L.D. 50
(choose another album)

2.Dig
3.Internal Primates Forever
4.-1
5.Death Blooms
7.Cradle
8.Nothing To Gein
10.Everything And Nothing
11.Severed
13.Prod
14.Pharmaecopia
15.Under My Skin
16.(k)Now F(orever)

Dig (top)

Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I was
Slowly changing

I
Would love to beat the face
Of any motherfucker that’s thinkin’ they can change me
White knuckles grip, pushin’ through for the gold
If you want a piece of me, I broke the motherfuckin’ mold
I’m drowning (In your wake)
Shit rubbed (In my face)
Teething (On concrete)
Gums bleeding

Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I was
Slowly changing

I
Struggle in violated space
Sellout motherfuckers in the ‘biz that try to fuck me
Hang from their T’s, rated PG insight
I ain’t sellin’ my soul when there’s nothin’ to buy
I’m livid (In my space)
Pissing (In my face)
Fuck you (While you try)
To fuck me

Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I was

You ain’t fuckin’ changin' me

Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you chain the weights onto your legs

Get on the plank, fuck

Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury Me
Underneath
Everything that I was
Slowly changing
Wish you were committing
Suicide
Suckin’ on a motherfuckin’ tailpipe
Dead man danglin’ from a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of a channel
Bob away

Internal Primates Forever (top)

Cop provisions
Feed my addictions
Mistakes I made then...
I opened up the holes and they crawled in
Now when it’s time for the feed they won’t let me forget
They ride upon my back and they’ll fuck me with their need
My invisible enemies
All my monkeys

They’re coming...
They’re coming...
They’re coming...
They’re coming...
They’re coming...
They’re coming to take me away (haha)

Disgusted
With my position
So submissive I am
The only way we get away is give in
Sharpen up the razors; stab the needles into pipes to kill cravings
So sick
Of this
In me
Can’t stand
The want
To need
Can’t get free
Always got a grip
On me

There’s no use (Everything )
To fight this wrenching tourniquet (I’ve become now is)
Of deprivation (Everything)
Obedience, subservience (I didn’t want to be)
Leads to substance

(Do you want more?)
GiveittomeGiveittome

Lead my motivation (Everything )
To chemical dependency (I’ve become now is)
No room for patience (Everything)
Don’t want it? Need it. (I didn’t want to be)
Come on.

Right now.

Run away...
Run away...
Run away...

Every time I try to run away
I fall on my face
They drag me back
They drag me back
Every time I try to run away
I fall on my face

Help!
They won’t leave me alone
Help!
They won’t leave me alone
They won’t leave me alone

If I would have known back then
What I knew now
I’d take it back
I’d take it back
If I would have known back then
What I knew now
I’d take it back
I’d take it back
I’d take it all fuckin’ back

Stay away
Stay away

(Hold)
Me
I’m shaking violently
(Pull)
Me
Out of my covering
(Mold)
Me
Into a new man
(Lull)
Me
Into a deep sleep

Stay away
Stay away

(Hold)
Me
I’m shaking violently
(Pull)
Me
Out of my covering
(Mold)
Me
Into a new man
(Lull)
Me
Into a deep sleep

(One, two)

There’s no use (Everything)
To fight this wrenching tourniquet (I’ve become now is)
Of deprivation (Everything)
Obedience, subservience (I didn’t want to be)
Leads to substance

Even if you want
You can’t
(stop)
Even if you want
You can’t
(stop)
Even if you want
You can’t
(stop)
Even if you want
You can’t
(stop)

Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)
Internal Primates
(Forever)

-1 (top)

Losses, losers, and more
Gain of life’s pleasures
Cohorts listenin’ behind the doors
To a life
Sheltered in
Less than zero in me
All my walls
Falling down
Pains aloft
Misery
I’m sure that the lessons were learned
I’m sure that the punishments went well deserved
By the pawn
In the plan
Taste of shit
Bitterness
Walk from me
Everything...
Systematically

Come on
Youweretheone
Youweretheone
To dredge up
shit Inside of me
My pointless life
Of nothing
(Tell me)
What I’m supposed to be
(Tell me)
Who I’m supposed to be
(Tell me)
What it takes to ascend
(Tell me)
What it takes to live

Patience, pleasures and rewards
Come in due time
Stare at the sun
I’m bored
In a life
Meaningless
Soaking up
All of me
Like the cross
You worship
Life is loss
Look at me...
I’m sure that someday we’ll wake up
I’m sure that someday we’ll wake from the dream
Of success
And focus
Tunneling...
To the light
Glowing deep
Inside of me
Your taunting
I wake up

Come on
Youweretheone
Youweretheone
To dredge up
shit Inside of me
My pointless life
Of nothing
(Tell me)
What I’m supposed to be
(Tell me)
Who I’m supposed to be
(Tell me)
What it takes to ascend
(Tell me)
What it takes to live

Tell me
NOW
Tell me
NOW

Pain
Misery (In me...)
Distress
Dismal (Calling...)
Nowhere (Loser...)
Depressed
Idiot (Man, I’m the...)
Failure

Loser
(In me...)
Loser
(Who I am...)
Loser
In me

Don’t feel sorry
Don’t feel sorry for me
Don’t need your sympathy or empathy
Don’t need your sympathy inside of me
Don’t need your sympathy or empathy
Don’t need your sympathy inside of me
Don’t feel sorry
Don’t feel sorry for me

COME ON

I know
Youweretheone
Youweretheone
Numb to
Feelings inside of me
Why I’ve seized
My vision
(Don’t need)
You to tell me who to be
(Don’t need)
You to tell me what to be
(Don’t need)
You to tell me how to ascend
(Don’t need)
You to tell me how to live

Death Blooms (top)

