALLY convincing people to have a kitchen. And i really don't want to force anything on to anyone.
BUT i did get my first lead yesterday!! everyone cheer for chloe. An immediate too. I got to leave half an hour before everyone else. It was pretty weird because i did a double shift yesterday and in the first 3 hours of the shift NO-ONE was in the office. So with the main guy in the office next door i just got on with it and listened to dashboard by myself for 3 hours.. which was kinda cool because we have to listen to rap otherwise.
So last night after leaving i went to see my little ill friend laura. Had a good chat.
hehe. I better go now, my sisters out of the shower she needs to get dressedtie.
I'll type to you after DASHBORD?! yayyyyy... ciao
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11/08/03 time: 12:58 pm
Another hot morning.. sitting around in my bra.
5 days till dashboard
Still lovin the new album.
man the thunder storms last night were intense or this morning whatever. Proper over us.
It would be so kick ass to do it though. I also need to learn how to use dreamweaver. I am so crap.. i really need to learn more.
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10/08/03 time: 10:13 am
I couldn't help it.... i just sow it and needed to buy it.
So i bought the new Dashboard album... before it came out.. i am naughty :o)
Slip disc are kick ass i like them lots.
Its very pretty... so pretty infact. I thought first of all.. hmm.. but now i am very much inlove. Chris uses his band more.. but also leaves some acoustic songs.. and it is more rocky but i like that.
The redone hands down is beautiful... and i only got an acoustic version of "as lovers go" and the fuller band one is much much better.
Last night a lot of us went to aroma. It was fun.. but trying to get back to south woodham took AGES. I was tired... and uncomfortable. Laura sorted me out though.. i got to see her lovely puppy jakey again. It was much more active this time. It is a cute little thing.
I also worked yesterday and it was surprisingly really funny. I get on with everyone there now.
Today i can have a lazy sunday... and for the rest of the week i'm working my butty off.
Dashboard makes me want to drum again... you know when you think of good stories in your head (kyle thought i was stupid for doing this, Laura on the other hand does it all the time and we normally end up making the same stories up) anyways... i thought how cool it would be to be in a band and play guitar and drums... made me happy and how i was performing with my band at the marconi club.... allas.. that will never happen.. so you slowly come back to reality and IT SUCKS. hehe.
Please say other people do that? Me and laura always make up stories about kenny from the starting line falling inlove with us (well he can fall inlove with Laura i have my own boy so kenny can just like me) and then taking us to america and we work for Drive-Thru records... hehe oh how sad we are.
"but i believe in you so much,
mannn i can't wait till friday now (hehe i'm sure stacies happy about seeing her favourite band too). better go check the community.
"careful now you're so beautiful
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09/08/03 time: 9:44 am
I love the Dashboard Community.
I brought up the topic "big breasts, do guys really like them?", because well i've always just wondered... and having loads of people from all around the world on this message board it just gave me a good idea. And i'm happy with what most people have said.
"sand dollar nipples are a huge turn off for me. i like a breast that i can work with without getting cramps in my hand you know? yes big boobs look nice to the eye but they can only be fun for so long. when it comes to looks i go for butt and eyes anyway. you can never go wrong with a badonkadonk hehe. and for everyone who says they dont care about looks have a little bit of a lie in them. everyone and i mean EVERYONE is a little superficial. your not gonna see someone across a room and say "they look like they have a nice personality i'm gonna talk to them." you say "hey they're pretty hot." but the good people are the ones who don't base relationships entirely on looks. a good lookin chick is nice sometimes but if she's dumb as a doornail what are you gonna talk about after sex" -- nosaj556.
That was only of my favourite comments.
A girl was talking about having breast reduction because she hated her breasts so much... which i thought was sad... i think just those two things on the front of her chest have given her really bad self esteem.. so that just sucks.
I have actually come to love my two friends.... i used to get worried about them, but to be honest i think they are just grand now.
Anyways i SHOULD be getting ready to go to work.. so i better clean my toothies.
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09/08/03 time: 00:11 am
feel like writing.
tonight was good, i've come to the point where i know who i really love to be around and recently its just been really weird because i am being completely myself around people and i couldn't give a crap if they think i'm a freak because thats me and i'm just enjoying myself.
I'm sorry Stacie i was only at your party for like 2 minutes. I got scared and i wasn't drunk plus my friend Pat was a bit weirded out i think. You all seemed to be having a lovely time though! It was nice to see Shaun. R... his a nice boy. And Kelvin doing the little hand movements to "don't stop me now.. i'm having such a good time, i'm having a ball".
