October/16/2005

Well....I am 10 days late now on the Journal. I'm really sorry about that. I found out last week that a lady in my Sunday school class has Breast Cancer, another lady in my class is waiting on a test to see if she has Cervical Cancer. OOOOKAY! WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?

Today Tom and I went to the country... Tom and his uncles watched the football game.... I was bored. I went down to the pond, it was nice to sit there and let the wind blow my tears off my face. Yea I cried today, I cried yesterday and the day before that and the day before that.... I could go on... but you all already know the story. After we left the country... Tom had a very hard time walking. I don't know how he made it from the bathroom to the bedroom... he said "Linda....I can't walk." His legs hurt him soooo bad. We have about another week before he starts his Chemo. Not looking forward to that. I'm trying to find a job. I really don't want too because I want to stay here with Tom but I have to. I have ALWAYS had a job.... I'm not a lazy person... but this time is different... to be perfecly honest..... I'm scared to leave him, Thomas and Kacie alone....

The docs. are gonna try to do something called Pin point.... this is a one time thing....they are gonna target each Tumor..... there is a down side, Tom could have brain damage if they do this. Tom said he could live with a little brain damage. We are hoping that the Chemo will jump start the shrinkage of the tumors FIRST.

I found out yesterday that a friend of mine had Cervical Cancer a yr. ago.... the docs. got all of it.... YEA! well I'm outy. I'll write more later.