*The Ataris* supported by Anti Freeze and Audio Karate -- The Astoria 2 (mean fiddler) 22nd Feb 2003

Over-all Coolness: 6/10
Sound: 6/10
Organization: 10/10
Atmosphere: 7/10

I was so exhausted, but surprizingly i wasn't dying on the floor wanting to sleep. Even though me and Laura had this sooo cool idea about a bed above the mosh pit just for us with poka dot sheets and popcorn and we could just watched the band perfectly. Anyways.

The Ataris, there not one of my most favourite bands, but they have been around for a while and though i haven't been there for all that while this is probably the first band i've seen a band that have had that effect if you know what i mean. So we turn up at this soldout gig, there are kids from all sorts of genres here, hardcorepunk, emo, pop.punk kids... its a wide spread show and there are also alot of kids that i've seen around my local town before... you see them and catch the general eye. Its a nice turn out.

We come in, get out bags taken in the cloak room check out the merch buy a few stickers and stuff, then watch the first support band Audio Karate.

I've heard of this band before, just not really HEARD them. When you see a band for the first time and there playing live in a small venue where the sound (especially for the vocals) is bad its hard to really know what there like. The crowd like them, the singers voice from what i can hear is alright and i am a vocal kinda girl so hmm.. i didn't really know. They didn't have much harmonies thats for sure...

Me and Laura wonder around, we don't really know where to perch ourselves for this gig. So for the seond support band, Anti-Freeze we just kinda stand at the back of the mosh pit, I like Anti-Freeze, though they do kinda blend into the pop.punky genre nicely. I see the odd occastional harmony and i can even hear some lyrics that i like. I also hear some nice riffs going on and drumming. The croud generally jump around. Laura knows one of the songs too and she jumps alittle.. yeh.. there alright.

So me and Laura go up to top to watch since we notice the pit has just filled up with a lot of big men (obviously hardcore fans) so we decide to stay away from that and we do kinda find a good seat to sit on for a while.

The Ataris come out, to the sound of the bit in "your boyfriend sucks" you know from that film? well you obviously don't know if you haven't heard The Ataris before. But yeh.. i love that bit. And ofcourse they open with "Your Boyfriend Sucks". My favourite song. Though there not my favourite band, there is really something when you watch The Ataris that is kinda special maybe it is because they've been around for a while and the "sellout" sign hasn't been placed above them yet. Well for me anyways.

Kris (lead singer) is going pretty crazy tonight, he smashes an amp 2 times, breaks his guitar. Even the other guitarist, John has to smash down a mic stand. Rock'n'roll i say! hehe. So they play all sorts of songs varying from "anywhere but here", "blue skies" and "end is forever". Its a nice selection also add in a new one of their songs from the new album called "astoria" i think.. the crowd looks constantly squashed, i am sooo glad i wasn't in there.

They do play a very short set, when they come out again they play "teenage riot" the drumming, i was very very impressed. I do love it. They then carry on by doing another new one and then... just as Laura was getting upset because she mainly came for this song, they play "san dimas high school football rules", they let this kid from the crowd called "john" to play the guitaring with them! i mean how sweet is that! i'm sure that kid was over-joyed i loved it. So we cheer and run down and dance at the back.
san dimas high school football rules

Last night I had a dream that we went to Disneyland,
Went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line.
I drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars
I listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms.

We hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two.
Nothing could go wrong anytime that I'm with you.
Like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kiss
Or searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist...

These are the things that make me free
I feel like I'm stuck in "stand by me"
This night was too good to be true.

Today I woke up alone wishing you were here with me,
I wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be.
Today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show,
But now I'm stuck debating if I even wanna go.

Whitney, don't you understand that what I say is true?
I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.
I'd drive you to Las Vegas and do the things you wanna do
I'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you.

I only wish that this could be
Just dump your boyfriend and go out with me
I swear I'd treat you like a queen.

Thats a pretty song, i love it quite a lot. Then we leave, get on the train to liverpool street and the train slowely rocks us along while i try and look at the stars out of the window.

I had the sweetest sleep when i got in.

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23/02/03 time: 1:07 pm
eatting: Angel delight (strawberry) i haven't had this stuff in ages!!

Hey! what a crazy weekend!

Soooo friday night was god damn funny, using steves camara and running around his house laughing alot... you know the usual things i get up to and do silly things. I only got 3 hours of sleep round steves. Then had to get up go home have a shower, get ready and go straight out again to London.

Me and Laura just went in the HUGE topshop on oxford street. It was fun, i mean we tried on aload of stuff and just ended up hardly buying any of it. I bought a new cover for my phone, finally. Some undies and a sweat band! hehe.. not much but whaever. We then had a pizza hut salad... then, man, i swear this girl was bulimic, it was sad. She was just chucking up in the toliets and she came out and she was sooo skinny and white. She didn't, you know run to the toliets when she came in, so it kinda seemed obvious... made me feel abit sad.

Then it was on the way to the ataris! And i'll do a review in a min!


thats my new phone case isn't it pretty! i love stars.

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21/02/03 time: 2:34 pm
wearing: h&m pinky dress with jeans and dashboard jumper

Heres the friday five.

1. What is your most prized material possession?
All my computer stuff i guess. But then my cds aswell. They are two things that are very important to me. I use them constantly.

