Darkness

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A Forced Suicide
An Internal Maelstrom
Creatures Of The Night
Demon Dreamer
Engulfed
Enter the minds chaos
Fear!!! 
Goodbye
Heart attack
Help Me
House of Pain
Hurtful, Screaming Anger
Just another day in silence
Leave Me To Decay
LIGHT
Madness
My Life
My prayer
My Soul
Not Even Some Good Poetry
Obsessive Compulsive Scribbles
Ode To Suicide
Pale As Death
Ramblings
Surrender
The Creatures That Lurk
The Demon In Me
Torn
When Hell Summons
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Back Up A Forced Suicide Let me die now. Now before this world kills me with agony and sorrow Before it drives me to the dark recesses of insanity, to the edge of suicide. Kill me, for I want to die. I cannot bear this suffering any longer. It damages my mind, and leaves a dark bloody tear in my soul, in my being itself. For this world we are born into kills our precious, sweet, innocence leaving us bitter and torn. We are all drawn to the light, but hide in the shadows. Why? There are those precious few who remain like the eyes of a child, but it is not too soon that their light inside flickers out, and they too become hate-filled and sorrowful, like me. I myself, I am one of the many dark-hooded masses, hidden away in my own private bleak gray dungeon, living in my woes and regrets. Always wishing I was something more, something pure, but always feeling I am cursed, forbidden even, to ever escape my own private hell. We are all the same, serving the same sentance of punishment for crimes we either have not commited or have done to long ago to be remembered. But for some there is an even greater sentance along with it, the death penalty. They are sentanced to be killed, with insanity, fear, pain. I am one of those. I long for death's cold grip to come and save me from this anguish, this nightmare. I yearn for peace, rest, utopia. Ah, death is bliss. To be no longer in agony, both physically and mentally. To be at peace with ones soul. To lie still, no more screams of pure misery that fall unheard upon deaf uncaring ears. No more clawing into the darkness in hopes of finding a streak, a slight glimmer of light. I would do it myself, plunge this silver dagger deep into my breast, piercing my already shattered heart and ending it all. But I am afraid, afraid of the pain. The blood pouring from my open wound and knowing I have caused it. Knowing I have taken a life, albeit mine. But mostly, I amafraid of losing the last thing in this world of any importance to me. I am afraid to lose my soul. For to murder ones self is to lose their soul. And to lose your soul is to plunge into the vast, swirling, empty darkness . . . forever. © Back Up An Internal Maelstrom jumping down the stairs drawn into a memory of what is and what should never be crystals and shards of broken glass pierce my eyes deliver me from my ceaseless thinking through tortured skies crying their ambition screaming their rage I run faster into the turbulent caress of memories and longing of a wind swept ocean a lone bird's cry friction trips through the sky an offering to appease an already stinging mind © Back Up Demon Dreamer. Pale sickening beauty, hands that touch all world's harm, they scar your own body, blood rushes from your arm, black silky hair, covering your eyes from all view, if anyone saw your eyes, they'd see bright blue, surrounded in a world of pure sobriety, that's how you were raised, if anyone knew your thought's they would think you were crazed, put down the gun, before he wins, your life has just begun, now's no time for ends, run to the bathroom, hide your head low, I am a demon, but no one has to know, go to school the next day, all is the same, the same little faces, that make your life a game © /font>Back Up Engulfed The darkeness bewilders my soul, but it is no stranger to me. It's evil doing takes a toll, though to some it is hard to see. I want to thrust a blade in its heart, and rip its being from this world. The prescence nerves me from the start, how can it for I'm just a girl. I feel that I belong in hell, for it makes the place seem so near. I see no light in the well, hatred it brings never a fear. If I had the power to kill, I would do it without regret. I am forced to climb this blank hill, no power of death can I get. If one should read this poem of mine, they best pray it's in later time. © Back Up Enter the minds chaos crystal moon of night shine down apon me take my life hatefilled sun steel my death and give me insanity this place is cold and damp such a lovely place to be to sit on peaks that chaos built to look apon a sea of hate to feel their thoughts penitrate your mind and fill your soul with sadness madness sets the shore and insanity the pebbles. the life within most rarely seen your darkest fears secrets kept for your enjoyment laughter trickles into your ears your eyes open to scornfull sunlight your flesh is torn from the fires of hell and yet... You sit.quiet,content..to all eyes.. while chaos rules your mind... For the nameless.. expadition of lives come togeather swirl around and disapate and the weak return for the pastion of feeling and pain they search for a simple reply that will never come.... © Back Up Goodbye I am leaving for awhile, it odd how roads take you from one place to the next. Only to leave you there stranded, without a quarter to call someone, Anyone anyone at all, but oh yes no one cares... I don't know when I will be back, hell I don't know if I will even be back. My life is changing so fast it's hard to remember what day it is. Life the false existance of people who need something so despiratly to believe in. We only think we are alive, when