SeoTaijiFan's Retreat - August: 2007

August 21, 2007

Some times there are no words to say about a person that means so much to you.

Some times those people have the ability to make us smile with just a few words or make our hearts swell with a smile or picture.

Some times these people are far from us, out of our reach and out of our grip but we still hold them close to us.

In the years that I have loved music, Asian, American whatever there has been few people that I've held steady to. Kaoru..Die..Hisui...hide...Yoshiki..1TYM..etc.

...But Reika is someone I LOVE. I love him so much and he means the utter world to me. His updates bring a smile to my face. (The same as Yoshiki's except I can understand Yoshiki's without a translator) His pictures make my day brighter.

When I am in despair, when I see no way out. When I want to throw in the towel and give up, when it seems my tears will never dry, he is there. A peace sign, a smiling face, a mickey mouse doll smoking a Marlboro cigarette..the found smile on my face, the strength to go on. He is it.

It may be crazy to some. Since I don't personally know him outside his blog, music and the internet research I constantly do but I am more than a mere "Doremidan Fan" or a mere "Reika Fangirl". This man has taken me through some tough times in my life, he has always been there and has never let me down.

I got the courage to write to him one day and spill my guts about how much he truly means to me and the next day in his blog he wrote about how a fan letter made him really happy and how he is really thankful and happy for his fans. I like to think, I was that fan.

He'll probably never know that he is my angel and I will probably never get to meet him but I believe that on November 29th one year about 27-28 years ago god put an angel here. Some years later that angel blessed my life forever.

He is tattooed on my arm, he is my reason to see good past the evils of life.

Call me a fan-girl if you wish, but I know different and those that know me, know different. They know I am not a scary drooling fangirl, they know I am sincere and genuine in my feelings. They have witnessed the utmost respect I have for this man. One day, I vow to meet him, shake his hand and thank him for being...well...him.