When we returned to the station... oh how sick i am of that place. I found some of my friends being moody... i just can't hack people that are arses to eachother. If someones like that to me, i will just ignore them.. so there will be no friction or anything and if they want to talk to me thats fine, i'll talk back but i just can't be arsed with stupid fighting. It is completely lame. I can't really explain it anymore... but i have had people be so horrible to me for no reason and its been complicated, but what some of my friends are doing now is simply petty.
I just wanted to dance to queen or cheesy blues music with my friends.
Me and rob were listening to the blues music from the railway pub and dancing in the car park.. he makes me happy when he sings to me and dances with me. I still can't believe how amazing it is to actually have someone, whos just so amazingly wonderful... yes.. i feel like being soppy.
Tomorrow i have work for 4 hours... i really don't want to talk to people on the phones... i really don't.
I'm so happy for Laura and Lawrence... i hope they get on well. It would be sweet if they got on really well.
Greg and Pat are possibly 2 of my most favourite people to be around.. me and Pat just had a nice chat. Me and steph had some good chatting too actually. It was nice chatting tonight. I want us to all go out and dance to bluessss music.
I can't believe most of the boys went down the river and got completely naked and were just running around naked jumping in. I might make a website with naked pictures of them jumping in... if you would really like to see that :o/
This is a really random blog entry... but as i said i wanted to write.. but now i'm just getting tired. So i'll be off little bloggy people.
By next week i should of seen Dashboard for the 3rd time.. how kick ass.
"cos i've hidden a note
(yehh ofcourse he did, little note there for Robby)
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08/08/03 time: 9:40 am
Dude its like... the friday five
1. What's the last place you traveled to, outside your own home state/country?
2. What's the most bizarre/unusual thing that's ever happened to you while traveling?
3. If you could take off to anywhere, money and time being no object, where would you go?
4. Do you prefer traveling by plane, train or car?
5. What's the next place on your list to visit?
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07/08/03 time: 11:00 pm
Lauras new puppy is cute.. but it was so lazy because of the heat. Can you believe it is this hot?
Well its cooled down now. I've got like 15 gnat bites, my little finger is all swollen and red... hmm tasty.
Work got better today. I nearly got a lead... so nearly.
Me and Rob made those tom and jerry cake things? i think nearly everyone made them as a little kid. We had fun eatting them.
Tomorrow Rob is working.. wow.. a working man. And i'll be laying around. In the night i'm going to Stacies party. I never go to partys.... i hope it's not awkward.
I also got the nicest compliment today from someone on the Dashboard Community.. he said he had never been so inspired by someones photography before... I have never really got a compliment like that before for something that i'd like to work towards before you know? It made my belly do a double flip which is kinda funny because my name on the Dashboard community is "eat_my_belly". I know Duvale has said it before aswell... the thing is i really just point and shoot... still, i'm bloody happy... i always get jealous of the kids that get good compliments from teachers, so that was just lovely to hear.
Dashboard in like a week will be kick ass, i know like 5 people to meet up with and be the community geeks.
Anyways since all the people in family are either away or asleep i shall leave you until tomorrow or another day..
Ciao
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06/08/03 time: 9:12 am
sooo tired... hmm.. sleepy.
I got up early to go to chelmsford today with my eversolovely mummy and sister. I still need to get her a present and have no idea what.
Then when i come back i should hopefully get to see Lauras NEW PUPPY! and its name is jacob. So i can name it jakey one of my favourite names! Its meant to be the cutest thing ever so i'll take a bunch of pictures to show all you guys. I can't wait. I always wanted a puppy when i was a little kid, but i do know there a lot of responsibility.
Work is slowly getting worse. After 3 weeks i know i'm gonna start to get really sick of it, but for now its giving me money and i'm just gonna wait till i can get a job at asda or somewhere else until i quit.
hmm apple juice..
i slept so weird last night i must of been twitching so bad because i went to bed with all my covers on and then i jolted awake in the middle of the night and none of my covers were anywhere. It was a weird weird night.
Me and rob last night made rice krispy cake.. i'm eatting now i love it :) anyways gotta go see you guys later.
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04/08/03 time: 1:48 pm
Lee is right. It's a glorious day. (check it out on the guestbook)
Later i'll probably go out with Steppy and sit in compass. I've decided what to wear for dashboard so i've got it all on now and my sister was like "you look very pretty today" so it made me happy :) i love compliments from my family.. i guess because they see me every single day in every state.. so it makes it extra special when they give me a compliment, you know what i mean?
I dunno whether i'm working later though... i completely have forgotten what hours i'm doing next week my brain just went dead yesterday. I haven't go a lead yet, but i'm working on it.
