October/3/2005

OOOOOKAY.... there must have been a WHOLE lot of prayers going out for Tom today..... HE LOOKS SOOOOO MUCH BETTER AND FEELS A WHOLE LOT BETTER this evening. Praise the Lord! I was really worried about him this morning. After he ate breakfast.... he just went down hill from there, he was feeling and looking really bad. He couldn't hardly walk, his head was hurting him really bad and also last night too. I just couldn't keep myself together today and last night. Tom weighted in at 242 today from 237..... I know he might loose some of that wieght when he starts his Chemo.

Tom went for his Radiation and we have 4 more days till it is over.... YEEA! After he got home.... he rested a little then had to leave again for an MRI. We won't know untill tomorrow what is on it. His body just hurt all over he said. Last night he said that his head had felt really weird and that is the second time he has told me that.... he can't explain it to me.... just weird he said. Tom said that he slept good last night, I don't see how, I slept really light last night, he was up to me it seemed like alot.... he doesn't sleep alot.

You know.... I don't want to look into the future.... but sometimes you can't help it. I guess I'm preparing myself....after last night and this morning..... I guess this is what is called the "Calm before the Storm". Oh man.... I'm not looking forward to that... who is? I talked to my mother this morning and told her..... "Mom.... how come this has to happen to me, to us.... how come it couldn't it have happened to someone else?" You know what? It DOES HAPPEN TO SOMEONE ELSE! There is alot of them out there. I'm still questioning it tho.... I guess everyone does? And when do you stop questioning it...... after it is ALL over with?

Thanks to EVERYONE out there that said a prayer for Tom today. Thanks :-)