number 51 and love

040906@1124a
So number 51 on my list "Try Sushi" has been completed, and i do have to say that i dont know about that there food. It was good (lots of veggies, and the one with rice and avacado was mm mm mm), but way too salty for me. Guess i should have expected that seeing most of the the main ingredients come from the sea. The part i disliked the most was the seaweed it was wrapped in; it was dry and salty so when i would bite it it would stick to my tounge. Not the best feeling in the world. I could also do without having to shove something with a 1.5 inch radius into my mouth whole while Mr. N the sushi artist stands in front of me looking at me like ive lost my mind. I went with Rc, and im sure he thinks im a pathetic little kid who cant handle eating somewhere that doesnt include a drive through, but eh. Seeing ive decided to give up on my hopes of ever having him, thats ok.

La Senorita, his chick, called while we were eating and i guess it was just a kick in the head. A swift yank back into the world of reality where hes hot, brilliant, wordly, interesting, and fun...and im not. I dont deserve him, and while i dont dig how his chick treats him, im sure shes amazing and seeing shes from Espania, probably mind blowingly hot, and most likely perfect for him. Ive never given up on someone ive seriously dug, and ive never dug anyone as much as i dig him, but time to grow up and give up. In two months i wont even be able to be his friend cause his chick is coming out to go to school. He'll have her and wont need me anymore, not that he does now. I only really talk to him when hes feeling down and out about her. I hardly even talk to him when hes doing ok. Im a temporary amusement/distraction. Like a fucking video game or magazine.

Oh well. I suppose when im a better person ill be deserving of someone who adores me. I just want it once. If i could have someone dig me as much as i dig/dug Rc. Id be soo good to them. I really would.

Bella Notte

031506@129a
Rc and i went and had Afghan food at this lovely little resturant on University Avenue in Hillcrest on Sunday, and i do have to say that it was DELIGHTFUL and DELICIOUS (though i dont remember what it was called). We were originally going to get Thai, but both Thai resturants, which happend to be right across the street from each other, were closed. Hes such a fox. He orderd for me, which is something i love, even though i can be stubornly independent a lot of the time. He asked me a series of "do you like this, how about that?" questions, and then gave me two options. He chose what i would have to drink; a shake like drink id never had before called a Mango Lassi made of yogurt and mangos, and ordered the appetizer. Along with being smart, and physically attractive, knowing when and how to take charge is a huge turn on. At least in my book. Something the Sailor can almost never do. We had a good round of conversation, and then headed on over to Buffalo Exchange where he bought some foxy tshirts so he could validate parking, and look good (one of his goals for this year is to buy more clothes, grrr). Two birds with one stone. After that he was going to drive me home, and i didnt want to go home (i really like spending time with him) so i prob made a dumb move and said i didnt want to go home and he suggested we swing back to his place to catch a flick. SO I MARRIED AN AXE MURDERER IS A GREAT GGRREEAATT MOVIE, hehe. i had never seen it, and hes always so excited when he watches it, now i know why. Hehe, i should have known, seeing Mike Myers is in it. I recomend it to everyone. I will be adding it to my collection soon enough.

Now i have to not bug Rc for a while. Whenever we hang out i have to make it a point not to talk to him a whole lot for a week or so cause i feel like i bug him. I love my fella (the Sailor), but sometimes i really feel i might be with the wrong person. Maybe im not meant to be with Rc either (he has a chick whos miles upon miles away, but, shes still his chick), but someone with a lot of his qualities, and a couple of the Sailors would be...

listening:Deee-lite-bittersweet lovin'

Shakira = hotness

031206@1212a
While most people in America are amazed by the large natural wonders (or disasters); snow up to the armpits, massive thunderstorms, flash floods, mudslides, and the like, i am amazed by a centimeter of hail.



It wasnt big hail mind you (now cantelope sized hail wouldve really blown my mind!), but it was still great when it happend. The tink-a-tink-tink on the metal fixtures outside and the "click click click" on the window. We rarely get rain here in San Diego, so to get the first cousin of snow, for me, was a reason to call my mommy and say "holy hell, its hailing!" i didnt really say holy hell, my mums got religion and would surely remember to go upside my head when she next saw me. I wanted to try and make a hail ball (i know hail doesnt have the same physical properties as snow, it would have been fun to try anyway) but i was standing on my porch in just my chonies and it was hella cold.

i couldnt surpress my urge to spend money i shouldnt at Target, and bought fun stuff.



When i saw this bag a couple weeks ago i was all "AH! i want it in both orange and yellow..but 30 bucks WTF!" Today when i saw the bright orange sale sticker that i know o so well, i was all "WOO HA!" i really went woo-ha. 16 bucks is doable. They didnt have the yellow one, ill have to go to the target i usually go to and see if they have the yellow one on sale. I like fun colors, cant you tell from both of todays pictures? hehe. Orange all the way! The skirt was fun too, sale for 7 bucks, down from $25, and the top was on sale too. Thrift stores, sales and employee discounts. Damn im good.

listening: La Oreja de Van Gogh-rosas

Cadbury eggs are my lovers

031106@315a
i do believe i went just a tad overboard on the sugar tonight. I rarely eat more than one candy bar a day/every couple of days (that probably seems like a lot to most, but its right on for me), and tonight i had 1 of the large little debby oatmeal pies, and 2 cadbury eggs. I now have a headache. Ive come to the conclusion that my body is not very good at handling un-natural stimuli. I had two cigs earlier today and i got the same headache that i have now after all the sugar. i feel dizzy. i think im dehydrated as well.

i was looking at other peoples 101 lists and just cruising though various blogs; i was looking for at least 1 or 2 blogs written by artsy, articulate fellas who have a way with words. Theres nothing hotter than a fella with an amazing vocabulary, gets me everytime. Well, while roaming the blog worlds wild blue yonder i came across a blog by a fella who goes by the name of Aces. I think i sat there for about an hour or so and read everything he had written, even the techno nerd jargon that i didnt understand in the least bit. That kids had some interesting experiences, be they all fact or fiction, theyre interesting to read. I was looking for a blog by someone with a superb grasp on the english language, and i found it. "..You smarmy geriatric fuck." Not the most classy quote from him i could choose, but i love it!