And this week the main boss Niki is away on holiday so atleast the tension is kinda off me.. but i still want to make myself proud.
I also phoned up this other tele sales place to see if it was any better and the woman on the phone was so rude! so i'm glad i'm not there.
Okay gonna check out Nora and other peeps.
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03/08/03 time: 10:09 am
Last night was lots of fun. Went to see Emma.
Rob was very very tired... and they need some god damn air conditioning in that hall i'm telling you now.
Hehe Rob jumped around the hall did a rolley polley on stage threw his shoe at someone then when he asked for it back said it was the crappest throw he'd ever seen and it was a GIRL?! come on as if she would be able to throw it well.. it was far away too. Still it was cool and i enjoyed it.
cough cough... Lawrence and hmmm? Laura? YAY! i was so happy. Even Lawrence was crazily drunken at some points.
Emily and Pat went missing aswell for some random time.
And me and Steppy danced to her cousins band who were really good. I was impressed.
Anyways must be off. Work time soon :) I'm gonna get a lead.
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02/08/03 time: 2:27 pm
New S.A.T.C was soo gooood
Dashboard gets closer and i get more excited :)
The job is good. When i first got there i was pretty nervous but i realised how relaxed the atmosphere was and i just got on with phoning all the weirdo people. Didn't get a lead but come on... its hard.
This one guy told me his wife just died...
Some people just say NO and hang up.
To be honest i kinda enjoy the rejection... and its kinda funny to know your annoying people that much. Hehe i can annoy people and not even really be horrible to them! Perfect job.
So hopefully i can get lots of money and buy lots of things.
Mostly this morning i've been ironing. I've come to the point where i'm realising that my Mum does do EVERYTHING in this house and she makes it look beautiful so i'm going to TRY and help her out. Man... i never knew doing so little ironing took so god damn long.
And tonight is Emmas show. So i'll be there for Roberto looking like a Chinese/Japanese girl... hehe. God damn my sister took the digital camera... shes gone to nottingham to look at her new housey thingy and take photos of it so we can all see.
Yep so thats me for today, it is a beautiful day, but i just can't be assed to go outside. I might do a little sunbathing soon.
Ciao kiddies.
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01/08/03 time: 10:14 am
Chloe actually doing the friday five on FRIDAY? thats just crazy?!
1. What time do you wake up on weekday mornings?
2. Do you sleep in on the weekends? How late?
3. Aside from waking up, what is the first thing you do in the morning?
4. How long does it take to get ready for your day?
5. When possible, what is your favorite place to go for breakfast?
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31/07/03 time: 11:23 am
Swimming was cool yesterday with Emily and the eversolovely Sophie Bowman. Emily and Sophie have the strongest personalities.. they are both so funny and when you put them together... well its just grand.
"number 13...unlucky for... him"
Getting the D.C tickets today hopefully from Laura. I am most gratefull.
I'm kinda worried about KBBC, i bet i won't get a lead for ages and the thought of pressuring people to have a designer come in and look at their kitchen just doesn't seem right. But i will give it a go.
Rob might get a job with Pat where he works from 12 am to 10 am. He will sleep in the day and the only really good bit is its for �200 quid a week. It will be hard to fit in a schedule though, for eachother. But i said go for it. It does seem like a easy job. (selling fruit, hehe who wants fruit at 2 am?)
Today i need to clean. Then i'm thinking of ringing Laura and celebrating the tickets for Dashboard. :o)
TOMORROW IS NEW SEX AND THE CITY! WOO! someone remind me to tape it for Stephanie. Just incase she doesn't come back in time.
Okay.. i want a bacon sandwhich, because my Mummy makes them the best!
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30/07/03 time:5:56 pm
Dashboard are play Mean Fiddler... as normal my stomach goes all mushy as soon as i think about it. I will hear his NEW songs, from the NEW album... i can't wait. I'm gonna be right at the front, trust me, i will... i'm gonna try and not sing in everyones ears... and hopefully this time there won't be some fat guy in my way.
yay.. getting tickets tomorrow. okays gotta go swimming soon ciao
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29/07/03 time: 11.23 am
Yay i have a job! well i think i do..
Yesterday KBBC rang me up and asked me to do a trial session on friday. Hopefully that just means i just get taught everything to do and then i have the job :)
I was so happy when i put the phone down. Money! I can have mmmmoney!
So yeah thats good. Today i'll probably see the boy, and then we are going to Russels for a small get together. It should be nice to see everyone. Most people are sleeping but i can't bare the thought of waking up in a smelly tent and just wanting my bed! so i'm sleeping round Robertos.