Cold seems crippling
Lame meander through corridors
Aroma’s thick with age
Mark off the day

reflectionsofmylifearefading
Pull me out of body
Don’t want in
Don’t want in
Feeble, frail and rotting
I’m lost in a structure that’s collapsing
Don’t want it
Cast into
Maker, take the body
Don’t want it
It wants me

Past has found its place
Salvation is no more
Will God accept my peace?
Bleached will pardon me

Pull me out of body
Don’t want in
Don’t want in
Feeble, frail and rotting
I’m lost in a structure that’s collapsing
Don’t want it
Cast into
Maker, take the body
Don’t want it
It wants me

I just want to run and hide
Fly kites, wrestle, jump, and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore
Memories in me
Cocooned in misery

I’m sick
And tired
Of embracing reflections of pastime
Receive me or cast me away

...God please take me away

Resistance
Futile
Suicidal ideas

I will crucify my own being
Satisfy selfish needs
Fuck the deities
Justify my own right to what’s waiting for me

On the other side
The time has come
Lock and load

I’m coming
I’m coming
I’m coming
I’m coming home

Pull me out of body
Don’t want in
Don’t want in
Pull me out of body
Don’t want in
Don’t want in
Pull me out of body
Don’t want in
Don’t want in
Feeble, frail and rotting
I’m lost in a structure that’s collapsing
Don’t want it
Cast into
Maker, take the body
Don’t want it
It wants me
Pull me out of body
Don’t want in
Don’t want in
Feeble, frail and rotting
I’m lost in a structure that’s collapsing
Don’t want it
Cast into
Maker, take the body
Don’t want it
It wants me

I just want to run and hide
Fly kites, wrestle, jump, and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore
Memories in me
Cocooned in misery
The darkness overcomes
Soul soars to the other plain
Existence past the door
I sail through Purgatory’s Bay

I asked a God for poison
Cradle me
Sewn to my dreams
Soul searching
Death blossoms
Where clouds lie
Over me
Held in God’s hands
Death blooming...

Dark for fear of failure...
An inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting...
Roiling hate...
Death grip in my veins...
Unveiling rancid petals...
Flowering forth foul nectar...
The space between a blink and a tear...
...Death Blooms

Cradle (top)

Breathe...
Breathe...
Breathe...
Breathe...

Push
Push
Push
Push

I lost you
You were my god
Thought what do I do now?
You were never there for me
Never there to carry me
26 years looking back that time is gone
It was you I believed in
Look what you’ve done to me
Realize what you’ve done to
Me

I can’t see going on
In this darkness I’m blind
Beneath my cradle, the bough has broke
I exorcise my loss
Your lie
Punishment

It takes time
To try to mend the wounds from all the suffering
What do I do now?
All I’m asking from you
Please
Send me a sign
To guide me through the times that lie in front of me
I’ll get by myself

Look at me now
A piece of shit like you
Look at me now
You left me so fuck you
Look at me now
A piece of shit like you
Look at me now
You left me so fuck you

Everybody leaves me
Everybody’s gone
Watch my father leave me
There’s nobody left

FeelslikeI’veneverbeenloved

Everybody leaves me
Never gave a shit about me
Everybody’s gone
I’ll rot in my head alone

I don’t give a fuck about you go the fuck away (Everybody leaves me)
I don’t give a fuck about you go the fuck away (Never gave a shit about me)
I don’t give a fuck about you go the fuck away (Everybody’s gone)
I don’t give a fuck about you go the fuck away (I’ll rot in my head alone)

Fuckin’ cocksucker...

Fake being
Inside of my heart you are the liar
Innocence displaced
I’m so lost in my own life
Been left

Here I stand now and I’m alone
With no one to comfort me
One set of footprints in the sand
No one to take my hand, I’ll
I’ll walk through as long as I need
I’ll drift through my life though I’m alone
Outgrown the cradle that once housed me
And I’ve found that all I need is
Me
Me
Me
Me

Found I’ve never needed you
To push through
All the shit that stacks up inside of my life
Endless plight that circulates through my body
I’ll keep stumbling
Beating
Pummeling
Teething on the rind
Renounce my being

I can’t see going on
I can’t see going on
I can’t see going on
I can’t see going on

I can’t see
I’m too tired
I can’t see
I can’t see going on
I’m so tired
Of trying to mend the wounds from all the suffering
What do I do now?
It’s all I’m asking from you
Please
Send me a sign
To guide me through the times that lie in front of me
I’ll get by myself

icantseegoingon
fuckit
icantseegoingon
fuckit
icantseegoingon
fuckit
icantseegoingon
fuckit

Nothing To Gein (top)

Cold and silent
Soiled face
I will wash it all away
With my love
It’s all she’s ever needed
From me
It’s my time
To mother
One of my own in my life
I am so alone
Left with no one
In my life
I’m so alone

Life
Submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant
A little boys best friend’s always his mother
At least that’s what she said
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
I’m just a soiled boy
Just a soiled dirty boy

Sheltered life
Innocence
Insulated memories spark reflections of my head
Duality in my consciousness
Caught in the war of hemispheres
Between the love lost in my head
Mommy do you still live inside of me?
I’m so lost in my life without any guiding...
Protected me my whole life from everything
Nailed shut the doors to the shrine
To screen your dead eyes from me
And my sickness

Mutilate and sew my new clothes
For masquerading
Apron of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face

Deliver the remains from her womb of earth
Prep the rack and tie up for new loves rebirth...
Covert understanding of novice surgery
Focus concentration and only take just what I need

For sickness
I’m masticating
Dancing
And masturbating
Celebrate in fields of night with skin upon my face

Life
Submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant
A little boys best friend’s always his mother
At least that’s what she said
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
Life
Submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant
A little boys best friend’s always his mother
At least that’s what she said
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
I’m so soiled

If I soak my hands in others blood,
Am I sick?
If I wash my hands in others blood,
Am I sick?
If I drench my hands in others blood,
Am I sick?
If I bathe myself in other blood,
Blame mother for the sickness

Mutilate and sew my new clothes
For masquerading
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face
Dance and masturbate in night by myself

Nothing is left for me to gain
They’re coming to take me far away
Nothing is left for me to gain
They’re coming to take me far away
Nothing is left for me to gain
They’re coming to take me far away
Nothing is left for me to gain
They’re coming to take me far away

Life
Submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant
A little boys best friend’s always his mother
At least that’s what she said
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
Life
Submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant
A little boys best friend’s always his mother
At least that’s what she said
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
I’m so soiled
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
I’m so soiled
Life
Of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And love is meaningless
I’m so soiled

Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...
Soiled...

