Friday i went out and met up with the peeps. I sow Greg, Pat (who just came back from New York) and my lover LAURA!
I'm so happy to be friends with a girl like Laura. She put a lot of my negative feelings to rest. Shes so good at seeing every side of a situation. I think she would be a kick ass laywer.
Pat bought me an I LOVE NY t-shirt. But both greg and rob claimed the small t-shirts?! what is up with them liking tight t-shirts? slightly worrying hehe.
but its okay i'll probably cut mine or use it as a nighty.
I was walking back to Robs house and i got a phone call, it has changed my view about even walking home for 5 minutes on my own. But thats all i can say. I did my best to calm the situation and Lee Shreeve all i can say. WHAT A BLOODY STAR!
When walking through town again back to Robs house i realised how South Woodham is slowely turning into Basildon. It worrys me. I like South Woodham to be the safe town where kids, yeah they can get drunk on the occasion have a bit of a laugh... theres no fights everyone is comfortable with eachother and if your not you just stay away from that person.
But i just sow a load of threatening groups, drunk shouting, looking for the next fight to come along and a bunch of girls looking way to slutty than they should at their age and could quite easily be mistaken for a prostitute.
But theres nothing i can do. I'm not into that kind of aparent "fun", i'm in most cases seen as a geek or outsider i guess.
Well anyways Saturday came and i went to freeport with the Brandons. Got a really cute black skirt and a lovely top reduced from �15 to �6.... so that was SOLD.
Me, Rob and Pip (robs little sis) all got sweat bands together aswell. Pip is the coolest little sister there has to be. If anything i wish she was part of my family! (hehe sounds like major butt sucking doesn't it?)
Yep then i virtually came home, did aload of stuff because my mummy was away and went out with Laura and sow Charlies Angels. It was the BEST.
I love girls kicking ass. It made me and Laura want to start defense lessons...
Lucy Liu is SEXY, and Drew looks amazing and Cameron inspite for her natural skin she was very cute and buff!
Afterwards i met up with Rob he slept over here. Hehe my sister and her friend Rose found the old programme Knightmare on tv. It was the BEST challenge kid programme EVER... it brought back memories.
Anyways enough of the writing.
and on a serious note people, don't walk home alone no matter how drunk you are or think you'll be fine. Just don't. And if you do find yourself alone just be aware... please.
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20/07/03 time: 4:26 pm
A very crappy sunday five? well it was meant to be a Friday Five
1. When was the last time you cheated?
2. When was the last time you stole?
3. When was the last time you lied?
4. When was the last time you broke or vandalized another's property?
5. When was the last time you hurt a loved one?
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18/07/03 time: 2:11 pm
Yesterday i worked out so much on the dance mat with my sister. It was goood. But when i went to sleep in the night all i could think of was dancing on the mat and all the songs going through my head and the arrows... so many arrows.
I told my sister and it turns out she had the same problem!
Pat is back from New York yay!! So hopefully tonight i'll see him with my other friendies.
Rob has no money to go to basildon sucky. So if i can't see my friends maybe i can sort out something with Laura. But who knows?!
Check out the new front cover picture. I love it :)
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17/07/03 time: 6:30 pm
Laura comes back tomorrow! YAY laura! i always miss laura when she goes away. My little lover laura.
But Steph goes away :( for 2 whole weeks... i didn't see her today either. Kinda sucks.
Today i watched beauty and the beast with Roberto and we laughed at the funny sound effects like when the beast gets hit by a bunch of snow. Its like a honking noise? and why are things extra funny when they are played over and over. I have no idea.
We have lots of fruit in my house at the moment, strawberrys, melon, cherrys, plums and peaches :) all to pick and eat i love it.
Also i doubt i'll get the job at route 66 i think loads of people went in for it. So i applied for KBBC.. okay okay the hell hole, but i need money.... i was thinking of all the stuff i'm gonna get. It just makes me belly so happy.
Tomorrow my sister just offered for her boyfriend to take me to basildon so me and rob can go to the cinema! yay!
Dinners ready i better be off.
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16/07/03 time: 12:59 pm
Things are better, i'm still confused... but whatever.
Paint Shop Pro is sooo cool. I only have this crappy demo of Adobe that i've been using all the time and paint shop pro is brilliant, although in some ways adobe can do a better job.
Yesterday i went to compass with Emily and Steph. We layed around in the sun. It was lovely. Then i went to asda and bought this kick ass popcorn that tastes excactly like cinema popcorn and some pasta.
When i got home me and my sister danced and got all sweaty. We did quite a kick ass work out last night.. and we played some frizbe. I then fell asleep in her room watching "Another Teen Movie".
I don't know whether to see Roberto today or not. No-one else has called to do anything else so why not?
ahh hundred reasons... everyone has gone out of my house?! i'm aloneee
the route 66 job looks promising. I know a girl that works there, so i'm hoping she'll put a good word in for me. Then money baby and ghds will hopefully be on there little way into my arms.
I want Empire Records on dvd. Infact i'm gonna watch that today while doing my hair and maybe paint my nails.
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14/07/03 time: 10:48 pm
I'm still worried.
I woke up in the middle of the night crying.. it was random. I think Mortal Combat played a part in my dreams though.
hmm.. so now i'm just waiting and nothings happening and i'm getting irratated and all i can think of is one thing and its just making me depressed.
My house is empty... so i'm alone.
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13/07/03 time: 11:46 pm
I feel like the most suckyest friend EVER.
I won't go into it.... but i need to. Its stuck in my belly just like screaming at me. I hate that feeling in your belly. The one with guilt, confusion, sadness in.