in reality (or what we claim to be reality) has just given us a trick, and illusion of sorts. Change, the fear of not knowing what is expected... not knowing how to cope or how to accept it... then again how would you? © Back Up Heart Attack a cut that cannot heal this scar upon my soul everything i feel is thrown into the hole i realize my blade has punctured a new vein now i watch it bleed and it washes away my pain a cut merely a scratch a cut i want it back i've lost who i once was in my world of little lies i have found the cause that made the old me die he bled out through a scar he yelled out with my pain he didn't get too far but he is gone for today i bleed it goes away i bleed and release decay i love and it's thrown right back i love heart attack © Back Up Help Me! I'm scared Look at me I'm shaking I don't know what to do I keep thinking about taking a razor blade and cutting my arms to shreds I want to watch the blood run to my fingertips Does that make me sick? Oh, help me! I'm so scared the unimaginable pain makes me feel nauseous I want to push the blade in deep until I can't see it anymore I want to sit in the tub and watch the blood pool around me Am I crazy? I am afraid that I might be somebody save Please! I don't want to die this way © Back Up House Of Pain Cold, dingy, solitary place where my mind Takes up residency You can't see it with the naked eye Because of the well built smile And my comical ways. Deep within lies all the hurt, mental anguish family abandonment And total heartache. Inside this house of pain, alone in a corner A scared little girl sits and cries... Cries for love and attention and wishes to fit in. I try to do unto others as I would have others do unto me Yet when the deeds are done, they forget about me. It would seem I am the only one home in this house of pain Trapped inside, searching for a crumb One small morsel of love But who needs love anyway When I have my house of pain? © Back Up Hurtful, Screaming Anger Abusive coldness at my back Turn around and they attack Break me in a little more Thats what I'm always here for Pull me father,lure me in this depression is my sin I'm broken down covered in tears Now you are my only fears I can see it in your eyes Hurtful anger i despise Screaming thoughts throughout your mind Scarring me anyway you can find Bleeding wounds on skinned knees Oh God don't let him hurt me please Taste the death burn from his stare Security hold me in my glare Tomorrow I'll be back again To stop this sh*t; to make an end O well thats what I always say It would never happen anyway © Back Up Leave Me To Decay I'm walking, I'm walking One step at a time I'm silent, I'm silent As if I was a mim I'm getting closer As they yell poser I'm walking closer to the edge I'm jogging, I'm jogging One leap at a time I want to tell you, please let me tell you Yet you pay no mind I'm almost there now I still can't share now I'm almost there at the edge I'm running, I'm running There is no more time You know now, I told you Yet you think I'm fine I am there You don't care I've run off the edge I am gone, I am gone Time does not exist You knew all the time, you paid it no mind On my body you pissed I am dead now Just walk ahead now Leave me to decay © Back Up LIGHT The light burns my tender skin, leaving it hardened and cracked. I used to be beautiful, inside and out, but now i'm ugly. Turned into a depressed empty shell, because of the outside world. I am hollow in my head and my heart. I see a light but will it come my way? will it see me for what i was and still can be with a little love? All i need is a little of his love and my empty shell will overflow and my life will return. You gave me life and just as suddenly you took it from me. Will you return it too me now that i'm trying my hardest for you? You are my life, My world, My love. You are the only one I ever wanna be with. If you don't return, my soul is forever doomed to the pits of hell and never again to see heaven. Its painful to see you with another girl... It makes me want to tear out my heart and throw it at you screaming 'HERE ITS YOURS!!!' but i can't do that physically of emotionally. Wait, that light its coming towards me!! Its stoping above my head!! You've come back to me and me to you!!! © Back Up My Life Torn and Battered Heart filled with rage My life has been shattered At a very young age In the dark alley I sift through my thoughts Hell falls upon me While my soul rots How did this happen? Even God doesn't know I've suffered and suffered With nothing to show Why am I here? My head has gone numb I finally realize That my time has come All is now blurred- I pass into the flames My life sure as hell wasn't Fun and games And now it's all over It's all in the past Mine was a soul That just didn't last. © Back Up My Prayer Bare my scars, accept my pain Cry for me, let me taste your tears. Lick my blood from your teeth As i pull your hair There's no escape , i've trapped you here Show me your fears, let me watch you suffer Let your wounds resemble my shattered soul. As i inflict pain, biting into your flesh Leaving my mark, mirroring the unseen. My nails scratching down your back till you bleed, Tears unshed revealed as you take on my torment Setting me free ... © Back Up Not Even Some Good Poetry The silence is pierced by voices you cannot hear... wars in which you cannot fight... locked behind eyes in which you stare, not privileged to know they're there...i am. deep inside the throat that feeds you these words are demons...screams...violent spirits. Mind, body, soul...the warriors fighting for power, me...my sanity...i am the equilibrium for which they fight... i am in pieces! not one! not