Everything And Nothing (top)

We swallow the spit
Steal acceptance
Lead denial
Tellin’ me that my life is free and boundless
And then I’m forced to stay between the lines
The construct death
To demolish life
Plant the seeds to harvest loss
Found that empty truth is full of lies

Lies
Lies
Lies
Lies

We’re hoping for despair
Starvation’s gluttony
Subtle chaotic peace
War divided unity
Pro life
Pro choice
Blinded insight
Left wing
Right wing
Black
White
Leaders following

I am Everything
I am Nothing
I am Everything
I am Nothing
I am Everything
I am Nothing
I am Everything
I am Nothing

I am Everything
(i am nothing)
I am Everything
(i am nothing)

Stop fuckin’ with me
I’m the accused (A human not a machine)
I’m not the enemy
You’re so confused
No way you could enlighten me (A human not a machine)
No freedom trapped in slavery (A human not a machine)
Deceitful honesty
Motherfuckin’ human
Not a machine (Not a machine)
Stop fuckin’ with me
I’m the accused (A human not a machine)
I’m not the enemy
You’re so confused
No way you could enlighten me (A human not a machine)
No freedom trapped in slavery (A human not a machine)
Deceitful honesty
Motherfuckin’ human (Not a machine)
Not a machine

Lay your hands upon me
In search for answers inviting
Constant struggle inside me
Guide me through
this everything that’s nothing
**(It’s all right to be afraid
They suffocate a time for us to change
Build palettes full of blacks and grays to shade our faces
They shape our lives and disturb your space
Your hopes ran out upon that day
They played my life like it was some kind of fuckin’ game
A bunch of bigots
They have no room to complain
So now I guess I’ll be the one to improve the tears
Your fears
The loss
Your sacrifice given up for years
Walking my life on the lines that they decide
I’m waiting for the end of time
Praying for the end of time
Pray for the end of time)**

I am Everything
I am Nothing
I am Everything
I am Nothing
I am Everything
I am Nothing
I am Everything
I am Nothing

I am Everything
(i am nothing)
I am Everything
(i am nothing)

Stop fuckin’ with me (A human not a machine)
I’m the accused
I’m not the enemy (A human not a machine)
You’re so confused
No way you could enlighten me
No freedom trapped in slavery (A human not a machine)
Deceitful honesty (A human not a machine)
Motherfuckin’ human
Not a machine
Stop fuckin’ with me (A human not a machine)
I’m the accused
I’m not the enemy (A human not a machine)
You’re so confused
No way you could enlighten me
No freedom trapped in slavery (A human not a machine)
Deceitful honesty (A human not a machine)
Motherfuckin’ human
Not a machine (Not a machine)

Severed (top)

And they hide behind
Lies, anger, hate
They shoo love away
Build shells of ourselves outside
It shelters body from cold reigns of reality
Come on
Step out
Of your rind
Assemble strength
Focus
Release
And run to me

You can never look back to the visions from the past
They fade
And wilt in time

You’ve got to just trust me to hold your hand through
Then I’ll turn and walk away

Eclipse you (bleed...you...cut you away)
And bleed you,
Strip you,
Of your states of ain soph aur
Eclipse you (bleed...you...cut you away)
I spit up on my plate
And I push everything away
From me

And we sever all ties
It creates disruption midst circle of friends
I become sacrifice
Spare your life and leave me to my misery

Get off the cross
And save yourself
Run away (you’ll be ok)

RunnowgetawayfrommeIfIcangetmygrip, I’llpullyoudownintothishellIcallmyhead
You’ll never get away
IsitdowninmyuglyplaceAndbuildwallsoutoffragmentsof
mypastofallthepeoplethatIneededandloved
That walked away

You’ve got to just trust me to hold your hand through
Then I’ll turn and walk away

I walk under clouds of gray
Sphere of storms in my head
I’m trapped again in endless rain

I divorce the thoughts of you in love with me
I divorce your innocence and my guilt
I divorce the lying sellout confidence
I’m divorcing every motherfucking thing
I divorce the love bled meaningless
I divorce the makeshift harmony
I divorce the taunting acts of violence
I divorce the pastime of jealousy
I divorce control
I divorce the faith
I divorce the virtue
I divorce the rain
I divorce the excuse
I divorce the greed
I divorce the need
I divorce iniquity
In this motherfucking bullshit life
Just want it all to go away
Just want to run away to die
Take it
Myself
My life
Textbook fucking mental
Off me
And pitch me in a hole

I’ll always be your shadow
And veil your eyes from states of ain soph aur
I can’t be the hero
Anymore
I spit up on my plate
And then I turn and walk away
I spit up on my plate
And I disrupt the family
I spit up on my plate
And I sever the entity
And I feel your warm sun
On my face
Separate
Separate
Separate
Separate

Eclipse you (bleed...you...cut you away)
And bleed you,
Strip you,
Of your states of ain soph aur
Eclipse you (bleed...you...cut you away)
I spit up on my plate
And I push everything away
From me
Eclipse you (bleed...you...cut you away)
And bleed you,
Strip you,
Of your states of ain soph aur
I need you (bleed...you...cut you away)
It’s always been this way
I push everything away
Eclipse you (bleed...you...cut you away)
And bleed you
Strip you
Of your states of ain soph aur