It makes you feel so worthless, like no-one should like you. Maybe i'm taking this wayyy more badly than it should be... but it still won't fricking go away. That horrible feeling.
I don't want to be one of those girls with just her boyfriend and thats it. I love my friends.... but i love my boyfriend.
You know those girls that just leave their friends to go with their boyfriend? They say there going to go out with their friends then make this lame excuse like, they are tired and actually see their boyfriend. Or just drop their friends for the boyfriend. They make their whole life evolve around this one boy? and then... one day. its all over.
The friends are gone... and they just lost the better people in their lives. Because of one boy.
I know that can happen to a girl. Emotions are really powerfull to a girl so when a certain boy hits a girl... thats it. Everything just falls onto that one boy.
I told Laura to tell me when i got that bad. Because with the certain boy i have now, i've pretty much fallen very deeply for this boy.
But i love my friends.
I keep asking Laura, i'm okay right? i'm not being a stupid girl? and shes like "yeah your fine seriously".
And i even told Rob to tell me if i'm too clingy, because i am. And his fine, he says i'm fine.....
So what did i do?
Maybe my emotions have taken over this situation tooooo deeply and i'm over reacting. But with my social life, this is something that i care about, more than ever. I've seen my friends go through it, i've seen it happen to other girls. It even nearly happened to me with my last absolute LOSER of a boyfriend.
I'll stop now before i just go ULTRA depressed.
And now Lawrence has just made me realise how i want to see Steph and we can watch a girly movie and eat popcorn and ice cream and have a sleep over!
GOD DAMN LAWRENCE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO GIRLY?!!!!
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12/07/03 time: 11:28 am
I got up early today to go to this beat boxing thing...
I don't really have any money and i got through to Rob and he didn't want to go.. so now i'm sitting here.
I've sun bathed for like half an hour already. My back looks nice and tanned and i'll be back out later.
Yesterday me, steph and laura went to the Marconi Club and sow Thaed and High Jinx. High Jinx have quite the following of people now! hehe this one girl was like hardcore fan. Made us girlies laugh. We met up with Rob, Lawrence and Jordan. It was nice to actually kinda talk to them. Yep then i got home and just kinda went to bed.
I applied for a job at Route 66. To be a waitress. The guy is on holiday so i just left a message on his answer phone. I really hope he rings me back, i'm actually looking forward to doing something and learning new stuff. Me loving to learn?! hahaha.
Yeah also, my southend course includes... DUM DUM DUMMMM .maths. which to be honest with you isn't bothering me as much as i thought it would? My maths skills are poor, very poor. So just to keep doing it for a couple more years is kinda good for me in the long run. And i'm really really looking forward to learn.
I'm hoping something has happened to my brain so it keeps thinking this way.
Roberto just rung, he sounds ill. Maybe his just tired. I think i'm going over to his laters. That will be cool. I think all their new carpet is done! in their conservatory... man i am sad, getting excited over carpet in a conservatory.
Homegrown and the early november play tonight. I would really like to go. Sucky money. If only that job for Route 66 would just come.
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10/07/03 time: 12:31 pm
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10/07/03 time: 12:24 pm
It is HOT HOT HOT!
I've been soaking up as much sun as possible. But the sun is behind the clouds right now so i thought i would come on here.
Yesterday i helped Rob move around his room about 5 times to accomidate his drums.. it was amusing how something was always wrong. He has such a tiny room.
I have pictures! and i have new shoes! Cherry shoes! YAY!
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09/07/03 time: 1:02 pm
Southend is the place to be :)
Today was incredibly funny, boring and awkward all at the same time. I met 3 new people and found out i'm probably going to be the only girl on my multimedia course. Which is kinda sucky. I like boys yes.. but i also like girlies, who will come with me to see bands and do girly things that boys just DON'T understand.
The design bit they showed us was AMAZING! i cannot imagine myself to be that good at all, there was one portfolio and i just wish i could of done the same stuff. I'm hoping to learn alot when i go there.
Me and Charlie (kid from school) sat down and were told to colour in these pictures on Adobe.. it was BORING. We did this for like an hour. But i met some new people, Greg, Paul and Shaun. They were nice, Greg agreed with me that Evanescenpoooopoo sound excactly like Linkin Park but with a girl singer. So atleast i know a few people around the place. Also its cool to know that Martin and Simon are going to be virtually doing the same course as me! I am really looking forward to doing some designing. yay yay yay!
So that was cool, i rung up the boy. He says he wants a day of nothingness... so now i'm bored... maybe i should colour in something on Adobe.. NOT. Wonder what Steph and Laura and Emily are doing.
Last night we watched 8 Mile. I am impressed by Eminems actor skills. And the story line was okay. Us 4 girls found it funny that in someway we drift apart from eachother, but we always come back together eventually. I love my 4 girlies. They are so special to me.
Anyways enough is enough, i'm going to find something to do around this poo of a place.
Ciao.
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08/06/03 time: 11:20 am
I just remembered how i love Sugar Ray so much, especially there 14:59 album that i lost ages and ages ago. I'm either going to download it from Kazaa or copy it from Emily, i just want to hear the classics like "Even Though" and "Abracadabra"
I had the weirdest dream last night. Harry Potter was going to get killed.. and i had to help and save him. At one point i knocked a guy out and i was like "Run harry RUNNNN!". I can't really remembered what Harry looked like but in my mind he was fitter than the actor in the film. I should of made out with him.. that would of been gooood making out. Anyways, so then i had to get a job at KBBC but Dorlores (i have no idea how you spell her name) Umbridge, the evil woman in Harry Potter was the boss and she wouldn't higher me because i was on Harry Potters side. And Mr Darley was there and he was like "i'm sorry Chloe shes still the boss here"
I miss Mr Darley he was my favourite teacher, blatantly the best teacher too. Yeh so thats my dream.
