it was night and the city lit up as usual. nothing particular, just a city and my responsibility and suddenly, i was driving away.
south, through the dark, with short bouts of accompanyment from strangers who couldn't keep up, till i took a left and another and another and pulled my car into a field that opened to the sky. was it the nighttime or the stars or the fact i'd driven for an hour, [or perhaps something else altogether] that made me find the courage to call?
i used to think i'd have to disappear afterwards. i'd fade from this and you and everything would be part of a great reminiscing. i used to think it would never be the same again, we would never be the same. that i'd hug you, kiss you, and then walk away forever. hoping i'd have strength enough not to look back.
now all i want to do is stay put. all i want is your hand on my back leading me through the room. the warmth of your body next to mine. all i want is to look over and see your face. |