2. What item, that you currently own, have you had the longest?
my mickey mouse toy. or my piggy that plays a little tune, when i was a baby my mum would play that i would fall asleep.

3. Are you a packrat?
okays let me just go and find out what a packrat is... ohh i'm guessing a packrat is when you can't get rid of stuff. Well yes i am. I keep stuff for the memory it has, or i think i could soo use that in the future. Even though i most likely won't!

4. Do you prefer a spic-and-span clean house? Or is some clutter necessary to avoid the appearance of a museum?
This isn't really my house, but my mum keeps it clean sooo well, but it isn't over clean if that makes sense. Take my kitchen for instance... everythings put in its place most of the time, but you have the occastional paper, book, at the moment puzzle around. We also have a lot of plants which make it not seem so museum like.
My room though is hideous, i can never keep it clean.

5. Do the rooms in your house have a theme? Or is it a mixture of knick-knacks here and there?
Not really, when i'm older i was discussing this with Rob, we are going to have a retro theme through our house (okay its a bit early planning) i like that idea though. My house right now just has "magnolia" on the walls, its all very homely with lots of pictures, plants around. My room is purple and blue doesn't really have a theme, just my room with all my memory stuff on the walls.

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21/01/03 time: 2:22 pm

Today i have been a good little girl! :)

I did my reading, (10 pages of a science book) and i did flick through my english bite size revision book and i also went up in my attic! and the lord above i actually used cubase! I still need to look over my drama... i really don't know what to improve though!? He (he being my teacher) should of put notes all over my work, even though i suppose if he did that with everyone that would of been a bit hard. I guess his not use to all the marking aswell, since they (they being the evil exam people) only just started giving out drama coursework (sucky).

Tonight i go to the place called cold norton, that is small and has no street lamps and i shall laugh with my friends and sleep in a double bed. Then saturday i shall go see the ataris yay!

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20/02/03 time: 4:20 pm

Last night was fun, i love my girlies alot.

We watched "the sweetest thing", which is now the second time i've seen it. Ahhh so funny. The arm flab. We laughed, ate soo much. Laughed some more. Ahh. just a few things:

Asdas toliets!
maggot man! (m.a.g.g.o.t.s)
paperboy

yep. it was a good night. I woke up in the morning scabby. Came home slept untuil 3, got up had an hour long bath. And now i am TRYING to re-do my drama! haha nice one that isn't going to happen. Well.. i better try and do something.

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19/02/03 time: 5:54 pm
HELP ME PLEASE READ BELOW!

Done done and done!

I need YOUR help! okay for my portfolio for southend i want to show them this website. I have had it for a year, lots of themes, layouts background (whatever you want to call it) have been on here. I would like to know the best one.

So please please please can you email me [email protected] and tell me which one you've liked before. I understand not many people actually read this site relgiously so you may not of seen all of them, but its nice to have other peoples opinions not just my own. I bet nobody emails... hmm.. sucky.

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19/02/03 time: 4:22 pm

hmmm... yummy...

I went to southend, the reality of my life gets more and more put in my face. It scares me, but hey! wouldn't it scare you if you had to get Cs in Maths and English and there your worsed subjects and if you don't get those Cs you have to re-take them next year?! yes... i am scared, i will properly cry when i open that envelope and i don't get Cs. And if you went over all this paragraph now, any bet there would be loads of Grammer mistakes. I SUCK!

Anyways... i'm off to emilys soon. To watch sex and the city, eat, laugh and generally be a silly little girl. write abit more in a bit

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18/02/03 time: 5:40 pm
quote: kitty boo boo f***

New sex and the city layout on the way trust me its coming.

So like today i sat around, did absolutely nothing. Ate. Went on here, talked to some dashboard freaks like myself, did the sex and the city background, ate somemore. Got some peanut m&ms and other crap so i was eatting that. Eatting some peach slices from can which i still got now

"millions of peaches, peaches for me" <-- that was for rob

I watched Jay And Silent Bob strike back for the second time of sky box office except this time i actually watched it (last time i watched it i was with Rob, if you really want to see a film you probably shouldn't see it with a person you can't stop kissing and generally being snuggly with), I tried taping it, but it was on such a crappy ass tape so i think thats going to be my next purchase on dvd, but isn't it 18? maybe my sister can get it for me or something. who knows.

Tonight i plan to see the boy who i can't stop kissing... yeh man, Me and Steph are having a conversation here. Where have the lip smakers gone?! where are they? When my sister went to new york they weren't anywhere, the stand that used to be in asda has now dissapeared, and been replaced with a Mary Kate and Ashley stand, bitches. I am pissed.

Mary Kate and Ashley need to kiss my assss.

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17/02/03 time: 11:12 pm

I hate being judged.. i hate it. From the moment you do something wrong its all buggered up really, and you can't do anything about it and you are just "named" for the rest of your life. Or maybe just for a long time... until it clears.. but it sucks. It makes me upset, i've always hated being judged, being looked at and decided on what fate i have with whoever it is. there are worse things in the world though..

I hope your okay Owain.

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17/02/03 time: 4:12 pm
song: steel train -- "Angelica, you said the lights would not change but i've seen the grey.."

well hello.. i joined the dashboard community and i've been doing that all day.

I tried to do pictures for the new layout, but the chocolate round my mouth either looked:
1. stupid or
2. a horrible disease.