Today i have no plans... maybe i should try and get that job in KBBC, i'd laugh if i didn't get highered because of some lame excuse.
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07/07/03 time: 9:00 am
Don't you just hate it when you wake up and you can't go back to sleep... yep thats me this morning. I really want to sleep but i know i'm not going to be able too.
Luckerly it's a lovely day, so once my Dad leaves i'm gonna put on some athlete and sun bathe in the garden... again i'm putting off getting a job because it's a nice day. I suck. I might do it in the evening, ring up and see KBBC tomorrow or something, but right now i just want to soak up the sun.
The msn kicks ass.
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06/07/03 time: 3:41 pm
Sooooooo lazy....
And i'm still getting over Barry White being dead!
Yesterday i spent most of the day cleaning my room then i went to Steves house in the evening with my friendies. It was fun but ofcourse. No sleep. So today has mostly been a sleepy day with the occastional sex and the city intake.
Hehe also yesterday Nick and Martin gave me birthday presents :) Thankyou Nick for my mix cd, i love mix cds... and Martin my guinea pigs say thankyou for the vegetables.
My sister has gone to Canterbury for a month! i miss her already... and her GHD straighteners. There is no-one to dance with on the dance mats :(.
Oh yeh i forgot! on friday me, roberto, my mummy and sister went bowling and T.G.Is it was so much fun. I love T.G.Is... the cocktails are the best when i am 18 i'll probably go there to celebrate.
One of my long nails has broken... damn the man. And i still haven't got a job. Every day i try to theres just something that gets in the way.
Tomorrow i got to Southend and meet people that are doing the same course as me. Rather scary. I'm scared there all going to be so cool and theres me all stupid and just have this silly little website of nothingness. But oh well. We shall see.
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05/07/03 time: 5:34 pm
1. What were your favorite childhood stories?
2. What books from your childhood would you like to share with [your] children?
3. Have you re-read any of those childhood stories and been surprised by anything?
4. How old were you when you first learned to read?
5. Do you remember the first 'grown-up' book you read? How old were you?
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04/07/03 time: 10:13 pm
I finished harry potter.
It was brilliant. I cried about 4 times to the end. In all the other books Harry isn't angry but in this one. Jesus christ, he was always shouting and i actually don't think i liked it that much... even though he does have very good reasons to be angry but still. The fighting was blatantly the best part, i can't wait to see how they put that on to film. With great difficulty i expect. Also the Weasley twins are so cool, they've got there own joke shop now! :). I don't like Cho anymore, shes a wingy little bitch. Harry needs a new better girl. And I still want Ron and Hermione to GET IT ON! Ginny, i think shes got alittle hot over the summer she has dated 2 boys in this book! bonus for her!
Yessss call me a geek but i do love Harry Potter and anyone who isn't reading them, should read them... i never thought any book could ever put my imagination to life like Harry Potter books do.
Anyways today i am going shopping! to spend all my birthday money. Then bowling and dinner later! and now that i am 16, i can't be bothered to get a job?! which is crazy because i really wanted one before! i reckon once you hit this age suddenly laziness kicks in... which just SUCKS MY BUTT!
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01/07/03 time: 6:25 pm
Just went and got the prom photos haha they are gooood.
Roberto has given me my birthday presents. They were sooo cool. I got Mallrats on DVD, this really pretty fairy dust, the third harry potter book that i thought i lost! so now i have the whole set and this chocolate monkey! oh yeh and a mix cd. How i love mix cds :)
Laura gaves me the sex and the city dvd we are going to watch that tonight i believe sooo everything is groovy.
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29/06/03 time: 7:30 pm
click on the pic below to see the prom pictures
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29/06/03 time: 3:51 pm
It's my birthday :) sweet 16 and i can get a job!
And Prom last night was really fun. Lots of dancing and drinking cocktails and eatting. At first Roberto wouldn't dance but he did eventually, which was funny.
I got a �15 voucher for hmv from my eversocool brother so i'm going to buy sex and the city dvd. Laura and Emily have already bought me one series! life is good when you have sex and the city dvds.
And i still have presents to come from my sooo sooo gorgeous and dashing boy, Roberto.
So yep! Tonight me, melly and my mummy were going to go to T.G.Is BUT the car has a flat tirer so that sucks. Instead we're going to go to Route 66. Because that is yummy anyways and i will have more cocktails. It's been a nice birthday... i like it. Okay i'll do the prom pictures now. It will take a while though.
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29/06/03 time: 3:27 pm
Sugarcult support by Span and Motion Cite Soundtrack -- 27th Of June 2003 (mean fiddler)
We sow the lead singer of Sugarcult standing outside the astoria, but decided not to get anything signed since we were real hungry but he noticed we had noticed him and smiled at us.
Soooo we had a very yummy pizza hut salad then met up with Bill and went inside.
There were sooo many young kids there, i guess the scene is changing quite rapidly maybe it was because Sugarcult are popular on televsion and stuff. So Span were first up, to be quite honest i just didn't want to listen. They are not my kinda style... the singer had as Roberto would say a "stadium rock" voice. So we sat near the merch stand until they finished. Then waited for Motion City Soundtrack to come on.
I must of looked like such a little geek with my camera. hehe.
We waited upstairs for Sugarcult, the bit in the mean fiddler where theres glass and had a drink.
As they came on the croud greeted them with a huge cheer and they began with the opening song from their current album. I was abit unsure at first because the harmonies sounded very out of tune, but soon it sounded good.
We moved downstairs so i could take some films and pictures. I felt a bit like a reject since i was standind with all the couples at the back but whatever!
