September/9/2005

Lets look up the word (First I have to know how to spell the word) :-) Here Dictionary, here dictionary.)"Observation" The fact of being NOTICED, The POWER of NOTICING, SOMETHING NOTICED. WOW! That is all I have done since we found out about Toms Cancer. Tom has NOTICED things too. I want to take a moment and think about something.... How come it took something like this to be "OBSERVENT" to Tom? Yea... I "NOTICED" things about Tom before all this......but it wasn't as deep. NOW... I wished I had..... Since Tom has been on the Steroids I have noticed his stomache has swollen a little bit.... Tom doesn't think so. Tom has noticed his shaking hands and sometimes it is really bad. I have noticed his swollen feet, Tom has noticed yesterday Sept/8/2005..... his hair is now falling out..... I have noticed I'm starting to cry now when something NEW has been NOTICED...... I have layed in my bed and cried and cried. I try not to cry in front of him, I cry when he is gone some where.

I hate this very much. I wished I had been VERY observant before he got sick..... this really hurts me because this is my loved one. Do you see where this is leading???? Be Observant NOW before someone gets sick.... Observe their laughter, the love they show, their actions, what their favorite foods, movies, songs or hobbies are. Soak it ALL in and keep it in a special place deep down inside..... and when it is time...... it will all come out.

Before all this... I have noticed how loving, handsome, funny, smart, smart-elic, prankster Tom is. I had him write down what his favorite things are, his likes and dis-likes. I will be posting ALOT about that.

I want to leave you with this. Be "OBSERVANT, NOTICE EVERYTHING about your loved one(s).... don't just notice anything about them..... but REALLY SOAK IT IN!