Need to shower so ciao.
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28/07/03 time: 11:49 am
New Rx bandits rocks my socks.
They are my favourite band next to Dashboard. There just so god damn original. And the lyrics are amazing. They actually have a message you know? instead of the normal girl and boy lovin' that i normally go for.
Christopher Tsagakis, is by far one of my favourite drummers too. His so amazing..
And my favourite song is Overcome so far... i'm still listening through the songs now. But if you get the chance and your looking for something different.. then i reccomend downloading that song.
The only thing that is dissapointing is that i haven't heard them play the trumpets as much... i love those crazy trumpet tunes.
My next background is gonna be Rx B related. Anyways peeps i really need to take a bath... i am little miss smelly.
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28/07/03 time: 11:39 am
My brother, oh how great he is :)
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27/07/03 time: 1:49 pm
So liverpool was fun. I am jealous my brother got to go to such a cool University where PAUL MCARTNEY shaked every graduates hand. Even this one girl brought up her baby and he kissed it. I mean wouldn't that be a cool story to tell the kid when it grow up.
They showed this video of everyone, and my brother was shown drumming and with a girly called Jo. Made me happy to see him on this HUGE screen. The place where it was held was lovely too.
So now my brother just has to get a job. Good luck!
Yesterday i spent the day with the boy. We went to Asda in the pouring rain and bought some yummy food and i slept over, nice cuddles...
Today is my Nannys birthday, and i gotta get ready.
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24/07/03 time: 1:46 pm
Dudes and Dudetts i'll be back in a couple of days.
Going to celebrate the coolness and brightness of my brother at his graduation.
My mummy is stressing!! bye bye peeps!
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22/07/03 time: 10:32 am
today i woke up in my sisters room as normal after watching more than half of Shallow Hal last night.
So while she was in the shower i decided to update on her computer because the connection is always better.
She is in her room now getting NAKED?! hahahahaaa.
anyways i had this weirdo dream where everyone from my year were all dancing to Grease in the big school hall (Dame E). I was wearing this red dress and it was like country style. Me and Rob were like dancing with a bunch of other people. It was random but made me happy.
Today i want to see Laura and i want to see Rob too. Since tomorrow is JOB FINDING DAY, because crappy ass KBBC aparently don't need anybody until 4 weeks. My sister said it was fate that she would never have to go back there, and it made her happy. I wish i was happy with it, but its just so easy to get there. So tomorrow me and her are going to chelmsford and going to the agencies.
Also good news! My brother passed in uni! he got 2:1 or something? which is like the second from the highest. So thats bloody amazing! First of all he said he failed. I believed him but thats just gullabell me. Anyways we're going up to Liverpool on Thursday through to Friday for his graduation.
Liverpool is a kick ass place.
Nothing more to say... ciao.
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20/07/03 time: 4:48 pm
Dude what a crrrazy weekend! (as the eurotrash party girl with a passport would say off of sex and the city, new series august the 1st woo!)
Friday i went out and met up with the peeps. I sow Greg, Pat (who just came back from New York) and my lover LAURA!
I'm so happy to be friends with a girl like Laura. She put a lot of my negative feelings to rest. Shes so good at seeing every side of a situation. I think she would be a kick ass laywer.
Pat bought me an I LOVE NY t-shirt. But both greg and rob claimed the small t-shirts?! what is up with them liking tight t-shirts? slightly worrying hehe.
I was walking back to Robs house and i got a phone call, it has changed my view about even walking home for 5 minutes on my own. But thats all i can say. I did my best to calm the situation and Lee Shreeve all i can say. WHAT A BLOODY STAR!
When walking through town again back to Robs house i realised how South Woodham is slowely turning into Basildon. It worrys me. I like South Woodham to be the safe town where kids, yeah they can get drunk on the occasion have a bit of a laugh... theres no fights everyone is comfortable with eachother and if your not you just stay away from that person.
But i just sow a load of threatening groups, drunk shouting, looking for the next fight to come along and a bunch of girls looking way to slutty than they should at their age and could quite easily be mistaken for a prostitute.
But theres nothing i can do. I'm not into that kind of aparent "fun", i'm in most cases seen as a geek or outsider i guess.
Well anyways Saturday came and i went to freeport with the Brandons. Got a really cute black skirt and a lovely top reduced from �15 to �6.... so that was SOLD.
Me, Rob and Pip (robs little sis) all got sweat bands together aswell. Pip is the coolest little sister there has to be. If anything i wish she was part of my family! (hehe sounds like major butt sucking doesn't it?)
