Xanthous Wanderer(Yellow Wanderer)
Author: munky
Rating: PG
Pairing: Renuki (Renamon/Ruki)
Archive: MCY; all others, please ask first.
Genre: Digimon Tamers Yuri, Introspection, and unrequited love. Renamon POV.
Author Notes: Renamon, a starry night, and thoughts of Ruki. This was influenced by my favorite artist of all time, Vincent Van Gogh and his artwork, "Starry Night". It always made me think of Renamon for some reason. *g*
Disclaimer: Digimon Tamers isn't owned by me. Disney has the rights to it now.
The night is so beautiful. Sparkling points of light shine down on me, so unlike the barren blackness in the digital world. I lift my muzzle up and open my mouth slightly to let the smells of the park waft into my nostrils. My eyes narrow into little slits as I let my mind wander in the night's peaceful silence.
I know I really shouldn't be here, so far away from Ruki. I'm supposed to protect her and how can I do that when I'm not nearby? The answer that I keep finding is that I can't, because she's really the reason I'm here.
The words she speaks about Digimon being tools? They're just lies she tells to convince herself that no one's gotten past the walls built to keep everyone away. That's just the way Ruki is. She's afraid to let anyone close to her and considering what I know about my Tamer, I can truly understand that. Her father meant the world to her and he just got up and left without even saying goodbye.
That's the saddest thing I've ever heard in my life, but hasn't it been said that time heals all wounds? It seems that the longer Ruki goes on, the more pain and bitterness she feels. I can understand that too. I just can't understand how she can live a lie about not caring anymore. She isn't a machine and I know that she can feel.
All I have to do is look in her violet eyes and I can see that. Her eyes speak the truth to me; that she cares, that I matter in her life, and that despite being hurt, she needs someone to love and have them love back. I'm just waiting for the words to come out.
Something sparkles in the air as the wind picks up. Are those my tears? Tears that I cry, for Ruki's sake. For hers and my own. The night seems so lonely now, without her at my side. It doesn't matter that she's hidden, or that just looking at her right now hurts, because I know that there's hope for her yet.
I won't give up, Ruki. I'll keep fighting for you until the day you realize that I'm not fighting to get stronger, I'm fighting to help you find the love inside yourself. I love you, my Heartbreaker.