Prod (top)

Emotions inside us
Troubling...
The hatred inside us
Escalating...
The sickness inside us
Keeps us weak...
The masses inside of us
Suffering
They are bleeding
The calling inside us
Sick with greed...
The voices calling to us
Deafening
We’re not listening

Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Swat at the flies omit disgust

The leaders inside us
Posturing...
The pollution inside of us
Suffocating me...
The science inside us
Menacing...
The will that’s inside of us
It’s dying
End is coming

Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the neck
Drain us of life and cleanse the mess

Cleanse the mess
Cleanse the mess
Cleanse the mess
Cleanse the mess

Wash me off inside
Wash me off inside

Were killing ourselves
Were killing ourselves
Were killing ourselves
Killers

Goddamn we fucked up the circumstance
Too late to save us from ourselves
Callous minds against trust and confidence
Too late to give a damn
Now

Too late to save us from ourselves
Too late to make it all go away
Too late to beg pardons from the mother
Too late to give a damn

It’s too late to save us from ourselves
It’s too late to make it all go away
It’s too late to beg pardons from the mother
It’s too late to give a damn
Now we’ll sit and wait

Wait
Wait
Wait for the coming
Of the end
Wait for

The coming
The killing
The ending
The plight of man
Deserving
No mercy
Expelling
By God’s hand
Its okay
The ending
It’s over
No more pain

No more pain
No more pain

Emotion
The hatred
The sickness
The calling

Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the neck
Swat at the flies omit disgust
Drain us of life and cleanse the mess

Pharmaecopia (top)

Does you God come
In a capsule
To sedate you?
Tear the walls down
Headless prison
Cannibals chew to consume you
Bring the alien

Halcium and Morphine
5-Methoxy-N
N-Dimethyltryptamine
Psilocybin, Mescaline, Aspirin
Histamine
Brushite, Darvaset
Valium
Caffeine, cannabis, and LSD
Ayahuasca, Harmine
Give it all to me
I want it

These are just a few of
My favorite things
These are just a few of
My favorite things

Trisolam and Zanex
Seratonin
MDMA
Ibogaine, Dopamine
Tetra-Hydro-Chloride, Atenolol
Amanita muscaria
Boric oxide, Arrabinitol, Psilocin
and Flamazine
Cylotec and Harmaline
Give it all to me I want it

Does you God come
In a capsule
To sedate you?
Tear the walls down
Headless prison
Cannibals chew to consume you
Bring the alien
Does you God come
On a plate
To sedate you?
Tear the walls down
Headless prison
Cannibals chew to consume you
Kill the alien

Kill the alien
Kill the alien
Kill your alien
Kill your alien

You can’t kill me
I’m already dead
Inside my hole
Inside my head

We just beg for any way
To be sedated
It’s all about escaping
Numb to me
Numb body from this hell

I can feel them pushing
I can feel them pulling
I can feel them holding
I can feel them moving
I can feel them prying
I can feel them prodding
I can feel them breathing
I can feel them digging
I can feel them stabbing
I can feel them scoping
I can feel them living
I can feel it

Consume
Take in
Plunging
Plumbing
Instruments prying
Aliens inside me
Tooling the machine
Intoxicating
Feel it unfolding
Riddles in me

It’s all about escaping
We just beg
For any way to get away
Who do you bow down to?
Does you God come in a capsule or on a plate?
They’re trying to sedate you
Swallow self
And bring on the alien
You tried to kill me

I’m already dead to this world
I’m already dead to this world
I’m already dead to this world
I’m already dead to this world
I’m already dead to this world
I’m already dead to this world
I’m already dead to this world

Under My Skin (top)

Nailed inside my head

Fuck this
I don’t need your shit
All the lies
Deceit
And arrogance
Talk your shit like my life is some kind of fuckin’ game
Like you fuckin’ know me
Just go far away and be small
Run far away and be small
Go lie in a hole and be small

Thorns (So want inside of me?)
Splinters (So want a piece of this?)
Pushing (So you want to tear me down?)
Under my (for your own selfish wants and needs)
Skin (So want inside of me?)
They want in (So want a piece of this?)
Sharpened tongue... (So you want to tear me down?)
To penetrate me (for your own selfish wants and needs)

If you
Really think
You got what it takes to be me
Then walk a mile in the skin
Of my head case mental being (To penetrate me)
So you
Want a piece
Of this life that belongs to me
Well make a cut on the line
And take a deeper look inside of the freak (To penetrate me)

(That is me)
(Fucker)
(Come on)

Disturb (So want inside of me?)
Search me (So want a piece of this?)
Prying (So you want to tear me down?)
Up all my (for your own selfish wants and needs)
Scales (So want inside of me?)
To get in (So want a piece of this?)
Lance the core... (So you want to tear me down?)
To penetrate me (for your own selfish wants and needs)

If you
Really think
You got what it takes to be me
Then walk a mile in the skin
Of my head case mental being (To penetrate me)
So you
Want a piece
Of this life that belongs to me
Well make a cut on the line
And take a deeper look inside of the freak (To penetrate me)

You’re under my skin, fuck
Fuckin punk-ass
Bitch

(You’re under my fuckin skin)

You were there like a punk
Just to get in my face
Wanted in me
Wanted to be
‘Till I gave you a taste
Don’t need your goddamn pressure frontin’ stress
I’m superman motherfucker
Without the 'S' on my chest
Trying to step in my circle
I’m leaving you purple and black
On your back
Drop your ass like a heart attack
Rippin’ through your life
Like a motherfuckin’ hurricane
Fist full of Novocaine
For the pain

