7/19/03
NOT THIS TIME
.
I'm falling again
Tumbling down
Down
This time there's no one to break my fall
Why me?
I've already ruined my own life
And now I'm to be entrusted with another
I was scared, couldn't say anything
And now there's a life growing inside of me
Ripping all my dreams from my grasp
Now I'm to be allowed to break another's heart
Ruin another life
The walls are closing in around me
Blanket of black despair
Falling upon me
Suffocating
Sucking every ounce of joy from my soul
I might as well just give up
Lay down and die
My happiness has ended
Strength is gone
So goodbye mom, it wasn't your fault
Billy and Doug, don't tell anyone
I'm doing this so that they don't have to know
Good night
The tears have finally found their home
They pool around me, drowning
Salty tears mixed with red death
It's finally over.