I danced around to Bouncing Off The Walls and all the others off their album. They played a few new ones, they seemed pretty much the same as their current album songs... soo i dunno i was'nt THAT impressed.
The croud seemed to really enjoy them though which is always nice to see at shows.
So their we go, i had a nice little birthday outing with my sister and it was nice to be at a show since i haven't been at one for yonks.
As
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28/06/03 time: 10:34 am
Last night was fun. I felt a little lonely not having my usual chummy Laura around and it is sooo weird how the generation of kids going to shows has changed.
There were sooo many kids with there parents last night and just general.. well... you know, new comers. Okay i don't want to be a bitch because i used to be one of those new comers i was probably one of the earliest new comers to start going to see bands. Me and Laura would go and see bands all the time and we would be the smallest people there, but last night there were loads of kids younger than me... it was just weird, i can't say i was annoyed. Melody just started pointing out how all the girls were wearing the complete wrong stuff, she was being very stereotypical, but i did join in, there were so very strange clothes on people last night.
But, they were there to enjoy themselves and listen to some music so i can't really diss them. Hmm these girls that me and Laura sow going to Something Corporate with their Mum were alone so their mother oviously lets them go alone now. Oh and i sow the kid i always see at shows and i took a picture of him at Saves the day.
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28/06/03 time: 10:24 am
Friday five on saturday wooooops!
2. What was your first summer job?
3. If you could go anywhere this summer, where would you go?
4. What was your worst vacation ever?
5. What was your best vacation ever?
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27/06/04 time: 12:00 pm
A whole hour dedicated to my hands and nails... i love it!
My hands are now all soft after my manicure and my finger nails glittery thanks to the very cool nail women that looked like she should be in the film Legally Blonde.
Tonight i shall go and see Sugarcult, thanks to my sister ofcourse who gave me a ticket for my birthday. I would like to see Roberto today but he it out shopping buying me stuff, and his worried that he won't get really good stuff, but really i would be happy with a kiss and hug from him.
I changed the layout to something i had a long long time ago, because i can't think of anything to do. I tried super hero stylieee but my Adobe is just buggered right now.
Tomorrow is PROM, i am not scared, i'm not worried. I'm just gonna go and have a kick ass time in my big fairy/princess like dress! :)
okays... FRIDAY FIVE TIME!
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25/06/03 time: 10:10 am
I hate this layout, it will go soon. I don't know what to change it too...
So this morning i get my hair cut for prom. I was going to have curly hair but i just can't get it done... so my sister is going to flick it out for me. What a beautiful and brilliant sister she is.
Last night was nice to talk to my girlies i love them so. Then maybe after my hair cut i'm gonna go to Robertos house and snuggle with him. Maybe.
Now i'm going to dance on the dance mat.
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24/06/03 time: 5:35 pm
I haven't updated recently... probably cos i had a hard time changing everything.
I'm not intierly thinking this is a good layout?
It's a bit depressing and i'm not depressed at all. Infact quite the opposite.
On sunday i got my birthday present early since my Daddy is not going to be here. It is... A DIGITAL CAMERA! not the one i was expecting, but it is better anyways! I love it and i'm so so glad i have one.
I then went to Robertos house and cried my eyes out when watching the Green Mile. Rob was laughing at me by the end because i was actually finding it hard not to make gay crying noises. You know when you breath in and you make a little squeaky noise? maybe its just me. hehe. Anyways "The Green Mile" is hella good.
I then slept over and woke up in the morning to find my belly killing me, i seriously was so worried because i thought i was going to faint and no-one would be there but i ran to the toliet in the intension of chucking up, but i was okay and Roberto came downstairs when i txt him. Soo everything was fine.
Last night, me roberto and same went to see Echelon. Then bumped into Laura who decided to come after all and Greg and another bunch of gorgeous people. I had fun... i love echelon even if they only play about 5 songs...
There was this gay guy with the smallest butt i have ever seen.. more on that later..
Grr i don't like this layout.
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21/06/03 time: 12:35 pm
1. Is your hair naturally curly, wavy, or straight? Long or short?
2. How has your hair changed over your lifetime?
3. How do your normally wear your hair?
4. If you could change your hair this minute, what would it look like?
5. Ever had a hair disaster? What happened?
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21/06/03 time: 12:25 pm
The book is really amazing already. I went down at 7:30 as asda opened to get mine. It wasn't packed in there or anything but this kid came out clutching one i smiled at him cause i was so excited and he smiled back. Ahhh i love harry potter geeks.
I grabbed mine and the women at the counter said she was already sick of selling so many because they'd only been openb 10 minutes. My mummy told me j.k rowling from 7 oclock this morning to 12 oclock so thats just half an hour ago she will have made 30 million quid... that is one hell of a lot of money.
So most of the morning i spent reading it. i'm up to page 73... (harry is so angry so far his shouted like 4 times already well and ofcourse fighted off some Dementors) then i got incredibly hungry and tired so i ate and slept from 10 till 12. I was meant to go to chelmsford with Robertos today, but i rung him and he wanted to sleep.. which was okay with me! I wanted to read... sad..sad me.
Last night was okay, went out with a couple of people in compass. Nearly hit my head really badly thanks to GREG! but i was okay, i was really shocked by it all but okay.
I do want to change the layout... i will... promise. I want to see Laura and Steph too... wonder what they are doing today.
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19/06/03 time: 8:26 pm
Ahhh man forgot! Harry Potter and The Order Of the Pheonix looks soo sooo cool. ITS MASSIVE!
I tell you now, it came at the right time. I need to get away from the world for a while... mann i can feel the little bubbly feeling in my tummy i get when i get excited over stuff.
