A View From The Back Beauty Breathe Did I Really Die? Eclipse Genocide Grousom Memories Hungry Lover Hypocrite Last Laughed Leave Me Alone Locked Metal Tear Minds Eye Month Of Suicide Nosferatu The Demon The Life Of A Dildo Transfixed Welcome To Your WorldBack Up A View From The Back I didn't turn my back on you, my back is facing you because I'm concerned with details. The reason could be is for you to figure out who I might be. I sit and watch the sea, just as you sit and watch me. I can be happy, sad or I could even be meaningless to this faceless society. People don't take the time to see who you really are on the inside, once I turn around you might laugh in my face. I'm just between my view and you, I'm just being myself. I'm looking at my view with carefulness, So look at me with carefulness. Don't judge me generally or individually because you can't. I'm the same as you no more and no less, whatever I'm looking at you're looking at too. The only thing you can't see is my face, I can't see your face either... © Back Up Beauty Beauty and . . . remaining remnant beauty's quest unjustified, you might say this is a story 'justify my eyes' solemn night some years ago tangled mind, a different kind poetic thought not quite alike social indifference on the upper most layer the inside; deeper beneath the skin a quest journeys beginning simple complexity of reality slipping sanity, easy blame beauty was 'was' divinity irrational and innocent a different thought she had. the price she would pay for unfound glory time confined to moment sought through night bright amusing light (street lamp) a thrill rush of wrong innocence laughing No tears perhaps, if only perception angled tangled thought the remnant of her poetry. © Back Up Did I Really Die? To travel into the unknown. With no guide and no followers. Alone with your thoughts,what little you think anymore. Reoccuring tendencies that make you fight yourself harder than any other opponents battled. Falling back into ways forgotten. Jaded, cold....the emotion is draining. Lifeless stares adorn blank faces. Parasitic emitions addicted to draining the marrow from life itself. Time spirals downward along with the hopes of becomin sane within your existance. A lifeless, emotionless corpse wandering without roads or direction. A life pulse....the only indication of a being....no longer exists. Flatlined silence amongst a background of rage and tears. The screams cannot be heard over the lulling undertones of a solid flatline. I guess my question has been answered. © Back Up Eclipse The gift of life, the punishment of death. Eclipse the sun. What is left? Darkness, Deceit, Beautiful corona, Molesting the sky. Eclipse the sun, Is this the end? Do not fear. For there is no life, and there is no death. There is no heaven, and there is no hell. No one to save you, no one to be saved. We're in this together, No one can stop us now. Eclipse the sun. What is left? We are. Is this the end? We are. For we are the beginning, and we are the end. Eclipse the sun. For it's there my friend © Back Up Hypocrite I long to be alone While I'm crying out for help. I long for love While I push true love away. I long for comfort and peace While I run into destruction. I long for freedom While I chain myself up. I cry out for God While I run the other way. I feel two-faced While I feel perfectly normal. I long for the future While I bring up the past. I long for solitude While I long for friends. I can't get through this by myself Yet I want to do it all alone. I long for warmth While I run to the cold. I long for the light While I wander in darkness. © Back Up The Lost One Always been a creature of the night now he is seen in the day. Like a sick creature he walks. Lost the will to live. He will not die of his own will, it must be at the hands of another. Tiredly aggressive he wanders, looking for what, he knows not. Lashing out with sharp tools, few dare to come close. No worldly goods He dares never to dream of redemption Life was wasted on worldly pleasure, he knows nothing different. Sore and crippled wishing it would end with back oblivion. He lives one. For what? There must be something more. Show him! © Back Up Breathe Breathe i feel the sharp cool metal i watch the blood fall breathe i see my cheeks stained with tears i begin to pale breathe my head starts to spin my heart is slowing breathe my body drops to the floor, heavy my eyes are cloudy, can't see breathe my throat tightens i begin to choke breathe a smile forms on my lips the first in a long time breathe my brain goes