You’re nothing
In my life
In my head
You’re
Nothing
In my life
In my land

Nailed inside my head

Your under my fuckin’ skin

I have cleansed my life now of the people who pry
And threaten place
Always in my face
I think its time for them to
Go away
Always in my fuckin space
Always in my scene
Always in my sight
Always in my way

You’re
Dead
To me
Punk-ass fuck

If you
Really think
You got what it takes to be me
Then walk a mile in the skin
Of my head case mental being
So you
Want a piece
Of this life that belongs to me
Well make a cut on the line
And take a deeper look inside of the freak (To penetrate me)
If you (There’s)
Really think
You got what it takes to be me (Nothing)
Then walk a mile in the skin (There’s)
Of my head case mental being (Nothing left)
So you (There’s)
Want a piece
Of this life that belongs to me (Nothing)
Well make a cut on the line (There’s)
And take a deeper look inside of the freak (To penetrate me) (Nothing left)

(K)now F(orever) (top)

Frozen moments in time...
Stopped hourglass...
They predicate
What you will know
Dispositions lie within
And so do we
Don’t want to run
Don’t want to hide
Renounce the prayers for inspiration
If you dictate
What I will be
Then smash my face upon the concrete
I’m weary
I feel the
Stares piercing
So sorry to soil your precious eyes
Reflections
Spoon-feed you
The bitterness and disgust that is me
If you choose
To reach out to lend to me
I’ll chew off your hand

I’m not beggin’ for your fuckin’ change
I’m not beggin’ for your fuckin’ change
I’m in touch with myself
All alone with myself
All one (alone)
All one
All one (alone)
All one
All one (alone)
All one
All one (alone)

Do what you will
Make it the
Whole of your law
Burn down the faith that shadows life
And take a deeper look inside of what shapes you
Pull down the shades...
Internal lights can be blinding
Brilliance

I’m not beggin’ for your fuckin’ change
I’m just beggin’ for a fuckin’ change
Complacence quenched of me
Lineage is ending

I am that
Once was me
Rising upward
Guts wrenching
Sculpted cold
Blistering
Break the mold
Sever me

Cut your throat
Be the martyr
Bitter pills
That we swallow

Take me
Chase me
Swallow
With me

Know
Now
Know
Now

Inside of truth
Coming to
Close to me
Ground consumes
And embraces
Me
Me
Me
Me
(Now forever)

Born again
I’m
Repositioning
Self inside to self
Non-dimensional
Lost to being
I’ve
Recognized the cause
Existence to come
Alive now, forever
Born again
I’m
Repositioning
Self inside to self
Non-dimensional
Lost to being
I’ve
Recognized the cause
Existence to come
Alive now, forever

I am once was
I am once was
I am once was
That is me
I am once was
I am once was
I am once was
That is me

I’m broken
Altered
Vacillating force
‘Round square corners circles dance around wet figures
Prisoner of time
I’m no more
Insight will guide us through the majesty of nothing

It’s like I’m touched with love by angel girl
Let bastards rot in time for all their evil
Let bastards rot in time for all their evil
Let bastards rot in time

No more beggin’ for a fuckin’ change
I’m not beggin’ for a fuckin change
I found my own place
Take this in my own space

 

The Begining of All Things to End

(See Kill I Oughta)

The End of All Things to Come
(choose another album)

1. Silenced
2. Trapped In The Wake Of A Dream
3. Not Falling
4. (Per)Version Of A Truth
5.Mercy, Severity
6. World So Cold
7. the patient mental
8. Skrying
9. Solve Et Coagula
10. Shadow Of A Man
12. The End Of All Things To Come
13. A Key To Nothing

Silenced (top)

Sticker this,
censor this,
ban this;
We've got something to say
Police this,
condemn this,
damn this;
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm silenced.

Listen here...

Is it a possibility?
That were all just equal,
slam the power down
abusing...
Does it piss you off,
to be beat at your own game?
You lead us with flase morals,
and shelter reality.

No more...
We're not buying your product when you selling the words preaching silence.

Insult me in my home,
when you were never invited.
To live life on your curve
Frustrating.
Throw sticks into the spokes,
to relieve insecurities.
Stifle all ascension,
and sticker our freedom of speech.

Sticker this,
censor this,
ban this;
We've got something to say
Police this,
condemn this,
damn this;
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm silenced.

Don't tell me what I want.
Don't tell me what I need.
Don't tell me how I need to feel.
I feel...
Goddamn nothing
Dig these eyes out of my face
and I can still see right fuckin' through you;
Fuck you and everything you are
I'm me, we're us, and that's all.
Closed mind with a forum to criticize
Keep your policy and I've got mine
Exploit me, fabricate your lies
We empower these cowards just to be left in
Silence.

Listen here...

Stand on my soapbox,
and speak my own peace.
Whatever you may think;
It's real.
Prevail through what is me
And step on your beliefs.
Theiving, spineless sellouts,
robbing our integrity.

Bring it on!

Sticker this,
censor this,
ban this;
We've got something to say
Police this,
condemn this,
damn this;
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm

Trapped In the Wake Of A Dream(top)

Do I deserve these beatings?
Hating me,
well then,
Cut, cut the noose
and let me fall away...
I'm, growing weak and tired
of you
and your little shoving games
fucking...
pushing me.
You pulled the trigger,
trapped in,
the wake,
of your

Dream
You're all killers.
Always fucking pushing me;
insulting me;
I've overcome;
I have found the strength of gods in me.
Crushing
All unwilling;
This is so unstoppable.
Hard as nails,
hook that holds,
reach down and find the strength of many in you.

My sanctuary...
calling my name,
so I run through...
to the light,
weeping through a cloud.
Darkened,
by a tainted dream,
of me,
being pummeled by the tide,
crushing,
killing me
But I can't wake up,
trapped in,
the wake of a

Dream
You're all killers.
Always fucking pushing me;
insulting me;
I've overcome;
I have found the strength of gods in me.
Crushing
All unwilling;
This is so unstoppable.
Hard as nails,
hook that holds,
reach down and find the strength of many in you.