Hey Kylie if your looking you going to get it?! I remember you and the retarded boy racing to get through all the 4 books.... but i just wondered if you actually did read them? who knows. I loved the fact i got you two to read them, made me proud. Harry better get to lovin' in this one. Or Ron and Hermione. That would be goood stuff.
Anyways probably talking to myself, it sucks none of my friends read Harry Potter.
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19/06/03 time: 8:16 pm
I don't know if anybody has just worried about someones future more than your own... well. I am. Its pretty god damn obvious who, and it sucks that i can't just say the right thing to do, but i can't. Theres nothing i can do to make the person feel better. I feel so useless....
I was starting to feel like i know where i'm going, but i feel like i'd prefer them to know where they were going... it sucks.
In other news... last night was super fun. Me, Roberto, Nick and Kieron stayed up until 2 oclock in the morning talking about the bestest things. I never new Nick had the highest I.Q in our year! it was amazing. Then we went out and walked up radar hill and looked at the pretty lights below... it was lovely but i got scared because of the darkness.
Then we disscussed about super heros and who we would be, it was kick ass.
Kierons cats aswell are sooo coool and his little baby nephew is so so cute. Then today, i went to Robertos and we slept then went in the jacuzi then slept.
I want to see Laura and Steph. I dunno if they are even doing anything tonight. I'm gonna stay in with my Sissy.
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18/06/03 time: 12:08 pm
Dude geocities ate my entry! and it was so long!!!! ergh okay lets start again.
I am now free. Secondary School is over and now i have ages to do nothing... just the thought of it makes my tummy buzz!
This morning was perfect until geocities ate my account. I woke up feeling so fresh... went downstairs to find cosmogirl in my post. Found Van Wilder in the dvd player that my sister had got out last night. I ate my Weetos while laughing at that. Then decided to run... so i ran and had the best cold shower everrrrr. And now i'm here and ready to go back into school and give all my books back.
Last night was also really really good. I went to the last music concert and sow such acts like The Wurst, Sophie, Claire, Lucie, Emily, Tom, Jo and Greg perform for the last time. Sophie and Claires singing were so beautiful and i was such a jealous bitch with the talent that Lucie has. I hate being a bitch, i'm really really going to stop.
When i was sitting in the hall doing my Physics i realised how many memories i had had in the hall... it was sad to be leaving it.
My first kiss was there.
Choirwood shows were there.
My first performance drumming was there.
Bunking my english lesson and dancing around with Emily, Steph and Laura was there, but then we soon realised there were cameras there. hehe.
My drama GCSE that i adored so much was there.
Two of my most favourites dreams have been there, One where i was flying around on a stick like harry potter. And a very passionate kiss with Roberto was there.
Running around doing the lighting and sound...
And not to mention all the endless assembles and shows i have watched there.
I do love that hall for its memories.
Anyways... i must go and do my hair got to do my clearance form. Update soon.
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16/06/03 time: 4:53 pm
Yesterday i sow something very very disturbing down at the river. I am never going to take photos alone there again, thats for definite. Me and Rob went exploring and we found evidence... ergh.
Sooo..... EXCITING NEWS! Emma have been asked to play at this festival! In september! where 25 to 30 bands are playing at chelmsford its going to be for 3 days! isn't that just bloody brilliant?! I was so excited because now me and Rob can actually go camping together like we wanted to for Reading hehe my sister was like "oh my god, i'm there". Roberto, Gregory, Sammy and Paul are playing with bands such as The Filaments, the big, Thaed and i'm sure some other hardcore bands. hehe. Makes me super super happy. Hehe i was round Robs house when Greg rang with the news, and then Greg told me over the phone the email he had got from Shaun the guy that does all the band shows in Essex. Its going to be sooo good for them. But they have to come with an hours set and they only have like 30 mins... so thats gonna have to be a lot of practising.
Yeahh... that made me happy.
38 pages of Physics to go... its killing me, i feel really ill aswell. I keep getting dizzy and headachs. I actually think something is wrong with me.
It took me and good hour to try and get on the internet, i got paranoid thinking my computer had some kind of virus.
Last night was lots of fun, me and roberto watched this weirdo programme and we laughed lots while drinking hot chocolate orange and crunchie nuggets. Snuggles are nice when you need them and i love to find out more and more about the brandon boy, it is lots of fun.
I'm so glad the internet is working again... seriously if i didn't have this website, then i wouldn't be able to release all the stress that is built up in my little brain... i love this website wayyyyy to much. And... i do indeed love being the little bloggy geek girl.
and also i like the name Vinny. Oh yeh and also the ever so popular Rowland is round my house, i hear so many stories about him from my sister... they are chummys at Uni.
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15/06/03 time: 9:58 am
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15/06/03 time: 9:46 am
Last night was pretty god damn fun.
I ran around handing out all the emma leaflets so hopefully the website will bring in some new people for Emma.
They played so well, i was proud. Even though i was late getting apple laces! I ran in though... and recorded it all. So proud of my gorgeous boy Roberto.
For the rest of the night i watched bands like C22, Black Ash (blast from the past kids choir 2000), White Noize, High Jinx and Strange Duck. Hehe it was so classss C22 were like blues rock'n'roll style so we were all dancing crazy like then we got in a line doing like a wave and everyone in the hall just joined in! It was the craziest thing ever.
The High Jinx guys are really nice, Patch is cool. I was a bit dissapointed though because by the time Strange Duck came on everyone had gone home... they are such a good band, so next time they have a show like this i think they should be second or something.
I then came home to my sister editting a song on the dance mat so i joined in, we still need to finish it though..