conjoined! where is my determining force? whose voice is this! they tear...they tear... in conjunction by my body...they run from one another! and i...i am being wrenched...wrenched apart! like hooks plunged into my heart, being pulled three ways! i give...i give...and nothing results from my surrender. nothing results from my plea for help... not even some good poetry... © Back Up Obsessive compulsive scribbles not quite even, or symmetrical, not quite real, or logical, the scribbles on this wall, not quite one color, or one style, like you, in every single way, there are no words on this wall, but it speaks volumes, just like you, every single day, beautiful on the outside, but just as beautiful on the inside, even though i cannot see it, i hear it, and i feel it, you can hate this wall, who ever made this wall, but it will still stand, tall and proud, it makes perfect sense to me, and none to anyone else, just like you, flawed like anyone else, with a life all its own, and a beauty, that will outlive us all, you are not a wall, merely a person, who wants to be a wall, with perfect love, perfect trust, and perfect hate. © Back Up Surrender You cannot escape From the power of your own Desire. You have shrugged the shackles of the World So you think. You embrace the lure of the Darkness But the Darkness lies within you. You embrace Yourself. Am I Your creation? I stand outside, and my arms enfold you. I kiss your throat, and we commingle. What have you lost? As you pour into Me My Power flows within you. I nourish Myself. Are you My creation? Whose Will has brought Us here? Define the boundaries of Us. I embrace the lure of your Self But now your Self lies in me. I embrace Myself. I cannot escape From the power of my own Desire. I shrug the shackles of the World And put on yours. © Back Up The Creatures That Lurk looking at the things that lurk upon my soul seeing that they turn turn into shapes as I watch the people dancing through the fields....... making me look in curiosity I hear they make my misery the same as it has been for the years of me the things lurk through and through the shapes are burning the fields are growing the grass is taller as they keep dancing through the night........... the fields are growing and I sit here alone fearing the creatures making them turn and twist around feeling there appearance in the night all the time they dance through the night fearing my soul as it has been taken from my hole....... © Back Up Torn I used to believe in happiness, But now that life has taken, Every ounce of that from me, Nothing is left but a torn heart. Others see the gifts and money, All he has ever given to me, And say that I am lucky. It makes me want to yell, All the truth to them, Of how miserable I feel, And how my heart is torn, But instead I find it wiser, To simply go on pretending, That I am just as happy as they. Inside I feel my soul cry with anger, To those who destroyed all I possessed, The love, the family and the dreams, And to those who act so blind. Please tell me there is another way out, Than that which we all know of (death). Please, open your eyes, And show me a light of hope. © Back Up When Hell Summons Down in the depths of my Satanic home, The summons bell will ring. Tempting you and you alone, To join my sinful king. There's hell to pay, Your in the way. I dont want to take the blame. U cant run from your fate, So please dont hesitate. It's time you felt Hell's flame. Take my hand, I'll pull you in, You'll be punished for each sin. This is no game, You'll feel ashamed. I feel the fire in my eyes, I feel Hell within my veins. You're already dead, its your soul that dies, You feed on death to cure the pain. I reach for your soul within, My disciples see its torn and grin. They cloud your mind w/ unholiness, And to think, it was you who made this mess. Give me your hand while you still have it, Come with me, I'll lead the way. Your flesh will keep Hell's fire lit. You cant escape me, you r my prey. You cant hide from me, I'm in every1. One last time, please take my hand. It's time you see Hell's Promised Land. The place where you belong. © Back Up Creatures Of The Night I tried so hard But lost the fight With the spirits of evil Who torture at night I'm worthless and stupid I'm led to believe As the razor they give me Drips blood down my sleeve I try to overcome them But my back has no bone So they chant and they torture As I turn to stone When the sun rises They sink with the moon But my coldness remains They will return soon I pass through the day Without feeling a feeling I hide in the walls I hide in the ceiling They can still find me By the scent of my tearsStealing love and happiness Stealing hours and years © Back Up FEAR!!! I alone know you. I alone can break you. I alone can tell. I alone can hurt you. You think your alone. You think your fine. Your not alone. You'll never be fine. I control you. I control who you are. I control what you do. I control how far. Time is running out. The end is near. I have no doubt. You have all to fear. Madness eyes wide open seeing all the birth, the rise and then the fall smiles of patience biding time lick the lips, await the crime stalking silent through the night none aware the victim's blight shadows falling, space dissolving as he enters, minds revolving through the fog your mind imagines he is waiting for your madness drop your guard, accept your fate for he will not deliberate glimpse the light that passes through all your sins for they were true crystal gazes veiling darkness he still waits, awaits the starkness unaware the victim wanders deep in thought, the distant thunders blazing life surrounds the mind yet the victims eyes fall