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FROM off a hill whose concave womb
re-worded
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A
plaintful story from a sistering vale,
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My
spirits to attend this double voice accorded,
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And
down I laid to list the sad-tun’d tale;
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Ere
long espied a fickle maid full pale,
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Tearing
of papers, breaking rings a-twain,
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Storming
her world with sorrow’s wind and rain.
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Upon her head a platted hive of straw,
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Which
fortified her visage from the sun,
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Whereon
the thought might think sometime it saw
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The
carcass of a beauty spent and done:
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Time
had not scythed all that youth begun,
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Nor
youth all quit; but, spite of heaven’s fell rage,
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Some
beauty peep’d through lattice of sear’d age.
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Oft did she heave her napkin to her eyne,
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Which
on it had conceited characters,
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Laundering
the silken figures in the brine
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That
season’d woe had pelleted in tears,
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And
often reading what content it bears;
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As
often shrieking undistinguish’d woe
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In
clamours of all size, both high and low.
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Sometimes her levell’d eyes their carriage ride,
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As
they did battery to the spheres intend;
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Sometime
diverted, their poor balls are tied
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To
the orbed earth; sometimes they do extend
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Their
view right on; anon their gazes lend
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To
every place at once, and nowhere fix’d,
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The
mind and sight distractedly commix’d.
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Her hair, nor loose nor tied in formal plat,
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Proclaim’d
in her a careless hand of pride;
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For
some, untuck’d, descended her sheav’d hat,
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Hanging
her pale and pined cheek beside;
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Some
in her threaden fillet still did bide,
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And
true to bondage would not break from thence
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Though
slackly braided in loose negligence.
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A thousand favours from a maund she drew
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Of
amber, crystal, and of beaded jet,
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Which
one by one she in a river threw,
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Upon
whose weeping margent she was set;
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Like
usury, applying wet to wet,
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Or
monarch’s hands that let not bounty fall
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Where
want cries some, but where excess begs all.
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Of folded schedules had she many a one,
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Which
she perus’d,
sigh’d, tore, and gave the flood;
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Crack’d
many a ring of posied gold and bone,
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Bidding
them find their sepulchres in mud;
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Found
yet more letters sadly penn’d in blood,
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With
sleided silk feat and affectedly
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Enswath’d,
and seal’d to curious secrecy.
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These often bath’d she in her fluxive eyes,
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And
often kiss’d, and often ’gan to tear;
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Cried
‘O false blood! thou register of lies,
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What
unapproved witness dost thou bear;
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Ink
would have seem’d more black and damned here.’
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This
said, in top of rage the lines she rents,
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Big
discontent so breaking their contents.
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A reverend man that graz’d
his cattle nigh—
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Sometime
a blusterer, that the ruffle knew
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Of
court, of city, and had let go by
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The
swiftest hours, observed as they flew—
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Towards
this afflicted fancy fastly drew;
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And,
privileg’d by age, desires to know
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In
brief the grounds and motives of her woe.
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So slides he down upon his grained bat,
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And
comely-distant sits he by her side;
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When
he again desires her, being sat,
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Her
grievance with his hearing to divide:
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If
that from him there may be aught applied
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Which
may her suffering ecstasy assuage,
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’Tis
promis’d in the charity of age.
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‘Father,’ she says, ‘though in me you behold
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The
injury of many a blasting hour,
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Let
it not tell your judgment I am old;
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Not
age, but sorrow, over me hath power:
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I
might as yet have been a spreading flower,
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Fresh
to myself, If I had self-applied
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Love
to myself and to no love beside.
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‘But, woe is me! too early I attended
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A
youthful suit, it was to gain my grace,
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Of
one by nature’s outwards so commended,
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That
maidens’ eyes stuck over all his face.
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Love
lack’d a dwelling, and made him her place;
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And
when in his fair parts she did abide,
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She
was new lodg’d and newly deified.
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‘His browny locks did hang in crooked curls,
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And
every light occasion of the wind
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Upon
his lips their silken parcels hurls.