Call it;
call a truce.
I'm believing
in it more and more.
Comfort;
purge the truth, I'll belive it.
I'm so weak and sore, shadowed
Hide and seek,
but you never looked.
I wait behind the door
call out;
bite the hand that is feeding...
Compassion no more.

I hope I never wake up.

Dream-sewing, filters, distort reality of what is mine through light this
mind awakens
I draw the line from then and now, awake and dreaming, forgotten past future
becomes mine.

Throw the chains,
all away,
take control,
of your life.
Powers known,
this is my...
Throw the chains,
all away,
take control,
of your life.
Powers known,
this is my...

Dream
You're all killers.
Always fucking pushing me;
insulting me;
I've overcome;
I have found the strength of gods in me.
Crushing
All unwilling;
This is so unstoppable.
Hard as nails,
hook that holds,
reach down and find the strength of many in you.

Not Falling (top)

Always,
known in all my time,
A little left of center now
Reflect,
as I realize...
That all I,
need is to find:
themiddlepillarpathtositlikethesunbyastarinthesky
and just be.
Sinners,
casting stones at me.

I…
I stand,
not crawling,
not falling down
I…
I bleed,
the demons,
that drag me down
I…
I stand, (for nothing),
not crawling, (the center),
not falling down (of calms within the eye)
I…
I’ll bleed, (for no one),
the demons, (but myself),
that pull me down (for me and no one else)

Goodbye,
sunshine,
I’ve put it out again,
sad
I’m over,
personalities,
conflicting,
I don’t need you,
or anyone but me.
I’ll just be,
living my own life;
I feel my glowing center grow,
infecting,
I feel alive.
Shovel...
dirt over lime.
Plantitinmyselftositlikeaseedundercoversofearth,
and just be.
Sinners,
pointing fingers at me

I…
I stand,
not crawling,
not falling down
I…
I bleed,
the demons,
that drag me down
I…
I stand, (for nothing),
not crawling, (the center),
not falling down (of calms within the eye)
I…
I’ll bleed, (for no one),
the demons, (but myself),
that pull me down (for me and no one else)

Come play kill.
Refuse my body,
refuse my shadow.
Stone cold will.
Refuse to lead this,
refuse to follow.
Bitter pills
Refuse to feed this,
refuse to swallow,
I’m fueled godless

Come play,
come play,
Kill.
Just be.
Just be.
Just be.
Just be.
Just be.

I…
I stand,
not crawling,
not falling down
I…
I bleed,
the demons,
that drag me down
I…
I stand, (for nothing),
not crawling, (the center),
not falling down (of calms within the eye)
I…
I’ll bleed, (for no one),
the demons, (but myself),
that pull me down (for me and no one else)

(Per)Version Of A Truth (top)

When everything is lost, (peel it all away),
Haunting us with questions. (asking)
Will we ever find smile inside? (no)
Is it hiding behind the sweating eyes?
(bleeding)
Dead inside a scream,
that's pouring from me.

I'm planted in this skin. (constricting and pulling me)
This dirty, filthy skin. (rancid and stinging me)
I burn behind the walls.
(that have become my world)
The bearer of a gift...
Fuck your gift.

Truth Does Not Exist. (but the lies do.)
Truth Does Not Exist. (but the lies do.)

They're buried in the skin
evolved.

Perversion of a truth,
I'm stuck there.
(inside of lies buried in me, why?)
alone.
Born into a world,
never asked to be here.
(Try to forget, truth doesnt exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)
Daath.

Always inside a tragedy. (things never seem to go away)
A room that I remember... (portraits I carry)
Try letting go of this space.
(bad habits can't kick me)
The fool that fell from heaven.
Heaven.

Perversion of a truth,
I'm stuck there.
(inside of lies buried in me, why?)
Alone.
Born into a world,
never asked to be here.
(Try to forget, truth doesnt exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)
(It doesn't exist, it doesn't exist, truth.)

Maybe we're all the children of a star
misguided in direction.
our misdirection.
pardon me while i pray for
light.

I'm not the only one;
That walks between the rain,
there are many.
I'm not the only one;
When everything is lost that doesn't surrender.

Perversion of a truth,
I'm stuck there.
(inside of lies buried in me, why?)
Alone.
Blind, walking through a world,
I never asked to be here.

Versions of the truth...
I'm not the only one.
Your versions of the truth...
I'm not the only one.
Your versions of the truth...
I'm not the only one.
Your versions of the truth...
I'm not the only one...
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.

Mercy, Severity (top)

We've come here..
from so far away, I can save you;
If you leave it all behind.
This suffering's,
been far too long.
Would you take a trip with me,
on the back of a star?
I feel like Earth's gravity
is just here to pull us down.

Mother of Creation wait;
Embrace the souls of a lost world,
carry them away.
Darkness,
negative,
receptive.
Pour firmament
between our waters,
separate the space.
Mother of Destruction wait;
With a belt of skulls,
strap me down and send the ship away.
Progress,
with the process.
Mine the souls from their casts,
pour form and reshape.

This dark womb,
wraps and covets me;
Redefining, understanding, if you open up the heart.
Nurturing,
this phenomenon,
we can carry you on our wings,
our wings through the dark.
Lighting flashes of insight;
Into the mirth of a dark sky.
Pain of division is nothing;
Joy of dissolution is everything.

Mother of Creation wait;
Embrace the souls of a lost world,
carry them away.
Darkness,
negative,
receptive.
Pour firmament
between our waters,
separate the space.
Mother of Destruction wait;
With a belt of skulls,
strap me down and send the ship away.
Progress,
with the process.
Mine the souls from their casts,
pour form and reshape.

Portal sits deep within the eye...
The eye of Yin's severity rewards understanding.
Portal sits deep within the eye...
The eye of Yin's severity rewards understanding.