blind descending into ever gloom the victim feels impending doom yet beseeching, as the veils of insane thoughts and bitten nails madness hovers on the fringes come partake in foolish binges no one cares, and none shall suffer victim come, and give your offer madness claims the tortured soul slowly, smiling, offered whole malicious pains inflicted thus the body crumbles, saving us we laugh and jest, the victim's death the crazy smile of his last breath unaware our turn shall come when madness seeks another home © Back Up My Soul In her firey eyes, a curse it flickers now beware. In her cold stare a song hear it? it is despair Why is she cursed you ask? She loved. Is that a crime? In this cruel world must you really ask? Her love, once young and alive, now is cold... cold as her blood which flows icily. He is dead killed, murdered. Look now, see it? It is her song. Look deep into these damned eyes and you will see Shattered dreams, betrayal and pain. It is her soul. It is my soul. Can you see? Look deep It is still there, thought I have tried to bury it, God knows I have tried. Imagine now, think,life filled with sorrow, nothing to comfort you exept your deppression Dark, cold, deppression. How I know it. It kills me Look, can you see? Can you see the tears I have wept? Cold blue teardrops Look again Do you see the blood? Deep, dark, red blood drops. I feel no pain. For I can no longer feel anything. Apathy... ahh.. Apathy, my dear friend. Where have you been so long? I lie in my own dark hole of despair, and yet I feel nothing. Apathy. How I love thee. Yet the hole is not of despair It is filling. Filling with blood. My blood. I can no longer breath I am drowning. Drowning, in my own blood. Apathy, Death. My final escape. My cold unfeeling eyes close as I grip the dark blood-red rose and drown. © Back Up Ode To Suicide No one knows when it will be But if you open your eyes, you can see It has already started, no use denying since you were born, you started your dying Now as you move closer to your fate, You realize nothing can be done, it's to late Plenty search for the elixir of youth, Others spend their short time trying to discover a non-existant truth You're going to die, who cares how? It could be in a year, or tommorow, or even now Science can never hope to conquer this end, Change is a universal rule, it will not bend So as you leave this life and enter the one after, Remember that you may no longer have time for laughter, No one can tell you what is and what's not, You'll never find that Ultimate Truth that you sought You can't make a differnce only a dent, For, within a century, your life has been spent Your struggle is futile, why even try? Why live when you might as well die? In this physical world, you don't stand a chance, Why not just do the astral dance? For in the the world of spirits, there's much more compassion Then in this world of money, pride, and fashion © Back Up Ramblings Death must begin with life. Life must end with Death. Womb gives way to cradle. Cradle gives way to bed. Bed gives way to coffin. Coffin gives way to earth. Death, life, nothingness. Everything is virtually the same. Sanity breeds insanity. Who knows what sanity is? Maybe 'sane' people are Truly insane, and define What they are as sanity, When in reality, they aren't Sane, but truly insane. Maybe the 'insane' people see The world as it really is, While we 'sane' people are blind to it. Like babies in a cradle, Unaware of the next step in our evolution. © Back Up The Demon In Me As I sit and wonder alone, I remember the places that I called home, They are the shadows that lay far within, with all of the darkness labeled from sin, I turn on the lights to see my surroundings, but forgot that I'm blind with all my belongings. It's hard to organize what you can't see, and harder still to kill the demon in me, For I have a demon taught with no phlight or direction, and I fear that my death will have no resurection. I know I was born with a key to find my way, but the demon's who aised me stole it away, In the begining I was a human that was full of potential, But without the key the demon grows quite vengeful. Sin and fear blossom and bloom, and without that key, I fear that I am doomed, Is it forgiveness I must feel to make myself see, Or prayer unto God to set my pain free? I have found no one on earth that will tell me the answer, but what I fear most is the demon becoming my master. © Back Up Pale As Death A window of darkness shows me the face the face i will see as death approaches the face of myself, my death my ghost my skin turns pale pale as death... above the window lies this ghost who confuses my mind the ghost that is my death the ghost who is so pale pale as my face pale as death... the ghost speaks to me i do not hear it's words they are so silent so silent my hands turn white they are now pale pale as death... i walk away away from my cold death i can't stand the tension i can't stand the paleness it is so pale, too pale pale as death... © Back Up Just Another Day In Silence Today I wake up In this prison I call home Trapped and feeling this Hollow chill setting in This feeling in my heart Is getting more painful Day after day, I feel worse Getting to a point Where it will never get better This silence is too loud The ringing is becoming unbearable Crying doesn't seen to stop the pain The thought of death is all too much There must be somebody Who can take this pain away But that person can't be found That person is far, far away It's just another day in silence Another day where I feel the pain It won't be long before I meet my doom Alive, but dead real soon�� ©
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