What the hell, no one's reading this, so I might as well get this out...

It's rare for more than one guy to be on my radar, never mind three. I don't know, maybe it's because it's summer. Each of these guys is fairly different. The one I should like, the one I could like and the one I shouldn't like but do. 

1. The Safe Bet. The one I should like. But don't really seem to. He's smart, not terrible on the eyes, and really smart. Completely oblivious, a loner, and doesn't have much of a sense of humor. The sort of guy you could expect a safe, uneventful relationship with (and not too much pressure from since he's clearly the shy, inexperienced type who isn't likely to demand much – in any aspect). I'd like to like him, but there's virtually no spark. I think he and I are destined to have interesting conversations, but not much else.

2. The Typical. If it wasn't for #3, I'd probably really go for this guy. He's amusing, attentive, well-read, and we've hit it off well. We have some very different interests, though. There's some chemistry there, so time will tell...

3. Under My Skin. You know that guy you really shouldn't like because he's attached, but you can't force yourself not to like him? Yep, this is the one. He's cute, and charm oozes from his pores. And he's a flirt, damn him. I can't stop myself from responding in kind, even though I feel guilty to since he's got a girlfriend...but one he's clearly not happy with.  Of course, cynic that I am, I'm also suspicious about what he wants - on a professional basis, I mean.  If he breaks up with his girlfriend, I'm going to make a fool of myself, the writing in on the wall. I should probably write this one off as unobtainable and be done with it. Right? (to complicate things, he and guy 2 are buddies. I get the sense he was annoyed when guy 2 flirted with me today. Hmm...)

Part of the problem with guy 1 is that it would be easy and safe. Maybe I need someone who challenges my boundaries, like 3 clearly would, and 2 probably would as well. I think I need to be braver. I definitely need to make some changes in my life.

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