Black.
ness.
Con.
sumes.
Body.
Comforts.
Core of nothing.
Black-
ness.
Con-
sumes.
Body.
Comforts.
Core of nothing.

Mother...
I can remember...
A vault of security.

Can you take me away?
Would you take me away?
Won't you take me away?
Away.

Mother of Creation wait;
Embrace the souls of a lost world,
carry them away.
Darkness,
negative,
receptive.
Pour firmament
between our waters,
separate the space.
Mother of Destruction wait;
With a belt of skulls,
strap me down and send the ship away.
Progress,
with the process.
Mine the souls from their casts,
pour form and reshape.

World So Cold (top)

When passion's lost,
and all the trust is gone.
Way too far.
For way too long.
Children crying;
Cast out and neglected.
Only in a world so cold.
Only in a world this cold
Hold the hand,
of your best friend.
Look into their eyes,
and watch them drift away...
Some might say,
we've done the wrong things.
For way too long.
For way too long.

Fever inside the storm.
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name. (calling your names)
Away from the stones. (throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us.
Keep your thorns.
'Cause I'm running away.
Away from the games. (fucking head games)
Away from this space. (hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold.

Burning whispers,
remind me of the days...
I was left alone,
in a world this cold.
Guilty of the same things,
provoked by the cause.
I've left alone...
In a world so cold.

Fever inside the storm.
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name. (calling your names)
Away from the stones. (throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us.
Keep your thorns.
'Cause I'm running away.
Away from the games. (fucking head games)
Away from this space. (hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold.
I'm flying...
I'm flying away.
Away from the names. (calling your names)
Away from the games. (fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold...

Why does everyone feel like my enemy?
Don't want any part of depression or darkness.
I've had enough.
Sick and tired;
Bring the sun,
or I'm gone.
Or I'm gone.

I'm backing out.
I'm no pawn;
No motherfucking slave to this;
NeverliedNeverleftNeverlivedNeverlovedNeverlostNeverhurtNeverworry
about being me.
Or anyone else
Not a care.
No concern.
Don't give a shit about anything.
Backing out.
Giving up .
No motherfucking slave to this;
NeverliedNeverleftNeverlivedNeverlovedNeverlostNeverhurtNeverworry
about being me.
Or anyone else
Not a care
No concern.
Don't give a shit about anything.

I need to find...
A darkened corner.
A lightless corner.
Where it's safer and calmer.

I'm...
turning away.
Away from the name. (calling your names)
Away from the stones. (throw stcks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us.
I'm running away.
Away from the games. (fucking head games)
Away from this space. (hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold.
I'm flying...
I'm flying away.
Away from the names. (calling your names)
Away from the games. (fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold...

The Patient Mental (top)

Patient.
Just as I am.
As always...
Watch the time go by.
Nothing left to pass by,
the minutes follow me.
Drunken little people work away in me.

Why won't they leave me...
Leave me alone.
When I don't even want me...
Want me.

I have to...
Kill the words.
Before they...
Form a sentence.
The sentence that is me.
Judged by those that carry.
The patient sits in cradled arms,
that comfort me by strangling.

Why won't they leave me...
Leave me alone.
When I don't even want me...
Want me.

The Patient Mental sits and stares...
An idle mind,
that's empty.
screaming, staring back.
Why won't they leave him...
Leave him alone.
A passive, speared ritual,
driven by our warship.
The hate-driven envy.

I have to...
Kill the meal.
Before they...
Can consume.
Consume my inner peace...
Trapped inside the works,
the hands are moving me.

The Patient Mental sits and stares...
An idle mind,
that's empty.
screaming, staring back.
Why won't they leave him...
Leave him alone.
A passive, speared ritual,
driven by our warship.
The hate-driven envy.

Release me....
let me go.
Why do they observe me?
There's nothing here to cure.
I can see the silhouettes...
That sit behind the mirror.
I'm just like a clock up on the wall...
always moving,
but never going anywhere.

The Patient Mental sits and stares...
An idle mind,
that's empty.
screaming, staring back.
Why won't they leave him...
Leave him alone.
A passive, speared ritual,
driven by our warship.
The hate-driven envy.

Skrying (top)

This puzzle's dead inside...
Missing pieces,
growing eyes.
Little girl's severity...
Little boys begging mercy.
sticks break on me.
Cost of life at twenty-three...
Price of pain, a golden ring.
All crimson...
Melting body, rubber world.
Battle axe with lots of curls.
introverted.

My cost...
The price of a broken doll,
can you remember that place?
The place you would go,
to make things okay?

A thousand points for insect stings...
Glue my spirit, break my wings.
Misery.
Libido streams, infectious whore.
Cauterize, and forge the sword.
Remember killing.

Children...
Learning the secret knock.
A nickel to enter that place.
The place you would go,
to make things okay.
My cost...
The price of a broken doll,
can you remember that place?
The place you would go,
to make things okay?

Games of passion taste so sweet.
Cut his throat, and slaughter meat.
My secrets.
Seven heads for seven seas.
Darkened voices plead disease.
Dismembering me.

Children...
Wrestle to seal the bag.
Storing it deep in that place...
The place you would go and try to escape.
Children...
Learning the secret knock.
A nickel to enter that place.
The place you would go,
to make things okay.
My cost...
The price of a broken doll,
can you remember that place?
The place you would go,
to make things okay?

Skrying....
through.
Reflections in a pool.
I see...
death coming.
Mowing down.
Do you...
remember...
the bedroom?
Was it your cell...
or was it your tomb?
Skrying....
through.
Reflections in a pool.
I see...
death coming.
Mowing down.
Do you...
remember...
the bedroom?
Was it your cell...
or was it your tomb?

You're living through my hell.
You're living through my hell.