numb my body cold breathe i lay limp on the ground pools of red liquid surrounding me spilled blood still warm breathe © Back Up Genocide The Orders were made Kill with hate Start with Women Then kill the Children The lives mean nothing Why do you stop For them I told them Heaven awaits Erase the slate Their pain with hate Their blood runs with anger And the rain runs red For them Its what I created I named it Genocide I swallowed their pride Lived all their lives Killed it off All for them © Back Up Grousom Memories Sweet Dreams Sleep my dear child, while the angry demons whisper into your young virgin ears. Close your tired eyes and rest while your imaginitive mind builds your fears. No, there are no scarry monsters under your bed. it's just Satan slowly filling your head. with illusions and visions of his dark, evil angels coming to put your childhood life in horrible tangles. What's that? It's not a howl. It's just the devil posing as an elderly owl. No, your just hearing demons chanting grousom things. Now, hush my perfect angel, and remeber 'Sweet Dreams' © Back Up Hungry Lover My hungry lover is calling again Wanting me to push the blade in 'Right in that vein under your knee that is the best place, for me' He taunts and screams like a junkie Wanting nothing but the next hit. Still I lay in my silence of pain a comforting pain that shows it's colors with bright orbs of red. For I am a woman that flirts with death defies all odds and settles for the less. Maybe that is why I lay in my silence of death. © Back Up Last Laughed Mysterious plague your jaws dripping with the hue of my suffering Mysterioius force summoning all the beasts of hell creating scenes of waste Black eyes looking deep The morning of the last day burns cold and crisp in the strange light Furious bickering a child cries for his lost peace One small rose crushed by the thousands of ponderous footsteps marching ever on into the blackness 'Buy me another beer' he spat into the dank air and all hope was lost so we went home 'I'll kill anybody who stands in my way' his face was drawn and pinched 'Who wouldn't?' I murmured and laughed one last time © Back Up Leave Me Alone Friends are for fools who believe in trust I do not believe in trust myself I don't give a sh*t about anybody But you continue to try and get through The wall of hate is sealed and will forever stand Why do you try? Why? You mean nothing to me and I threaten you But you just stand there and say nothing You give me your pity which I hate most You claim that your trying to help But you only make it worst My anger and hate builds on end Why must you care about me? I am nothing but a loner and a freak I enjoy the darkness and quietness at night You think all I want is attention No, I don't want your attention I want to be alone and free of your pointless ideas and happiness You think that I hate my life and wish for friends But all I wish for is to be alone Alone in a corner of darkness waiting to strike I don't want friends Friends are for fearful people They trust these people but when trouble arouses they run You think you can trust them when you can't Friends are just a cheap trick of life Yes I am strange No I am not asking for attention All I ask for is for you to leave me alone Please.....leave me alone © Back Up Locked Unlocked on the outside Locked on the inside Clenched in life Raw in pain Drenched with freedom But still locked away Craving more Receiving less And enclosed with all the stress Thoughts pile up Not being released And once they are Everything is decreased Keep bundled up Reer away Nothing to say Thats how it is Not bound to change Let me suffer While being Strained © Back Up Metal Tear Metal tear dragging you down It twists and pulls and pins you to the ground You laugh , you cry You hurt, you sigh It burns as it rolls down your face And with the cuts on your arm you feel out of place And with your screams your head pounds Your ears so sensitive to the other sounds Clinging to your last chance But it all will fade in a glance Everything will drift away Even the people you always expect to stay You blink you eyes- you don't understand You feel like sufficating in a trash can You miss them alot You wish the nightmares would just stop Yet they just flash a grin You'll never win Can't you see the metal tear staining your cheek You try to fight it back,but you are too weak. © Back Up Minds Eye Shoot me up Take me down Because I am a fallen angel tonight Don't judge me, I need no judge I care not for hypocrites Slice my veins and let my poison drop I need