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What
’s sweet to do, to do will aptly find:
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Each
eye that saw him did enchant the mind,
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For
on his visage was in little drawn
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What
largeness thinks in Paradise was sawn.
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‘Small show of man was yet upon his chin;
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His
phœnix down began but to appear
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Like
unshorn velvet on that termless skin
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Whose
bare out-bragg’d the web it seem’d to wear;
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Yet
show’d his visage by that cost more dear,
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And
nice affections wavering stood in doubt
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If
best were as it was, or best without.
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‘His qualities were beauteous as his form,
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For
maiden-tongu’d he was, and thereof free;
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Yet,
if men mov’d him, was he such a storm
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As
oft ’twixt May and April is to see,
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When
winds breathe sweet, untidy though they be.
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His
rudeness so with his authoriz’d youth
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Did
livery falseness in a pride of truth.
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‘Well could he ride, and often men would say
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“That
horse his mettle from his rider takes:
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Proud
of subjection, noble by the sway,
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What
rounds, what bounds, what course, what stop he makes!”
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And
controversy hence a question takes,
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Whether
the horse by him became his deed,
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Or
he his manage by the well-doing steed.
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‘But quickly on this side the verdict went:
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His
real habitude gave life and grace
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To
appertainings and to ornament,
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Accomplish’d
in himself, not in his case:
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All
aids, themselves made fairer by their place,
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Came
for additions; yet their purpos’d trim
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Piec’d
not his grace, but were all grac’d by him.
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‘So on the tip of his subduing tongue
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All
kinds of arguments and question deep,
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All
replication prompt, and reason strong,
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For
his advantage still did wake and sleep:
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To
make the weeper laugh, the laugher weep,
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He
had the dialect and different skill,
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Catching
all passions in his craft of will:
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‘That he did in the general bosom reign
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Of
young, of old; and sexes both enchanted,
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To
dwell with him in thoughts, or to remain
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In
personal duty, following where he haunted:
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Consents
bewitch’d, ere he desire, have granted;
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And
dialogu’d for him what he would say,
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Ask’d
their own wills, and made their wills obey.
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‘Many there were that did his picture get,
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To
serve their eyes, and in it put their mind;
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Like
fools that in the imagination set
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The
goodly objects which abroad they find
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Of
lands and mansions, theirs in thought assign’d;
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And
labouring in more pleasures to bestow them
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Than
the true gouty landlord which doth owe them.
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‘So many have, that never touch’d his hand,
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Sweetly
suppos’d them mistress of his heart.
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My
woeful self, that did in freedom stand,
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And
was my own fee-simple, not in part,
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What
with his art in youth, and youth in art,
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Threw
my affections in his charmed power,
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Reserv’d
the stalk and gave him all my flower.
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‘Yet did I not, as some my equals did,
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Demand
of him, nor being desired yielded;
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Finding
myself in honour so forbid,
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With
safest distance I mine honour shielded.
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Experience
for me many bulwarks builded
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Of
proofs new-bleeding, which remain’d the foil
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Of
this false jewel, and his amorous spoil.
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‘But, ah! who ever shunn’d by precedent
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The
destin’d ill she must herself assay?
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Or
forc’d examples, ’gainst her own content,
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To
put the by-pass’d perils in her way?
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Counsel
may stop awhile what will not stay;
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For
when we rage, advice is often seen
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By
blunting us to make our wits more keen.
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‘Nor gives it satisfaction to our blood,
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That
we must curb it upon others’ proof;
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To
be forbid the sweets that seem so good,
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For
fear of harms that preach in our behoof.
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O
appetite! from judgment stand aloof;
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The
one a palate hath that needs will taste,
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Though
Reason weep, and cry “It is thy last.”
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‘For further I could say “This man ’s untrue,”
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And
knew the patterns of his foul beguiling;
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Heard
where his plants in others’ orchards grew,
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Saw
how deceits were gilded in his smiling;
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Knew
vows were ever brokers to defiling;
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Thought
characters and words merely but art,
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And
bastards of his foul adulterate heart.