Now for something that makes me happy, i finished writing my 101 in 1001 list! Woo-HA! Now where to start...

damn its cold

030906@1155p
Im a loser. i forgot we have a heater. well now that im not in pain from the cold life is better. The Sailor thinks theres something wrong with me cause im always, and that literally is almost always, cold. I have the heat set to shut off at 81 degrees. Yes, 81 degrees. The only time im not cold is when its in the mid/low eighties. Im still cold at 75. Right now its probably no colder than 65 out, but it might at well be 30.

My package from Mary Ann came in the post a couple days ago! I got a bunch of fun random goodies.



The Goodies:
-Cinderella crayons
-a broken hearted robot pin
-a lot of blank cards
-4 small candles (the one with the strawberry is my favourite of course!)
-a kick ass bookmark
-a sanitary wipe cloth in a cute package
-decorative easter ribbon
-2 lollies that i ate yesterday
-a small notepad
-a kick ass pen that i keep in my purse &
-super fun magnents from Japan in the shape of cheese cracker "A's" (A for Auder!)

I was her partner in a random item swap hosted by Amy of purple pink and orange.com. Many thanks to Mary Ann indeed!

I saw something on the interweb that struck my fancy. 101 in 1001. im going to try and do this, mostly cause i want to challenge myself and see if i can actually acomplish 101 things if i put my mind to it and put my procrastinating self aside, and partially because i love to make lists, hehe. im only up to number 40 or so on my list, still have to think of things i want to do. Its always easier when you dont have to think of them on the spot. Giving myself til the end of the week to have it done. You should do it too. *CHEERS* to 1001 days.

oh, we got a new place by the by. i dont know how i feel about it. i love the place; a lovely little 1930s cottage in Northpark, but i dont know how i feel about living with the Sailor for another year..and then another..leading into the rest of my life. I never got to be truly independent with my own place. He doesnt understand why i would want to. The experiences ive given up to continue dating him...

my ass is red

022506@923p
You know what show i really REALLY do not miss? Ren and Stimpy. Especially the "Egg-Yolk-ccio" episode. Ew.

Prince Charming at work said he would do the interview for my fellas website, lat32.com. The art section for the Sailors site is lacking, so im going to start trying to find some local artist (Prince Charming being one) and local artist events for that site. If i can find enough things that are of interest maybe he will let have some say in what goes on in that section (im not trying to take it over, i created the layout/logo, and 90% of the html work and images, so thats enough for me to be helpful), seeing im really into art and would like to see a lot more local artist out there and hear a lot more local artists names on the lips of other San Diegans. With that, if any of you ladies or gents are LOCAL (san diego, mostly border to checkpoint, though he does have a few Los Angeles/OC kids on there) artists/photographers, get on over to lat32 and get a hold of the Sailor, or you can email me at ar_sbm-AT-hotmail.com and tell me about yourself and if you would be interested in being featured on the site..and yada yada. correspondence will occur.

i cant wait to move, im going to do some serious thrifting and vintage shopping with the money i save. get some neat cardigans and sexy dresses from pin-up girl, and all the other places on my favorites list. i want this cardigan most of all. wear it to work. hell yeah

people are people

21606@323p
I really dont think i will ever get people. Its like im always on the outside looking in...haha how cliche and cheezy is that? Its true though, do people not see what they do and how they act towards other people? Ever since the Katrina disaster it seems a lot of people want someone else to take care of them. People really need to remember no one is going to care as much about you as you do, 'cept maybe your mother. I am all for helping, i want to open a homeless shelter, and do all these things to help others, but its a whole lot easier and more rewarding, in my opinion, to help those who want to help themselves first. Maybe its just cause its me, i really try to be independent and self sufficiant and when others constantly depend on others it bugs me. Tis life.

Me and the sailor are going to be moving in less than a month hopefully. Its getting irritating and hard seeing most places are all gung-ho about calling and or emailing to get info and showing, but then compleatly non responsive after youve gone through the effort. Time to get serious...arg!! We most likely are going to leave our lovely down town home for the vintage feel of north or south park. Yay!

now leaving...







soon to arrive...











and ill be near my favourite vintage clothing shop!



FROCK YOU MOTHA SUCKAS!

someone needs an outlet

21306@220a
Sometimes MOZILLA is great. Other times i just want to shake the people who made it like a british nanny. For fucks sake. I sat here for 3 hours wondering "why in the world is this not working???" The most simple html ive writtin in a very long time, and its not working. I thought i had lost my mind. That the html writing gods had snatched up every ounce of mediocre skill i had. So then i decided to test it in good ol internet explorer. Works like a charm!! Its just a temporary place to keep my "blog" and what not, until i buy a new domain name and space. i use mozzilla cause it blocks pop ups. thats about the only reason (that and sometimes it handles PNG images a lot better in html, at least the ones with a transparent background. If anyone can take a look at the html and let me know whats makin it act crazy in mozilla, id be greatful!! I coded the sailors sitein mozilla and i didn't have a problem. hmmm, perplexing.