So i decided to leave that. I'm coming up with a new layout.. give me time i do realise valentines day is over, i'm not one of those love losers who just loves love. Does that even make sense? Who cares?!

So got any idea for a new layout? Hello Rob Mawby by the ways.. i think you are a cool kid, so i shall say hey if you will even read this. Hmmm... still thinking about the layout.. i don't even have any real interests at the mo that i am inlove with? maybe a sex and the city background? you think that would be good? i dunno..

hehe yeh thats right.

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16/02/03 time: 1:56 pm

Echelon, High Jinx, hmm someone else that was good? -- Sound House Colchester.

Over-all Coolness: 9/10
Sound: 8/10
Organization: 10/10
Atmosphere: 7/10

This was the opening night for the Sound House, its a cute gig, i like the layout, kind of like the old army and navy.

This first band, who i can't quite remember there name all looked like they were from weezer. They all looked really sweet. They played well, good rock tunes. It felt a bit weird not having my usual companion there, Miss Peggs to judge each band with. I think she would of liked this band they had like Hot Rod Circuit, Weezer and for some reason Taking Back Sunday in them. Well thats what i decided. I think all they needed was song more crazy singing and harmonies. The voice always bores me after awhile if they dont have any over laping vocals or harmonies. Though the singer did have a nice scream.. he should of done that more.

Echelon were up next, the main band i went to see. Paul, the lead singer really impresses me, the way he puts all his emotion into singing. Though they don't have harmonies or anything like that he really goes for it. I love that. The first song was "tick tock" which i adore. They also played "Just the 2 of us" because of valentines day... it was sooo slick and smooth and brilliant. I really couldn't help but smile alot. They also played a new song which was class.

Ahh Owain on the cow bell... so amusing and good. This band just gel so well. I really don't know why they aren't famous yet?

High Jinx... well i was tired and in a weird mood. I did listen, they have all this amazingly good talent. Its brilliant but i just don't think they use it to the best of their ability. They need to experiment more. Also ofcourse, wouldn't mind some of that screamage and harmonies... always need that.

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15/02/03 time: 11:25 pm
lyric: "point your gun in another direction, now that you've cried yourself to sleep"

yyyyaawwwnnn... exhausted, but yet so happy you have no idea.

I'm still waiting for that little thing to go wrong. Still waiting? where are you, i know your coming, don't think i don't! Cos i do!

Sooo yesterday is going down in the old memory book as a gooden. I had lots of fun. Especially with Rob.. i do indeed think that boy is.. gob smackingly lovely, yummy, scrummy, excellent, pukka and everything else i always say to him.

I will eventually do a gig thingy for Echelon... i really do love this band, and the fact that i kinda know them? its just weird. They are all so talented and excellent and amazing?! why aren't they famous yet?! really, i do wonder. Owain on the cow bell... proper good. And "just the 2 of us" sooo slick and smooth and jazzy i loved it.

Sooo me and rob today just like slept in eachothers beds really. We were both so sleepy. It was nice. I'm glad his all better nows. hehe, he liked his muffins and his card. I'm glad. hmmm i need to sleep but i need to check up on my old internet first. okays well i'll leave you. I will soon change the layout.. you'll see.

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14/02/03 time: 6:53 pm

To whoever sent me the strawberry laces,
You have no idea how i cheerish every single smile i get. Today, i have smiled lots. Thankyou soo much for the strawberry laces, they counted as one of those smiles. hehe i can't believe someone actually sent me strawberry laces how excellent?!

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14/02/03 time: 11:56 am
listening too: alittle radio 1, half the ataris and my fellow students laughing at the computers.

Happy valentines day everyone! hehe this holiday is so god damn pointless but fun too :)

So me and steph bought eachother roses, i made muffins for the boy and a card.. but i will give that to him laters. Laura seemed to have a fun time! hehe still drunk at school are we? haha. Tonight i see Echelon.. i love Echelon actually i absolutely adore "we make sense" i played it so many times last night.

Friends was pretty funny too. The baby butt song.. ahh amusing.

So i'm in my graphics lesson, i can't be assed to work because i know my teacher won't help me. His too busy with other stuff. So i'm on here. Check on the friday five below... its a gooden.

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14/02/03 time: 11:53 am
listening to: The ataris -- your boyfriend sucks (at school in graphics)

The friday five, i like these questions today :) on valentines day.

1. Explain why you started to journal/blog.
Well.. i was looking for something to fall in love with. Have a good hoobie that i know i would love to do. And i've tried alot of things. Blogging and my website is one of those things i just love, i love memories and looking over things i've written just reminds me of good times or bad times, whatever. I really do hope i have something to do with them when i'm older.

2. Do people you interact with day to day or family members know about your journal/blog? Why or why not?
I used to have a journal, i don't anymore, thats when i was going through an abit of an emotional time in my life and i didn't tell anyone i had it no-one knew about i just needed to write things down to sort myself out. But luckerily those times have passed and i'm happy. sooo i started a blog and pretty much everyone i know, knows about it.

3. Do you have a theme for your journal/blog?
I randomly change it. Right now its valentiney as you can see. hmm.. i change the colours often. I've had strawberry laces, my river, winter, harry potter, dashboard confessional, "eat my belly" themes. The main name used to be "my own paradise" but now its "so impossible".