my fix again anyways Shadows lunging toward me to drag me down to where I have always came back to. Left here alone... My minds eye has cataracts © Back Up Month of suicides Flittering Fluttering A long descent To the cold barren road Sunshine shall pierce no more Tis the month of suicides And I fear all is coming to a close I hear it on the breeze Whispers of the end is near As it picks it up Flittering Fluttering The frost that emanates from the bone A deathly cold thus has been bestowed To near is the close There is nothing left to hold Nothing of which to let go Layering sounds Get picked up by the frostbitten breeze Concealing all the dying screams As all comes to a close Sunshine shall pierce no more Tis the month of suicides And I know All has come to a close Flittering and fluttering to the cold desolate road © Back Up Nosferatu My desire... For the pain... Nothing could ever make me sane Take the seduction... of the blood A graceful masquerade of A kins anguished love Lying on the bed of dreams Visions and blissful scenes Images of lust and death The stench of blood on my breath Rapture and pleasure... feel the same Crying out for the... kiss of sadistic games Caress the morbid fur A dance around the fire... A dance around lucifur Crying out alone and dead Craving for the crimson dread Servent of unholy sin Sacred children of Satan's kin Cursed and Damned now am I Forever ancient praying to die........ © Back Up The Demon My blood it could make you complete Experience the pain enjoy the heat The last drops of your blood fall on my tongue I can achieve what can never be done Feeling the heart of the victim slowly stop beating Cling to the memory because this feeling is fleeting I am to you what can never without exception be hunted The desire to kill and drink blood can never be blunted I am not the demon of war nor the demon of life Taking no preference guard your child and wife Holding more power than the thief in the night I have no morals I don't care what's right I cannot be defeated by either knife or gun Understand my nature and you will run I don't feel pain or experience the hate No pointing fighting accept your fate You search for the name that I can go by Why does it matter your going to die The name you seek is not in the satanic verses Ready the coffins I will fill the hearses As the last moments of your life begin to fade Die knowing a grand feast you made All I require of you is to feel your blood Watching you die makes me feel so good © Back Up The Life Of a Dildo Locked in the cabinet I'm Hidden away My Mistress keeps me For a rainy day I'm a shinny metal Equiped with 5 speeds I am always here For the bitches needs The cabinet opens I am her slave Now I enter This fishy cave In and out up and down I think I hear That Womens sound Faster and Faster As deep as I go I think shes ready For the big 'O' I hear her scream Ending all the fun So back to the cabinet My job here is done © Back Up Transfixed Here I stand. You will come to me When you can do no other. 'But I am Good,' you cry, And your Demon whispers 'Not.' 'But I Love,' you cry, And your Demon laughs outright. In your Pain lies Beauty In your Fear, Rejoicing. Your divided Will cries for fulfilment. Do you fear the Darkness? Then why long to embrace it? Do you laud the Light? Why close your eyes to the sun? In the Light lurk Shadows Stars shimmer in the Nighted sky. Can both be embraced, or neither? You will come to Me And your steps drag, lightly. I will embrace you And your heart will flutter. Is the Lure too strong? Then flee. Your Will is yours to command. You will come to me When you can do no other. Here I stand. © Back Up Welcome to your world Crying, Lying, Cheating, Beating, Talking, Blocking, Leaving, Succeeding. Wishing and Hoping, Letting and Scoping, Trying and Dying, Sending and Bending. Dreaming, Seeming, Pushing, Pulling, Binding, Finding, Making, Taking. Between guessing and knowing, Wanting and going, Being helped and helping, Wishing and believing. All of these things, Help accomodate life so much, Whether we get too far away, Or even within touch. This is your world, You helped make it, And now that it is wrong, You so desperately try to break it. This is part of your world, The part you try to hide, The part you hate so much, The part on which I rely. Welcome to your world, The world that killed so many, The world not of 'love', 'happiness', and 'peace', But where man is your closest enemy. Welcome to your world....... After all, YOU MADE IT.... But not for long, For soon I will sing my ragelic song.... ©