My room is disgustingly dirty and i need to revise so today the plans are sunbathing while revising. I need to do 50 pages of Physics, i hope the physics exam is surprisingly okay because then i'm pretty confident that those 2 Cs are in the bag and that will really just hold me a place at Southend for definite.
Then hopefully the boy gets to sleep round and i was hug him lots.
Woahhhh looking outside and over my Dads car you can see the heat off the car. Thats crazy must be pretty hot outside. Okay... i'm gonna put some photos up.
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14/06/03 time: 2:42 pm
My speakers are gayyyy... i need to buy more ones but that needs money. God damn.
Soo its a bit weird, my last exam is very very near and i have no idea how i feel about it.
Last night i went out with my friendies ended up round Robertos watching Jim Carry.... he is such a funny man. Laura and Steph kinda dissapeared which made me sad..
This morning i sat in my bed making a t-shirt to wear tonight that says Emma on the back. It is so crapply done, but it will do. I am going to make some leaflets soon so i can give them out at the show tonight. Then i went to asda, listening to N.F.G.... got a fathers day card came all the way back to my house and now i'm here.
I'm gonna go sun bathe soon aswell. Okay soooo.. i will update tomorrow or something?
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13/06/03 time: 6:08 pm
The Friday Five
2. When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest?
3. Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened?
4. If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why?
5. What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted?
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12/06/03 time: 8:12 am
Ahhh i really really REALLY i want to go and see J.K Rowling read "Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix" so so bad. At the Royal Albert Hall... i just did a competition to win tickets... at the weekend i'm going to chelmsford and going to pick up the leaflets you can get in book stores. I really want to gooo... mwaaaaaaa!
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11/06/03 time: 6:35 pm
For all the people that don't know what the friday five is here is an explanation since someone wrote in my guestbook:
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11/06/03 time: 9:33 am
I hate periods. Is quite frankly how i feel at the moment.
hehe but i'm okay, i just hate they way they really do make you feel so shit and weird and you don't want to blame it on the period because it could seem like your making it up, but seriously with me it really is the god damn time of the month.
Sooo yesterday was fun! I had the brilliant healing, i came into the room and she was like your lop sided!? i looked in the mirror and it was certainly true my right shoulder was just completly hanging down and i really didn't mean to do it. She said my aura had all been put on one side probably because of all the work i've had to do and i am happy and not really stressed just want the exams out of the way, get all the work over and done with, in other words i was just "overloaded". My throat chakra has indeed cleared and she said that i must be saying everything instead of keeping it locked up, which to me seems true.
It was so weird because i haven't been there for awhile i forgot the feeling of it all. Where you can just feel her hands over your head, and its just sooo relaxing, and when she goes over my arms the coldness is just amazing. It really is wonderful and when you get up its like feeling all light and fluffy.
I then went to Robertos and all of a sudden Nick and Kieron came round, so we went with Martin also to play a game called "Risk" which i have never played but i just supported Roberto and we listened to some Athlete and Eels.
I can't believe how interesting Kieron is. He plays tablas! Really well! And his house is sooo soo beautiful, the kitchen and conservatory and garden i was so amazed. He reads really interesting books and is just such a funny guy with all the impressions he does.
Anyways enough of that. After Kierons house i plotted home and sat with my sister for a while. Complained some more and felt weird because of the p.e.r.i.o.d. Then decided that i wanted to run. So i ran. And sow Tom not once, not twice, but three times! hehe. I said he was my inspiration for running, since me and my sister always see him running and me and her are getting fatty food from cumins.
Then i came home, danced with my sister, with sore legs. Watched abit of Big Bro. Vote Frederico i think. I don't want another girl to go. Then went to my sister beddy to watch Billy Elliot, my sister feel asleep half way through so i turned it off and retired to bed. That was indeed my fun day.
Today gotta study for Graphics.
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10/06/03 time: 12:50 pm
Low down on the exams:
Soooo.. yeh... i have pretty much finished the main ones i'm worried about.
Yay! :) And kyle, i'm not having a bbq anymore because my family have no money and i guess my mother doesn't really want kids round here. So it sucks but i think i'm just going somewhere with my family instead, even though my sister just kinda organized it without talking to me about it? but you know.. whatever, sounds cool.
I have crystal healing this afternoon, because my body has been acting very weird and the fact that its that time of the month i think my mind is gonna need some cooling. I haven't been there for awhile either so i just want to check up on the old aura and how my throat problem is coming along.
I used to mainly go when i was having friend problems and the whole self esteem crap that i've had since i was little.
But you know, i believe i'm pretty much over that now.
Listening to Athlete they really rock my socks "you got the style, we got the style, they got the style, everybodys got it!".
After the crystal healing i'm off to robertos and i am also doing his webby right now. oh yehhh lets talk about my projects for the summer.
Art project -- i'm going to do a big picture comic book style. Where a women is flying away carrying a man in her arms that she just rescued from a big ass fire down below in a city.
Html -- gonna learn alot more.
Money -- get myself a kick ass job and buy some clothes for college.
Music -- I haven't seen many bands recently, i get to go see sugarcult on the 27th cos my sister is giving me a ticket for my b-day but i want to see more bands over the summer.
Save save save -- save money from my job, maybe for a car? maybe for a laytop?! maybe for a holiday! who knows!
Bouncy castle day -- this is a maybe because i just want a bouncy castle when i have enough money to pay for it myself. Then i'm gonna have a few people round and we can jump around with music in my garden. Thats the plan. But no drunken Lee. Drunken lee = scarey lee.
Cds -- sort all of them out, with front covers, back covers and lyrics in a folder.
Photooooos -- if i get a digital camera for my b-day dude i am sooo taking sooo many photos and making a photo album and doing extra cool stuff.