4. What direction would you like to have your journal/blog go in over the next year?
I'm going to HOPEFULLY do multimedia in southend, when i've learned better html.. i will make this website amazing and i will also have a .com website. But till then i'm going to keep changing the random themes and carry on blogging.

5. Pimp five of your favorite journals/blogs.
Ofcourse the lovely Nora HERE
Stephs HERE
... i'll think of some mores laters.

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13/02/03 time: 6:38 pm
song: Coheed And Cambria -- Neverender

helllooo! hehe i've had such a laugh with Steph and Laura tonight making valentine stuff.. ahh i was laughing pretty god damn hard. We made muffins!

Sooo yeh.. once it is tomorrow i shall take pictures of them cos they are so pro.

Yesterday i finally sow the boy, he is better. But today he had the day off to watch lord of the rings two towers that i managed to get for him on pirate from my cool guy friend Ryan. Since Rob just lovvveeesss lord of the rings.

Hehe Mr "Bad Boy" Bryant. still chuckling now.

Grades that i got today:
Biology: Yehhh.. 4th highest in the whole fondation level of science! woo i was proud so that should be a C on the way.. hopefully, oh wait no.. we have to get ready for chemistry.
R.E: C.. ahh man i got an A last time but i'm crappy at writing so whatever.

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11/02/03 time: 6:16 pm

Grades so far:
Maths: D (god damn!)
English: paper 1 D, paper 2 D (god DAMNIT!)
Graphics: B (yes yes yes! woo i got a B)
Physics: Well.. i dunno, he didn't give us a grade, but i know i did better than i expected!

Soooo my maths and english is bad.. well it isn't THAT bad, but i NEED A C. and i didn't get them.. i just hate the dissapointment of it all. But i'm over it now.

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10/02/03 time: 9:16 pm

ahh how i love being fat! i have a big bowl of popcorn all for me and smoothie... hmm the fatness.

So after this i have a really good idea for a layout, and since i know if i tell anyone else they won't care, i am actually just gonna tell you instead.

So its going to be the chocolate theme. the front picture is going to have me with chocolate all round my mouth then a question saying "chloe did you eat all the chocolate cake?" ahh.. it will be all brown and lovely.. i've never had brown before :)

Hope it shall be good, anyways i'm hmm off to eat some more and stuff, night night.

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10/02/03 time: 3:28 pm

I just watched the film iris... it was very sad. My eyes got a bit red.

Something also just made me sad, but i can't say much. I hate it when people grow up.

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10/02/03 time: 11:27 am
website: Homestar (strong bad email)

I have a monday off, and absolutely nothing to do. Well... if the boy is alittle better MAYBE i can see him.. but i doubt it.

I feel like cooking, or.. going shopping... i might go shopping laters, depends about the whole boy situation... or i could just do what i did yesterday, which was absolutely nothing.

hmmmmm... i want to have lots of fun, but no no no. So i was watching all this crappy ass "morning" programmes and the main discussion is about celebritys and about their privacy and all this crap. Because whats her face vita jones women has gone to court about her wedding photos.

Sorry but YOUR ALL THE RICH BITCHES AND BASTARDS YOU DESERVE TO HAVE IT DONE TO YOU. Thats all i'm saying.

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09/02/03 time: 12:52 pm
song: smashmouth -- allstar

Sooooo.... the boy is still sooooo ill. Why can't i be his nurse and look after him? I will even buy a nurse costume if he wants. But i think he just wants to get better by himself... he says if he gets alittle better i can see him, that would be nice.

Sooo i was thinking all about the stuff i'm going to do when i finish my gcse's. I know i'm going to get a job and start saving for a camara...and saving for all other sorts of fun for the holiday.
like:
Festivals
maybe a trip to cornwall?
clothes
gigs
sex and the city dvds.
a big shopping trip to london.
and all other stuff.

I got a letter from southend yesterday saying that i have an interview! i am scared soooo scared. You have no idea how badly i want to get in and do multimedia and the thought of being turned down scares me. I think they will look at this website? I need a advisment thingy first though, because i don't know whether i can actually do photography with the b-tec in multimedia? lets hope i can because i really want to do photography.

on tuesday i start my studying for GCSE's, i am going to read through all those science books. I swear i will.

I think i'm going to go and watch a film or something. Catch up with you soon.

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08/02/03 time: 11:13 pm
coheed and cambria... hmm get in my belly. Just like this smoothie is.

The Nutcracker was very very beautiful!

It was the first ballet i've been to (well of what i can remember). The costumes are amazing and i really wish i could stand on my toes like they do. Ahhhh its all very fairy tale like.

I get jealous of people like that. Talented people. But at the same time i am in exact amount appreciative of what they do... they trained to be that good.. soooo god damn well done i say! But the jealousy... ahh.. the jealousy.

hmmm... i have smoothie with me. I need Robert, i do not care that he is dying i want him now now now.

I just agreed into have a feeder cd... hmm.. i don't like feeder? but whatever.. i'll listen to it. Its music. hmm i tell you who i really like at the mo even though i only have one song:
Coheed and Cambria, the singers voice is strange but i like it. The guitarings really nice aswell... i'm pretty addicted to "time consumer" i'll get another song when i have the effort. I need to download "Elliot" too.

