| Why do I make this happen, Screw up my life like this? Can't I control what I'm doing? Is it true love that I miss? These lies are too much for me. Wish I could make them disappear. Knowing I made this all happen, Makes me tremble with fear. Am I uncomfortable with myself? Am I ashamed of my past? As I find myself lying again, I hope and pray it's the last. I feel so stupid, so immature... Feel untrustful and lame. Don't understand what causes this, But it never fails to fill me with shame. Now I know better, I'm sure of it! Won't let this happen again! I'll try to live with the life I have, Get over what happened back then. |
| Lies |
| I'm so sick of pretending I really don't want to hide But I put on a smile They'll never know I've cried Outside I look alright Inside I'm torn apart I cannot take much more Too much pain in my heart Unsure of what's happening Nobody knows what's wrong Acting different, don't know why Been like this for way too long My old friends left me No one there to take their place Not worth listening anymore My head's always off in space So sick of pretending Don't wanna hide Put on a smile... They won't know I cried |
| Pretending |
| Overcome with sorrow Too much pain and guilt Want to get away from here But that would be so vain Wish things would improve So sick of living like this Remembering the good ol' days When life was full of bliss Used to be so care free Had no problems, or very few Now there's nothing but And I'm always feeling blue Miss all the simple pleasures That life used to bring to me When I took it all for granted Now I must beg and plea Everything's going down the drain And nothing's going right I must keep building strength up I'm going to win this fight! |
| Unbeatable Battle |
| Poems On Life |
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| Everyone's changing I've been forgotten Left all alone I feel so rotten What's going on? Must it be this way? Miss everything That you used to say Don't know who I am Or where to go All by myself It's hard you know |
| Change... |
| Just a few things I wrote about what was going on in my life at the time... |
| Scratchin at the skin Wanna let my soul escape As it reddens and it swells I sit and anticipate Layers start to peel away I'm feeling a little better It's beginning to numb Still getting redder When I take a break I feel it start to burn Returning to the scraping How long will it take to learn? Skin accumulates under my nails I switch to something sharper A welt begins to appear The red skin getting darker A thin line etched into my wrist Not deep enough to kill Just enough to ease my pain Just had to get the thrill |
| Red |