September/20/2005

I knew this day would come when they would put Tom back on Chemo. Why is it hurting me? I'm supposed to be strong... I am when I'm around him.... but then I fall apart when he leaves the room or the house. I try my very best to keep friction down between us, I try very hard to make sure I have stuff done right....

YOU KNOW WHAT?! THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY! I shouldn't have to "TRY" to do anything to make people "HAPPY".... I'm supposed to make people happy..... FREELY.... NOT HAVE TO "TRY" to do it! I shouldn't have to "TRY" to keep friction out of our house.... should already be out....(OOOO NEED OUT OF THIS DREAM)

If I could.... I would

If I could give you the moon.... I would.

If I could give you all the stars in the heavens......I would.

If I could build you the biggest sand castle and hope that it

wouldn't get washed out to sea..... I would.

If I could make all your dreams come true..... I would.

I could wish upon a falling star and knew for sure that it

would come true, my wish would be...."I wished Tom never

had cancer, and to let him grow old with me.

�Linda Harris September/20/2005