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08/02/03 time: 1:54 pm
lyric: "Time consumerrr... time consume me"

hellloooo... hmm a nice saturday i love saturdays :) well.. the weather is hardly brilliant but whatever!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OWAIN! my little geeky friend. :)

sooo my little baby robert brandon is ill. Very ill. He sounded all grandad like on the phone hehe. I want to go over and look after him and make him soup. I think i will do that tomorrow or something.

Today i go shopping to c-ford with my friend Laura and in the evening i see the Nutcracker with my mummy! woo yeh! okays gonna go.

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06/02/03 time: 11:38 am
listening to: Not Katies

Do you like?
and if you didn't notice i've had my hair cut!

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06/02/03 time: 9:23 am

I am also going to bring back the old background from last year for valentines day :) i did like that layout.

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06/02/03 time: 9:19 am

song: smashmouth -- allstar

"chloe what are you doing up so early? you have the morning off?!"

I'm getting a haircut this morning... finally. My hair is becoming hippy-ish... so i'm going to get it cut like this:

I hope it comes out nice..

and then tonight i see "Not Katies" there not one of my most favourite bands, in my book there quite average... but whatever i have nothing better to do and i'm gonna bring my camara to get some footage anyways.. soooo yeh... i like the trip up to London, its my most favourite place :)

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05/02/03 time: 9:09 am
The Beautiful Mistake

Aug 06, 2002 at 3:50 pm i am so alone its like my only friend is my bloody computer. God one day i'm gonna die and cats will eat my face and no-one will find me for months and by the time they find me cats will have eaten my head... need some friends

Jesus! i was just looking over my imood moods history. (if you click on the little thing of how i am feeling it will take you there) hehe i laughed at what it said though... i've got a moods from last year?! I had some lonely times times year... i hope this year is much better.

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05/02/03 time: 8:51 am
listening to: Coheed and Cambria -- Time Consumer

I took these a couple of days ago.. i like them... the jumpings ones cool don't you think?

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05/02/03 time: 8:46 am

Morning Owain! hehe cos your the only one that really reads any of this!

Sooo last night i got a little depressed, i think it was mainly the hormones and something else but i'm feeling much better right now.

I have Physics and R.E today... hmm.. i just want to get through it. Hehe yesterday was funny, at lunch we went to asda (we being me, steph, emily, laura and stacey) and bought 3 pizzas and 2 bags of potato alfabet letters, it was all very yummy when we ate it round Emilys house. :)

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04/02/03 time: 6:20 pm
listening to: Coheed and Cambria

I am finally getting some songs i've wanted for a while nows.

The thing with Kazaa is, i can never be bothered. It takes soooo fricking long to download one song. So i haven't been able to check out any new bands that much. I have just managed to get "funeral for a friend" which Gary told me about YONKS ago.. also getting "Coheed and Cambria" which i also wanted to get agggeeeesss ago. Funeral for a friend seem cool, the screaming in "juno" gets a bit tedious after a while so i might have to try and download some more stuff see if it takes to my liking.

The 10 seconds i have of "Coheed and Cambria" seems very good, the guitaring seems good. Now its all upon the singers voice.

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04/02/03 time: 7:33 am
lyric: "come on! theres no need to argue, you think your always right. I won't even bother, its just another fight!!" -- plain white t's

My tummy hurts :(

I have Maths and English today, hmm.. lets hope there okay.

ahhhhh why does my tummy hurt?? :( it is making me unhappy. Sooo yehhh... tuesdays are boring. Tonight i have to revise for physics. Pah! i am soo not going to do well in physics. ohh i just want atleast four C's in a subject! just 4! pleaseee.... 5 would be good.. but 4 will do! jeebus my tummy is really unsettled.. and its FREEZING outside, so i will be shivering on the way to school today. Sucky.

Hmm on thursday might go and see Not Katies. The next day i do have English Lit though.... hmmm... i probably will end up going. Looks like fun with Adam, Lee, Laura, James and Ryan.. they are all very nice people :)

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03/02/03 time: 2:28 pm
lyric: we all one race sister, the human race sister! different smile for a different face!! hehe (ain't no glory in a war, so true...) -- rx bandits

I have fully recovered from my weekend now, sunday i was feeling a bit scabby. Now i am A-OKAY! :)

I watched "Evil Women" this morning on sky box office which has Jack Black in it. Ahhh i love Jack Black. It was a cheese film, but whatever, i have nothing better to do.

It actually looks like a really nice day today, but any bet its chilly outside.. plus i DO need to be studying but instead i am listening to Rx Bandits SOOOO loud in my house and singing... and well.. on here. Also deciding if i want to buy a taking back sunday mesh cap that looks soo cool and i want it. I also think i lost my D.C "so impossible" ep :( i am very sad. So i might buy another one aswell as some other d.c cds that i don't have. Ofcourse this all costs money... packaging aswell... and i don't have THAT much money, i seriously can't wait till i get a job so i can earn MY OWN money without feeling bad about my parents giving me a BIG allowance, i just feel like a big brat.

Tomorrow is Maths... i really hope it isn't THAT hard. I am infact PRAYING that i get a C.. i will actually cry with happiness if i get a C. I know in science if i don't do well on my Physics i will be in deep crap.. the thing is its Physics... the ONE science i really don't understand... mind you i judging from the paper of Chemistry i don't think i understand that either. Soooo hmmm...

