September/30/2005

Tom went to his Radiation today.... when he got back he went to lay down....Tom was very sick to his stomacke. Sometimes I don't know what to do when he gets sick.... I guess I'm gonna find out when we cross that bridge... I do know one thing God will be with me all the way. We have 6 more days untill the Radiation is over.... we will be out of just ONE of many vallies. Tom will get a break about 2 to 3 weeks then he will be on straight Chemo.... I'm very worried about that. I have done alot of reading and people have told me about that.

You know... I have watched movies about families going through something like this and I'll say to myself...."I'm glad that will NEVER happen to us". NEVER, NEVER SAY NEVER! It will come back and bite you in the butt.

listening to this novel on disc, disc 4 Holly has to go out and find a job....She sounds sooooo pathetic.... Like me. I sounded really pathetic yesterday.... I was begging for a job and was on the verge of crying. When I walked out I told myself.....HOW PATHETIC CAN I BE?! I had put an Application in at a Super 8 motel for house keeper.... haven't heard from them yet.

Today has been depressing for me... no job... worryng about Tom, my family, my bills. Huuuum I have an idea.... I'm gonna have a pitty party tomorrow.