Children...
Learning the secret knock.
A nickel to enter that place.
The place you would go,
to make things okay.
My cost...
The price of a broken doll,
can you remember that place?
The place you would go,
to make things okay?

Solve Et Coagula (top)

Fire.
Fire.

I dissolve,
and solidify, destroy to recreate.
Disassemble...
to assemble something pure.
Our rubric.
Sol,
ve,
et,
co,
ag,
u,
la.
Kill to be born again.
Cycled a thousand times.

(Fire) Planetary alchemy.
(Fire) The time is here now.
(Fire) Four corners to rise...
(Fire) Rise!
(Fire) There's always loss within.
(Fire) The cleansing, it's time.
(Fire) Shooting arrows to the sky.
(Fire)

I construct,
a new institution.
Not out of bricks, iron, cement,
concrete or steel.
Our rubric.
Sol,
ve,
et,
co,
ag,
u,
la.
Distill to purify.
We've done it a thousand times.

(Fire) Planetary alchemy.
(Fire) The time is here now.
(Fire) Four corners to rise...
(Fire) Rise!
(Fire) There's always loss within.
(Fire) The cleansing, it's time.
(Fire) Shooting arrows to the sky.
(Fire)

(Burn) Bleed all the lives of life; ascend to the sky.
(Burn) All the martyrs.
(Burn) Bleed all the lives of life; ascend to the sky.

(Fire) Planetary alchemy.
(Fire) The time is here now.
(Fire) Four corners to rise...
(Fire) Rise!
(Fire) There's always loss within.
(Fire) The cleansing, it's time.
(Fire) Shooting arrows to the sky.
(Fire)

Shadow Of A Man (top)

Mirror, mirror, up on the wall...
I'm asking you.
"Who is the most confused of them all?"
Mirror, mirror, up on the wall...
Subservient twin screamsbackatme:
"You.
You sick flawless mime,
I want to break you."

Yeah, you're a clever one.

Do you reflect me?
Or do I reflect you?
Are you inside of another world?
I want to break through.

Yeah, you're a clever one.

Is this a tool? (is this a tool?)
Can I step through to find another plane? (to find another plane?)
Or just a shadow of a man?
A superficial tool (superficial tool)
to support the vanity of weak,
when you don't love yourself.

If life's as painful,
on your side...
I'll break your existence,
and cut through mine.

Yeah, you're a clever one.

Are you a tool? (are you a tool)
Can I step through to find another plane? (to find another plane?)
Or just a shadow of a man?
Are you my brother (are you my brother?)
You look like me...
Trapped inside another world; (trapped inside)
My lost twin.
A superficial tool (superficial tool)
to support the vanity of weak,
when you don't love yourself.

Mirror,
Up on the wall.
Am I,
the reflection of you?
Mirror,
Up on the wall.
Are you,
staring back?

Understanding..
Has no place within my world.
On your side.

Are you a tool? (are you a tool)
Can I step through to find another plane? (to find another plane?)
Or just a shadow of a man?
Are you my brother (are you my brother?)
You look like me...
Trapped inside another world; (trapped inside)
My lost twin.
Are you a tool?
Can I step through...
To find another plane,
I'm just a shadow of a man.
Just a superficial tool,
to support the vanity of weak,
when you don't love yourself.

The End Of All Things To Come(top)

All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Believe in yourself:
Let go of ego, strengthen within yourself.
All over with:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.

I'm killing,
every fucking thing
Until somebody gets this fucking point.
The point I'm trying to make.
I lead,
the mice on parade.
Down to the river of Kool-Aid;
And open up the flood gates.
I need a barrel of Cyanide; A pile of Strychnine
Until the whole damn world is dead.
Start
over again.

All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.

Stop talking...
Negotiating...
Your feeble attempts towards world peace.
(hah! gimme a fuckin' break!)
Need worldwide genocide;
Planetary suicide.
And when the whole damn world is dead:
There's your fucking peace.

All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Believe in yourself:
Let go of ego, strengthen within yourself.
All over with:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.

Oxygen Wasters...

Come on.

We've come to save you...
save you from yourselves.
Kill or be killed.
We've come to save you...
save you from yourselves.
Kill or be killed.

All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Believe in yourself:
Let go of ego, strengthen within yourself.
All over with:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.

A Key To Nothing (top)

(no more nothing)
No more doors. (no more nothing)
No more locks. (no more nothing)
No more windows. (no more nothing)
No more box. (no more nothing)

No more.
No less.
No more filthiness. (no more nothing)
No more six-foot digs.
No more hypocrites. (no more nothing)
No more emptiness.
No more consequence. (no more nothing)
No more puppet-strings. (no more nothing)
No more disease.
No more growing up. (no more nothing)
No more happiness. (no more nothing)
No more lying down. (no more nothing)
No more complacence.

I have...
I hold The Key...
to Nothing.
It's a small killing.
Murder...
murder's in the hands...
of motion....
as it seems to be.

(thanks for killing)
(thanks for killing)

No more nothing. (no more nothing)
No more anything.
No more you.
No more me.
No more posturing victories. (no more nothing)
No more nations to defeat.
No more speaking truth. (no more nothing)
No more deceit.
No more holding down. (no more nothing)
No more pushing me. (no more nothing)
No more 'New World Order'. (no more nothing)
No more anarchy.

I have...
I hold The Key...
to Nothing.
It's a small killing.
Murder...
murder's in the hands...
of motion....
as it seems to be.

I'm washing my hands
of the whole thing.
I'm washing my hands
of the whole thing.
I'm washing my hands
of the whole thing.

I want no more...
Nothing.
I want no more...
Nothing.
I want no more...
Nothing.
I want no more...
Nothing.

I have...
I hold The Key...
to Nothing.
It's a small killing.
Murder...
murder's in the hands...
of motion....
as it seems to be.

I'm washing my hands...
of everything.
Of everything we are.