Ahh man.. i've got some Daffadills (is that how you spells them? gawd.. why aren't i in special classes?) anyways, they were on my windowsill and all the little bubbles from the plant were coming up because the sun was shining on them. You know what that is kids?... photosynesis... and i knew what was going on! it was just weird... and i actually got alittle happy because i knew what was happening. That sounds sooo geeky and gay, i don't even know why i put it on here, still... i was happy.

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02/02/03 time: 12:14 pm
meet up: 8th of feb

Ahhh crazy weekend... need to study... need to do alot of stuff.

okays.. so i'm just gonna post this and say go to the Dashboard Confessional Meet Up in London all you crazy Dashboard fans like me! :)

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02/02/03 time: 12:06 pm
talking to: alot of people

*Reel Big Fish* supported by The Starting Line and Sugarcult -- The Astoria 1st February 2003

Over-all Coolness: 10/10
Sound: 10/10
Organization: 9/10
Atmosphere: 10/10

okay i love all shows, but i loved this show sooo much too.

Me and laura are late, our train is slow the central line is completely buggered because of the train hitting the wall (oh dear) and we don't know anything about the bus system around here.

But we do finally get there, get in and here the starting line already playing! we missed like half of their set! Which really kinda annoyed me and we had to dance around with our bags on which was just gay. Still they played a kick ass set with "leaving" and "best of me" being the ones i remember.

Kennys hair is sooo beautiful! His grown it and looks major cute! When we went to put our bags in the cloak room we had a convo with this girl about how much we loved the starting line and she did too. She also missed half the set, it was cool. She seemed a cool girl.

For sugarcult me and laura danced alittle to "stuck in america" "hate every beautiful day" and "bouncing off the walls" since those are the only ones we know. They played good, there songs still kinda mold all together for me and thye just seem the average pop/punk band, maybe i'm wrong but yeh... Though i would of prefered the starting line to play second.

So... Reel Big Fish come out, this is the second time i've seen them now... they all look happy to be here (at the army and navy they looked sooo pissed off) the pit is crazy for the first few songs... i think it was "somebody hates me". So me and laura watched at the top for about 4 songs. Then when "ban the tub top" came on hehe me and laura ran down stairs and went crazy in the pit. Its so much fun...

Seriously at shows you've got to realise that everyone is there to have a good time, so you cant really be fucked off if someone punches you in the face or anything, you just have to get on with it and have a laugh (because i know some people just can't hack it in pits, they think someone purposly hit them) and you have to "make it" fun. You can't just stand around and expect to have fun! So me and laura, trust me we had fun.

This kid i met called Rob (hehe my boyfriends name) he was sooo cool, he helped me crowd surf 7 times! Crowd surfing is like a high... this was my second time doing it at a show, last time i kinda got a bloody nose but this time it was cool. "sellout", "where have you been?" were the (pretend) finishings.

The whole croud were just stamping for them to come back on... ahh it was fun. They eventually played "Beer" to finish off with... i danced with a random girl... we skanked so much. I must of lost a lot of weight.

So yeh.. me and laura got our quickly i said my thanks to Rob (thankyou again, even though you don't even know this site) and we got on the number 8 bus to liverpool street. Then got a HUGE mcdonalds (nuggets and burger hmm yummy) and i came home and got in my bed. Very much on a "atomatic high"

My back is bruised.. my legs are scratched.. but i really couldn't care, i had soo much fun. I don't even know how many times i've said that word "fun" but it was. :)

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01/02/03 time: 1:40 pm
t.v: football (i hate football)

ahhh man... crazy party last night, absolutely crazy. But fun. I did have a laugh its just the mornings i can't really handle.

hehe i bumped my OWN head myself and i now have a little lump! my eyes feel so sore and i'm starving (food is on the way though) i also have to be in london tonight to see some of my favourite bands Reel Big Fish, The Starting Line and Sugarcult, its a crazy weekend.

I'm in Sugar Magazine now, i don't really think i like the pictures, mind you i am very judge mental to myself, i think everyone is. My mum says i look lovely but i think thats what all mums are meant to say right? Sooo yeh... i dunno. I feel in a weird mood.

I need to sort out my eyes.... really badly. i might go and have a bath actually. I just feel so rough. hmm... need to wake myself up. I have the best camara footage though hehe :)

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31/01/03 time: 12:39 pm
lele i see sugarcult soon!

So its a friday where i have the day off because NO EXAMS! wo!

But the school is shut anyways cos its a SNOW DAY! the snow is quite thick not as good as last time but still. its cool, everyone is busy though so i might just make a snow man in my backgarden. :) looky at my picture though of the cute bird feet :)


isnt it just cute!

So Roberto also slept round last night because it was just god damn freezing outside, it was a nice and snuggly night. And tonight shall consist of stupidness i believe which is cool with me!

I have hick-ups... hick... hick... hick! its annoying. My sister spent �85 on a pair of straighteners! she is crazy!

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31/01/03 time: 12:16 pm
talking to: melly

The friday five on a snowing day :)

1. As a child, who was your favorite superhero/heroine? Why?
hmm i guess... batman. It was my first word. And everymorning me, my sister and brother used to climb into my mummys bed and get to the end with lots of pillows and watch it all together.
but then i also loved superman, the proper series though i used to watch that religiously at a kid.

