October/29th/2005

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. �Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You�d walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don�t understand why when I needed You most You would leave me.� The Lord replied, �My son, My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.�

I was talking to my mother yesterday and she said that my grandpas wife Jeannie, a very nice lady fell yesterday or the other day and it took 3 people to help her up, my grandpa just cried. You know when my husband Tom is not feeling too well and I see that, or I have noticed something about the change in his body I will go off and cry. My grandpa said.... "It is time to stop complaing to God and time to start praising God." You know.... he is right.

My Heavenly father, please forgive me for complaining so much and for questioning your actions and for screaming at you. God this is all new to me and I'm really scared, I am so dearly sorry, I'm sorry for everything.

God.... my grandpas right.... I need to stop complaining and give you the praise for letting Tom, the kids and I to have this time with him while we can. I have been acting like a fool. Yesterday I was in a depression, all I did was cry. God I love you, and I THANK YOU for your unconditional love that you share with many, many people who in their lives think that they don't deserve it.... sometimes I fall into that group of people.

Oh.... father..... THANK YOU so much for all the memories that I'm able to make and have of our time to share with our children. I don't want their memories about their dad to be bad....I want their memories to shine and be happy and when they think back about the past that they will have a smile on their face.

My Heavenly father...... I THANK YOU for your forgiveness of everything that I have done and have been acting so foolishly. THANK YOU for bringing my spirits up, THANK YOU for our children Kacie and Thomas, THANK YOU for my friends and family who are there to help me and lend me a shoulder to cry on, THANK YOU for Tom, my best friend, my love. THANK YOU for his kind spirit, THANK YOU for his love, THANK YOU for 13 wonderful years and many more to come.

THANK YOU, for carrying me when I only saw one set of footprints....I then knew you was carrying me through this, THANK YOU for carrying Tom through this, THANK YOU for giving him the strenghth he needs to go on day by day.

GOD I THANK YOU.... FOR EVERYTHING, YOU ARE A WONDERFUL GOD AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT YOU CAN NOT DO.

Thank you for everything and everyone that is in my life.

Amen.