Yep... i bet none of that will happen. But you know its nice to have a thought of having stuff to do this summer.
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08/06/03 time: 6:41 pm
I can't say i haven't tried god damn hard for these exams, because i have. so if i do do bad, then you know i'm still not going to be tooo hard on myself because i have worked hard.
Especially with science. Maths i spent some time on today and me and rob discussed english on the phone which was really reasurring. So i am one happy girl.
I just got 15 more pages of chemistry to go.
Gonna watch super man with my sissy nows.
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08/06/03 time: 12:09 pm
The Sunday Five? silly chloe.
2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most?
3. What qualities should a significant other have?
4. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
5. If there was one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be?
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07/06/03 time: 4:57 pm
God damnnnn i feel sooo ill.
Last night me, roberto, laura, lee, james, ad, nick and simon all went to stephs house. I thought it was a nice get to together but i was as normal little emotional, i am thinking laura and steph have trigured it off for me and the whole thing with Lee was a little frightening. We didn't sleep that much and in the morning me and rob just wanted my spare room beds because they are so god damn comfy so we left at like 6:30 in the morning to sleep for ages in the eversocomfy beds. But thankyou anyway my gorgeous Steppy. I hope you had an okay day at work and your parents were okay about the noise... god damn lee
I woke up feeling fine. I didn't drink anything last night but now i just feel so poopy. My head really really hurts. I've slept, taken paracetamols, tried to massage my temples... but no its still there.
And I HAVE to study today. I set myself the task of reading the whole of my chemistry book. So far i've done like 35 pages. But its killing me. I can't remember all the god damn Convalent and Ionic bonding and Electroyosis experiments. And all those GOD DAMN equations. I need to go over my Carol Ann Duffy poems aswell and make sure i'm ready for my next english exam since on monday i have:
Then it just so happens on the next day i have... MATHS! yay. I think i'm pretty much failed maths.... which sucks my bum because i want that gcse in it. I don't particulary NEED it but i want it.
Soooo god damnnnnn... oh wait! the headach.. its better. Alittle... please don't come back. I think staring at a computer screen made me feel better? Or maybe its because i'm letting out all my worries and they were built up inside my brain and hurting it.
Okay but to make matters worse people..... I AM ADDICTED TO THE POKEMON GAME!
I wish i didn't find my gameboy in my draw. I just switched it on and started playing pokemon now its like my misson to get all the pokemon and make them on like level 20! And beat everyone.
I also knowww i haven't changed my website. I'm sorry but i'm tired. I need to just get these exams out the way and i think aswell as getting a job for the summer my other mission is to learn more html. And teach myself so i know it fluently. That would be just sooo groovy.
Okays since i feel better i'm going to take a nux vomica like my mummy said then study some more and then probably end up teaching my clefairy to kick some other pokemon assss! hehe... i'm such a god damn loser.
but come on! I WAS KICKED IN THE BALLS <-- as lee would say.
cheated... hmm.. i can't think. On a test? probably. But i hardly ever cheat i'm a good girl :)
probably from asda, and i don't think i will anymore because cameras scare me.
god this is hard.. i try not to lie either. I really just can't remember.
Never i don't think i've ever done that to anyone elses property.
What is this like 5 questions to make you feel depressed?! hmm.. probably last saturday.
paul frank pjs.
a big shopping trip to london
ghd straighteners... hmm yummy scrummy.
"don't listen to him Regee Ray" hehe
"SHOP LIFTERRRRRR" as mark would say.
the new cherry shoes!
Roberto drinking the cocktail Gremlin at T.G.I
my sissy looking slighty evil drinking a cocktail at T.G.I
me and my trucker cap...
talking to: O
listening to: Sugar rayyy
listening to: The Early November -- Ever So Sweet
talking to: Lawrencey
Biff and Chip hehe. You know i never was read many stories... by my mother. I guess like Goosebumps, The Queens Knickers thats classic.
Harry Potter Harry Potter! because i am still a child.
I read the Queens Knickers a couple of days ago... nah nothing that surprising.. put i wonder if the Queen really does have parachute panties?! i want some!
Man... it took me a long time to be able to spell and read. I was a really dumb kid which pretty much rammed my whole self-esteem down.. I started reading proper books when i was about 9? I'm guessing. When i have children i'm going to try so hard to read to my kids and help them so they hopefully get to be in the bright classes instead of being in the special classes, like i was.
My sister was always reading the "point romance" books. My mum always hated them because she said they were full of crap, which i now know is true. But because i always wanted to be like my sister i started to read them. I can't remember which one but i was probably around 10. I don't even know if you can class them as proper books.
listening to: Josie and the Pussycats
And Sirius... Sirius. I love Sirius.
hollyoaks in 5 mins
thinking: hmmm belly so full with delicious food from route 66.
listening to: Mae
There will be photos soon, my geocities account is bursting i don't know how much room i have left for things :\. After prom there wasn't really any party so me and rob hobbled home with my feet hurting from my shoes and then Rob watched me open some of my presents like:
a trucker cap! yay!
Donnie Darko Dvd
Head Over Heels Dvd
lots of fructis
Black and White lovely wax that i am always nicking from my sister
and money!
Roberto soon went home, and i feel asleep in my sisters room watching head over heels.
Over-all Coolness: 6/10
Sound: 7/10
Organization: 10/10
Atmosphere: 8/10
Me and my sister went up early so we could have a huge pizza hut salad and get tickets for Bill to Alkaline trio.