2. What was one thing you always wanted as a child but never got?
A puppy, i just asked my mum if she could think of anything else since that is probably what is on most peoples lists. But for some time i did want a puppy but as i got older i realised that i really actually didn't have the responsibility of having a pet.

3. What's the furthest from home you've been?
Tenerife i guess... i don't like holidays to much.

4. What's one thing you've always wanted to learn but haven't yet?
always... hmm... to fake burp! hehe thats such a gay answer but it is true i just can't do fake burps. hehe

5. What are your plans for the weekend?
its snowed quite deep, i'll run around in it.. tonight is a party!! wooo party! and tomorrow is reel big fish and the starting line AND sugarcult! and sunday i will lay around and then see Chicago with my lovely girlies i believe! :) its a nice weekend actually.

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30/01/03 time: 12:36 pm
weather: ohhh its snowing again!

yaawwwnnnn... i did so crappy on my chemistry exam today.. oh well.

Yesterday was nice though, i came home from my Spanish exam (which went crappy) and i watched Amelie on my sofa with my duvet and a face pack on. Then Robert came round and also Patty, Andy and Paul came too and we watched Not Another Teen Movie... and it was just all very nice.

Sex and the city was pretty god damn good too! hehe Samantha's face! jeebus that was scarey!

I have a career advice thingy soon, to be honest now i don't think i need it as much as i did. But i'm still gonna go and just talk because i like that reasurance.

Opps! its snowing! hehe cool! not that hard but still. It is pretty god damn cold outside at the moment and its very windy too. jeebus its really coming down now... but like its really tiny bits of snow.. but a lot of it. God damn i have to walk in that!

The new NME... i was flicking through it today i mean i don't really buy that magazine but Dashboard was in there a review of his gig it was really pretty. So i will buy that today and maybe the new kerrang because it has a dvd with it. I don't know when Sugars going to finally come out, soon though... i think. Oh yeh i also go to Southend tonight and look around the college fun fun fun.

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28/01/03 time: 7:55 pm
talking to: Robert Brandon (hmm he is yummy i have a crush on him hehe) and Anthony

Ahhh how i love the animations.. how i do. Check this site out of my friendy shaun.
HERE

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28/01/03 time: 6:30 pm
song: The used -- Alone this holiday.

Hello... hmm i had the nicest breakfast after my exam this morning.. full on big breakfast in asda... yummy yum yum.

So i'm a bit shocked... just a little though. Does your mum shout a lot? Mine doesn't, i've just been brought up in that way and when my mum does shout it makes me really upset! i hate it so much, but i'm just wondering do all mothers shout quite a lot and is mine the exception?

If i'm gonna have a kid, seriously i wouldn't shout at it much i don't think anyways, aslong as the kid did was it was told and wasn't to much of a brat (like me i am the model child hehe joking!) then i wouldn't shout.

Or just does the whole anger come from money situations, stress, work? And the mums DO actually have a reason to shout.... i am wondering... i just could never see any mums shouting ever. Like my mummy, she is a little chubby but i would HATE her to be any other so when i was a little kid and i went round other kids houses and sow there mums (some of them being skinny) i just thought?! what the hell? why are they all skinny!? i thought it was wrong. So yeh... i am okay now. I shall go and ring my loverrr.

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28/01/03 time: 7:39 am

morning! i have spanish... god damn i will fail?! whats the point?!

But i suppose i better go anyways. I gotta say thankyou to Owain for my cds of Echelon. Me and Brandon listened to them lots and lots last night thankyou :) So if you havent checked out Echelon, i think your a bit of a fool.
HERE

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26/01/03 time: 10:43 pm

Why is this beautiful weekend over so soon?

I feel like writing... a lot of meaningless stuff that i can look over in a couple of months time and laugh at... so thats what i shall do.

This weekend was yummy, i am feeling rather in a dream like state at the moment... its almost to good to be true.. so i think i'm going to embrace everything that i've got before it all goes horribly wrong.... ahhh (embracing right now).

So i sit at this desk listening to north star which has just finished and i just changed in to echelon (wooo thankyou owain for being such a cool guy and giving me your cds i will cheerish them dearly) and i look at my bowl of ice cream (chocolate brownie mixed with chunky monkey, ben and jerrys) that i have just finished and smile to myself and do a nice sighhhh and feel all happy in my tummy. :)

I love lazy sundays... i wish there was another one tomorrow. I love singing to slow songs and bobbing up and down on this computer chair :).

I am searching for a belt buckle since my sister gave me an aparent �60 worth belt! �60! Its a stars and straps one, it doesn't fit her... so she gave it to me? but she did steal the belt buckle off of it so i want another one. Its a quite nice belt.

I feel like watching Amelie... that film makes me happy because its just all nice and warmness. Hehehe me and rob watched "Labyrinth", ahhhhh man david bowie... my hero hehe "i love my food" aswell. OH! and i watched "the witches" remember that film?! i love it soooo much.

I am beginning to tire... so i will sleep and update tomorrow after exams. and "hello to greg you are such a cool guy" aparently i didn't mention him?! not like he will even read this anyway??? WILL YOU! NO!? okay i'm tired... nighty night night to everyone.

