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Dawn's Journey to Truth
I was raised in one of the largest cities in Canada by parents who were
non-practicing, Irish Catholics. Even though they themselves did not attend Church or
follow it's teachings, they sent me to Sunday school and church, where I began to yearn to
know God and at a tender age wanted to become a nun. With very superstitious parents, who
believed that they were visited quite often by ghosts, the spiritual world was almost a
daily topic in my home. My mother would also try to have seances once in a while, which
would scare me half to death!
Mom and Dad were hard working people, but were also alcoholics. As I grew older, I became
very angry with them, for their alcoholism, for leaving me alone a lot, and because I was
molested by cousins and uncles and was raped by a drunken friend of the family. In my
early teens I lost respect for "Christians" and the "Church" because
of my family's hypocrisy, and because I couldn't find real peace or spiritual fulfillment.
After running away from home, I turned to the occult, drugs and a "hippy"
lifestyle to escape the reality of my life and where I found others who were also
disillusioned with the status quo. I read many of the occultic books that were available
and found myself building a concept of life that was very different from what I was
taught. At one point I followed a Guru from India for a few years, but there was something
missing in his teachings and the meditation that I was practicing. Although I embraced the
Eastern philosophies (maybe because they were "in" and "cool" and
didn't confront me morally), I never could fully convince myself that I was god and just
had to realize who I was. I was told that when this happened, I would merge with
"god" (who was everything and everyone) and cease to be me. This didn't seem
right to me. God had to be more than just an impersonal energy. So I continued on my
journey, digressing into some very dark regions of occult philosophy and practice.
Finally a friend lent me a series of books called the "Illuminati", which then
sparked my interest in conspiracy theories and future predictions. Even as a teen I had
felt that something drastic was going to happen to the world in my lifetime, although I
didn't know what it would be. I bought a book in my local New Age bookstore containing
prophecies from various sources, one chapter even had prophecies from the Bible. This
encouraged me to reconsider the Bible as a source of information. As providence would have
it, while I was browsing through this same bookstore, a book seemed to light up on the
shelf. That may sound weird but that's how I perceived it. The book had a strange blend of
New Age, UFO's and Bible prophecy. Again this book catapulted me into considering the
Bible and some buried memories of my childhood studies of Jesus started to resurface.
Soon after, I began watching a Christian television program. One day a woman was talking
on the show of her experiences and how she had asked Jesus to come into her life,
highlighting the impact this had on her. Her circumstances were similar to mine and I felt
compelled to invite Jesus into my life too. After she finished sharing, the host of the
program explained from the Bible that everyone had sinned against God, which has resulted
in our separation from Him, ending in judgement and eternal separation from Him. But God
didn't leave us in this awful situation, He loved us so much that He sent His only Son,
Jesus, to take the judgement and penalty for my wrong-doings, by voluntarily giving His
life by dying on a cross. He was then raised to life three days later and is now in heaven
but will return some day. I only had to accept His death for me and allow Him to become a
part of my life to be restored to His Father. I prayed that day, asking for God's
forgiveness, thanking Jesus for dying for me and asking Him to come into my life. At that
moment I knew I was no longer alone and I had a peace that I had never experienced before.
Since that day, many years ago, I continue to grow closer to God and walk in peace. He has
changed my life in so many ways! I no longer need drugs, alcohol and a rebellious
lifestyle to escape. I can face my past, live today and walk toward the future without
fear. I am free. Each day I have become more of what He created me to be. I am blessed in
so many ways. When I have a problem, get scared, or need something, I can go to my Father
in prayer and He is always there with answers.
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