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‘And long upon these terms I held my city,
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Till
thus he ’gan besiege me: “Gentle maid,
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Have
of my suffering youth some feeling pity,
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And
be not of my holy vows afraid:
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That
’s to ye sworn to none was ever said;
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For
feasts of love I have been call’d unto,
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Till
now did ne’er invite, nor never woo.
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‘“All my offences that abroad you see
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Are
errors of the blood, none of the mind;
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Love
made them not: with acture they may be,
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Where
neither party is nor true nor kind:
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They
sought their shame that so their shame did find,
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And
so much less of shame in me remains,
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By
how much of me their reproach contains.
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‘“Among the many that mine eyes have seen,
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Not
one whose flame my heart so much as warm’d,
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Or
my affection put to the smallest teen,
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Or
any of my leisures ever charm’d:
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Harm
have I done to them, but ne’er was harm’d;
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Kept
hearts in liveries, but mine own was free,
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And
reign’d, commanding in his monarchy.
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‘“Look here, what tributes wounded fancies sent me,
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Of
paled pearls and rubies red as blood;
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Figuring
that they their passions likewise lent me
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Of
grief and blushes, aptly understood
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In
bloodless white and the encrimson’d mood;
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Effects
of terror and dear modesty,
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Encamp’d
in hearts, but fighting outwardly.
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‘“And, lo! behold these talents of their hair,
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With
twisted metal amorously impleach’d,
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I
have receiv’d from many a several fair,
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Their
kind acceptance weepingly beseech’d,
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With
the annexions of fair gems enrich’d,
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And
deep-brain’d sonnets, that did amplify
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Each
stone’s dear nature, worth, and quality.
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‘“The diamond; why, ’twas beautiful and hard,
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Whereto
his invis’d properties did tend;
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The
deep-green emerald, in whose fresh regard
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Weak
sights their sickly radiance do amend;
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The
heaven-hu’d sapphire and the opal blend
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With
objects manifold: each several stone,
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With
wit well blazon’d, smil’d or made some moan.
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‘“Lo! all these trophies of affections hot,
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Of
pensiv’d and subdu’d desires the tender,
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Nature
hath charg’d me that I hoard them not,
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But
yield them up where I myself must render,
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That
is, to you, my origin and ender;
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For
these, of force, must your oblations be,
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Since
I their altar, you enpatron me.
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‘“O! then, advance of yours that phraseless hand,
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Whose
white weighs down the airy scale of praise;
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Take
all these similes to your own command,
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Hallow’d
with sighs that burning lungs did raise;
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What
me your minister, for you obeys,
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Works
under you; and to your audit comes
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Their
distract parcels in combined sums.
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‘“Lo! this device was sent me from a nun,
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Or
sister sanctified, of holiest note;
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Which
late her noble suit in court did shun,
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Whose
rarest havings made the blossoms dote;
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For
she was sought by spirits of richest coat,
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But
kept cold distance, and did thence remove,
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To
spend her living in eternal love.
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‘“But, O my sweet! what labour is ’t to leave
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The
thing we have not, mastering what not strives,
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Playing
the place which did no form receive,
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Playing
patient sports in unconstrained gyves?
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She
that her fame so to herself contrives,
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The
scars of battle ’scapeth by the flight,
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And
makes her absence valiant, not her might.
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‘“O! pardon me, in that my boast is true;
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The
accident which brought me to her eye
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Upon
the moment did her force subdue,
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And
now she would the caged cloister fly;
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Religious
love put out Religion’s eye:
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Not
to be tempted, would she be immur’d,
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And
now, to tempt, all liberty procur’d.
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‘“How mighty then you are, O! hear me tell:
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The
broken bosoms that to me belong
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Have
emptied all their fountains in my well,
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And
mine I pour your ocean all among:
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I
strong o’er them, and you o’er me being strong,
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Must
for your victory us all congest,
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As
compound love to physic your cold breast.