Yep then i virtually came home, did aload of stuff because my mummy was away and went out with Laura and sow Charlies Angels. It was the BEST.
I love girls kicking ass. It made me and Laura want to start defense lessons...
Lucy Liu is SEXY, and Drew looks amazing and Cameron inspite for her natural skin she was very cute and buff!
Afterwards i met up with Rob he slept over here. Hehe my sister and her friend Rose found the old programme Knightmare on tv. It was the BEST challenge kid programme EVER... it brought back memories.
Anyways enough of the writing.
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birthday time: ITS MY SISTERS BIRTHDAY! shes 19... woah..
Coldplay were amazing. I have never felt so hit by that kind of atmosphere in my life. The atmosphere last night was better than any show i've ever been to. It made the world seem like a nicer place :)
Friday was really good though, i forgot my digital camera!! but i got disposable ones instead and i was right near the front where i met some cool people too (dan, dan and sam). Also i met some of my sisters friends from Southend, i hope i meet more people like them when i go to Southend because they were all very quirky, bubbly and strange people which i think is the best personalitys to have.
oh yeh! sow the guitarist and bassit from Dashboard too, real nice guys! So me, steph and laura had a good Dashboardy night indeed.
thats not a good sign.
SHAUN AND EMILY NOW?!
listening to: as lovers go -- dashboard
Today i plan on doing nothing till work. I can't wait to get some money :o)
I've been having a chat with this kid on the Dashboard community... we MIGHT i mean this is a huge might, start our own music website, that does reviews on emo ska and punk bands.
But if i'm going to do this i want to proper do it, you know? Like have a really nice site, and go out and actually interview bands, it would take a lot of research into bands and we would need more people to help us. I don't even know the kids name except his skaFreak on d.c community hehe.
okays gonna go check out other webbys now.
listening to: ohh just my favourite band... and we all know who that is.
favourite lyric so far "everyone's gotta get bottom, bottomed out in the long run and those are the times you need love"
i like the song bend not break... its just lovely.
i could die for the words that you say.
But i believe in you so much
i could die from the words that you say"
when you've convinced yourself
that no one else is quite as beautiful"
its pressed between pages
that your find if your so inclined
does he ever get the girl?"
Well if your talking about country then it would be to spain at Christmas and if your talking about county then it would of been liverpool to see my Big Bros graduation.
Well i can't really think of much. All i can think of was on the way back from London one time, me and laura sat next to this guy and he was crying on the phone to i think his gay lover... and one minute he was crying then the next he wasn't, he was just pretty drunk. And then i asked Laura how many teaspoons of coffee you put in a cup and the gay guy was like "2, always put 2 in".. he was just a strange drunk man.
New York... right now and i'd take all my friends and if money was no object we would go shopping and get a bunch of stuff for free, then we'd go to the Hamptons and lie on the beach.
Train.. i guess, it just depends how long its going to take. I hate plans that are small and have no space whatsoever. If its a big plane with lots to do then i think i would love it.
Cologne.. in Germany well thats where we're going after my results. I don't have the money to go off to other countries and i am young. I will though.. i do want to take a trip to Devon next summer :)
check out: Stacies webby
Night night all my little fairy webby friends. If i had my fairy dust i'd sprinkle it on you and give you some harmony.... (rob knows what i'm talking about)
listening to: Copeland
well at the moment i just wake up. Whenever and if i can't get back to sleep i get up.
Sometimes.. i can't really make myself sleep in sometimes. I just do what my sleepyness wants.
Mostly have a shower, or come down here and go on the computer like i'm doing now.
a good 25 - 45 mins. Depending on how sleepy i am and how much i have to do.
Since i live with my parents in a small town the only real place i can have breakfast is just my home. But if i was going to have anything for breakfast it would be pancakes.
thinking: want to go to Freeport and buy �1 bras.
lyric: "We've had enough of these politician's wars, all we need right now is love. We've had enough of these military scoreboards. What we need right now is love." -- rxb overcome
lsitening to: NEW RX BANDITS yay. "the resignation"
ahh my mummys so proud of her son.
its funny how the umbrella really does match..
This is my Bro with two of his girly friends. Aren't they lovely!
This is the three brilliant Brooks children (including me ofcourse) when we went to the most yummiest Mexican restuarant.
You got kissed by a Beatle.
listening to: Alkaline Trio
website: check out lawrences bloggy, cute eyelashes!
but its okay i'll probably cut mine or use it as a nighty.
and on a serious note people, don't walk home alone no matter how drunk you are or think you'll be fine. Just don't. And if you do find yourself alone just be aware... please.