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26/01/03 time: 9:47 pm
i love: the stars and the curly haired boy :)

hmmm i love watching the stars, especially when your with a person you adore and your on a trampolene and your all snuggly... i love it sooooo much.

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26/01/03 time: 11:57 am
talking to: the lovely jubbly liz!

Its my boys band, Emma!

i ofcourse i added abit of my coolness to it. hehe but yeh go to there site!
HERE
or click on the picture

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26/01/03 time: 11:50 am
song: Echelon -- tick tock

looky at my used top!

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26/01/03 time: 11:19 am

hehe the friday five on sunday sorry!
1. What is one thing you don't like about your body?
i don't like my ears... at all.. i hide them with my hair as much as possible. The reason why is because i think there big, when i was a kid i used to get teased about them constantly.. so i kinda got used to having my hair cover them.

2. What are two things you love about your body?
i love my belly... and i love my eyes, to be honest though i love any eyes, i think they are beautiful things.

3. What are three things you want to change about your home?
hmm.. okay.. let me think. The heating (i am always cold) having broadband connection (i would like to download songs fast) my bedroom would be bigger (i couldn't really think of a 3rd one but you know would be nice). I am really quite happy with my home though i love it to bits infact so yeh..

4. What are four books you want to read this year?
hmm.. ohhh! the new harry potter! ofcourse. Artemis Fowl (still need to read it) Sex and the city book (still need to read it) and hmm... this book my sister gave me to read.

5. What are five promises you have kept to yourself?
Not to say something about a certain party happening on friday! wooo yeh! hmm.. i guess i have been good at keeping the boy so far. my grades i stil cain myself about them but i do feel more confident in myself recently. Not getting involved with losers that are horrible and evil. Seeing lots of cool bands :)

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25/01/03 time: 00:51 am
song: the used -- taste of ink (soon to be on my own)

I smell of smoke, drink and gigs.... i love it. :)

*The Used* -- The Astoria 2 (mean fiddler) 24th January 2003

Over-all Coolness: 10/10
Sound: 10/10
Organization: 8/10
Atmosphere: 10/10

Me and laura set off on our journey to london like we do at 5:40 pm after a day of exams... i am looking forward to just sitting my ass down and watching the used. We guessed it would be best to sit down since the pit would be WAY to crazy.

So we got there, the queue seemed huge had a bit of a chat with my sister and me and laura also had a convo with the guy in the queue about the glassjaw singer.. but thats another story. So we kinda guessed we wouldn't get the good seat places but we tried and we perched ourselves on a table. We waited and managed to get good seat bits.

So through silence sound excactly like lost prophets.. they supported well though. Got the croud going well and i found my fingers taping on the surface of the railings.

Took the used a while to get on the stage... before then i sow lost prophets walking around... which was a bit weird. dunno why. So yeh.. they began opened very nicely.

Bert, Jeph, Branden and Quinn all came out, played off with "maybe memories", the mosh pit was just as me and laura expected, absolutely mad... so glad i was not in there. I had a nice view... hehe my sister was down in the pit i could see her getting squashed. I can't quite remember the order but "the taste of ink" was early into the set and guess who came out!? (no not kelly osbourne) but Joel from Good Charlotte?! crazy! and he began to sing along... he looked a bit gay dunno why. Still it was nice to see them supporting the used.

They went through there current album (self titled) with songs like "bulimic" (on of my favourites of the set), "buried myself alive", "blue and yellow", "pieces mended", "box full of sharp objects" and to kinda finish it off with "say days ago".

I couldn't believe the energy from this band, it was exhausting just watching them! (which is a good thing) Bert... is.. probably one of my favourite singers of all time in my book anyways. I have ALWAYS wanted to see a singer through themselves on the floor and sing there heart out, i've wanted to see them react with the croud and touch there hands and scream into the croud and let them sing. Bert did all of this (kelly osbourne is a lucky girl) I was just so impressed when he was on the floor though... man i would LOVE to do that. They played so well live i was very impressed indeed.

Bert kept the crouds attetion well, he constantly talked to everyone and did his little laugh, which is SOOO cute. He was saying how they were there because "they loved music" which is ofcourse a main reason for everyone but i have never really heard a band say it before, so it kinda made me happy. haha he also did a little flip backwards! i was well impressed! At the end he threw up on stage, which i think is his trade mark in a way nows.

They walked off, the croud stayed put, it was about 2 long minutes the croud were still waiting... they finally came back on and played "on my own". Which is just guitar and him.. while the drummer Branden and Jeph came into the croud and threw water all over them. That song was so emotional though.. I felt pretty astounded by it all.

So in my eyes it was a beautiful gig, i didn't dance but i sure felt the energy off the stage. I think this band goes on my favourites of bands. :) I'll be going now and listen to "on my own"... while i fall into a happy cheerful slumber.

Night night everyone *xXx* (hope everyone has beautiful lovely dreams as i'm sure i will of being a singer in a band hehe)

(ohhh yehhhh nice one adrians friend for croud surfing and slapping Berts hand man.. no you won't read it but that was cool)

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24/01/03 time: 4:43 pm
talking to: Chrisy

Pictures i just took:

doesn't the sun set look pretty! i love all the red and orange and blues all mixing together.

its pretty cold outside in a strappy top!

Do you like my barbie sweat band from asda!?

lelele my feet in my garden.

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