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‘“My parts had power to charm a sacred nun,
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Who,
disciplin’d, ay, dieted in grace,
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Believ’d
her eyes when they to assail begun,
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All
vows and consecrations giving place.
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O
most potential love! vow, bond, nor space,
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In
thee hath neither sting, knot, nor confine,
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For
thou art all, and all things else are thine.
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‘“When thou impressest, what are precepts worth
|
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|
Of
stale example? When thou wilt inflame,
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How
coldly those impediments stand forth
|
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|
Of
wealth, of filial fear, law, kindred, fame!
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Love’s
arms are peace, ’gainst rule, ’gainst sense, ’gainst shame,
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And
sweetens, in the suffering pangs it bears,
|
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The
aloes of all forces, shocks, and fears.
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‘“Now all these hearts that do on mine depend,
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Feeling
it break, with bleeding groans they pine;
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And
supplicant their sighs to you extend,
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To
leave the battery that you make ’gainst mine,
|
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Lending
soft audience to my sweet design,
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|
And
credent soul to that strong-bonded oath
|
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|
That
shall prefer and undertake my troth.”
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‘This said, his watery eyes he did dismount,
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|
Whose
sights till then were levell’d on my face;
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Each
cheek a river running from a fount
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With
brinish current downward flow’d apace.
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O!
how the channel to the stream gave grace;
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285
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Who
glaz’d with crystal gate the glowing roses
|
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|
That
flame through water which their hue encloses.
|
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|
‘O father! what a hell of witchcraft lies
|
|
|
In
the small orb of one particular tear,
|
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|
But
with the inundation of the eyes
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290
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|
What
rocky heart to water will not wear?
|
|
|
What
breast so cold that is not warmed here?
|
|
|
O
cleft effect! cold modesty, hot wrath,
|
|
|
Both
fire from hence and chill extincture hath.
|
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|
‘For, lo! his passion, but an art of craft,
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Even
there resolv’d my reason into tears;
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There
my white stole of chastity I daff’d,
|
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|
Shook
off my sober guards and civil fears;
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|
Appear
to him, as he to me appears,
|
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|
All
melting; though our drops this difference bore,
|
300
|
|
His
poison’d me, and mine did him restore.
|
|
|
‘In him a plenitude of subtle matter,
|
|
|
Applied
to cautels, all strange forms receives,
|
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|
Of
burning blushes, or of weeping water,
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Or
swounding paleness; and he takes and leaves,
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305
|
|
In
either’s aptness, as it best deceives,
|
|
|
To
blush at speeches rank, to weep at woes,
|
|
|
Or
to turn white and swound at tragic shows:
|
|
|
‘That not a heart which in his level came
|
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|
Could
’scape the hail of his all-hurting aim,
|
310
|
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Showing
fair nature is both kind and tame;
|
|
|
And,
veil’d in them, did win whom he would maim:
|
|
|
Against
the thing he sought he would exclaim;
|
|
|
When
he most burn’d in heart-wish’d luxury,
|
|
|
He
preach’d pure maid, and prais’d cold chastity.
|
315
|
|
‘Thus merely with the garment of a Grace
|
|
|
The
naked and concealed fiend he cover’d;
|
|
|
That
the unexperient gave the tempter place,
|
|
|
Which
like a cherubin above them hover’d.
|
|
|
Who,
young and simple, would not be so lover’d?
|
320
|
|
Ay
me! I fell; and yet do question make
|
|
|
What
I should do again for such a sake.
|
|
|
‘O! that infected moisture of his eye,
|
|
|
O!
that false fire which in his cheek so glow’d,
|
|
|
O!
that forc’d thunder from his heart did fly,
|
325
|
|
O!
that sad breath his spongy lungs bestow’d,
|
|
|
O!
all that borrow’d motion seeming ow’d,
|
|
|
Would
yet again betray the fore-betray’d,
|
|
|
And
new pervert a reconciled maid.’
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