Motion City Soundtrack really really impressed me. They had a sound like 'A' but it was different. So i took alittle film of the lead singer who had hair like a scientist that had just been blown up and his thick rimmed glasses. Very cool guy. The rest of the croud seemed to enjoy there set and danced away and as the band told the croud to clap to their last song thats exactly what everyone did. The songs that i remebered i loved the most were "Capital H" and "The Future Freaks Me Out". After they played i went and bought their cd and so did quite a lot of other people which was good for them!
review up in a minute of Sugarcult
listening to: Motion City Soundtrack (i am the movie)
1. How are you planning to spend the summer?
getting a job, getting money, spending the money on a BIG shopping trip in london. Going out lots, having fun. Going to see bands.
Well i haven't had a job yet since i'm 16. But it will be selling kitchens over the phone very soon.
To new york... with all my friends. And be able to buy them loads of stuff. Then we would go to California.. aswell to soak up the sun and have a big beach party!
hmm.. I think when me and my family went to portugal... there was like no-one in our site place, and it kept raining. Me and my sister had nothing to do but eat. Eventually the sun came out and i got a bit of a tan but i was so so bored.
i don't like vacations with my family to be quite honest. I get bored and miss my friends. But i would say... at Christmas when we went to Spain, i did miss the coldness of home but i guess it was very pretty there, i really wanted to bring Roberto over so we could sit in this gorgeous park with the most loveliest water feature.
song: Copeland -- Take Care
chocolate milk day yayyyyy!
Maybe a super hero theme since i love super heros. :)
new shoes? yes pleaseee
talking to: Clairey Beary
Hmm well its kinda straight wavy i guess? depends how long or short i have it. When its short sometimes its just naturally messy until i sort it out. Right now i'd say my hair is short, but i want it shorter.. it feels mid length to me.
When i was a kid i had really short hair with a fringe. Then i grew my hair, long. Until i came to secondary school where i always got it feathered and layered at quite a long length. Then got it cut shorter and shorter. Until i'm happy with the shortest i've had now. I need to get my hair cut now actually.
Curly if i can use my sister GHD straighteners if not. Then i use my straighteners and make my hair straight. If i have shorter hair i will flick the sides out too.
Shorter i'm thinking of getting a fringe.. but not sure at all. Then all perfectly flicked out.
When i was little my sister cut my hair, my mum was so worried she went to the hairdresser straight away, but the thing is the hairdresser said my sister hadn't done such a bad job!
listening too: New found glory.
hehe i LOVE this photo.
The two most gorgeous girls in that room last night. Steppy and Laura.
This is Nick he was singing in the band Strange duck.
listening to: The Juliana Theory
Laura might not be going Southend anymore :( i neeed Laura. Shes my little band buddy and lover. I hope they can find the money... i really do.
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1. What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have?
Sang infront of an audience.
I don't think i would be honest because i just can't be mean.... but the thing is most of my friends have god damn taste so i know they always look beautiful.
God something that i was told today i wish i never knew! A game of spin the bottle and other stuff.... jesus i don't actually understand how girls can get so bloody slutty. I can't say names but its just.. incredibly sickening, and wrong and i feel sorry for the boy who was hurt by it.
Hogwarts!!! Ofcourse! I'd be a witch with my kick ass wond and be able to fly and see Harry Potter and be friends with Hermione... oh the fun!
I wish i could be bendable. My body is just soooo stiff, me and laura are planning on training our legs up to do the splits... hehe nice one!
thinking: I want to go outside and take photos but i need batteries and have no money :(
Every friday you are asked questions surprzingly theres 5 of them! From this site HERE Its optional, and its done so all people who have blogs can answer the questions. I wanted to do it because the first ever journal that i got into Noras she used to do it all the time in her blog and since she is my inspiration of setting up a bloggy i thought i would do it too! :)
I was most impressed. I got to know Kieron real well in the drama exam but i haven't like you know got to know what he does and stuff. His a cool cool guy and i wish more people could see that.
listening tooooo: ATHLETE! yay summer music -- rawwwkkscene.
chemistry -- pretty easy
english -- ehh... i dunno.
maths -- hmm.. well i did my god damn best.
listening too: Brand new --seventy times seven "back in school they never taught us what we needed to know, like how to deal with disspear or someone breaking your heart"
1. How many times have you truly been in love?
truly. Well... i'm still a kid and before i think i made some really foolish decisions, thinking i was madly in love with someone when i blatantly wasn't. It was just my hormones or something.
So i'm gonna say the once. And i still am which is cool.
hmm.. Probably the fact that Roberto is the most amazing boy to be comfitable around. I seriously just feel me around him and he appreciates me. Theres no front that i have to bring out on him and i can tell him everything and i trust him. And the fact that he is so god damn yummy aswell.
funny, silly, curly hair, passion, caring, talkative, eye contact, love.
Not that i know of. I can only remember Greg Wells... when i was pretty out of order to him actually. At this party he was just swearing in my face and he went a kicked a lamp post. I dunno whether that was a broken heart or just drunkenness.
There is love for your partner but then theres love for friends and yourself. You shouldn't just have your partner, you need to have your own life and be with your friends. I've learnt that you should NEVER choose a boy over your best friend EVER its the completely wrong decision because when that boy is gone your best friend is still going to be there for you and thats better than any boy could do!
Conversation:
me: "I've got a frog in my throat, imagine a frog was actually in your throat and it popped out"
roberto: "yeh and then it just said "alright mate" and hopped to the window and was like "hmm, could you open the window for me mate", then we just walked there confused and let it out"
oh the weirdness of me and rob.
"its not my fault i was kicked in the balls, i was kicked in the balls! how would you feel if you were kicked in the balls?! you wouldn't be able to stay quiet if you were kicked in the balls!! KICKED IN THE GOD DAMNNN BALLS!" hehe.
English and Chemistry.... together.